March 29, 2014

This entry is part 2 of 24 in the A Few Words Too Many

Under your breath I hear your soft voice break 
Can we still be friends 
I hear you talking but you’re just not making sense 
I’ve been hoping for a happy ending 
Now I know that there won’t be any 
– A Few Words Too Many (Billie Myers)

Sunday, April 13, 2003

Kelly’s: Courtyard

Emily Bowen-Quartermaine sipped her iced tea and perused her anatomy textbook, waiting out Elizabeth’s shift. Her friend had been avoiding her all week—avoiding everyone really, as far as she could tell—and today was the day Emily pinned her down about it.

She turned a page and reflected at how different their friendship seemed to be now that Emily was home. They’d called, emailed and written each other while Emily had been in rehab in Arizona, and then at UCLA last year, but Emily had abruptly cut off all contact for almost three months last year after Elizabeth had admitted to sleeping with Zander Smith.

Emily wrinkled her nose, thinking about it again. Nothing bothered her more than thinking of the two of them together, and the only way she could look Elizabeth in the eye was if she put that completely out of her head.

Finally, Elizabeth emerged from the diner, a large tote bag over her shoulder. She tucked in green apron inside and took the seat across from Emily. Smiling wanly, she set the bag on the ground. “Hey.”

“Hey.” Emily took a deep breath. She was still best friends with Elizabeth. If she just ignored how angry she was about Zander, then she could get through this. If she pretended everything was good between them, then eventually it would be. She marked her page and closed the book, leaning back in her chair. “You look like crap.”

“Thanks.” Elizabeth rubbed her eyes. “I haven’t really been sleeping.”

Emily smiled brightly. “Is Ric keeping you awake?” she teased, but was surprised when any color the other woman had possessed faded from her cheeks. “Liz?”

“I’m…” Elizabeth hesitated, twisting the napkin in front of her. “I’m not seeing him anymore.”

“Oh.” Emily frowned. “He seemed really nice, you know. And I thought you liked him.”

“Yeah…” Elizabeth sighed. “Well, I think maybe it was just too soon for me to get involved with someone seriously.” She bit down on her lower lip. “Em…I’m pregnant.”

Emily blinked. “But you just said you broke up with Ric.” She furrowed her brow. “I don’t understand, Elizabeth. I mean, maybe he’s not perfect, but he was really nice to you. And you need to move on. You know you do. You’re pregnant.” She nodded firmly. “You should give him another chance. Don’t…don’t give up too quickly.”

“I know I need to move on,” Elizabeth murmured. “It’s just not as easy as you might think.” She exhaled slowly, and Emily resisted the urge to roll her eyes. “There are reasons I can’t…I can’t be with Ric.”

“Liz.” Emily hesitated, but decided the blunt truth was for the best. “Look, I totally know what it’s like to love someone who doesn’t love you back. It really sucks, but you can’t sit around pining for Jason. My brother, even if he really was that interested, is dating Courtney now.”

Elizabeth stared at her for a moment, as if confused by her words. “If he really was that interested…?” she repeated faintly.

Nope, Emily was not going to feed into this. She’d become friendly with Courtney Matthews since coming home, and it was clear that Jason had been interested in the blonde all last fall, long before Elizabeth had moved out of the penthouse. “Liz, I know you were staying at the penthouse, but that was to protect Zander. It’s not like you were living together.”

“I…” Elizabeth twisted her fingers together. “We talked about it…”

“You know Jason’s a man of action. If he wanted to be with you, he would,” Emily assured her. “Look at everything he did for Courtney.” Guilt settled in her stomach as Elizabeth’s cheeks flushed. “I’m not trying to hurt you, but I just…I want you to live in reality.”

“I know…I know you’re right about one thing,” Elizabeth said after a long moment. “If Jason wanted to be with me, he would.” She looked away. “I ruined it, and maybe he was trying to be nice when he told me it was too dangerous.” Her lips twisted. “It’s not too dangerous for Courtney, clearly.”

“The sooner you face the truth, the better off you’ll be.” Emily nodded firmly. “So if you’re pregnant, you should tell Ric and give him the opportunity to be the man you deserve.” Pleased, she stowed her text in her bag. “I’m glad we could talk about this honestly. You know I only want you to be happy.”

“I know.” But Elizabeth wouldn’t meet her eyes. Emily thought they might need to have this conversation once or twice more before Elizabeth really understood that her brother was out of her life for good. Emily was aware just how Elizabeth ruined her chance with Jason. After screwing with him two years earlier, she’d jerked him around again last summer, and probably slept with Zander to make him jealous.

Jason was better off, and one day, Elizabeth would find someone who would remind her how nice she used to be. Emily missed the girl who’d been dating Lucky. That Elizabeth had been her best friend, and Emily wanted her back.

Elm Street Pier

Elizabeth stopped at the bottom of the steps and took a moment to sit on the bench, closing her eyes and trying to force the conversation with Emily out of her head. She knew that her friendship with Jason’s sister would suffer a little considering what had happened last summer, but somehow she thought they would be able to get it back, rebuild it.

Emily had come home without warning the month before, and though they’d tried to be close again, it had felt hollow. Elizabeth had gone to a few dinners with Emily, Lucky and Nikolas, and it just felt like the four of them felt they should be friends like they had been four years ago and if they spent enough time together, it would feel natural again.

Despite Emily’s coolness, Elizabeth knew that she couldn’t blame Emily for trying to push her back to Ric. Emily didn’t know all the information. And even if the words had hurt…she needed to be reminded that the relationship she thought she’d been building with Jason really had been in her head.

“I knew I’d finally track you down.”

Elizabeth’s eyes snapped open as she saw Ric stepping off the bottom stair, with a grin on his face. Oh, she was going to be sick right here in front of him, she just knew it.

Ric continued towards her and Elizabeth fought the urge to get up and run. “You haven’t returned my phone calls all week.” He stopped in front of the bench and slid his hands in the pockets of his light tan khakis. “What’s going on, Beautiful?”

Elizabeth squared her shoulders and stood. Time to channel her inner Lizzie Webber. That annoying smart-ass was still inside, somewhere. She was sure of it. “Can’t take a hint, Ric?” she asked coolly.

She watched his narrow, and wonder how stupid she’d been to miss the calculation in those brown eyes. “A hint?” he repeated, his tone matching hers.

Elizabeth tightened her grip on her tote bag slung over her shoulder. “Usually,” she bit out, “when someone stops returning calls and texts, they’re trying to brush you off.”

She took a step towards the other side of the docks, towards her studio, but he stepped in front of her. “Whoa, what changed, Elizabeth?” He put his hands up, preventing her from darting to the side. “I thought we were having a good time—”

“Well, you thought wrong.” Elizabeth tossed head back, her hair swinging over her shoulder. “So I’m going to leave now, Ric, and you’re going to let me.”

He took a step towards her, and Elizabeth felt it necessary to step back, feeling her ire fade and her nerves kick in. This was the man who was in league with Faith Roscoe. Maybe she should have handled this differently. “Listen, Ric—”

“You’ve been talking to Sonny or Jason.” She tried to keep her expression level, her eyes unchanged, but there must have been something, because his lips pressed together. “Jason. He told you something. Now, you know you can’t trust him—”

“It has nothing to do with Sonny or Jason. They’ve told me nothing,” Elizabeth cut in. Maybe they would have warned her again, had Jason not seen her two days earlier, almost in a fetal position, after hearing the truth. “I can make my own decisions—”

“No, no…” Ric wagged a finger at her. “They’ve poisoned you against me, Elizabeth. I can’t believe you’d trust them after everything Jason has done.” He stepped towards her, voice softening. “I know he broke your heart, Elizabeth, but I care about you—”

“I would like you to leave me alone,” Elizabeth said. She tried to step around him again, but again Ric stepped in front her. Oh, God. What was she going to do if he didn’t move? Could she run? If she turned and ran the way she came, back up the stairs…could she get away? “Ric, please let me walk away.”

“No, I want to know what they said to make you run away from me,” Ric snarled, all charm vanished from his voice. His face changed, and Elizabeth knew she was seeing the Ric Lansing now, all layers of charm stripped away. “What did they tell you, Elizabeth?” He reached for her arm, and Elizabeth stumbled back.

“Nothing,” Elizabeth repeated, struggling to keep her voice level. “Ric, I’m telling you the truth. I haven’t talked to Sonny or Jason in weeks.”

“Right,” Ric drawled. “Well, that’s certainly possible since we both know they’ve basically forgotten your existence.”

Nausea was climbing up her throat, and Elizabeth thought this was a hell of a time to be suffering that morning sickness that never seemed to happen in the morning. He could not, absolutely could not, see her getting sick.

Ric could never find out about this baby. This conversation had sealed the deal on that.

“It’s true we’re not close anymore,” Elizabeth said, slowly, “but I’m sure if I needed them, I could ask for help.” When Ric just smirked, Elizabeth took a small step back. Get close to the steps. Maybe she could kick him and then run. “But I don’t need them, because they’ve said nothing to me, okay? I just…” She licked her lips. “I just don’t want to date you anymore. Why isn’t that enough?”

“Because you’re lying to me. Sonny told you something, I know he did.” Ric reached out for her, and Elizabeth stumbled back again. She was lifting her leg to kick him in the knees, just like Jason taught her once, when boots clattered down the steps like a freight train.

Before Elizabeth could really process what was happening, Jason had passed her, grabbed Ric by the throat and sent him sprawling on the docks. She just blinked.

“You just don’t know when to quit, do you?” Jason snarled. He reached for Ric again, to do what, Elizabeth couldn’t imagine, but Ric crawled away frantically. “Sonny told you to get the hell out of town.”

“I knew it,” Ric hissed, glaring at her, rising to his feet. “I knew Jason told you everything—”

“Told me what?” Elizabeth said, feeling some of Lizzie filter back in. “That I’m amusing and it’s entertaining to screw Jason Morgan’s ex-bed buddy? To pretend to sleep with Carly because sleeping with me wasn’t giving you enough leverage?” She raised an eyebrow. “Is that what you think they told me?”

Ric stared at her, and Elizabeth was stunned at the loathing that crept into his expression. He took a step forward, but a growl from Jason stopped him. “You would believe them—”

“They didn’t have to tell me.” Elizabeth folded her arms across her chest. “No one bothered to check to see if Kelly’s was empty. I was closing when you decided to tell your half-brother all the details.”

“Elizabeth,” Jason said quietly, looking at her. “Francis is at the top of the stairs. He’ll walk you back to the studio.”

“Oh, so she can leave me here and you can deal with me?” Ric growled. “Don’t bother.” He sent Elizabeth another glare, and disappeared into the shadows.

Elizabeth released a breath, and lowered herself to sit on the bottom step of the stairs, wishing she could just disappear. “Well, go ahead and yell at me.”

She felt Jason sit next to her. “Why would I yell?”

She opened her eyes, but didn’t dare look at him. “At least an I told you so would probably suffice. I wouldn’t be in this position if I had just…” She sighed, remembering her conversation with Emily. “If I had just kept my head on straight.” Elizabeth stood and bit her lip. “Thank you for getting rid of him.”

“He might come back and harass you,” Jason warned. “He’s in trouble with…” He looked away. “He’s in trouble with people who aren’t in Sonny’s position, so it might not be a problem for too much longer.”

“Hmm…” Elizabeth nodded, understanding. Well, then maybe Ric would be out of her life before he could find out she was pregnant. “Well, let’s hope that’s true.” Her stomach rolled in protest and she wondered if she was going make it to her studio. She could not get sick in front Jason. “I’m going to get going. I, ah…” She smiled weakly. “I’m not feeling that great, so…”

“I’ll walk you back to your studio,” Jason said, taking a step towards her but Elizabeth shook her head. Because that would be a disaster.

“No, no. Um.” She licked her lips. “That’s really not necessary, okay? I don’t think…” She cast her eyes up the top of the stairs. “Maybe Francis can walk me. It’s not far.” She frowned and then looked back at him. “How did you know I was down here?”

When Jason looked away, Elizabeth felt a little of her ire at him fade. Despite everything, maybe he still thought of her as a friend. “Francis called you because he’s watching me.”

“Ah…” Jason dipped his chin to his chest. “Yeah. After Friday…I figured you’d be breaking things off with Ric, so I just…” He jerked a shoulder. “Sonny thought it was the least we could do.” He paused. “Since it’s really our fault Ric targeted you.”

Immediately, the warmth in her stomach faded. Pity. Guilt. No, that fit her life much more. “No, it’s my fault,” Elizabeth said, firmly. She was not going to let them take this on. “Maybe he sought me out because we used to be friends, but I didn’t have to date him.” She sighed. “And maybe his research should have been better. I’m sure he’s pissed he wasted all those months asking me questions.”

Jason frowned. “He asked you questions? About us?” He paused. “About me and Sonny, I mean.”

“Yeah, which should have been my first sign.” Elizabeth rubbed her forehead, forcing the bile down. “But you know, I thought the threat would come with explosives or guns, not questions from someone who said I was beautiful.” Shut up, Elizabeth. Shut up. “Anyway, you don’t have to worry. I don’t know anything, and even if I did, I wouldn’t say anything.” She straightened her shoulders. “I don’t want you feeling guilty. I got myself into this situation, and I don’t need you get me out of it.” She hesitated. “I may need you to throw Ric around again, but other than that…I can take care of myself.”

“Okay.” Jason nodded slowly. “Well, if you don’t want me to walk you home, then…I’ll get Francis.” After another moment, he walked passed her and started up the stairs.

The last thing she needed was more time in Jason’s company. She would rather jump in the harbor. She just needed Ric to get out of town, and then figure out the best way to support herself and a baby.

And figure out what to tell people about the father. No one could ever know about Ric. She had to protect her child.

In Progress & Stories Coming Up

001. Shadows was completed on March 18, 2014, so yay 😛 That’s one story down.

002. Daughters is almost finished being revised. I know I said I would start reposting it last week, but a few things got in the way of editing, so it’ll return next week when I come home from Oxford.

003. A Few Words Too Many is in progress. There are twenty-four total chapters planned, twelve of which are already completed. Chapter One has been posted, and I plan on posting twice a week until it’s completed. (Next post to come Tuesday if I find time on vacation).

004. These Small Hours is in progress. I have edited the first five or six chapters, and compressed them into three chapters (with no loss of content). I replotted the story, because I realized I had originally intended for Sonny to die, but when I didn’t kill him, I had to write in the fallout, which shifts the story from purely Johnny/Nadine, to equally Jason/Elizabeth, and some small smidgens of Sonny/Kate.  There are eighteen total chapters, of which four are finished. It has been storyboarded, so it shouldn’t be too hard to deal with.

005. Tangle has been completely replotted, and all scenes are storyboarded. There are twenty-five total chapters planned, including three chapters to cover the distance from 2010 to 2024, where the story takes place. (And the first chapter serves as a bridge between 2008-10, because the saga picks up with Michael’s shooting.) There is a vague sense that I will also do some prequels that bridge the smaller stories (Lucky/Sam, Johnny/Nadine, Patrick/Robin, Leyla/Pete) at some point but it’s not on my list of priorities.

Stories Coming Soon

Though the poll still has to run its course, it looks like the top three choices are The Best Thing, Mad World and Slide in that order. That may change, but the order in which the top three fall in the poll will be the order I write them.

006. The Best Thing is partially plotted through big events. I have to sit down and finish out my larger plan for the story before digging into the smaller bits. I don’t plan on doing this until the poll is completed, and I have finished FWTM, Hours, and Daughters.

007. Mad World is completely replotted, it just needs to be storyboarded which won’t be done until the poll is closed, and I finish the three stories I listed above.

008. Slide is only partially plotted. I have pieces of it that remain from my earlier intentions, but I changed the year it was set, and some of the storylines have to change along with that.

Stories Coming One Day

009. Counting Stars has been plotted. There are few last bits to work on before I storyboard the scenes. I may end up just writing it in my free time as it’s not going to be very long.

010.  Life For Rent  has been plotted, and partially storyboarded. I may work on it every once in a while, but we’ll see. It will be finished, if only to rewrite the second half of 2006 so I like it as much as what happened on the show in the first half of the year.

011. Fallen From Grace  has been plotted, some key scenes have been written. It needs to be storyboarded.

012. Collision  is partially plotted. It needs a lot of work before it would be ready for storyboarding, which means it is still far off in the distance.

013. Damaged is being replanned, since I know how AJ is being written out. I had originally planned for it to be an AJ redemption story, but it just…hurts too much. It’s back on the maybe I might trash it list.

014. Heaven Forbid is plotted out in big details, smaller details are being worked out. After that, it just needs to be storyboarded.

015. No Angel is halfway done. I write it in spurts of anger, and it could be done any time.

This entry is part 10 of 16 in the Yesterdays

The trip to the penthouse was quick–she sat in the car while he grabbed his bags. She hadn’t been to the penthouse since they’d moved out and for some reason, she felt uncomfortable in there.

It was odd, she thought, to be so uncomfortable around him. It was a new feeling. From the moment they’d met, she’d felt like they were supposed to be together. They’d just fit together from the start and now…they were trying to make each other fit again and it worried her that the reason it was so uncomfortable was because they were trying to fit each other into the places they’d once held in each other’s lives.

She’d told him she wasn’t the girl from Spain and it was a struggle sometimes to remember that he wasn’t the man from the time just before their marriage ended. It was going to be difficult to discover who they were now and it occurred to her that maybe…maybe the people they were now weren’t meant to be together.

She heard the trunk shut behind her and a few moments later, he got into the car and smiled at her. The little tender, half-smile that had made her decide nine years ago that she wasn’t going to spend her life without him.

Maybe this wasn’t going to work but if it didn’t, it wasn’t going to be because she hadn’t tried hard enough.


It was nearly noon when they stopped off the elevator on Olivia’s floor. Elizabeth fought the urge to peek in on her daughter but instead, she followed Jason and went to Dr. Jones’s office.

“I’m sorry I had to postpone,” the doctor began with an apologetic smile. “I have her test results.”

Jason took a deep breath. “And?”

“The drug worked nicely–just as we hoped. It brought her out of the coma and it went a long way to helping her body cope with the different medication.”

“But?” Elizabeth prompted.

“But Olivia’s heart did stop briefly and her brain was cut off from necessary oxygen,” Dr. Jones told them.

Elizabeth gripped Jason’s hand so tightly he could feel the bones squeezing together. “What does mean exactly?” she asked.

“Her cognitive reflexes are still good as could be told from her immediate recognition of her mother upon waking,” Dr. Jones began. “Her memory is intact and for the most part, you won’t notice a difference.”

“But there is a difference,” Jason finished with a sad sigh.

“Yeah. She’s going to have some mobility problems,” Dr. Jones began. “She’ll need therapy–more extensive than we hoped. And even then, we can’t guarantee anything. Also, she can’t grip with her hands very well. This has nothing to do with her muscles exactly but with the way her brain sends the message to those muscles. That can be improved–also with therapy.”

“Improved but not cured,” Elizabeth sighed.

“There’s no cure for most kinds of brain damage. Mrs. Morgan, your daughter has been extremely lucky. She survived an accident she shouldn’t have and came out of a coma that she shouldn’t have. She’s a very strong little girl and we have very high hopes for her.”

“Is there anything else we should know?” Jason asked.

“At an age when she should be very active and outgoing, Olivia is going to be forced to sit inside and have therapy instead of playing with her friends. She’s going to know that she’s different from them and she’ll need patience because she’ll probably be very demanding and cranky a lot. She’s young and she might not understand why she can’t do all the things she could just a week ago.” He took a deep breath. “Now, I understand if you both have time-consuming jobs–”

“I can take a leave of absence,” Jason said immediately. “I work for my father and he’ll understand.”

“I don’t work,” Elizabeth said faintly. “Just…charity and different organizations in town.”

“Well, that’s good.” Dr. Jones hesitated. “Now I understand that you’re divorced but I wouldn’t rule out the option of seeing a family therapist. The adjustment is going to be hard on everyone, more so on parents who are no longer together.”

“Thank you,” Elizabeth told him. “When do you expect to start this therapy?”

“Immediately,” Dr. Jones told her. “We still want her to go home in three weeks. For such a small child, it’s not good for her to spend so much time in a hospital, so we’re going to be working as hard as we can to keep that date in sight.”

“We understand.” Jason stood. “I should go make the arrangements with my job. Elizabeth, you can approve any schedule or program right?”

“Sure,” Elizabeth said, a little surprised by his eagerness to leave. Didn’t he have questions? She had a million herself. Forcing herself to smile at him briefly. “Go make the…arrangements.”

“I’ll meet you in Liv’s room when I’m done.” He hesitated, thought about kissing her on the forehead like he might have in a previous time but he didn’t and just left instead.

“Now about this gripping thing,” Elizabeth began turning back to the doctor. “Does this apply to anything else?”


Jason followed the signs for the hospital roof and once he was up there, he dialed a familiar number. “Keesha?”

Keesha Ward held a finger up to her companions at the table in the posh restaurant she was sitting in and turned away. “Jason? Hey. I heard about Elise–“

“Keesha, I’m in Port Charles now,” Jason told his longtime friend. He sighed and stared out of over the towering view the roof offered him. “With Elizabeth and Olivia.”

Keesha hesitated. “Jason. Just because you divorced Elise, it doesn’t mean you can automatically go back to your old life–“

“That’s not what this is about,” Jason remarked. “I should have called you a few days ago. Olivia was in a car accident and…there’s just been so much going on–”

“Jesus, Jason, hold on a second.” Keesha quickly threw some money down and left the restaurant. He heard the sounds of cars and the streets. “I’m in New York now. I can rent a car and be in Port Charles in two and a half hours.”

“You don’t have to come all the way here, I just wanted–”

“Jason, how long have we known each other?” Keesha demanded.

He felt himself cracking a small smile. “About thirty years.”

“Yeah. And how many times have I seen you naked?”

“Keesha–”

“You are my best friend, Jason Morgan. After everything you’ve done for me, it’s about time I get to do something for you,” Keesha said. She hailed a cab. “You fought with your parents when they didn’t want you to play with the nanny’s granddaughter. And you helped me get into Princeton. And that’s just the big things. So you know what? Just shut up and give me your address in Port Charles.”

He reeled off Elizabeth’s address. “Keesha, I really appreciate this–”

“It’s about time I get to meet this Elizabeth that broke your heart in the first place. I’ll call you if I get lost.”

“You will.”

“Yeah, I always do. I couldn’t find my way out a paper bag with out step by step directions. Talk to you later.” Her end went silent and he knew she had hung up. He closed the phone and slid it inside the front pocket of his pants.

Keesha Ward had been his nanny’s only grandchild and since Mary Mae Ward had lived in the Morgan home, Keesha had as well. They’d grown up together and been best friends most of the time–despite his parents’ dislike of the idea.

After he’d gone to Yale and she’d gone to Princeton, they’d lost touch for a little while until she’d seen the announcement of his marriage to Elizabeth. She’d called him up and reamed him for not inviting her. And after that, he called her once a week and she likewise. Because of her busy schedule with college and law school and his job and traveling, he’d been unable to introduce her to Elizabeth but Keesha had met Elise a few times and couldn’t really understand his attraction to the shallow woman. Keesha adored Olivia though and it didn’t surprise him that she was driving up to Port Charles after just hearing about the accident.

When he’d told Elizabeth that she’d been the only person he’d ever really trusted and depended on, he meant that. Because Keesha was more than that to him. She was the only real family he’d ever known and he was actually glad she’d be in Port Charles. She’d let him know if he was doing the right thing by giving his relationship with Elizabeth another shot.

He pulled the phone back out a moment later and called his father in Hamptons. Chad Morgan was not a family man by any means but he knew his son worshipped Olivia and despite their differences, he knew that if he didn’t give Jason his leave, his son would quit.

“Call me when you know more about her condition,” Chad told him before they hung up. Jason agreed but they both knew it was just a formality.

He hung the phone up for the second time and sighed. He was so far apart from his parents. He wished he’d realized how much he’d wanted something different before. Maybe he would have understood more where Elizabeth was coming from back then. She’d wanted to give Olivia the family they hadn’t had and he didn’t understand why she’d hated it so much. He was okay–she was okay. They’d done okay for themselves.

But every time that Olivia smiled at him or called him Daddy or showed him something new she’d learned, he couldn’t believe he’d ever wanted to leave her alone with some nanny. He couldn’t believe his arrogance in wanting Elizabeth to do it either. He was ashamed of that fact now and man, he’d do anything to take it back.


Olivia was sleeping peacefully when Jason entered and Elizabeth was sitting in a chair, staring at her with a smile on her face.

“Hey, how’d it go with the schedule?” Jason asked taking the seat next to his ex wife.

Elizabeth shrugged. “It was basically the schedule we approved before only bumped up to three hours instead of two.” She frowned at him. “Why did you leave so quickly? I had so many questions…”

“I wanted to get a hold of my father before he left for the city,” Jason told her. “It’s Sunday, he and my mother are in the Hamptons.”

“Oh.” Elizabeth shook her head and sighed. “It’s been such a long week…the days have blurred together.”

“I called Keesha Ward too,” Jason told her. Elizabeth frowned for a moment but recognition flickered in her eyes.

“Oh. The girl you grew up with?” Elizabeth nodded. “Olivia likes her. She wants to be a lawyer just like her.”

“Yeah, well Keesha’s driving up,” Jason told her. “She didn’t want to pass on the opportunity to meet you, I guess. She’s wanted to ever since she saw that announcement.”

Elizabeth smiled briefly. “Well, since you once told me she was the only person you really considered family, I really want to meet her.” She hesitated. “What did your father say when you told him about Olivia?”

“Just to keep him updated.” Jason shrugged. “He’s not big on family–you know that of course but even Olivia managed to charm him on the few occasions they’ve met.”

“Olivia could charm anyone,” Elizabeth replied, casting a smile at their daughter.

“Elizabeth, I just–”

“Jason–”

They broke off and he gestured towards her. “You first.”

“I think I know why this is so awkward,” Elizabeth told him. “I think…it’s not that we’re trying so hard not to fight that we’re uncomfortable but it’s just…we haven’t spent any real time together since…almost before Olivia was born. Since then, it’s just been juggling our lives around her and I…don’t think we quite know how to act around each other now that things are so drastically different.”

“Yeah.” Jason nodded. “We went from a pretty good marriage to an almost bitter divorce to four years of not speaking. Even if we weren’t attempting reconciliation, this would be a difficult situation.”

“I don’t…” Elizabeth bit her lip and flushed a little. “I don’t know if it’s a good idea for you to stay at the house after all. I mean…right now. When it’s just the two of us. When Olivia comes home–”

“I agree.” He reached out and took her hand. “I’ll stay at the penthouse after all. I love you, Elizabeth. I want this to work out.”

She smiled. “Thanks for understanding, I just…I feel like if we try too hard and rush this…it won’t work. We need…” Elizabeth hesitated, trying to put it into words. “I feel like we need to start over almost, you know?”

“We can’t start over–not really,” Jason replied. “We’re in love–we have a daughter. It’s naïve to think that we can start over.”

“But we can’t just jump back into a life together,” Elizabeth reminded him. “It’s naïve to think that we haven’t changed that drastically. I told you yesterday–I’m not that girl from Spain anymore.”

“I know,” Jason argued. “But I’m not that nervous guy proposing either. Yes, we’ve changed. But who we used to be is still part of who we are now.”

“I just–” She stopped. “You don’t understand what I’m trying to say.”

“You’re not making any sense. We can’t start over–because that would be saying that we failed at everything–”

She rolled her eyes. “For Christ’s sake Jason, we did fail. We got divorced. That’s what it means to get divorced. It means you failed.”

He narrowed his eyes. “Do I have to remind you again that I didn’t want a divorce?”

“You don’t get to use that anymore,” Elizabeth snapped. She stood up and walked across to the window. “We both made mistakes.”

“Once of went to Paris and the other became a drug addict. That’s some mistake.”

As soon as the words were out of his mouth, he wanted to take them back. Her head snapped around and her eyes filled with tears even as the anger in them made him take a step back. “Elizabeth, I–”

“You know what?” she asked softly. “You’re right. It is naive to think that we can start over. It’s naïve to think that we can do this again at all.” She brushed some of tears from her cheeks and kissed Olivia’s forehead. “I’ll be back in an hour or so.”

“Wait,” he protested. He caught her arm and pulled her back. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it–”

“No, you definitely meant it,” Elizabeth remarked coolly. She yanked her arm away from him. “You don’t tend to say things you don’t mean. Not even when you’re angry. Yes, I took sleeping pills. Yes, I took them more often than I should have. And I know it was wrong but you are not going to make me ashamed of how I got through that time. You had no idea what I was going through–”

“Because you refused to talk to me,” Jason challenged. “How could I know if you wouldn’t tell me?”

“You’d think you would have gotten a clue when I fell asleep during sex,” she spat out.

He stepped away from her and looked at the floor. “I don’t think we should be in the same room right now. We’re going to keep doing this and I don’t want to hurt you.”

“Fine.” She grabbed her purse and stalked out of the room.

This entry is part 9 of 16 in the Yesterdays

The door clicked open so softly that it didn’t wake her. Dr. Jones stood there with a nurse at his side.

It’d been six hours since Elizabeth had fallen asleep and she hadn’t woken up yet–Jason surmised that this past week had caught up to her.

Dr. Jones cleared his throat. “The medicine is here. We just need you to sign papers giving us clearance to administer it.”

Jason pinched the bridge of his nose. The medicine was a shot that was supposed to counteract the damage done to Olivia’s system. It was mostly experimental but it was one of the few options the doctor had been able to offer them. But if it didn’t work, he was afraid of what it would do to Elizabeth.

“How soon will we know?” He asked, careful to keep his voice from jarring Elizabeth from sleep.

“Ten minutes,” Dr. Jones replied. “At the most.”

“Give me a minute or two alone to wake my wife and let her know that?” he asked.

Dr. Jones nodded and motioned to the nurse to follow him back into the hallway

Jason stroked the back of his hand down her face. “Baby…wake up…”

She stirred, her eyes opening briefly before closing again and snuggling more into his embrace. He smiled a little but tried again. “The medicine is here.”

That got her attention and Elizabeth sat up a little, lowering her legs to the floor. She flushed at finding herself in his lap. “Jason, I–”

“I asked the doctor to give a minute alone,” he told him, keeping his arms around her waist so she couldn’t stand. “I wanted to know how soon we would know after it’s administered.”

She searched his eyes. “What did he say?”

“Ten minutes. At the most.”

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. “And if this doesn’t work, we’re pretty much just crossing our fingers from this point on?”

“Yeah. I think so.”

She opened her eyes. “Okay. Then let’s do it.” She moved to stand up again but he didn’t let go. “Jason–”

“Stay,” he said quietly. “Please.”

Elizabeth nodded. “Okay.”

He raised his voice then. “Dr. Jones?”

The doctor entered again, this time by himself. He had the needle in his hand and he hid a quiet smile at the divorced couple holding onto each tightly. He said silent prayer that he’d be able to bring their daughter back to them.

Dr. Jones moved to Olivia’s IV and injected the medicine. He stepped back.

And waited.

Time clicked by slowly. Jason felt Elizabeth’s body begin to tremble and then shake. He gripped her tightly, his fingers laced through his. Their eyes trained on their daughter’s elfin face, each expecting the worse but desperate for the best.

Seven minutes had passed and Elizabeth let out a tiny whimper. He tightened his grip on her waist in reflex. It wasn’t going to work. She wasn’t going to wake up.

And then Olivia opened her eyes.

Elizabeth let out a sob and buried her face in Jason’s neck. He pressed his face into her hair and rocked her as she sobbed her tears of joy.

Dr. Jones smiled. “Hello, princess.”

Olivia blinked a little before looking at her parents. “Mommy?” she asked softly. “Why are you crying?”

“She’s happy, baby,” Jason told her. He smiled. “Very happy.”


Shortly after she woke up, Olivia went in for some tests to discern the damage done. She had seemed alert and aware of her surroundings and Dr. Jones was extremely optimistic.

Elizabeth wiped her eyes. “I can’t stop smiling,” she told him. “She woke up. And she…she knew who we were!” She laughed and threw her arms around him.

“I know. It’s incredible,” he agreed. “I just–I wanted to believe it would work, but–”

“Yeah, I wouldn’t let myself really hope for it either,” Elizabeth replied. She stepped away from him. “It…thank you for today. I just–it felt good for someone to hold me again.” She hesitated and smiled at him shyly. “It felt good for you to hold me again.”

“It felt good to hold you,” he admitted. He tucked a piece of her hair behind her ears. “Thank you for letting me do it.”

She flushed and looked away. “I just–it’d be so easy to get caught up in this moment and think everything is great but…it’s not. You know?”

“I know.” He took her hands in his. “I want you back, Elizabeth. I want to give you the family I should have given you in the first place–the kind of family and love you deserve.”

Elizabeth bit her lips and looked down. “Oh, God, Jason, I want that too but I’m so scared. We…we screwed it up so badly the first time and there’s so much at stake now. Olivia–if we were to attempt reconciliation and for whatever reason, it didn’t work…she’d be crushed.”

“I understand and the last thing I want to do is hurt her. But I think that means we should just be more careful.” He stepped closer to her and tilted her face up so he could see her eyes. “Take it slowly. There’s so much hurt and anger between us still. What happened this morning shows that much. But I want…I want to work it out. To earn your trust back.”

“Do you really think we could make this work?” she asked, her eyes lighting up with hope.

“I’m willing to find out,” he replied. He brought one of her hands to his lips and kissed it softly. “We’ll take the long way this time. We took it too fast the last time–we were married before we knew each other a year and that kind of love–the intense and passionate love we had then…it’s a good kind. But it doesn’t always last and it burns out.”

“It didn’t for me,” Elizabeth confessed. “I–I still love you as much as I did the first time I met you.”

“I love you, too.” He smiled tenderly. “More. You gave me a life I never could have dreamed of. I never thought I’d love anyone like I love you–I thought I’d end up in a marriage like my parents or the one I had with Elise. One of respect and tolerance. You gave me so much more than that, Elizabeth. I would spend hours thinking about you when we were separated by an ocean. I literally counted down to the seconds how soon I’d see you again. I wanted to be around you every second–I was terrified you’d become bored with me and go away and I don’t know if I could have survived that.”

“You never had to worry about that,” she told him intently. “The day at the airport in Spain–when you flew home and I went to England…you smiled at me and I decided right then and there that I had to have you smile at me every day for the rest of my life.” She smiled tremulously. “I knew then that I’d never love anyone else the way I love you. And I know what you mean about not expecting it. It came out of nowhere. I was nineteen–the last thing I was thinking about that night was getting married or finding the person to spend my life with.”

She took a deep breath. “But it hit fast and it hit hard and loving you has been the best thing that’s ever happened to me.” She laced their fingers together and it felt like every part of her was smiling–glowing even. She couldn’t imagine a more perfect moment. There was still hurt–still anger, disappointment and problems to work out. But just to be able to tell him she loved him and to see that smile again–the only thing that possibly compared was Olivia opening her eyes fifteen minutes ago.

“So…will you do this with me?” he asked. “Work this out? Give each other another the chance to create the family and home we both want?”

“Yes,” Elizabeth agreed. She nodded firmly. “Most definitely yes.”


It was another hour before Olivia was returned to the room. She was sleeping and Dr. Jones said she’d sleep through the night and advised them to go home. He’d have the test results for them in the morning.

Reluctantly, they left and through no prior decision, they went back to the house together. She locked all of the doors and then they walked up the stairs together.

She stopped walking at the guest room and he knew that this was how it was going to work. She was letting him back into her home, into her heart–but not her bed. And he didn’t think either of them was ready for that. The first time around, they’d waited four months–until vows of love had been exchanged. He didn’t mind waiting.

He’d waited four years to get back into her heart, after all.

“Tomorrow,” Elizabeth began softly. “If you want…we can move your things here from the penthouse.” She bit her lip. “I think Olivia would want you around.”

“Wouldn’t she ask why I’m not in my own place if we’re not getting back together?” Jason asked her pointedly.

“She might,” Elizabeth allowed. She smiled then. “But then you can tell her that in order for her to keep her room where it is, someone has to be able to carry her up and down the stairs for a while. She adores her room.” She hesitated. “But if you’d rather be at the penthouse–”

“No,” he cut in. “Tomorrow, we’ll bring my things here.” He smiled then–the same rakish grin he’d exhibited the moment before he’d kissed her for the first time. He slid his hand over the nape of her neck and tugged her close.

And this kiss was every bit as intoxicating as their first.


“Oh my God…you should have called me!”

Elizabeth sighed and leaned back against her headboard. “Jess…it’s okay now. And…if I’d been thinking clearly, I would have. But I just…I was numb and I think I slept all day in my ex-husband’s lap.”

Jessica was silent for a moment. “Um…what was that?”

“I told him that if she woke up and something…if there was damage, I wasn’t going to hire someone to take care of her. And he pulled me into his lap and told me we’d take care of her together.”

“Oh. Wow. If you hadn’t filled me with stories about him being a jerk, I’d fall in love.” Elizabeth heard Jessica’s husband Lucky Spencer’s voice in the background. “Oh, be quiet, Lucky, I’m speaking figuratively.”

“He’s not a jerk, he’s the most wonderful man I’ve ever known.”

“Oh, no.” Jessica sighed. “Please just tell me you didn’t already elope to Vegas.”

Elizabeth laughed then. “You’re so dramatic. Look…this whole week I knew something was happening between us. We were talking–finally talking about what went wrong and even how we fell in love in the first place.”

“Sounds great. Are you sure this isn’t just…because of Olivia? Bonding because of tragedy?”

Elizabeth frowned. “Tragedies are famous for bringing people together. It’s legendary even. You know…take something bad to realize how much we all need one another and all that?”

“Yeah, I get that, but, ah, you don’t feel a little pressure from your beloved daughter here?” Jessica pressed.

“There is an added bonus of Olivia getting her parents back together and yes, I realize that we both want to give her that desperately but I promise you it’s more than that.”

“Are you sure? Because he is going through a divorce of his own–“

“To a woman who had the papers drawn up because he was telling his daughter how to make her mommy smile. He wasn’t happy with Elise.”

“Is that something you know for sure?”

“Yes,” Elizabeth sighed. “He said that it was a marriage he’d expected to have–his parents were the same way. Respect and tolerance. He didn’t love her. He loves me.”

“And you just believe that after all this time, after everything you’ve gone through?” her friend asked skeptically.

“If you could have been in the room when we were talking about trying this again–when he told me how much he loved me…” Elizabeth sighed. “Jess, it was just…it was what I needed. I believe that he loves me and I know he believes I love him.”

“Honey–“

“I know that it doesn’t solve jack shit between us but after four years of wondering if he loves me, it’s gonna help me sleep at night.”

“Well…” Jessica paused. “As long as you know that, I think you’ll be fine. Sweetie, it’s not that I’m not thrilled for you…I just…I worry about you.”

“I know.”

“I mean…I know Emily knew first but I live right next door. Our girls are practically sisters. And I remember the late night calls–when she was crying and you couldn’t sleep but you didn’t want to take a pill. I remember that it was because of your marriage and you protecting him–and I just…I want you be absolutely sure you’re ready to put yourself back in that position.”

Elizabeth closed her eyes. “It’s going to be different this time, Jess.”

“Yeah, I believe you believe that. And I even think he believes that. But it can be so easy to fall into routines. He could get comfortable. Take one a trip a year. It could turn into two, three, four…you could get back into that routine of taking care of him–making sure his clothes are washed and he’s fed. And it might eventually end up that you don’t tell him when Olivia gets into a fight at school because you don’t want him to worry about things he can’t change. You might start trying to protect him again and well…that really didn’t work the first time did it?”

“It won’t be like that.”

“Why?”

“Because I know it didn’t work the first time. I know what went wrong. I know where it started. I’m not sure everything that went wrong and how to fix it all but…we want to fix it. We want to work this out. And I think…I think that’s the first step.”

“Okay. Well, then as soon as you know Olivia’s test results and things settle down, you’re bringing him over to meet Lucky.”

“Jess–”

“No arguments. Now, have you called Nikolas yet?”

Elizabeth sighed. “No. We didn’t…we haven’t discussed it yet. I don’t know if Jason would even be comfortable if we used my divorce lawyer.”

“Look, Nikolas is a friend. He knows Olivia, he knows you. And he knows Jason a little. There’s no one better to handle this. You are going to sue?”

“I don’t really know what the point would be. It’s not like we need the money to pay the bills and they fired the intern.”

“Honey, at least promise me that you’ll discuss it with Jason and think about it. For the emotional trauma at least.”

“Yeah. Okay. Listen, it’s been a long day–”

“Yeah, yeah. Sure. Call me when you hear about Livvie, k? Love ya.”

“Love you, too.”


The next morning, Elizabeth was up at dawn and the sound of the shower woke him as well. He went downstairs and started a rudimentary breakfast–he wasn’t a great cook but he could handle eggs, toast, some coffee and of course–her tea.

He was just setting things down on the table when she entered the kitchen in jeans and a long-sleeved shirt. She’d towel-dried her hair but it was still damp and was curling around her shoulders.

“You didn’t have to make breakfast,” she said, clearly surprised. “I didn’t even know you knew how.”

Jason smiled ruefully. “I had to learn. Sometimes Olivia wasn’t really in the mood to wait for room service.” He handed her the cup of tea. “Dr. Jones called. He wants a meeting at noon.”

“Noon?” Elizabeth frowned. “I thought…?”

“He had a trauma emergency early this morning and he had to put a few things off,” Jason explained. “He asked about a lawsuit and I told him that we hadn’t discussed it.”

“I talked to Jess last night,” Elizabeth remarked. She sat down and sipped her tea. “She thinks we should at least call Nikolas and think about it.” She hesitated. “I know you might be comfortable with my divorce lawyer but–”

“If you trust him, it’s not enough for me,” Jason interrupted. “He’s a good lawyer–he took  care of you in the hearings. And I think your friend is right. We should at least talk to someone.”

“I’m not sure what suing would accomplish. The hospital didn’t try to hide anything–they fired the intern before we even got the hospital. And it’s not like we need to worry about hospital bills.”

“Yeah, I know. But it still happened. There was a security lapse at the hospital. Interns shouldn’t be able to administer that kind of pain meds to a small child without a nurse present. Elizabeth, we almost lost our daughter.”

She closed her eyes. “I know. We should definitely talk to Nikolas about our options.”

“I think we should talk about broaching the subject with Olivia,” Jason said. He broke apart his toast and took a bite. “I mean…about me living here and whether we want to tell her about the reconciliation.”

“I don’t think we should tell her anything about us trying to work this out. She’s still recovering and I don’t want to get her hopes and I’m just trying to be realistic Jason–this might not work.”

“No, it might not,” Jason allowed. “I’m not even sure where to start, to be honest.”

“I know. I was thinking…” Elizabeth chewed her lip. “Maybe we should try a marital therapist or something. You know?”

“If that’s what you want.”

“I want to know what you think,” Elizabeth pressed.

“I think we might be rushing it by going to see someone,” Jason admitted. “We just decided last night we wanted to get back together. We should at least try to see if we can work this out for ourselves.”

“Okay.” Elizabeth finished her tea and stood up to take her half-empty plate and cup to the sink where she put the leftovers into the garbage disposal. “Visiting hours aren’t until ten but since she’s a minor we could get in earlier so maybe we should head over to the penthouse now.”

He finished up his coffee and nodded. “Yeah.” Jason stood. “Have you been to the penthouse since we moved out?”

Elizabeth shook her head. “No. I think the nursery is still set up. I never…I couldn’t go back afterwards, you know?”

“Yeah. I…I slept on the couch the night I was there. I didn’t want to go upstairs,” Jason admitted. He took a deep breath. “This just feels…awkward.”

She laughed a little. “Yeah. I guess we’re trying too hard now. I don’t want to fight with you Jason but I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to tip toe around you.”

“I guess we just have to find a new rhythm,” Jason agreed. “So you want to get out of here and get my stuff so we can get to the hospital?”

Elizabeth nodded. “Yeah. Definitely.”

This entry is part 8 of 16 in the Yesterdays

Some clanging from the first floor woke him the next morning and he wasn’t altogether sure if the clanging was actually downstairs or inside his head.

Jason sat up and rubbed his head. He recognized the guest room at once and then he got a whiff of the alcohol from both his body and his clothes folded on a nearby chair.

The events of the previous night were starting to come back to him. He remembered watching Elizabeth drive off with some guy, he remembered a trip to a liquor store where he’d stocked up and returned to the house to await her return.

It was fuzzy from then on but he distinctly remembered her crying and telling him to let her go–but he’d…he’d kissed her instead. He groaned and put his head in his hands. Could he been any more of an ass last night?

He stood and decided to get a shower and then go apologize to her. He’d come back to Port Charles intent on putting out feelers. Was she open to a reconciliation? Would it work? Was it worth the effort?

And yet, he’d screwed it up the first night out. Good for him.


Elizabeth heard the shower running and started the pot of coffee. She took the aspirin out of the cabinet and put it next to the place she’d set for him on the table. Despite her resolution to just go to the hospital and leave him on his own, she’d woken up, checked on him, got a shower, checked on him again, got dressed, checked on him, went downstairs to make him breakfast.

She was a schmuck. Plain and simple. But she still knew her ex and after a night of drinking, he’d want clean clothes to change into. So she’d dug up some things he’d left here and put them in the bathroom.

Ten minutes later, he entered the kitchen to find a plate of scrambled eggs, toast and bacon waiting next to a steaming cup of black coffee with two aspirin at its side.

“Elizabeth, I–”

“Sit and eat,” Elizabeth said simply putting the frying pan in the sink and rinsing it. She stuck it in the dishwasher and moved to make her tea.

“But–”

“Visiting hours begin in forty-five minutes. Eat. I want to get a good parking spot,” Elizabeth interrupted again.

“I wanted–”

“It’s going to get cold,” she said without looking at him. She dunked a tea bag in the mug and let it soak for a few seconds. She heard the chair scrape against the linoleum floor and then his knife and fork as he cut up the eggs.

When she finished her tea, she took the seat adjacent to him and pulled out her collection of bills and the checkbook. He ate, she paid bills–all in silence. Someone might think this was the normal way of business in the Morgan household.

He finished the food and pushed the plate aside a little. “I’m sorry. I was an asshole last night and you didn’t deserve it.”

“It’s fine. We all have our bad moments,” Elizabeth said absently. She frowned a little at her phone bill but wrote out the check for the specified amount. “You said something about a divorce, so I can understand you getting drunk to block that out.”

“That’s not why I sat on your porch getting smashed,” Jason protested.

“It doesn’t really matter–”

“Will you stop brushing me off like I’m stupid teenager?” Jason demanded.

Elizabeth sighed and looked up. “Okay. Fine. Why did you choose last night to get drunk on my porch?”

“Because you had a date and he didn’t look like me,” he replied immediately. “And I thought you were moving on and I really didn’t think that was very fair.”

She snorted. “Coming from the man who remarried two years after the divorce, that’s almost amusing.”

“She looks like you,” Jason said, without embarrassment. He was pretty sure he’d told her this last night–that he’d even showed her a picture. And besides, it was time to be honest. He’d never get anywhere protecting himself. Apparently, she’d been taking care of that for him.

Elizabeth hesitated. “We both have brown hair and light skin,” she allowed.

“She has blue eyes, she’s tiny and she talks a lot with her hands,” Jason continued. “She likes art galleries, going to the opera and she got sun poisoning in Egypt.”

Elizabeth pursed her lips and looked away. “I don’t know what you’re trying to accomplish–”

“When she got the sun poisoning, she refused to leave the hotel or even return there again. And the whole time she was complaining about it, all I could think about you. How you argued with me to go to the pyramids anyway. You wanted me to go and I refused to leave you alone. You went.”

Elizabeth sighed. “Jason–”

“The first time I saw Elise, we were in Spain and I saw her from the back and I thought for a second it was you,” Jason admitted.

She stared at him for a moment. “Are you trying to tell me that the reason you were attracted to her at all was because she looked like me?”

Jason nodded. “I know it’s a horrible thing and I’m not proud of it. But I missed you and she was sort of like you and I didn’t think I could get you back.”

“So you settled for the next best thing,” Elizabeth remarked. “When you tell Olivia this story, you should probably leave that part out.”

“Elise divorced me. She had the papers drawn up six months after we got married,” Jason told her. “Because Olivia was upset because you’d been crying at the airport and without really thinking about it, I was telling her all these ways to get you to smile.” He shook his head and stared down at the table. “I think she knew then that I was still in love with you.”

Her breath caught in her throat. “I–”

“She didn’t want to admit it to herself and we both let each other lie to ourselves. It’s so much simpler when you don’t admit the truth, you know?” He exhaled slowly. “But she thought me wanting to move here was about more than just Olivia and I don’t know, maybe she’s right. Because as much as it hurt not to be with you, it was more painful not see you.”

Elizabeth stood abruptly. “We should go to the hospital. Olivia will be expecting me–”

“Of course since you don’t trust me, it doesn’t really matter how I feel does it?” Jason asked, rising to his feet. “We could get back together right now and I wouldn’t know if you were keeping something from me in some misguided attempt to protect me.”

She frowned. “And I wouldn’t know if this was just a temporary stop on your itinerary. If you weren’t planning on staying for a few weeks and then heading off God knows where. So, it really wouldn’t work now would it?”

“And that goes back to you not trusting me,” Jason challenged. “Because if you trusted me, you’d believe me when I say that I want to be around Olivia more. That I don’t want to have to her see her upset because I missed some school play. But you don’t trust me and I’m beginning to wonder if you ever did.”

“That’s not fair,” she argued. “Of course I trusted you. I followed you like some puppy dog for nearly three years. You wanted to go out, we went out, you wanted to stay in, we stayed in. I was the docile wife you wanted but I wanted more–I wanted a real family in a real home and you didn’t. So you know what? Maybe Elise and I really are alike. Neither of us were willing to settle for what you were willing to give.” She grabbed his breakfast plate and coffee cup and stalked to the dishwasher where she shoved them inside and then clicked the button to start.

“You’ve got to be kidding me,” Jason scoffed. “Like you were an unwilling participant in our marriage. All you had to do was say the word and we’d have stayed in one place. And we did. You wanted Port Charles, I gave it to you.”

She narrowed her eyes. “With the condition that I’d never see you.” She shook her head. “We’re not going over the same ground again. I don’t even know why we’re talking about what would happen if we got back together because it’s not going to happen.” She turned the coffee pot off and unplugged it.

“Why not?” he demanded. “Why do you get to just decide that?”

“Because we’re over!” she shot back. “You don’t still love me and even if you did, you don’t know me any more. I’m not that girl who made a martini and let you kiss her on a balcony in Spain and that’s who you want.”

“Don’t tell me what I want or how I feel!” He grabbed her wrist to keep her from walking away. “You are still that girl but you’re more than that. You’re the mother of my child and I will always love you.”

“Let me go,” she hissed, trying to jerk her wrist from his grip. “You don’t own me, Jason. Not anymore.”

Surprised, he let her go and stepped back. “Own you?” he sputtered. “I never tried to own you.”

“Oh, don’t be obtuse,” she cried, frustrated. “You controlled my entire life–who I knew, what I wore, where I went, you paid for it all and we did everything you wanted to do!”

He swallowed hard. “I…I didn’t…that’s never what I meant to do. I just…I thought we were happy. You…you never said anything.”

“Because it wasn’t until I was on my own that I realized it. I had no opinions of my own, no hobbies, nothing that was mine. I was just an extension of you. I was Jason Morgan’s wife. The wife of an investment whiz kid. The mother of Jason Morgan’s child.” Her eyes narrowed into slits. “You know why Olivia is my whole life? Because I don’t have anything else.”

“I…” Clearly unprepared for this line of attack, he fumbled for something to say. Some defense. But she had a point. She’d been wealthy in her own right–her father a wealthy lawyer who made his fortune representing clients all over the world. But she’d always been listed as “Jason Morgan’s wife” in newspaper mentions. Not Elizabeth Webber-Morgan, former debutante or Elizabeth Webber-Morgan, daughter of Chris Webber. Just Jason’s Morgan’s wife.

And their trips had been dictated by his business. They’d gone where he had a client. Sure, he’d taken her other places. Famous museums for art but those times had been far and in between. They’d gone out to dinners with his clients and his friends. They’d been invited to operas and parties by those same people. Her clothes had been picked out by a nameless secretary who traveled with them. That dress from Paris had been one of the few things Elizabeth had picked out herself.

She’d even had some trouble doing her art because some hotels were unhappy with her setting up her supplies and her easels on expensive carpets and rugs. One of the few things she’d truly loved and because of him, she hadn’t had the opportunity to really explore her talent because he’d held her back.

Stricken, Jason sat back down, his face pale, his eyes distant. “I’m sorry,” he managed to say faintly.

She instantly felt a sharp sting of guilt and kneeled in front of him. “No, I’m sorry. None of that was your fault, Jason. God, I didn’t mean it.”

“No, you’re right. Your life revolved around my schedule,” Jason replied. He shook his head. “I never meant it that way–I tried to…take you other places. To museums and I thought…I thought we were happy. I thought you were.”

Her eyes filled with tears. “I’m sorry, Jason. I just…you know how I am. When I open my mouth and I get angry, things just come spewing out you know? I didn’t…I loved being your wife. I did. I was so proud of you, Jason and I really didn’t mind being called your wife. None of that really mattered to me. The clothes, the parties, none of that mattered.” She forced him to unclench his fists and she slipped her hands in his, lacing her tiny fingers through his larger ones. “I just wanted to be with you.”

“What about your art?” Jason asked pointedly. “You were never able to work on it like you deserved to. Because I kept moving you around. Your supplies got lost a lot and then that fire that destroyed half the ones you had in storage–”

“None of that was your fault,” Elizabeth cut in. “Painting was just an escape for me and I really didn’t need it while we were married. I painted before I met you because I wanted a reason to ignore my parents and I painted after the divorce because I was lonely but I never needed an escape from you.”

“I never wanted to control you, Elizabeth,” he told her again. “I just…I–”

The phone’s shrill ring interrupted him and Elizabeth took a deep breath. “I should get that. It might be Olivia.”

“Right,” Jason agreed. She stood and crossed to the wall phone near the doorway.

“Hello?” Her face paled and she bit her lip. “How long? What–Yes…no, of course not–We’ll be right there.” She slammed the phone back onto the receiver and turned to him, her face stark white and her eyes huge on her face. “That was the hospital,” she whispered.

He lunged out of the seat and was in front of her in two seconds. “What’s wrong?” he demanded.

“Olivia,” Elizabeth choked out. She closed her eyes. “She…one of the meds…she had an allergic reaction–a bad one and she’s…oh, God, Jason, she’s back in a coma.”

He reached out and gripped her arms to keep her upright. “Deep breaths, baby, deep breaths, okay?”

“Oh, God, Jason, I can’t…we have to get to the hospital. I need…I need to be there…we need to be there.”

“Okay, I need to find my keys. They weren’t in my pockets–”

Elizabeth pulled away and crossed the kitchen to one of the drawers. She pulled out his wallet and keys. “I f-found them on the porch last night.”

He took both from her and put an arm around her firmly guiding her to the front of the house.

“I knew I s-shouldn’t have gone out–I should have been in the hospital last night–she needed me–”

“It’s okay,” he said, pulling the front door open with his free hand. “It’ll be okay.”

She stopped abruptly and threw her arms around his neck, burying her head in his chest. “I’m scared,” Elizabeth sobbed. “I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose her.”

He wrapped his arms around her waist and felt her body trembling violently. “We’ll get through this. Olivia’s going to be okay.” He pressed his lips to her soft brown hair. “We’ll get through this.”


Olivia was hooked up to more machines this time and her skin was paler than before. An allergic reaction, the doctor had said. One of the interns gave her the wrong dosage of the wrong pain medications and it had interfered badly with not only her system but the medication she’d already had in her body.

Later Jason would remember the doctor apologizing to them and letting him know that they were expecting a lawsuit and the intern in question had already been fired.

But the only thing that registered in his mind was the look on his ex-wife’s face when she was told there was a chance their little girl would never wake up.

And if she did, brain damage was nearly certain. There was no telling how much or how it would effect her but she would never be the same.

Because one intern got her mixed up with another patient.

Elizabeth curled up next to her daughter and the doctors let her. It wasn’t the first time they’d seen a grieving mother. Jason sat on the chair next to the bed and kept Elizabeth’s hand tightly in hers.

“I should have been here,” Elizabeth said dully. “I could have told the intern that it wasn’t right–that it was the wrong patient. But I spent five hours with some jackass who never shut up about himself.”

“It happened this morning,” Jason told her. “Around 4 AM. You wouldn’t have been here anyway.”

“All she ever wanted was her family together,” Elizabeth whispered. She feathered her fingers over Olivia’s delicate skin. “I swear, baby, if you wake up, I’ll find a way to make it happen.”

“Dr. Jones is bringing in some medicine from California. They think it will counteract what’s wrong and bring her out of it,” Jason said softly. He rubbed his calloused thumb over her soft knuckles. “He’s got a lot of hope for this, baby.”

“I spent this morning arguing with you and I can barely remember why.” Tears were falling from her eyes but she could barely feel them. “I would give anything to take those five seconds back. To take be able to turn off the car and take the keys in with me. I’d sell my soul if it meant my baby could go on.”

“This isn’t your fault,” Jason told her intently. “She was fine. She was recovering and in therapy. Someone else made a mistake–”

“She wouldn’t have been here if it weren’t for me,” Elizabeth whispered. She kissed Olivia’s forehead gently and sat up to rub her eyes. “I’m numb inside,” she murmured. “Nothing’s moving. I can’t…I can’t feel anything.” She slid her legs off the bed and stared at him intently. “When she wakes up–a-and they’re right about…the damage…I won’t hire someone to take care of her.”

He took her hands in his and pulled her towards him. She slid off the bed and into his lap. She pulled her legs up and tucked them under the chin.” He pushed her hair out of her pale, worn face. “We’ll take care of her together,” he promised.

Elizabeth leaned her head back until it rested in the crook of his shoulder and let her eyes drift close. He smoothed his hand up and down her spine, the rhythm eventually lulling her into a dreamless sleep.

He kissed her forehead gently and tightened his arms around her. They’d get through this somehow.

This entry is part 4 of 8 in the Aurora Dawning

Morning

Elizabeth sipped her tea and watched curiously as Morgan explored the room. The small kitten had already been lost several times in the vastness of Elizabeth’s rooms.

“My lady.”

Elizabeth set her cup down on her breakfast table and stood. “Yes, Gia?”

The young woman couldn’t contain her smile. “Lady Alexis is here to see you and she has brought guests.”

“Guests?” Elizabeth hesitated and belted her robe more securely over her cotton nightgown. “What sort of guests?”

“Her sister, Susan Morgan and her eldest son, Jason.” Gia’s brown eyes twinkled with excitement. “My lady, he is most handsome. Shall I show them in?”

“I—yes. Clear these dishes and I will go get washed and dressed.” Elizabeth touched her tangled curls and disappeared into her bedroom.

Gia moved back into the hallway. “My lady wasn’t expecting visitors,” she told the trio politely. “She is dressing now but you may wait in her sitting room.” The three entered the room and Gia busied herself clearing the breakfast table.

Morgan saw the visitors and dashed over to play with the hanging skirts of Alexis and Susan. “Is this the kitten you brought for her?” Susan asked, lifting the orange pile of fur into her lap.

“Yes,” Jason agreed. “I did not really think she would keep her in her private rooms.”

“Oh, the princess never lets that adorable thing out of her sight,” Gia said cheerfully as she gathered the tray in her arms. “Morgan is one of the few things my lady has to smile about.”

“Morgan?” Susan repeated with smile. “What a sweet name,” she cooed to the cat.

Jason shifted on the lavish sofa, clearly uncomfortable in the luxurious surroundings. After a moment, Elizabeth exited her bedroom, dressed in a plain pink dress and her hair pulled into a twist. “Good morning,” she said politely. “I apologize for taking so long.”

“Nonsense, my lady, you were not expecting us.” Alexis stood and Susan set aside Morgan to stand beside. “I would like to introduce you to my sister, Susan Morgan. Susan, this is Princess Elizabeth.”

“I am very pleased to meet you my lady,” Susan said with a warm smile. “I have heard many things about you.”

“Please, Mrs. Morgan, call me Elizabeth,” she insisted. “And I am very pleased to meet you. Your son speaks so highly of his family—I did not expect the opportunity to meet you before Saturday.”

“When Jason told me he was coming back this morning, I decided to take the opportunity to meet you and visit with my sister as well.”

“I was not aware you were returning,” Elizabeth remarked to Jason.

“I feel there are a few misunderstandings that we must clear up,” Jason answered.

“That will have to wait since I wish to speak with Elizabeth alone. Alexis, show Jason around. Twenty minutes should do it.”

“Mother—” Jason protested but Alexis already had his arm and was leading him out of the rooms.

“Come, let us sit and get to know one another.” Susan took her seat and when Elizabeth sat next to her, Morgan jumped in her lap and curled up to take a nap. “She seems to adore you.”

“And I her,” Elizabeth admitted with a smile. “She is so beautiful. I cannot thank your son enough for being so thoughtful.”

“He has such a large heart. It does not occur to him to hold back and that is part of the reason I wished to speak to you without him.”

“He’s very proud,” Elizabeth said hesitantly. “It is hard to speak to him without sounding as though I am insulting him.”

“It is not you, it is the situation. Two days ago, he was under the impression he was marrying a woman he’d met only a handful a times and now he finds himself betrothed to the crown princess. He is a simple young man and it takes time to adjust.”

“I understand that. I only wish he’d stop treating me as though I am the princess. Once we are married, I do not wish for him to call me ‘my lady’ or anything else and he seems reluctant to call me by my given name.”

“Time will fix that,” Susan remarked. “But I wish to tell you about another woman in Jason’s past. One that he had expected to marry. He was in love with a young girl who grew up on a neighboring farm. I suspect you may know her. Caroline Benson?”

“Jason knows Caroline?” Elizabeth asked surprised. “I did not realize that.”

“She was always a dreamer—hoping that her family line would allow her a position on the High Council. Jason did not think that would happen as she is very young and in addition—a female. He cared very deeply for her and we all thought they would marry. Caroline believed it as well—she was hoping Jason would come to the village and live with her once she was called up for duty.”

“But he speaks so highly of his home. I have known him but two days and I can’t imagine he would ever leave it.”

Susan squeezed Elizabeth’s hands. “I knew that you would understand him. I could feel it. Caroline did not respect his love for his home and they quarreled bitterly. She went to the council and he remained at home. They never reconciled and I think it hurt him very deeply that she did not accept him.’

“Does he still love her?” Elizabeth asked, slightly stricken. Her heart dropped to her feet at the idea of marrying a man pining for another woman.

“No, I do not believe so. I also do not think he was ever really truly in love with her. It was very convenient for the two of them to be together. She is the only child and our land would be joined with theirs. They grew up together…do you understand?”

“Yes. Are you telling me this because you feel I might pressure him to move here to the palace and because our marriage was ordered by the council…he would not have a choice?”

Susan hesitated. “That is not my primary reason for telling you but now that you mention it…”

“Your son is very lucky to have a mother who cares for him the way that you seem to.” Elizabeth stood and crossed to one of her large windows with a view of the winding gardens and the maze. “You need not worry, Mrs. Morgan. This is a very beautiful place to live but I have been here for nineteen years and I relish the idea of escaping these walls.” She wrapped her arms around herself. “Anyhow, I have been raised to understand that the husband makes the decisions and whatever Jason would prefer, I would go along with.”

Susan frowned. “Jason is not that sort of husband. He would ask your opinion.”

“He would not be happy with the answer as I rarely have an opinion about anything. It is easier that way.” Elizabeth cleared her throat. “Mrs. Morgan, I understand if you are disappointed about your son marrying me. I know that I am hardly suitable for a man like him.”

Susan shook her head and smiled. “Elizabeth, I am very happy that this is taking place. You understand my son in a way Caroline did not. And I really do not understand how you could feel that I would be disappointed. How are you unsuitable?”

“I have had everything done for me,” Elizabeth explained. “I have had my own maid since I was a little girl. I have never set foot inside a kitchen. I have never cleaned my own rooms. I know nothing about washing clothing or living on a farm and while I am capable of having children, I fear that I would be no good at raising them.”

“Everyone has to learn these things, you will just have a late start,” Susan said. She crossed to the sullen young woman. “There is nothing that I cannot teach you and as for raising children…you are such a loving person…I can feel that you would make an excellent mother.”

“I doubt it. I have never known affection beyond that of my brother’s. My mother and father can only be bothered with me when I can do something for them.” Elizabeth sighed. “The only thing that I am any good at are my drawings and even they are worthless.”

Drawings. Now that Susan looked around the room, she could see different framed canvases on the walls. Some landscapes, a few portraits. “Did you do all of these?”

“Yes,” Elizabeth admitted. “I have hardly anything else do to sitting in this room rather than reading or drawing.”

“These are wonderful, my dear,” Susan said with a warm smile. “You should not underestimate yourself.” She touched Elizabeth’s shoulder. “You will find many lovely things to draw at our home.”

“You mean…I could continue to draw after I marry?” Elizabeth asked, surprised. “Lucas always expected me to give it up. Said it was a silly past time for little girls.”

“This is what you love to do,” Susan said. “If you do not ask Jason to give up his land, why should he expect you to give up these?”

“I do not believe I have ever met anyone like you, Mrs. Morgan,” Elizabeth said with a touch of wonder in her voice.

Alexis pushed open the door a moment later. “We are done,” she announced. She eyed her sister. “How did it go in here?”

“Quite well,” Susan remarked. She kissed Elizabeth’s cheek. “She’s a wonderful girl and I think we discovered a lot about each other. Alexis, I will tell you all about it, provided you take me to lunch and I don’t have to cook.”

“Of course. Elizabeth, your uncle requests your presence after Jason departs today, all right?”

“Yes.”

Alexis directed Susan out of the room, leaving Elizabeth and Jason alone. Slightly flustered because not even her brother had been in her rooms in the past year or so, Elizabeth sat down and stared at the ground. “Your mother is a wonderful person. You are very fortunate.”

“What did you and my mother speak about?” Jason asked, curiously.

Elizabeth lifted her shoulders into a shrug. “We spoke about your home and you’re…your past.”

Jason nodded. “She told you about Caroline,” he stated, resigned.

“Yes. I suppose she wanted to make it clear that you belong at your home and I should not entertain thoughts of making you leave.” Elizabeth cleared her throat. “That was never my intention.”

“I never thought it was. My lady, I apologize for the things that I said.”

Elizabeth sighed and stared at her hands. He was calling her “lady” again. She stood, suddenly restless. “It is all right. I suppose I can understand that what I said did not come out the way I meant it to.” She crossed to the windows. “I did not tell you yesterday and I believe that I should have…you will not have a choice if your brother enrolls in the university but for him to attend for free. They will not accept payment.”

Jason frowned. “I did not realize that.”

“The council controls enrollment and they would see it as a sign of disrespect to the family if they did. I hope that changes your mind as I know how important a university education can be.”

“Alexander has always dreamt of going. It is good to know that he will have the opportunity.” Jason hesitantly crossed to her side. “Will you show me the maze? I have never been inside one before. Alexis pointed it out while showing me around and it looked interesting.”

“Yes,” Elizabeth agreed with a small smile. “On one condition. Please…never call me anything but Elizabeth, again? I really truly mean that.”

“I’m sorry…Elizabeth…it’s just difficult to get past the things I have always been taught,” Jason apologized.

“All right. Well…let’s go then,” Elizabeth said. “Hopefully we can get out of the palace without anyone seeing us since I do not wish to waste time asking Mother for permission.”

—-

Mirielle examined the white silk fabric before pursing her lips and looking up at her personal seamstress. “This is unacceptable.”

Michael leaned against the door frame of his sister’s personal fitting room and shook his head. “Good morning, sister.”

Mirielle found his eyes in her mirror and arched an eyebrow. “Oh…are you speaking to me again, my dear brother?”

“This is not a personal visit,” Michael remarked. He glanced at the seamstress who immediately vacated the room, eager to be out of reach of the council leader’s intimidating eyes.

Michael strode into the room, anxious to get this mission completed so that he may get back to his more important duties. He was one of those men who made every turn of his limbs seem rehearsed. He wasted no movement and looked confident whether he was conducting a meeting of the High Council or eating breakfast in his rooms.

When he spoke, people listened. When he walked, people moved out of his way. He was in complete control of every being in the realm.

Except, of course, his sister and her daughter.

“If it is not a personal visit, I cannot imagine what you need then.” Mirielle smoothed her hands over the dress that the seamstress Courtney Matthews had been working on before her brother’s interruption. It was of the finest white silk and cut to emphasize the attributes of her still slender waist and long legs while hiding the slightly wrinkled skin of her chest.

“Jason Morgan has arrived for his visit with your daughter and I wanted to remind you that they are not to be disturbed. You have Elizabeth’s measurements—there is no need for her to attend a fitting today.”

“Whatever you want, darling brother.” Mirielle turned to the side and squinted to see if the dress went far enough down her back. “I would think you would remember who recommended you for the position you currently hold and how it easy it would be for me to change that.”

“And who, I ask, would you replace me with?” Michael asked coldly. “Caroline is only twenty-four. She is set to be the next leader and everyone is already aware of that. But twenty-four is barely old enough to be on the council much less to lead it. You should know better than to let petty problems take precedence over more important matters but since the most important problem you seem to face is whether your white silk is pure enough…” Michael shrugged and gave his sister one his famous cold smiles.

Mirielle narrowed her blue eyes at him and lifted her chin. “You are a bastard, Michael, and it is only through my influence and noble birth that you have the privileges you enjoy.”

“Perhaps it is the reason that I received them, but it is not the reason that I keep them. Remember, Mirielle, do not bother your daughter today. Leave her be.”

—-

Luke Spencer lit his cigar and waited for his son to finish leading his men in a drill. He felt his chest swell with pride as he watched his firstborn commanding the knights in the palace courtyard.

He’d had precious little to be happy about in recent years. The death of his mother two years ago, his daughter Lesley had died of the typhoid fever the winter before last and his wife’s continued emotional problems since that tragedy weighed heavily on the senior council member and it was only Lucas’s continued success that kept the man going.

Finally, Lucas dismissed the knights and joined his father in the box seats reserved for council members during tournaments. “You wished to speak with me, father?” Lucas inquired.

“Yes. We need to speak of your future,” Luke sat down and took another long puff of his cigar before removing it from his mouth. “Now that you are no longer betrothed to the Princess, we must discover an alternate plan that might appease your mother.”

Lucas sighed and looked away. “There is no one that mother would approve of,” he murmured quietly.

“Is there someone she would not approve of?” Luke asked curiously. He followed his son’s gaze and found a group of chamber maids crossing the courtyard. “Ah…son, it is not uncommon to find a peasant girl charming but one never weds them.”

“I know but it seems unfair that the Princess will wed a peasant and it is overlooked simply because they are chosen.”

“Jason Morgan is noble born,” Luke corrected. “He has neither the money nor the desire to live as such.” He stood. “Which one is she, son?”

“The blonde,” Lucas remarked. He gestured towards the group again. “In blue. She is one of the Queen’s personal maids. Summer Holloway.”

“You know that your mother would never consent to a marriage,” Luke told his son with obvious regret. “But if it were up to me, I would give you anything you asked for.”

“Because you truly wish to see me happy or you miss Lesley and are looking for any reason to clear your conscience about not being there when she passed?” Lucas asked shrewdly.

“A little from Column A, a little from Column B.” Luke managed a smile. “I will speak to your mother but I cannot promise anything.”

“I was not expecting even that.” The bells of chapel rang, signaling the top of the hour. “I must take my leave, Father. If you’ll excuse me.”

Late Morning

“My mother said something odd when I told her of our conversation yesterday,” Jason remarked as Elizabeth led him around one of the turns.

“Oh?”

“She said that you didn’t think you were…well…enough for me,” Jason remarked. “She’s wrong, right?”

Elizabeth turned and faced him, walking backwards a little. “I…must admit that she and I discussed it earlier and she has a point. I don’t think I will make you a very good wife, Jason, or even a mother for that matter.”

She disappeared around another corner and Jason took a few extra steps to keep up with her. “Wait a minute, Elizabeth, what does that mean?”

“Well…look at me…” Elizabeth spread her arms at her sides. “What kind of mother or wife would I make? I know nothing about living the life that you do.”

“I know nothing about living your life, either,” Jason pointed out. He reached for her hand and drew her a few inches closer. “I suspect parts of my life will change as much as yours.”

“Well…my mother is already planning a week of grand balls to welcome your family back into the inner circle,” Elizabeth said with a weak smile. “I tried to talk her out of it.”

“Balls,” Jason repeated. “As in dances and parties?”

“Yes. But once those are over…I suspect we would be left alone unless something important happens.” Elizabeth twisted her hands together.

Jason tilted his head to the side. “I don’t believe I have ever danced before.”

She laughed. “You mean…you do not know how?”

It was the first time he’d made her laugh and the knowledge as well as the sound sent a little flush of warmth straight down to his toes. “It is not exactly a skill that you are born with.”

“True but it is not exactly as hard as riding a horse,” Elizabeth remarked.

“Have you have ever ridden a horse?” Jason asked pointedly.

She laughed again and flushed. “Well, no. But how hard can it be?”

“What about a trade?” he suggested. “You teach me how to dance for one of these parties and I will teach you to ride a horse.”

“All right,” Elizabeth agreed.

“So, where do my hands go?” Jason asked. She blinked as if surprised he’d meant teach him now but after a moment, she changed her grip on his one hand and drew his other one around her waist.

“Typically, the male leads,” Elizabeth said, setting her hand on her shoulder. “But until you know how…I do not wish for my toes to be crushed.”

“You are so little, I would do more than crush your toes,” Jason remarked and it was true. His entire hand spanned the small of her back and his hand engulfed hers. Her head barely came to his shoulders and at this close range she had to tilt her head all the way back to look at him.

Elizabeth frowned. “I hate my height,” she complained. “It makes people think that I am nothing more than a little girl. Okay, follow my lead.”

She took a step back with her left foot and he followed with his right. “You kind of just do that but swing in a circle,” she told him, moving a little as she stepped with her other foot. “You always start with your left.”

“Yes, but I started with my right,” Jason pointed out.

“Because you are not leading at this moment.” She stepped again and Jason stumbled a little. “Count it…one, two, three, one, two, and three…”

He counted under his breath and when he stumbled again, it brought her just an inch or two closer and she was near enough for the scent of her hair to fill his nostrils. “You smell nice,” he blurted out.

“What?” Elizabeth asked, concentrating on her feet and keeping them out of range of his.

“Nothing,” Jason mumbled. After a few more moments, he seemed to pick up the rhythm. “This is not so hard.”

“This is just a simple waltz,” Elizabeth pointed out. “I have not shown you a more complicated dance.” She stopped. “Okay, you lead. Left first.”

He stepped forward with his left foot and she followed. He’d known she would but it still felt strangely pleasing and he wanted to do this right for her. He counted under his breath and he only stumbled once but he didn’t step on her toes at all.

“With a little more practice, I think you will almost be good,” she teased. “You are a little stiff in your movements but it is fine. Most men at these parties are stiff anyway,” she joked.

“Thank you,” Jason said, “for teaching me.” He brought her hand to his mouth and kissed her knuckles. He realized that he wanted to kiss her and he hadn’t felt that particular need since Caroline had left him.

He stepped away then, releasing her. “I presume that if we went to the stables, your parents would find out about it?”

“Yes. I assumed that part of our bargain would have to wait,” Elizabeth replied. “There is still so much of the maze to show you—”

“We could use my aunt’s stables,” Jason suggested. “It is only fair since you have shown me to dance.”

Elizabeth hesitated. “If my mother should go by my rooms and not find me…” she trailed off.  “I suppose I could ask Alexis to tell her that she requested my company. Would she do that?”

“Yes, I think that she would.” Jason offered her his arm and Elizabeth wound hers through his and they left the maze.

—-

Emily hummed under her breath as she wandered one of the many abandoned wings in the palace. When Rhigwyn had been warring constantly with neighboring kingdoms, the palace had offered refuge for those who lived in the border lands. But once peace came, these rooms were abandoned.

It was truly one of the few areas in the entire palace where Emily could be alone in her thoughts. No one ventured here any longer, not even the chamber maids and often Emily would be covered head to toe in dust when she emerged.

But to escape her suffocating life—it was worth it.

She trailed her fingers over the cool red bricks used to build the hallways. This was not the grand mahogany walls of the main wings but the hasty building of carpenters eager to shelter those rendered homeless by the wars.

Her own family home had been built with bricks like these and if she closed her eyes, she could almost believe she was back there—helping her grandmother in the gardens or reading with her grandfather in the library.

Footsteps echoed in the distant corridors but Emily paid no heed, only wandered further into the wings.

There was an old makeshift library here, created by some of the more literate peasants who’d stayed here. When they’d vacated the palace and returned to rebuild their homes, they’d left many books and Emily passed the time in that room quite often.

She went there now and pulled open one of the large windows, shoving the dusty tapestry aside so that the sun might give her both light and warmth. She’d cleaned the room up a bit since she’d discovered it during one of her walks. She crossed to the settee and picked up the book she’d been reading the previous day, a romance about a prince and a peasant girl.

She was so immersed in her reading that she never heard his footsteps approach the room or saw him stand in the doorway.

Nikolas had come to their rooms once when she’d been on one of her walks and for some reason, he could not get it out of his head that he wanted to see her. He’d searched many of the places he’d assumed she would be and was scouring the maze when he had seen movement in an area of the palace few frequented. He had concentrated on that window for a moment and then there she was pulling it open.

By his recollection, she went to the small library-like room a few times a week. He followed her when he had the chance. Not just to look at her but to watch over her. There were weak spots in the floor by those rooms and he was always afraid she might fall through.

But he would not deny he envied the relaxation and peace she found in here—away from him, away from the life she lead daily. He had yet to find an escape such as that.

Nikolas was about to move and leave her in peace when his foot hit a creaking board. Her head snapped up and when she caught sight of him, she scrambled to her feet.

“My lord, I did not—I did not hear your approach.” She marked her place and set the book aside. “How did you know where to find me?”

There was no mistaking the disappointment in her voice—disappointment that her private heaven had been discovered and was no longer her own secret.

“I have known for a while that you come here. I did not mean to disturb you, Emily,” Nikolas said, careful to keep his tone as polite and formal as she kept her own. It did little good to be friendly with her or pretend that they were anything more than awkward acquaintances thrust into a marriage.

“Then…then why did you come if you need nothing?” she asked suspiciously. “I did not think I was not allowed in this area but if that is true—”

“This is your home,” Nikolas told her yet again, growing tiresome of explaining that fact to her. “You are free to roam wherever you like. But I should caution you that some of the flooring is weak and I…I like to check on you so that I know you have not fallen through.”

Pleased that he would take time out of his day to do so, she smiled warmly. “That is very kind of you, my lord.” Emily wiped her dusty hands on her dress and cleared her throat, finding the tension in the room to be more thick than uncomfortable.

“I will leave you to your book then,” Nikolas told her after another moment. He turned back at the doorway. “You know…I enjoy reading as well. Perhaps…one day I might join you?”

“Whatever you wish, my lord,” Emily said politely.

His shoulders slumped and he sighed deeply. “Good day, Emily.”

—-

Skye Chandler set another stack of papers in front of Jasper Jacks. “How much more of this must we go through?” she sighed dejectedly.

“As much as Michael commands,” Caroline remarked from the other side of the council table, flipping through her own paperwork. “He wishes nothing to go wrong this week. So much is at stake.”

“I agree that we must be extra cautious but surely we need not do so much research,” Skye replied, taking a seat next to Jasper.

“You do not find the history of our kingdom interesting?” Jasper spoke up. He slid an aged document in front of her. “That is the wedding license of Sir Harold Morgan, the first captain of the guard.”

“Fascinating,” Skye said dryly. She slid it back. “I do not see what that has to do with the Dawning.”

“Skye, you certainly have not been paying attention. Harold Morgan’s first born son was the chosen man a thousand years ago,” Caroline dictated. “Michael wishes us to discover a pattern and this is the first link we have made.”

“Granted it is very interesting that one of Jason’s ancestors was chosen but records indicate that the girl was a mere peasant whose noble line had passed years ago. How can she be connected to the Princess?”

“Perhaps she is not,” Jasper said. “We perhaps may be looking at it wrong. The peasant girl might represent Jason this time while the second captain of the guard might represent the Princess.”

“Do we have any records of Dawnings previous to that one?” Skye asked, finally intrigued by their mission.

“Two thousand years ago, the pair was both noble born and of high society,” a new voice declared. AJ closed the door behind him and strode towards the table, taking a seat one over from Caroline. “She was the Princess Adelaide and he was Hugh Quartermaine, grandson of the head of the council. So perhaps there is no pattern.”

“You are late,” Caroline said airily.

“This is a waste of our time and resources,” AJ said sharply. “I took my time in coming because I was seeing to other things. I doubt that I missed much.”

“Well, at least we will be able provide future generations with a more clear record,” Skye said. She picked up her quill and began transcribing some of the notes Jasper had made. The two made an excellent team—he did the research and she put it into order. Michael had assigned them to this task and then added Caroline to supervise. AJ was an afterthought and everyone was aware of that fact.

“Did your seamstress fix your dress?” AJ asked Caroline in an almost snide manner.

“Yes,” Caroline replied stiffly. She leaned across the table and took one of Jasper’s stacks from him. “Michael is considering another betrothal for Lucas Spencer and he was hoping for some opinions.”

Skye glanced up momentarily. “What business is it of the council’s whom Sir Lucas marries?”

“I suppose since Michael feels guilty about breaking the betrothal between Lucas and the Princess.”

AJ snorted. “Unlikely. Michael prefers to control everything that goes on in Rhigwyn. He would regulate a man and woman sharing the marital bed if he could.”

Caroline sent a scathing glare in his direction. “You are crude,” she accused.

“I am also right.”

“You are also pig-headed and without a doubt, the most useless man I have ever laid eyes on!” Caroline raged.

“Pardon the lady but she has just been informed she is destined by to be a spinster and I believe it is weighing on her a bit,” AJ told Skye and Jasper in a confiding yet malicious tone.

Caroline stood abruptly and cleared her throat. “I do not believe my presence is required here any longer,” she murmured. She excused herself and left the room.

“She could not have gone any more quickly if she’d been running.” Skye glared at AJ. “You have no right to speak to her as you do.”

“She will have to develop a thicker skin if she entertains the idea of leading the council one day.”

Jasper glanced up from one of the ledgers he was now poring over. His jade green eyes found AJ’s darker ones and he smirked. “You do have the oddest way of courting a lady.”

AJ frowned. “I beg your pardon?”

“Of course,” Skye murmured. “You know, I do believe the art of wooing a woman by insulting her is no longer useful after the age of nine, my Lord Quartermaine.”

“You two are ridiculous,” AJ muttered. He stood and exited the room.

“Good, now that they are gone, perhaps we might get some real work done,” Jasper said.

——-

“She seems so lonely,” Susan murmured, sipping the tea that her sister had given her.

Alexis sat on the luxurious sofa in her sitting room and nodded. “She is. She is close to her brother but with Nikolas’s marriage and his responsibilities to his father, it is hard for him to find time for her. And her mother only showed interest when she was to marry Lucas.”

“I could not imagine treating my beloved Chloe as an afterthought or go keep her locked in her rooms, lovely as though they may be. I feel that Elizabeth would do well in my home, with people who care for her.”

Alexis smiled. “Anyone would do well in your home. Do you think that Elizabeth will be the one to make Jason forget Caroline Benson?”

“I dearly hope so for Caroline could never understand his love for the land, for his home and family. I cannot discern if Elizabeth wishes to merely escape the palace or if she truly believes she has no say in where she will live.”

“Raised by Mirielle, it would not surprise me if it were both,” Alexis remarked. “Perhaps you should try and get a better reading in her mind.”

Susan shook her head. “I will not prod where I am not wanted. It is enough for me to know that Elizabeth will eventually grow to love my son.” Her blue eyes grew distant. “And he will love her,” she continued in a softer voice. “Despite many obstacles.”

When Susan blinked, Alexis knew her visions had ended. “Do you suppose you might have to tell Elizabeth of your abilities?”

“Eventually, if she is going to live in my home, yes. I do not fear she will tell the wrong people. She does not strike me as one to be afraid of such a thing.”

“My lady, Jason Morgan has arrived in the company of the princess,” her butler Reginald called from the doorway. “Shall I show them in?”

“Oh…he cannot be ready to leave just yet,” Susan remarked mournfully. “I so rarely get a chance to visit you in your home.”

“Yes, show them in, Reginald,” Alexis replied. She looked at her sister. “If you are not ready to leave, say so. I do not think that is the reason for this visit. Elizabeth has never been to my home before. In fact, she has never been outside the palace walls.”

Jason entered and the sisters were pleasantly surprised to see Elizabeth trailing after him, their hands entwined. “Aunt Alexis, I was wondering if we might have the use of two of your horses.”

“My horses?” Alexis hesitated and looked at the princess. “But you have never ridden, my lady.”

“It is part of an agreement that Jason and I have,” Elizabeth answered. “I am teaching him to dance and he has promised to teach me to ride.”

“My son, learning how to dance…” Susan’s eyes twinkled. “Well, if you’d wanted to know…you could have asked me.”

“Well…apparently the queen is planning a week of parties and I only found out about it a little while ago. The princess was there and it seemed wise at the time.”

Alexis laughed. “Oh, Susan, I neglected to tell you of Mirielle’s grand plans to welcome you and your family back into society.” She looked back at the young couple. “You may have the use of the horses. Ask Kyle to ready them. But be careful, my lady, as you do not want your mother to know that you have been riding.”

“If she asks, will you tell her you requested my company? I do not think she would approve of me being outside the gardens otherwise,” Elizabeth asked hesitantly.

“Of course,” Alexis replied with a smile.

—-

Kyle was brushing down Zeus when the princess and Jason entered the stables. He did not know Jason by sight but everyone knew the princess. He caught sight of her and hastily dropped his eyes. “My lady,” he said nervously. “I did not know you were coming.”

Elizabeth hesitated and glanced at Jason, unsure of what to say or how to handle this situation.

“You are Kyle?” Jason inquired. “My aunt has given us permission for the use of two of her horses. The princess requires a gentle mount and it does not matter what I ride.”

“Y-yes, sir,” Kyle mumbled as he moved to bridle two of the horses. When he was out of ear shot, some of the tension bled from her body.

“I am never quite sure how to handle moments like that,” she admitted. “I rarely come across people that I do not know.”

“How long do you suppose we will have before you must return to your rooms?” Jason asked as Kyle brought one of the horses towards them.

“On a good day, my mother does not come to check on me and Gia will never breathe a word to anyone. She is very loyal to me. So…you might say we have the rest of the day.”

“Good.”

Once both horses were ready, Jason helped Elizabeth sit in the side saddle of the smaller horse. “Grip the reins like this, all right?”

“All right,” Elizabeth said nervously. Jason swung up onto his own horse and brought it next to hers.

“We’re going to start slowly,” he told her. “Bring the reins back a little and give just a tiny kick to the horse’s side. She will move into a walk.”

Elizabeth did so and after a few tries, Jason had them both on the long dusty road, trotting. “This is not so bad.”

“No, you catch on very quickly,” Jason praised. “I have a surprise for you.”

“A surprise?” Elizabeth asked, startled as she looked at him. “What sort of surprise?”

“This is the road that leads to my family home. I thought you might like to see the house and meet my siblings,” Jason told her.

Elizabeth’s eyes lit up. “We are going all the way to your land? Really?”

“Yes. So when you return home tonight, you will have gone far and beyond the palace walls,” Jason replied, pleased with the exuberant smile she’d given him. “It should not take too long and I will have you home by dark I should think if the weather holds.”

Afternoon

“Alexander!”

“Ow,” Alexander muttered. His sister’s shout had startled him and he’d slipped, smacking his hand against the fence post he was repairing. “Chloe, how many times has Jason asked you not to do that?”

“Sorry. But Jason is riding up the road and he has a female rider with him that is not Mother,” Chloe announced gleefully. “He is also just trotting which makes me think he has the princess.”

“Why would Jason bring the princess here?” Alexander asked. “Are you sure that it was not Mother with him?”

“Yes,” Chloe said, rolling her eyes. “He took Mother in the wagon, remember? He is on a separate horse. Come…if it is the princess, he will want us to meet her.”

Alexander set his tools down and obediently followed his sister to the front of the house. True enough—Jason was making his way through the entrance to their farm with a young female rider.

A few moments later, they’d arrived in front of the house. Jason got off his horse and then moved to help the girl. He slid his hands around her waist and slowly slid her to the ground.

“That was not so bad, was it?” Alexander heard Jason ask. The girl laughed and shook her head.

“Jason, we were not expecting you home so soon,” Chloe called impatiently. “Where is Mother?”

“Still visiting with Aunt Alexis.” Jason tugged the girl towards the porch. “And I am just showing Elizabeth the house.”

“So this is the princess?” Chloe asked. She nodded. “It is a great pleasure to meet you, my lady.”

“Chloe, Alexander, this is Elizabeth,” Jason introduced. “Elizabeth, these are my siblings.”

“Jason has told me so many wonderful things about you,” Elizabeth remarked. “Please—do not treat me with such respect that I have not yet earned.”

Alexander smiled and met his brother’s eyes. Elizabeth was very beautiful, indeed and he could tell Jason was smitten. “Well, then if Jason has brought you for a tour, let us begin it.”

“It is not as nice as the palace,” Chloe said shyly as she pushed open the front door to their home and led Elizabeth inside.

True—it was neither luxurious nor lavish, but the simple furniture was handmade, the home self-decorated and Elizabeth could feel the love flooding from every corner of the living room. “No…it is so much better,” she breathed, taking it all in with huge eyes.

“Better?” Chloe repeated. She traded a confused look with Alexander. “My lady?”

“It is one of the most beautiful rooms I have ever been in,” Elizabeth explained as she crossed to one of the large windows. Sunshine streamed into the room, lighting every corner. “It is full of memories…you do not have to know those memories to know that they are here.”

Chloe beamed as Elizabeth’s fingertips brushed over the rocking chair in the corner with reverence. “I made that,” she announced, proudly. “It is a little crooked but Mother refused to throw it out.”

“You made this?” Elizabeth blinked. “I did not realize women could do something such as this…how did you get the wood to bend without breaking?” she asked in awe.

“You steam it,” Alexander informed her. “So that it is slightly malleable. Perhaps…Jason could show you one day.”

Jason took Elizabeth’s elbow and directed her into another room—the largest in the house actually— the dining room. “These are the first pieces of furniture that my father made for my mother after their marriage,” he told her. “And they are still the strongest pieces in the house.”

“It is beautiful…I have never seen anything like it.” Elizabeth touched the surface of the long table. “Oak, yes?”

“Strongest of the woods,” Alexander said, staring at the princess in wonder as she took in their home. He could not understand how such a refined and polished young woman could find such delight in their shabby furniture and dilapidated home. Was she trying to impress Jason?

Elizabeth suddenly became aware of the trio’s odd looks and she flushed with embarrassment, ducking her head. “You must think that I am so strange.”

“Not strange…but my lady, you must have so many more beautiful possessions in the palace,” Chloe blurted out. “How can you think these are better?”

“Because they are,” Elizabeth stated, uncomfortably. “You have made them yourselves. Things are always more beautiful when there is that certain pride attached to them. I can do nothing more than draw but even I felt a little proud of myself when I managed to frame a few of my canvases.”

“You draw?” Jason asked. “You said nothing of this.”

“I do not tell everyone. It seemed easier since I was planning on giving it up after I marry,” Elizabeth admitted. She clasped her hands nervously. “I am not very good but it is a way to pass the time.”

“Why would you give it up?” Alexander questioned.

“Because the man I was planning on marrying commanded it,” Elizabeth remarked. “He said that I would be too busy raising our family for such a silly past time.”

“That is ridiculous,” Chloe said scornfully. “I would never let a man order me around like I was a dog.”

Chloe’s comment was not intended to hurt her, but it stung nonetheless and her shoulders stiffened. She cleared her throat. “Perhaps we should start back,” she said, her voice distant and devoid of emotion. She moved away from the siblings and a few moments later, the front door gently shut.

Jason closed his eyes. “Chloe…”

“Jason, come on,” Chloe sighed. “She was just being strange. Looking around at our home like she thinks it is better than the palace.”

“She was obviously just trying to gain our confidence,” Alexander remarked. “Noble cause but it was embarrassing watching her fawn over simple furniture like that. Jason, you might want to tell her she need not try so hard.”

“She was not trying,” Jason retorted. “She was being honest. And you were unnecessarily cruel to her, Chloe, when all she was doing was complimenting our home. You did not grow up in the way that she did.”

“Jason,” Chloe protested. “She’s a princess. I think it is s a lovely idea for you two to marry but we must be realistic. She is not suited for this life. Yes—maybe she thinks these things are charming now but it will not take her long to want to change them.”

He shook his head. “I want the two of you remain in this house until Elizabeth and I leave. I promised to show her the land. She has never been outside the palace walls and I will not allow the two of you to ruin this.”

He turned and followed Elizabeth out of the house. He found her standing stiffly on the porch. “Elizabeth?”

“I am sorry if I was rude,” she remarked softly not looking at him.

“You have nothing to apologize for.” Jason took her hand and pulled her off the porch. “Come, you wanted to see the barn right?”

“I was not lying inside,” Elizabeth told him as they crossed the distance between the house and the barn. “I really think your home is beautiful.”

“I know.” Jason led her inside the large structure. “What do you want to see first?”

She tilted her head up, taking in the high ceilings before turning side to side, taking in the many stabled animals. “There are so many,” she murmured. She moved towards one of the larger fenced in pens where there was a large bull. She kept her distance warily.

“He will not hurt you,” Jason said, stepping behind her. “As long as he doesn’t feel you’re intruding on his personal space. We keep him around for breeding purposes.”

“I know how he feels,” Elizabeth remarked ruefully before wandering towards some of the milk cows. “Sketches in books really do not do them justice,” she told him. “They are so much…bigger in person.” She reached a hand out but hesitated. “Can I touch her?”

Jason took her hand in his and placed it on the top of one of the cows. “They are gentle unless you give them reason not to be.”

His hand felt warm on hers and the contact sent tingles down her spine. Elizabeth could feel his body pressed against her back. She wondered if what she was feeling was what she’d described to her brother the other day.

 

“I have yet to find someone who makes my blood run hot and all of the nerve endings in my skin stand on end. I want someone who excites me, who challenges me…”

She turned abruptly, finding their faces only inches apart. “Jason?” she asked hesitantly.

He knew he should step back and give her some space but he found his feet unable to move. This woman had been in his life for a barely three days and yet—it felt so much longer. He had met Robin Scorpio a handful of times and she had never made him feel this way—unsure and nervous. His skin felt as though it were stretched too tightly over his bones. He could not think, could not concentrate on anything other than the fact she was a few inches away.

His light blue eyes had darkened a little and that bewildered her. She licked her lips nervously; her heart skipped a beat and then started pounding in her chest as she saw his eyes drop to her mouth and then rise back to her eyes. “Could…could…” she hesitated.  “Could you kiss me?”

Jason blinked as if hardly able to believe she’d voiced that desire. Had she been reading his mind? He hesitantly brought his hands up and cupped her face. He was so much larger than she was and her cheeks almost disappeared under his grasp.

His touch felt even better now, Elizabeth decided. But he was hesitating—almost as if he seemed reluctant to acquiesce. Maybe he didn’t want to kiss her—maybe she’d misread the entire encounter.

But she hadn’t and a few seconds later, his lips brushed hers. Once, twice. The third time, his mouth settled on hers. Elizabeth closed her eyes. She felt so aware of everything around her right now—the calloused feeling of his hands on her smooth skin, his hot breath against her face, the coarse texture of his shirt as her hands curled into its sleeves.

Elizabeth decided that she could stay right here for the rest of her life. But another moment later, Jason pulled away and took a deep breath. “We should probably get you back to the palace.”

Elizabeth frowned and shook her head. “But—”

“I should not have done that and I apologize,” Jason said stiffly. He stepped back, placing much needed distance between them. “One should have more respect for someone of your station.”

“My station?” Elizabeth echoed, bewildered. Tears stung her eyes. “I thought we had gotten past that—am I still only the princess to you?”

“You are what you are,” Jason said. “And who you are…is a girl who does not understand what you asked of me.”

“What nonsense are you speaking?” she demanded. “I asked you to kiss me. I understand what I asked you and what is more, I would do it again. Why are you saying these things, Jason?”

Jason shook his head. “I cannot—I cannot explain it, Elizabeth. I am not trying to hurt you, I promise. Please…I need to take you home before it gets dark.”

“I am not going anywhere until you tell me what I did wrong,” Elizabeth said stubbornly.

Jason took a deep breath. “You did nothing wrong. It is just…it…you’re very beautiful and sometimes…an innocent kiss turns into something more. And it just—” he dragged a hand through his hair. “I do not know what I’m saying, Elizabeth. I just do not think we should have done that.”

“All right,” she cautiously. “We will not do it again then. You’re right. We should get back.”

Bowing her head, she moved past him and left the barn.

—-

“It is our recommendation there is no tangible link between those who are chosen and those who will be chosen,” Skye concluded.

Michael nodded. “I’d still like you to continue looking into it. There is always more to learn,” he advised. He cleared his throat. “Matters of the Dawning are under control so I feel that it is safe to move on to other business. As you know, due to the Dawning, Sir Lucas Spencer finds himself without a betrothal.”

“As I said to others earlier, I do not see where this is your concern,” AJ remarked.

“Lord Spencer asked for my approval,” Michael informed the other man with a glare. “He felt that if the marriage were approved and blessed by the council, it might not be met with scorn.”

Laura Spencer frowned and straightened in her seat. “I have not heard of a new possibility for Lucas’s wife.” She glared at her husband. “You talked to Michael before coming to me?”

Luke cleared his throat. “Well, I knew that you would refuse and I did not want to take that chance.”

“Why would I refuse?” Laura asked haughtily.

“Sir Lucas Spencer wishes to marry a woman who is not suitable by our standards but it is a woman whom he loves and I will make it clear that she is a good woman.” Michael cleared his throat. “Very lovely and from a good family…but she is a working woman and works here in the palace.”

“Absolutely not,” Laura fumed. “My son will marry a lady. If he cannot have the Princess, he will have someone of her status.”

“Angel,” Luke began softly as he put a hand on top of hers. She yanked it away. “He wishes to marry one of the Queen’s personal maids. Her name is Summer Holloway and I approached Michael before the meeting, hoping he would see fit to arrange this.”

“Lucas will not marry a maid,” Laura said scathingly. “That is the end of it.”

“I understand, Lady Spencer. However, now that Luke has brought the rest of the council into it, it is not the end of it. Rather—it is only the beginning. Luke, you may tell your son he has permission to wed Miss Holloway. I will speak with my sister personally and release the girl from her employ.”

“Thank you, Michael,” Luke said graciously.

They moved on to other matters but Laura sat still and silent as a statue—furious.

—-

“This is unacceptable,” Laura seethed as she stormed into Barbara’s sitting room. All council members had their own set of rooms in the palace but few made use of them unless council meetings ran late.

Barbara arched an eyebrow. “Lady Spencer, I was not expecting you.”

“How can you sit there calmly while your ward faces the same situation as my son?” Laura demanded. “My son to wed a commoner,” she moaned.

Barbara shook her head. “Robin is in no danger of such an event. She was to marry Jason Morgan and he is barely above a peasant. I am sorry that you have so little control over your son, Laura but I do not see why you are coming to me.”

“It is Jason Morgan’s fault,” Laura said, ignoring most of Barbara’s statement. “If not for him, my son would wed the Princess.”

“Laura,” Barbara began.

“I need your help,” Laura decided. “I must get rid of Jason Morgan and then it will all be okay again. With Jason out of the picture, Michael will have to set a wedding for my son to your ward. She is not the Princess but she is far better than some maid.”

Alarmed, Barbara stood. “I will grant you no help whatsoever and furthermore, I am going to Michael this instant—”

Laura wrapped her hand around Barbara’s arm and whirled around her around. “Do you remember who supported you when you made your petition to take Anthony’s council seat?”

“So?” Barbara asked. “What does that have to do with this?”

“Do you remember whom you came to when you were with child—a child who was not Anthony’s?” Laura continued shrewdly.

Barbara paled. “You said you would never speak of her.”

“I will not—if you grant me your allegiance. You have more to gain than lose, my dear Barbara,” Laura told her. “Your ward, the chosen. You will never want for anything.”

“It is not right, Laura,” Barbara replied nervously. “We should not plot against the wishes of the council.”

“Michael cares nothing for us, only for the little twits who follow him blindly. He is the reason I have lost everything!” Laura raged.

Barbara cleared her throat and looked away, stalling for time. She remembered all too well the emergency council meeting that had taken place the winter before last. Laura and Luke had been forced to leave their young daughter in the care of her nanny, though Lesley was suffering from typhoid fever. She died while her parents were gone.

Since her death, Laura had become increasingly unstable and was no longer allowed to make decisions on the council. But out of respect for her and her family, she was not removed.

She was not in her right mind as she spoke of plans to rid Rhigwyn of Jason Morgan and yet, Barbara knew she must protect her own secret at any cost. Four years previous, she’d become pregnant with one of her stable hand’s children. Laura Spencer had been one of her few allies in society and she’d arranged for Barbara to deliver the child in secret. She never knew what became of her daughter.

To protect herself, her position and perhaps even her young ward, Barbara found herself considering Laura’s plan.

“What will it be?” Laura demanded. “Who are you loyal to?”

Barbara hesitated only briefly. “You, my lady,” she whispered.

“Good. We will act immediately.”

Evening

Emily nervously knocked on the bedroom door and immediately took a step back when Nikolas pulled it open. He frowned, seeing his wife standing there. “Emily…why are you knocking on our own door?”

“I thought you might be busy,” Emily said softly. She sighed and looked at the floor. “Gia is here—she says that your sister has requested to speak with you at your earliest convenience.”

Nikolas nodded and stepped into the sitting room. “Emily, what have I said or done that you makes you so nervous around me?”

“I—nothing, my lord,” Emily said. She clasped her hands behind her back. “I apologize.”

Nikolas sighed in frustration and closed their door. “Six months, Emily. Six months since our marriage and you still do not call me Nikolas unless I prompt you. You’re skittish when I enter the room, you never look me in the eye and when we sleep at night…” his voice broke, “you sleep so close to the edge of the bed, that I think you might almost fall off one night.”

Emily lowered her eyes. “I am but sixteen a-and the first day that I saw you, it was the day we wed. I apologize for my behavior, my lord, but I do not understand why it bothers you so. I do not—I do not fight you when you wish to exercise your marital rights and I make no demands on your time.”

“Exercise my marital rights,” Nikolas repeated softly. “I did not realize it was such a chore for you, my lady. I had always assumed you…that you did not mind.” He took a deep breath. “All right. There is no need for an heir at this moment. My father and I are both healthy. You are released from your obligations until one is needed. I shall find other sleeping arrangements.”

Emily blinked. “My lord—”

“Nikolas,” he blurted out. He took her shoulders and gripped them tightly. “My name is Nikolas, Emily.”

“N-Nikolas,” Emily said softly. “You are scaring me.”

Instantly, he released her and stepped back. “I—I am sorry. I should go see to my sister.”

He hurried from the room and Emily found her way to one of the chairs at their breakfast table. Her hands were shaking and she clenched them into fists to stop the movement.

He hadn’t been angry, she belatedly realized. Upset—not angry. She didn’t realize that her behavior had been so—so extreme. And…the nights when he touched her—made love to her…those had been the good nights. She hadn’t let him do it—she’d participated. Why—why had she brought those moments up to him?

She had been so scared of her future as his wife—as the newly anointed princess of the realm and the future queen that she hadn’t concentrated on being a wife to her husband in the present.

She took a deep breath. Well—that ended tonight. She would…she would fix this and make him understand that she was sorry.

——

“My lady, the prince is here to speak with you,” Gia said, knocking on the open bedroom door. Elizabeth set her sketch pad aside and moved into the sitting room where her brother was waiting.

“Thank you, Gia. That will be all for the night.”

Gia frowned. “But you have not changed for the night, my lady.”

“After my marriage, I do not think I will require a maid with me,” Elizabeth informed her. “The Morgan Estate is lovely but I will hardly gain the respect of my future family if I bring a maid along with me.”

Gia paled. “But what shall become of me?”

“My wife could use a handmaiden,” Nikolas volunteered. “She has yet to find one that suits her since she had to leave her own behind at her family home.”

“Thank you, my lord,” Gia said. “I will leave you then.” She exited the room.

“I could grow to hate that title,” he murmured.

Elizabeth nodded. “I sympathize. If Jason calls me ‘my lady’ just once more, I believe I will truly scream.” She sat on her sofa. “Does Emily still speak to you so formally?”

“She knocked on our bedroom door, tonight, Elizabeth. Knocked on the door to the room we share as man and wife.” Nikolas started to pace. “I—I broke tonight. I asked her—I had to know what I had done to make her act that way around me. Yes at first, perhaps I understand why. But six months and—I thought she enjoyed at least the…private moments in…” he flushed. “Well, you know of what I speak.”

“Yes, I do,” Elizabeth frowned. “Nikolas—did she say something about it?”

“She did not know why her behavior bothered me. Said that she did fight me when I wanted to exercise my marital rights and she made no demands on my time.” He shook his head. “I love her, Elizabeth and I would do anything for her. There is no need for an heir so I will sleep elsewhere until the time comes and once we have a child to inherit the throne…I will arrange for her to return to her home.”

“Nikolas—” Elizabeth stood and crossed to him. “What you want matters too. You love her—say so. Just because we have royal blood in our veins it does not negate us as human beings. I am so sick of pretending that I am something that I am not.”

Nikolas frowned and took his sister’s hand. “Did something happen today?”

“Jason came again,” she told him. “He brought his mother and she is so wonderful, Nikolas. She loves him so dearly and I am so jealous that he has her while I have…Mother…” Elizabeth looked away. “He asked to see the maze and we were talking and he mentioned that he did not know how to dance so I offered to teach him and he agreed. And in return, he would teach me to ride a horse.”

“That sounds promising. At least you are able to converse with your intended.”

“It seemed so much better than yesterday,” Elizabeth continued. “He even took me to their home so that I could see the house and meet his siblings—but they—they treat me like I am some sort of…strange object to be stared at. Their home is so beautiful, Nikolas. Everything is hand-crafted and made with so much love…but when I tried to compliment them…and then I mentioned that Lucas expected me to give up my drawings…” Elizabeth’s eyes flooded with tears. “I just…how am I to live with people who resent me?”

“Come here.” Nikolas enfolded her into his embrace. “It’s all right, it’s all right…”

“But that is not even the worst of it. I thought…Jason had at least…accepted me…we were in the barn a-and I asked him to kiss me.” Her cheeks flushed. “He did and Nikolas—it was everything I had wanted it to be. You remember what I told you about my blood running hot and my nerves and standing on end?”

“And this Jason Morgan makes this happen?” Nikolas asked smoothing her hair from her forehead.

Elizabeth nodded miserably. “Yes, but he—he just…he stopped and then he said it should not have happened. He apologized and said someone of my station deserved more respect.”

“Oh…Elizabeth…”

“And I did not really understand that—I asked him why he was saying these things—he told me that I didn’t understand what I had asked of him—he told me that I was very beautiful and that sometimes an innocent kiss led to more. And then he told me he did not know what he saying. He brought me home then and the last I saw of him was at the stables before Alexis escorted me home.” Elizabeth grasped his hands tightly. “What did he mean, Nikolas?”

“It is simple, my dear sister. You are so young and sheltered. You do not understand what runs through the male mind.” Nikolas sighed. “It is not that he did not want to kiss you but he was afraid of what would have happened if he did not stop or if he did it again.”

“I do…I do not understand,” Elizabeth shook her head.

“He desires you, Elizabeth. He wants to do more than kiss you and he knows that it is not appropriate before marriage especially since you are the chosen two and consummation of your relationship must take place on that night.”

“Why did he just not state that?” Elizabeth sighed. “Why did he have to make me feel so unwanted and rejected?”

“Perhaps he is not accustomed to these feelings or maybe he did not know how to put it into words. I’m sure his intention was not to hurt you.” Nikolas sighed. “As for his family…I wish I could say that time will help but as you can see…it has not done so for me.”

“Perhaps she will come around,” Elizabeth remarked hopefully.

“Perhaps.”

——

When Nikolas reentered his sitting room, he frowned. The room was dimly lit by a few candles scattered around. “Emily?” he called.

The bedroom door opened and his wife peeked out. “Oh…y-you are back sooner than I thought.”

“I—” he swallowed hard at the sight of her dressed for bed in her usual thin cotton nightgown. “I just need to get a few things and I will sleep out here tonight.”

“No,” Emily blurted out. She stepped into the sitting room. “I don’t want you to sleep anywhere but our room,” she said softly.

Nikolas frowned. “Emily, I do not understand—”

“I have been living in terror since the moment my mother told me that the man I had been betrothed to was you…the heir to the throne. Not in terror of you,” Emily added quickly seeing the pain flash in his eyes. “But of what it means for me.”

“Emily…I apologize but I am not following you.”

Emily glanced away and twisted the slim gold wedding band around her finger. “One day, you will become king a-and that will make me the queen.”

Nikolas felt some of the tension bleed from his shoulders. “So it was not me—it was our position, or the one we will hold one day.”

“Yes. All of my life…you have been one thing to me. The crown prince. When we saw one another at balls and social events…I was always expected to treat you as such and now…you are my husband, the man I am expected to share everything with—not just my body, but my heart and my soul and it is a very difficult transition, Nikolas. I just…I did not expect you to be hurt by my distance.”

“I thought it was something that I had done,” Nikolas admitted. “That perhaps…you were not happy with me, in particular. I do not think of my role as prince or future king very often, Emily. It is part of who I am, but not all of it.”

“You have been wonderful to me…in every way,” Emily hesitated, “I did not mean what I said earlier. It is not as though I detested the nights we have spent together.” Her cheeks flushed. “It is rather the opposite of that a-and I thought I might prove that to you tonight.” She stepped towards him and nervously raised her hands to his chest.

He caught her trembling hands in his. “You have nothing to prove to me, Emily.”

Emily’s chocolate brown eyes met his caramel ones and she saw the desire and the longing in them and hoped he recognized the same in her own gaze. Standing this close to him, she could feel the slight tremors in his own body and it helped her relax a little. “Then let me show you,” she whispered. She stood on her tiptoes and pressed her lips to his smooth warm ones.

He released her hands and gripped her shoulders to draw her closer. She was giving herself to him completely this time—in a way she hadn’t before. He tore his mouth from hers and trailed it down her slender neck. Her breath was hot against his face and she was panting by the time he reached the neckline of her nightgown. “I love you,” she murmured.

He pulled away and looked into her eyes, stunned. “Do you really?” he asked.

“Y-yes,” Emily stammered.

The last of the tension left his body and Nikolas leaned his forehead against hers. “I love you, too,” he confided. He bent down and swept her into his arms before carrying her into their bedroom.

March 28, 2014

This entry is part 27 of 27 in the Sanctuary

May 8, 2008

Drake House: Living Room

Madelyn Devane Drake had been walking for nearly six months and each day, she tested her parents’ hearts as she climbed up on chairs, tables and on one memorable day, the kitchen counter.

She had said ‘Dada’ when she’d been thirteen months old and became even more Daddy’s Little Girl than before, which Robin hadn’t really thought possible. She loved both her parents, but she was captivated by her father. As soon as she’d been able to crawl, Maddy had started to seek out Patrick and he’d stop everything to pick her up. He was putty in her miniscule hands.

Robin had reluctantly returned to work when Maddy was six months old and they’d put her in day care where Elizabeth’s three-year-old son had promised to look out for her. He had been bugging his mother for a new brother for weeks and thought if he proved he could be a good big brother, she’d give him one.

But Robin and Patrick couldn’t rest long without going down to check on her and eventually, Maddy would only be in daycare if one of her parents couldn’t keep her with them in their offices. She started to crawl in Patrick’s office and she’d said her first word–the aforementioned ‘dada’–in the nurse’s station when a nurse had been cooing over Maddy in an attempt to flirt with Patrick. The word had fallen from Maddy’s lips and anyone else had been forgotten.

Her first steps had been in an operating room and the first word she had said other than dada had been a mangled form of hospital (so Patrick swore) though Robin had been a bit miffed it wasn’t Mama. That came a month later and she felt like she was dancing on air for weeks afterwards.

Maddy was everyone’s little angel. Mac and Felicia made up excuses to drop by the house just to see her, Brenda flew in from Italy on a whim when she saw a toy that her darling god daughter absolutely had to own. Steven loved to carry her around because babies were great at attracting women–he turned into an honorary uncle.

Anna and Robert had also returned to their respective jobs but were frequent visitors to Port Charles, just popping in every once in a while to see their beloved grand daughter and Noah had been very excited to receive a shirt that said Number One Grandpa on Maddy’s first Father’s Day. Robin had bought a matching one for Patrick, as well as a shirt that said ‘If you think I’m cute, you should see my daddy’ which made her husband grin and kiss her.

Georgie and Maxie argued over who could baby-sit her and often Robin couldn’t pick between the two of them, so on the rare nights she and Patrick consented to leave their daughter at home, Georgie and Maxie (usually joined by Dillon) sat at home with her.

Maddy had had her first birthday in December and Robin and Patrick had had to rent out a room at the Metro Court Hotel to accommodate the large crowd. Maddy had been introduced to Carly at that point, which Robin had reluctantly agreed to after being persuaded by Jax, who had recently tied the knot with her old enemy.

Carly had cooed over Maddy and like everyone else, fell in love with the little girl on sight. Motherhood seemed to bond Carly and Robin where nothing else could and the two had finally put the lingering animosity behind them.

When she was fifteen months old, she’d been the flower girl at Elizabeth’s wedding to Jason, though Robin had had to help her toddle down the aisle. And Elizabeth had selected Robin and Patrick to be her son’s godparents when he’d been born earlier that November (It had taken six months for Jason to convince Elizabeth to marry him and by then, she was heavily pregnant and refused to get married in a maternity gown).

And now, Maddy was eighteen months old, doing her best to climb her father’s leg as he stood in the living room, watching Robin as she spoke on the phone with Steven regarding some very important test results.

Her hair had darkened until it matched Patrick’s shade perfectly, but she’d inherited her uncle Mac’s curls (which was why Mac always wore his hair short, a fact that Patrick hadn’t known until Robin told him where the curls had come from). They were separated into two bouncy pig tails and tied with yellow ribbons that matched her spring dress.

She tugged her father’s pant leg. “Up!” she demanded, giving up on the climbing. Patrick automatically lifted her. She smacked a kiss to his cheek but was disappointed when she realized she didn’t have his complete attention.

“Thank you, Steven,” Robin said softly. She pressed the off button and set the phone on a nearby table before turning to Patrick. She strode forward and pressed a kiss to her daughter’s hair. “Guess what, princess?”

“What?” Maddy asked. She pursed her lips expectantly and Robin kissed her.

“We got the tests back and guess what they said?”

“Robin,” Patrick said, somewhat impatiently. Maddy turned back to her father as if sensing his tension and kissed the tip of his nose.

“They were negative,” Robin said softly. Her eyes filled with tears and she pressed her hands to her lips. “Steven wants to test her again in another six months but she’s negative.”

“Oh, thank God.” Patrick cupped the back of Robin’s neck and drew her in for a relieved kiss. “I mean, I was pretty sure but–”

“It’s still good to hear.” Robin returned his kiss. “I love you,” she whispered to him.

“I love you, too,” he replied.

“I love you!” Maddy parroted. She clapped her hands but then frowned. “What’s that?”

“It means that your mother means more to me than anyone else in the world, except for you,” Patrick told her, hoping she’d understand. “And that I want to spend every day making her smile.”

“Oh.” She turned to her mother. “I love you, Mommy.” And then she looked to her father. “I love you, Daddy.”

“I didn’t think it could ever mean more than it did the day I held her,” Robin said softly, “but I was wrong.” She lifted Maddy into her arms and hugged her tightly. “I love you, too, Maddy.” She closed her eyes. “I will always love you.”

 

THE END

This entry is part 26 of 27 in the Sanctuary

December 3, 2006

General Hospital: Robin’s Room

It was nearly three hours after Robin was out of surgery before her eyelids fluttered and she turned her head to the left. “Patrick?” she murmured.

Anna sat up and leaned forward to grasp her daughter’s hands. “He’s sitting in the nursery, darling.” She smiled when Robin opened her eyes completely and frowned at her mother. “He’s been alternating between your room and sitting with your daughter.”

“Maddy?” Robin whispered. She licked her lips. “She’s all right? It was so early and–”

“She’s fine, love. Absolutely perfect.” Anna sniffled. “She’s in an incubator for just a few weeks to be on the safe side but Steven says she’s healthy.”

“I want–” Robin cleared her throat. “I want to see her.”

“As soon as you can move around.” Anna pressed her lips to Robin’s forehead. “You gave us all a scare. They had to rush you to surgery.”

“What? Why?” Robin coughed and Anna stood to pour her a glass of water. After a long sip, she repeated her questions.

“You were bleeding and the doctors whisked you away so quickly we didn’t know if you would be all right.” Anna took a deep breath and smiled weakly. “But of course you are and now you have a beautiful daughter to show for it.” She patted Robin’s hand. “I’ll go fetch the doctor and see if I can’t drag Patrick away from the nursery.”

General Hospital: Nursery

Patrick handed Maddy back to the on duty nurse and exited, pulling off the protective scrubs. He dumped them in the trash and turned to find Anna waiting for him. “Hey–is Robin awake?”

“She is, and she was asking for you.” Anna peeked through the window and smiled. “I can hardly believe she’s finally here, after all these months.”

“The nurse said that she was going to probably be sleeping the rest of the night,” Patrick said a little regretfully. He flicked his eyes towards the hall that would take him to his wife. “Ah, if you don’t mind–”

“Sure,” Anna waved him on. “I’m sure Robin wants to hear every detail.” She caught his arm as he moved past her. “Patrick, I just want to tell you how very glad I am that you and Robin found each other. You’ve given her a very special gift in Madelyn.”

“We gave her to each other,” Patrick corrected with a tired smile before going to see his wife.

Steven was just exiting Robin’s room when Patrick rounded the corner. He grinned. “Hey, Dad. How’s the new addition doing?”

“She’s incredible. Not doing anymore more than waving her arms and opening her mouth,” Patrick admitted, “but it’s still pretty cool.” He glanced towards the door. “How’s Robin? Is she still awake?”

“She is.” Steven crossed his arms. “A little weak but she’ll feel better in a few days. Barring infection, she’ll make a complete recovery.” He patted Patrick’s shoulder. “If she falls asleep, don’t panic. She’ll be in and out for a few hours but by tomorrow night, that’ll pass.”

“Thanks,” Patrick said. He pushed open the door and sighed in relief when he saw Robin sitting up slightly in bed, smiling at him with tired eyes. “Decided to join the rest of us, huh?”

“Gossip says that you have held our daughter,” Robin replied. “And Steven says I can’t see her until tomorrow, I won’t be able to get into a wheel chair until then.” She grinned as he sat beside her. “And unlike other people in the room, I generally think doctors know what they’re talking about when they say stay in bed.”

“Mm…says the girl who refused to sit out Tony Jones’ memorial service because of a silly life threatening virus.” Patrick took her left hand in his and rubbed his finger over her wedding band. “She’s beautiful. There’s all this hair, I didn’t know babies could be born with so much hair. It’s dark, close to my color I guess. She hasn’t opened her eyes yet but she keeps opening and closing her mouth in this cute little o.” He grinned. “And the nurse says I’m insane but I swear she smiled at me.”

Robin brought her free hand up to trace his dimple. “I hope she has a pair of these.”

“I don’t, my mother always said I got away with murder because I would just smile at her and she couldn’t stay mad at me.” He brought her hand his to his lips and pressed a kiss on her knuckles. “She’s incredible, Robin. I can’t wait for you to see her, to hold her. It’s the most–it’s just the best experience I’ve ever had.”

“I’m so jealous that you’ve seen her,” Robin murmured. “I want to hold her and I want to see her and pretend that she’s smiling at me.”

“You will,” Patrick promised. “I’ve been telling her about you all night, you know. How strong and beautiful you are and how lucky she is to have you for a mother. I’ve been telling her about the things you’ll teach her and how much…” he hesitated. “I’ve been telling her how lucky she is because she’s got a great family and two parents who love each other.”

Robin frowned at him but before she could speak, he continued. “I was standing outside the nursery just thinking about all the times I nearly said it and how much I wanted to say it. I don’t know why I never did because it’s true and it’s been true for months. And I know you know it’s true and I know you feel the same way. I guess…” he licked his lips. “It’s just a big thing to say and once it’s out there, you can’t ever take it back and I guess I was…worried,” he shifted. “Because sometimes it doesn’t last.”

“Patrick–” Robin pressed two fingers to his lips. “You don’t have to say it. I know it.”

“I know you do. But you deserve to hear the words. And don’t you dare say it first,” he warned when he saw her opening her mouth again. “We’ve done this entire thing ass backwards and I’ll be damned if you get to say it first.”

“Well, okay then.” Robin folded her hands primly and waited. When he said nothing, she arched an eyebrow. “I’m waiting over here.”

“I’m not saying it right now,” he told her. “You’re expecting it.”

“And you think I’m perverse.” Robin rolled her eyes and grinned at him. “She’s really here, isn’t she?” She leaned back against the pillows and sighed. “I can’t believe I’m finally a mom.” She looked at him. “And you’re a dad.”

“Which, somehow, terrifies me more now than it did before she was born.” Patrick laced their fingers together. “I told her she’s not dating. Ever.”

“Okay.” Robin patted his arm. “That’s what Uncle Mac tried to tell me and you can see that didn’t work out so well.”

“Hmph…well I guess we have a few years before we have to start worrying about it.” He leaned over to press a kiss to her forehead and then just closed his eyes, staying there for a long moment. “I was so scared, Robin. I was standing in front of the nursery, watching her and I just knew I wouldn’t be able to do it on my own.”

When he pulled back, Robin combed her fingers through his unruly hair and smiled. “Of course you would have. And you would have been incredible at it.” When he looked at her curiously, she arched an eyebrow. “Would you have done to Maddy what Noah did to you when your mother died? Abandoned her, let her deal with growing up on her own? Drowned your sorrows in alcohol?”

He exhaled slowly and felt a little of the weight lift from his shoulders. “No,” Patrick admitted quietly. “No, I would never have done that. But we make a much better team–I could never do it solo.”

“Well, I don’t intend for you to have to.” Robin hesitated. “Was she tested?” she asked softly. “I mean, I know it’s not recommended and she’ll probably only test positive because it’s so soon–”

“Steven didn’t test yet,” Patrick interrupted. “Because he didn’t want to get a false positive. You were on all the protocol, Maddy’s on protocol and they’ll test her when she’s eighteen months old because the antibodies will be gone by then. But Steven’s optimistic. He won’t admit it, but I know he is.”

“I know the odds are in our favor,” she said, “and I was able to keep positive while I was pregnant because I could take the drugs and do all the right things. But now she’s here and it’s out of my hands. I can’t control if she’s HIV-positive now, it’s already decided.”

“I know, but we’re not going to spend the next year and a half worrying about it,” Patrick told her. “We have our daughter and we’re going to have a great time staying up all night, dragging to work the next morning, teaching her to talk and to smile and to raise her head and all that other stuff. If she tests positive, we’ll deal with it then. But we’re not going to dwell on it.”

“No,” Robin promised with a smile. “We’ll concentrate on our miracle.”

General Hospital: NICU

Anna clucked her tongue as she wheeled Robin into the nursery and helped her adjust her protective scrubs. “Patrick wanted to be here when you met her, he’s not going to be happy that you didn’t wait for him.”

“He needed to sleep,” Robin said, “and I’m not waiting anymore. Steven finally gave me clearance.” Patrick had gone home two hours before when he’d passed out in a chair and she couldn’t wake him up by calling his name. She’d ordered him out of the room and Elizabeth had escorted him home with a solemn promise to keep him there until he’d had at least four hours of solid sleep.

But Steven had given her the green light to see Maddy fifteen minutes ago and while Robin felt a teensy guilty about not waiting for her husband, she’d been aching to hold her daughter since she’d woken up that morning.

The on duty nurse gently placed Maddy into her arms and suddenly, everything clicked in place for Robin. She could understand why Patrick was so upbeat and not worried about Maddy contracting HIV. This little girl, this little miracle, was capable of so many wonderful things.

“She’s so beautiful,” Robin said, glancing up at her mother. “Isn’t she perfect?”

“She is, darling.” Anna bent down and kissed her daughter’s head. “Absolutely breathtaking. I’ll be right outside, call when you’re ready to leave.”

“I’ve always wanted to be a mother,” Robin told her daughter. “I’ve dreamed of it for so long but I thought it would always be a dream, I never once thought it could happen. But here you are, in spite of everything. I have to believe that there’s a reason and that God wouldn’t give you to me and then give you the same disease. I have to believe there’s some justice in this world and that’s why I’m choosing to believe that you are safe and healthy.”

“I know your father has already told you so much about your new family so we won’t cover the same old ground — you’ll have the rest of your life to know them anyway. But they are a wonderful group of people and we’re both blessed to have them.”

“If someone had sat me down a year ago and said, Robin, you’ve just met the most incredibly obnoxious and arrogant man but in a year, he’s going to be your husband and he’s going to make your dream of being a wife and a mother come true, I would never have believed them. I could have never pictured the Patrick I knew then being the Patrick he is today. But I’ll tell you a secret–he might like to believe I’ve changed him or taught him things, but the man he is today was always there, hidden beneath the obnoxious exterior.”

“So he’s going to tell you that you’ll never date and that he’ll never let boys within fifty feet of you but I’ll work on him. My uncle Mac used to try that on me, but I fell in love with three wonderful men despite him. There was Stone, my first love and probably the purest. It was uncomplicated and it was sweet and I like to think it would have lasted but I guess we’ll never know. I’ll tell you about him more when you’re older because he was very special to me and he should be remembered.” She hesitated. “Jason kept me breathing, he taught me there was life after tragedy, after devastation and it’s hard to believe that I could be here today without those years with him, so I will always be grateful. And I’m secretly very happy he’s in love with your Aunt Liz, because she deserves some happiness.”

“And then there’s your father, my best love. The best happiness is that which is unexpected and he was definitely a surprise. He crashed into my life and he gave it color again. He gave me my dreams, he gave me laughter and love and he gave me you. So I’ll work on him with the no boys rule because I want you to have a Stone and a Patrick. I want you to have dreams and the drive to make them come true, which something your dad can teach you because he knows how to make something from nothing. He lost his mother and he lost his father for a while, but instead of letting go of his dreams, he worked that much harder to achieve them and now he’s the youngest neurosurgeon in the history of the hospital and the best of course, but if you tell him I said that, I’ll deny it,” Robin teased.

“I’m going to try very hard to be good at being a mother,” Robin promised, “and I promise to always love you, to support you and believe in you.” She leaned down despite the pain and kissed Maddy’s forehead. “Welcome to the world, Madelyn. You were worth the wait.”

There was a coughing from the doorway and Robin looked up and narrowed her eyes. “I better not find out you tied up Elizabeth to make your escape.”

Patrick grinned. “I recruited Jason. He came by with Cameron and distracted her long enough so I could get to the garage. Steven called the house.”

“Hmph, well you’re going right back home to sleep,” Robin told him but he ignored her and knelt in front her chair. “How much did you overhear?”

“I heard you telling our daughter that I was arrogant and obnoxious,” Patrick replied. He cleared his throat. “And telling her that I could teach her make her dreams come true. Thank for you for that, Robin.”

“It’s true,” she said softly. “Because you did it for me.”

“Well, it seemed only fair,” he said, leaning up to kiss her lips. “Because you taught me how to dream in the first place. I love you, Robin.”

Robin grinned — the declaration had been worth the wait as well. She knew it was true, she’d felt it for months and hearing it out loud was wonderful, but now that the words were out there, she realized that she hadn’t needed them after all. Words were nice, but sometimes it was what went unsaid that was more important.

“I love you, too,” she whispered. “I will always love you.”

This entry is part 25 of 27 in the Sanctuary

December 2, 2006

General Hospital: Nursery

He’d pictured this moment a thousand times in his head over the last few months. Every time he’d had an ultrasound with Robin and seen his daughter on that little screen, he’d picture watching her through the glass and he had been sure it would be the happiest moment of his life.

When Robin told him she was pregnant only six months ago, he’d approached the situation with thoughts of obligations and responsibilities. He didn’t really want to be a father, couldn’t really picture it in his head. But he’d been raised to do the right thing and he’d convinced Robin to marry him–though that had been as much for him as it had been for her.

As her stomach grew and he felt his child kick, something inside Patrick began to change and he started to wonder about being a father and what their child would be like. He wondered what it was about the experience that made Robin smile so often or radiate happiness. She was born to be a mother and he knew she’d be a good one. But he still couldn’t really visualize himself as a father, especially as the father of a daughter–a terrifying idea.

But that had changed after an ultrasound in September. It was the first ultrasound in which the baby was more than just a blob on a screen. They’d been able to confirm she was, in fact, a girl and she’d turned her tiny face towards the monitor and Patrick had been able to see his daughter for the first time. And in that moment, watching his baby, watching Robin coo and sniffle over their child, he wondered why he could have ever thought he’d be able to survive without a family.

He had helped Elizabeth paint a fairy tale in the nursery and he’d passed over a challenging surgery to move the furniture in. He’d even sat through the surprise baby shower Brenda, Maxie and Georgie threw for Robin. And Noah caught him more than once reading books about childcare in the lounge. He began to dream about her–what she’d look like, what her personality would be like.

She’d have Robin’s eyes, he’d decided. And Robin’s hair. He really wanted that. And her mother’s height. But maybe she’d have his mouth and his chin. She’d have his long fingers and Robin’s grace. Maybe she’d take dance lessons like her mother or maybe she’d play sports. He could coach a softball team, Patrick decided. His father had coached his Little League team and it had been a great experience for them.

And she’d grow up to be smart–he and Robin would always encourage her to do well in school and to do the best she could. He liked to think she’d carry on the family tradition and go into medicine but he’d love her even if she did something else. If she wanted to be a chef, or a teacher or even a lawyer. She would be gracious and she would have Robin’s dignity, her courage but he wanted her to have his confidence and his self-assurance.

She was never going to date, he’d decided that. Or not until she was thirty at least. She wouldn’t want to leave home after high school and they would have to practically push her to leave them. She’d love them so much she’d come home nearly every weekend and they’d never go ten years without speaking.

And maybe she’d want a sibling or two and Patrick could picture him and Robin having more children and of course, before he realized what he was doing, he’d dreamed of an entire family, each with their own quirks and personalities.

The more he pictured Madelyn Devane Drake, the more impatient he was for Robin’s scheduled cesarean section on January 29. Though her viral load had remained the same throughout the pregnancy and she could have risked a normal delivery, she was still nervous and opted for the safest method.

He had pictured the day of Maddy’s birth for months and it would always include him at Robin’s side, taking all the insults she could throw at him while holding her hand and helping her through the pain. He couldn’t wait for Steven to hand him his daughter so that he could give her to Robin. And he wanted to be able to stand the window of the nursery and point out to anyone who might walk by that that was his daughter there.

But it hadn’t unfolded that way. Instead, Robin had gone into premature labor. He’d rushed her to the hospital with Brenda and Elizabeth’s help. They’d been finishing up the nursery–adding stuffed animals and other things he couldn’t remember. Her contractions had been close together and there had barely been time to contact everyone much less prep her for surgery.

She’d made it into surgery and Patrick had been at her side, holding her hand as Steven had made the first incision. His daughter had been born but he couldn’t hold her as Steven hustled her over to the attending nurse who set Maddy into an incubator and wheeled her out of the room. Disappointed, Patrick had turned to Robin just as the monitors around her began beeping.

And everything had happened so fast after that. The monitors had begun beeping shrilly and Robin’s eyes had slid closed. There was suddenly blood and then Patrick had been all but shoved out of the room.

It had been a terrifying twenty minutes before Steven had emerged from the delivery room to tell Robin’s family and friends that the new mother had begun hemorrhaging during delivery and they had to take her up to surgery to repair the damage. She’d lost a lot of blood and was very weak. And then they’d wheeled the gurney past them, Robin lying so small and pale.

And then she was gone.

And now he stood in front of the NICU where his newborn daughter layin an incubator. She wasn’t in any danger and would be moved to a regular bed in a week or two. But she’d been born eight weeks early and it was better to be safer than sorry.

He felt someone step up to him and knew it was Elizabeth as everyone else was back in the waiting room, pacing and biting their nails. Patrick thought Robin would rather he stay with Maddy.

“I never told her I loved her,” Patrick said roughly.

“She knows,” Elizabeth murmured.

“How?” Patrick cleared his throat and dragged his hand through hair, keeping his eyes glued to his daughter. “I never told her, never even really hinted at it except that one time before the wedding. How could she know?”

“Because sometimes you don’t need the words,” she replied. “Do you think Robin loves you?”

He licked his lips. “I know she does,” he answered after a long moment. “But she still deserves the words.” He glanced at her. “You like to hear the words, don’t you?”

“They’re nice,” Elizabeth allowed. She touched the glass and smiled softly at the new Drake baby. “And yes, sometimes you need the words. If Jason had told me he loved me four years ago, things might have turned out differently. But he didn’t and we both suffered through unhappy marriages before we found each other again but it’s not like that for you and Robin. It’s nice to hear the words and I enjoy hearing them but as long as you know they’re true, you don’t always need to say them.” She touched his arm. “Patrick, if the worst happens, she knows you love her.”

“That’s not allowed to happen,” Patrick said firmly. “I’m not raising our daughter without her. So she’s going to be fine.” He only wished he felt as sure as he sounded.

“Then you can tell her every day for the rest of your lives that you love her,” Elizabeth told him. She tipped her head towards the glass. “She’s beautiful.”

“I didn’t get to hold her,” he said quietly. “For months, that’s all I pictured. Steven would hand her to me, and I would get to hold her. But instead, she’s in an incubator. And Robin hasn’t even seen her. How is that fair?”

“Give me one second,” Elizabeth said, holding up her index finger. She went to the doorway and called over the on duty nurse. After a brief discussion, during which Elizabeth went into the room, she reappeared with a set of protective yellow scrubs. “Put these on.”

In less than five minutes, the nurse had helped settle Maddy into his arms and directed him towards a nearby rocking chair. “You can have about ten minutes and then she has to be back,” the nurse cautioned him before giving him some privacy.

She was tinier than he’d pictured her but still as beautiful as he thought she’d be. She had a tiny thatch of dark hair that was close to his shade but he thought it might lighten to Robin’s hair. Her tiny hands were curled into fists and her eyes were closed. “So I’m your dad,” he said hesitantly.

Maddy didn’t show any signs of hearing him but he went on anyway. “Your mom and me, we’ve been waiting for you for a really long time. I’m sorry you haven’t met her yet, but you’re going to love her. Everyone does.”

“Ah,” he paused and cleared his throat, “I apologize in advance if I screw you up, okay? I don’t really have a lot of experience with this parenting thing and I spent about a decade being selfish and irresponsible. If your mom hadn’t come along, I might still be stuck in New York.” At this Maddy opened her tiny mouth in an ‘o’ shape and he grinned, feeling bolstered by the movement. “But your mom did crash into my life and she seems to know what she’s doing so I’m just going to follow her lead and hope for the best.”

“I don’t have a lot of deep thoughts,” Patrick continued. “I let your mom take care of that stuff. I don’t over analyze and I can be impulsive. It makes a good balance because your mother is one of the least spontaneous women I’ve ever met. And she likes to think something to death before she makes a decision. But she’s also the bravest woman I know. And the most gracious, compassionate and kind woman I know. You could do a lot worse for your family, Maddy. Your grandparents on her side are brave and smart and even a little clever but if you ever tell Grandpa Robert I said that, I’ll deny it. Your Grandpa Noah’s just as brave and he’s smart too. And he’s had lot of life experience. He’s made mistakes and he knows better than anyone how to pick the pieces back up and put them back together so if you ever have a problem you can’t go to me or your mother about, I’d recommend him.”

He blinked and took a deep breath. “There’s Uncle Mac and Aunt Felicia. They’ll always support you, no matter what you decide to do. And your uncle Mac is a cop, so he’ll be able to teach you how to protect yourself. Your cousins Georgie and Maxie know all about being a teenager and boys so I want you to stay far away from them. Your Aunt Brenda…” he hesitated. “She’s loyal. And she’ll always have your back. But she talks a lot, so I recommend bringing earplugs along. And there’s your Aunt Liz, she can teach you how to dream big but please don’t pick up on her taste in men, it’s atrocious and as far as I’m concerned, you’re going to a convent school.”

He brushed a knuckle down her cheek. “I can teach you how to hold a scalpel and how to repel really awful pick up lines and how to tell which guys aren’t good for you. But anything worth knowing is going to come from your mother, because she’ll teach you how to be strong, and how to keep going even when you don’t think you can win. And she’ll teach you how to love and how to care for other people. And about friendship and compassion. I know she’ll teach you because she taught me. And she gave me two of the most incredible gifts I’ve ever received in my life. Herself and you.” He leaned down and kissed Maddy’s forehead. “Welcome to the family, Madelyn. You were worth the wait.”

After he’d handed Maddy back to the nurse and saw her safely settled, he stepped out of the nursery and stripped off the yellow scrubs, balling them up and tossing them in a nearby trash bin.

“Thank you,” he told Elizabeth, hugging her. “That was better than performing my first surgery.”

“Nothing like holding your baby for the first time,” she remembered. She tipped her head in the direction of the waiting room. “Why don’t we head back and wait with the others?”

This entry is part 24 of 27 in the Sanctuary

September 1, 2006

General Hospital: Locker Room

“Do you have a second?”

Robin stilled in her motion of buttoning her shirt and turned to look at an apprehensive Kelly Lee. She smiled faintly. “You waited until Patrick left for the day.”

“Yeah…” Kelly shifted. “I owe you an explanation, Robin,” she said softly. “And I’m counting on your generosity to let me give it to you. You don’t have to forgive me, you don’t have to let me off the hook but I feel like I have to explain myself.”

Robin sighed, and started to sit down–which was starting to be more difficult than it used to be. In the month since the wedding, her little bump had grown and suddenly Robin found many things just a little harder–sitting, standing, lying down. And the finish line was still a distant spot on the horizon.

Kelly held out a hand and Robin gripped it gratefully. “Four months to go and I feel like a house,” Robin sighed. “Why is that?”

“You have a very petite frame,” Kelly remarked. “Any extra weight is going to feel like a ton.” She cleared her throat. “I should start by telling you that my mother died of AIDs.”

Robin’s head snapped up and her eyes filled with sorrow. “Kelly…I am so sorry–”

“She’s been gone for ten years,” Kelly continued, looking away. “I’ve mostly–I’ve mostly come to terms with it. She received it through a blood transfusion before they knew to test the blood. She lived with it for a full decade and well…you actually remind me a lot of her. Courage, grace–not letting it rule your life.”

Robin nodded. “Thank you, I guess.”

Kelly sat down and stared at the ground. “About five years before she died, in 1991, she became pregnant. And despite the doctor’s advice to terminate the pregnancy, she went through with it. I thought–I was sure it would be okay because something like that–” her eyes filled with tears. “Something like that could never happen twice.”

“Kelly…” Robin murmured.

“My brother was born with AIDs,” Kelly continued in a hushed voice. “And for a while, we thought he might still live a full life, like my mother. He was a really sweet boy. Always smiling, always laughing.” She wiped her eyes. “But his body couldn’t fight it and he died when he was four. My mother was devastated and she just…” she sighed. “She lost the will to go on. She died a year later and by the time I was nineteen years old, I was completely alone in the world.”

“Kelly…” Robin reached out and took her hand. “I am so unbelievably sorry for your loss–”

“In the years I’ve been practicing, you were my first patient with HIV, so I panicked.” Kelly swallowed. “I didn’t think I could–I really value you and Patrick, as friends. And I didn’t think I could sit and watch history repeat itself. Even though I know the odds are your baby will be completely healthy, that research has come a long way in the last fifteen years. But I’m sorry and I hope you can forgive me–”

“There’s nothing to forgive,” Robin said softly. “I wake up every morning terrified that I’m going to pass this disease on to my child. But with the advances that have been made, it would have been wrong not to take the risk, take the chance.” Her lips curved into a smile. “This baby was conceived against the odds–a one night occurrence with all the protection in the world. I have to believe that it happened for a reason.”

“I really appreciate you being so nice about this–” Kelly started but the door flew open and Patrick strode in.

“Robin, you’d better be ready go–” he stopped at the sight of Kelly sitting next to his wife and took in the tears in her eyes. “What did you say to her?” he demanded.

“Whoa–” Robin started the laborious process of standing and without thinking about it, Patrick held out his hand to pull her to her feet. “Patrick, Kelly and I were just clearing the air–”

“I thought I told you to stay away,” Patrick began but Robin pinched his arm. “Ow!” he yelped. “What was that for?”

“It’s very sweet that you want to protect me from everything but please believe me when I say that Kelly wasn’t bothering me.”

“Then what she doing here?” Patrick demanded. “What could she possibly have to say–”

“I should just go,” Kelly said awkwardly. “Thank you again, Robin, for accepting my apology. Please–feel free to tell Patrick what I said. Though I don’t blame him for disliking me.”

“You’re damn right!” Patrick called after her as she scurried from the room. “Robin–”

“Patrick, you cannot attack first and ask questions three months later,” Robin rolled her eyes. “You jumped all over those poor nurses last week–”

“They were talking about Liz again and then they said that thing about you–” Patrick shook his head. “I’m not going to let people talk about you like that. You should just accept it.”

“Mmm-hmm, but you have to accept that this is a hospital. It’s life, death and gossip and everything we do is grist for the rumor mill, okay?” Robin gripped the lapels of his jacket and tugged his face down so she could kiss, unable to make it to the tips of her toes anymore. “Now, I thought we agreed that I was still allowed to drive myself home for at least another six weeks. What are you doing back here?”

“Are you going to tell me what Kelly Lee said to you?” Patrick demanded.

“Yes,” Robin said, glaring at him. “What are you doing back here?” she repeated.

“I got a call from the realtor on my way home.” Patrick reached into her locker and retrieved her jacket and purse. “She took me to see a house.”

Robin arched her eyebrows. “I thought we were waiting until after Maddie was born to discuss moving. The realtor was just supposed to get our requirements and wait for us to contact her.”

“Yes, but she found a place that fits all of our requirements but it might go fast so she wanted to give us first dibs.” Patrick bounced on his heels. “So I took a look at it and it’s perfect.”

“We can’t move now,” Robin said, torn between being horrified at the idea of packing up her entire life to move and wanting to bring her daughter home for the first time to her own room in her own house.

“No, we can’t,” Patrick said, “because if you think you’d be doing any of the actual moving, you’re insane. But I can take care of it–”

“You have a busy surgical schedule,” Robin pointed out. “You’ve got one scheduled every week until the baby is born–”

“How hard is it to move from an apartment to a house?” Patrick asked. “We don’t have a lot of furniture and most of our stuff is still in boxes because you never unpacked and I never got my things from storage, so really–this makes sense.”

Robin sighed. He looked excited about it and they had been planning on starting a search after the baby was born anyway. How much harm could it be to at least humor him and go see the house? Chances were it wouldn’t have everything she wanted and she’d be able to talk him out of it.

Twenty-five minutes later, standing in front of the house located at 213 Gardena Court, she fell in love for the fourth time in her life. A two story brick home with flowers decorating the front lawn, ivy crawling up the outside walls, a two car garage and driveway-not to mention the large backyard that she could glimpse even from the front walk.

And a little white picket fence enclosed the front lawn.

“The inside can’t possibly be this perfect,” she murmured. She eyed Patrick suspiciously. “It is, isn’t?”

Patrick nodded and then gestured towards the left. “The elementary school is two blocks in that direction and the hospital six blocks in the opposite direction and, of course–”

“Uncle Mac’s house is three blocks over,” Robin murmured. “How many bedrooms?”

“Three,” Patrick answered. He took her elbow and dangled the key in front of her. “Wanna go see?”

She sighed reluctantly–every woman wanted to spend their final trimester moving, after all. But she agreed and followed him inside, where her suspicions were proved to be correct. The inside was just as perfect. Three bedrooms, two full baths. A large kitchen and adjoining dining room, a front living room and a back room that could be used for anything. And the sparkling water of the lake was visible from the back deck.

“I can see why the realtor thought this place would go quick,” Robin mused. She hesitated. “It is perfect but I’m not sure if we really want to move right now–”

“Look, all we’d really need set up is our bedroom, a table in the kitchen, a couch, a television and of course, the nursery. We can do that in a day,” Patrick insisted. “Well, not we, but I’m sure your uncle and your father would pitch in. And your cousin’s husband. And Liz can probably rope her brother into it, if we need him. And just think–we could bring Maddie home to her own room, instead of a bassinet in our room. I could probably convince Liz to paint fairies or whatever you want on the walls.”

Robin bit her lip. When he put it that way, it did seem like a good idea and she really did want to be settled when Maddie came. “I guess you’d better call the realtor and put a bid in,” she finally said.

Kelly’s: Courtyard

Later, after securing a promise from the house’s owners to have first dibs (they were an elderly couple who were moving to Arizona to be closer to their grandchildren and of course, were suckers for the newlywed pregnant couple who wanted their house), Robin had a craving for Ruby’s chili, so she talked Patrick into taking her to Kelly’s. Not that Patrick required much persuading these days. She only had to make a vague comment about something she might want and it would appear within hours or days of her saying so.

She’d wanted a jar of chunky peanut butter in the middle of the night last week, and instead of pointing out they had the smooth kind in the kitchen like any other sane man, Patrick had put on his shoes and gone to an all night convenience store for her chunky peanut butter.

So, all Robin had to do was merely mention that she was interested in chili and Patrick had made a u-turn and headed for the diner.

Elizabeth and her brother Steven were having dinner there with her toddler, Cameron. She waved them over when they entered the courtyard. “We didn’t order yet, come join us.”

Once, they were all seated and ordered, Elizabeth glanced at Patrick hesitantly before asking, “So, Kelly Lee was looking for you earlier. Did she find you?”

Patrick scowled. “You knew Kelly was looking for Robin and didn’t inform me? Listen, Webber, we’re going to need to discuss the ground rules again–”

“Oh, put a sock in it.” Elizabeth rolled her eyes. “I refused until Kelly told me what she was going to say to you and that changed everything.”

“Oh, so you know.” Robin nodded. “She did find me, thanks. And we worked everything out.” She briefly filled them in on Kelly’s past. “So, I can’t really blame her for a knee-jerk reaction.”

“It’s unfortunate,” Steven sighed. “The advances that have been made are incredible, but every once in a while, you’re reminded of where we’re coming from. I can’t imagine would it be like to go through something like that.”

“But Robin and Patrick don’t have to worry about it, right?” Elizabeth asked, her eyes dark with concern. “Your tests are all still normal, right?”

“My last round of tests show that my viral load is still at pre-pregnancy level,” Robin nodded. “So barring any complications, it should be okay.” She took a deep breath. “But there are no guarantees, Liz.”

“And I refuse to make them any promises,” Steven told his sister. “But we’re doing everything we can.”

“Good.” Elizabeth nodded and grinned. “Hey, just think–Cameron and Maddie could end up together one day.”

Robin laughed. “Oh, that would be great. I’ve been thinking about that lately–all the kids that are going to be in her generation. Molly Lansing and Skye’s having a baby–she’s due soon actually. And of course, Jax’s son, John. But it would be fabulous if Cam and Maddie–”

“Whoa, whoa, I think it’s a little early to be marrying my kid off,” Patrick remarked. “In fact, Maddie’s not going to be thinking about marriage until she’s at least thirty-five. Or boys for that matter.”

“I hear you,” Steven said sympathetically. “I don’t have any daughters but I know that they’re not getting within five feet of the opposite sex. It’s going to be all girl Swiss boarding schools.”

“You got any pamphlets?” Patrick asked, half-serious. Robin whacked his arm. “I’m just looking out for our daughter’s best interests, Robin.”

“Idiot,” she rolled her eyes. She turned her attention back to Elizabeth. “So, Patrick and I just put in a bid on a house–he talked me into it, but it’s really incredible.” She gave them a brief description of the house and Elizabeth clapped her hands to together in excitement.

“You have to let me paint the nursery,” she said. “I haven’t painted much since Cam was born and I miss it so much. Please, please let me paint it.”

“Oh, Patrick already volunteered you,” Robin informed her friend. “But, of course. How could I turn that down?”

“Fabulous,” Elizabeth sat back, satisfied with the turn of events. “I just have to get my brother married off and my matchmaking work is done for the year.” She turned a speculative gaze on her resigned brother. “Brunettes or redheads?”

Steven frowned. “Whatever happened to blo–” He stopped talking abruptly when Patrick shook his head.

“We don’t acknowledge that hair color in her presence anymore,” Patrick informed the other man. “As far as we’re concerned, it doesn’t exist.”

“Right,” Steven drawled. “Redheads, then. But I make my own choices, Bit, don’t think you can mess with me on this.”

“Hey, I am excellent at this,” Elizabeth sniffed. “I managed to get them back together, didn’t I?” she waved a hand at Robin and Patrick. “I mean, sure they’ll say they did it on their own–”

“No, I’ll admit that you saved me from a lot of irritation by pointing out the stuff I was saying to Robin that, you know, sucked,” Patrick told her. “I don’t know if I’d give you all the credit–”

“Well, I would,” Elizabeth nodded firmly. “I also was instrumental in Nikolas and Emily getting back together this time. I’m very good at pairing up other people.” She frowned. “I’m just not having the same success with myself. But I’m working on that too.”

Steven and Patrick both frowned at this. “What are you talking about?” Patrick demanded and Steven said, “I thought we talked about you not hanging out with Jason Morgan. He threatened to kill me once.”

“Me, too,” Patrick nodded. “What’d you do?”

“Tried to date Carly. You?”

“Hit on his fiancee.”

“Repeatedly,” Robin muttered, glaring at him.

Patrick held up his hand in mock protest. “Hey, that was before you started to give me the time of day. I had to pass the time somehow.”

“Anyway, I thought we talked about how I’m not eight and you don’t pick my friends,” Elizabeth said, picking up the thread of the earlier conversation. “And we’re just friends. He’s still hung up on Sam McCall.”

“Damn right,” Steven nodded. “No little sister of mine is going to date that…that.”

Elizabeth arched an eyebrow. “I’ll have you know that I have been there and done that.”

“Me, too,” Robin nodded. “Twice, in fact.”

Steven shook his head, slightly disgusted. “There’s just no accounting for taste.” He met Patrick’s eyes over the table “Be glad you’re an only child. Sisters are more trouble than they’re worth.”

“So are brothers,” Elizabeth replied, whacking him in the arm.