December 15, 2014

This entry is part 2 of 5 in the Fiction Graveyard: Burn in Heaven #1

January 4, 2006

The Spencer House: Living Room

Lanie’s second birthday party was in full swing when Laura pulled Elizabeth aside in the kitchen. Elizabeth left her daughter to the supervision of Laura’s daughter Lulu and her friends.

“I can’t help but notice that you and Jason weren’t speaking to each other when he dropped the two of you off this morning,” Laura said. She poured Elizabeth a glass of iced tea and gestured for her to join her at the table.

Elizabeth sighed and rubbed her eyes. “It’s been a rough couple of days. That letter from Faith…that I received the day of the christening? Well Carly had hidden it in Morgan’s baby book and we forgot about it. It fell out on New Year’s Day and I guess you could say it didn’t go over well.”

“Well…” Laura sighed heavily and glanced through the open door way where Lanie decorating Maxie Jones’ hair with bows. “I told you and Carly two years ago and I’ll tell you again–you should have told him.”

“Maybe…” Elizabeth shook her head. “I just wanted to be normal for a while. If he’d thought Faith was threatening again, I would have been locked in the penthouse for another year and I just…” she exhaled slowly. “Is it so wrong what I did, Laura? Is it so unforgivable?”

“Is it that bad between the two of you?” Laura asked, worried. She squeezed Elizabeth’s hand. “Because you know that Jason learned a lot of about women from Sonny and Sonny’s usual answer to this sort of thing is divorce–”

“No, no…” Elizabeth shook her head. “He’s not that angry–I mean–he hasn’t said anything like that. He just…he hasn’t said much to me period. He asks me how I’m feeling in the morning, if I need anything but…” She bit her lip. “And of course when Lanie’s around, he does his best to act normally but I know he’s angry but he won’t talk about it.”

Lanie rushed into the kitchen and held out a piece of paper with scribbles on it. “Mommy, look!”

“It’s beautiful, sweetheart. Maybe Grandma Laura will want to hang it on the fridge.” At this, Lanie turned to her attention to Laura who happily accepted the drawing. Lanie then rejoined the party.

“I could try to speak to him if you’d like,” Laura offered. “Or I could send Luke in to kick his ass.”

“No, that’s not necessary. I’ll just have to work it out with him. I mean, it’s not like our marriage is in serious trouble,” Elizabeth said, trying to sound confident but her voice broke towards the end of the statement. “I’m pregnant and Lanie’s his whole world. He’s not…he wouldn’t…” she closed her eyes. “Right?”

“Honey, maybe he just needs some time.” Laura patted Elizabeth’s hand. “And if not…you fight. Don’t let him walk out the door and don’t let him shut you out. That’s the worst thing you could do.”

“Hey, Mrs. S., Lanie’s digging into the pile of presents,” Georgie Jones called. “Maybe we shouldn’t stall her any longer.”

Elizabeth laughed and stood. “I suppose not.” She looked back at Laura. “For right now, I’m just going to celebrate my daughter’s birthday and leave everything else for later.”

Corinthos Morgan Warehouse: Jason’s Office

“I made some calls,” Sonny began taking a seat in front of Jason’s desk and ignored the scowl on his partner’s face. “No one has heard or seen Faith Roscoe since she left Port Charles two years ago. She’s dropped off the face of the Earth.”

Jason shook his head and stood. “I don’t buy that. Faith is poison. She creates trouble no matter where she goes. There’s no way she could have stayed hidden.”

“I agree but…” Sonny hesitated. “I don’t know that Faith or anyone for that matter would wait two years for their revenge.”

“Ric waited a lot longer,” Jason pointed out. “And he nearly succeeded. He got in good with Carly, he started to date Elizabeth. He set things up almost just the way he wanted them. But he was thrown off track when Elizabeth got pregnant. He had to move certain things up and that’s when it started to go wrong. He started to get impatient. And it was Faith that we trusted would know when to throw the towel in. We know now that she sent that letter to Elizabeth a few months after she blew out of town. What’s to say she didn’t hole up somewhere and stay under the radar?”

“Because someone like Faith isn’t able to stay under the radar. Too many people were looking for her. She was never someone who was able to keep their agenda hidden.” Sonny leaned forward, planting his hands flat on the desk. “I’m telling you that I don’t think Faith is a threat. And if I’m wrong, we can still step up security a little. Elizabeth gets a full-time guard again and so does Carly. We put men on the locations that everyone frequents.”

“All right,” Jason agreed after a long moment. “I suppose it’s the best we can do.”

“And it’s all we could have done two years ago, Jason.” Sonny straightened and went towards the windows. “I don’t agree with Elizabeth or Carly about keeping that letter a secret but it’s done with Jason and no harm has come to anyone in all this time. I think you should think about forgiving her.”

“She didn’t trust me,” Jason said quietly. “After all that we had been through together and all that we’ve been through in the last two years, she never trusted me to protect her. I don’t know how to forgive that.”

“Well, take it from someone who knows better–it’s not worth losing your marriage over. You and Elizabeth were happy together,” Sonny replied. “She’s pregnant, is this really something you want hanging over your head as she heads into this thing? She had a hell of a time with Lanie. I don’t think she deserves another stressful pregnancy.”

“I would never hurt her,” Jason said, irritated. “And I know what she went through with Lanie. I love them both, I just don’t know if I can…” he shook his head. “Never mind. I’ll set up the assignments and I’ll let Elizabeth know the new arrangements.” He hesitated. “I want people on the Spencer house and on Laura. Laura’s been good to Elizabeth and I don’t care that Luke can take care of her, I know Elizabeth would want Laura safe.”

“I’ll let you be the one to tell Luke about that one.” Sonny opened the door and was startled to find Elizabeth on the other side. “Hey, Elizabeth. I thought you were at Lanie’s party.”

“After we opened the presents and Lanie had about three pieces of chocolate cake, she passed out in the middle of the wrapping paper so that pretty much ended the party.” Elizabeth looked passed Sonny to Jason who had fallen silent and turned towards the window at her entrance. “Sonny…if you weren’t in the middle of anything, I’d like to speak to Jason.”

“Sure, sure.” Sonny patted her on the shoulder and disappeared into his own office.

Elizabeth closed the door behind her and stood just in front of it. “Jason, I don’t know how much more of this silent treatment I can take. I need to know where we stand and I can’t wait for you to decide to grace me with your decision.”

“Elizabeth…” Jason turned and leaned against the windowsill. “I don’t want to do this with you right now. Where’s Lanie?”

“She’s napping at Laura’s–I don’t care what you want to do, we are going to deal with this.” She strode forward. “And I’m not leaving until we do.”

“You’re real good at deciding when we’re going to deal with something.” Jason folded his arms across his chest. “You left me because I lied to you about Sonny, because I didn’t trust you enough to tell you. So maybe you can understand why I’m just a little pissed off that you didn’t trust me enough to tell me that Faith threatened you, threatened our daughter–”

“It never about not trusting you,” Elizabeth cut in. “It was about protecting you, protecting Lanie. You would have driven yourself to exhaustion trying to find Faith. You would have locked me in that penthouse, you would have kept Lanie under lock and key and Sonny would have done the same to Carly. Carly and I discussed and we both agreed that it would do more harm than good.”

“You knew what my life was like, you knew that there would be times like those and you chose to be in my life, to stay married to me, to let me raise your daughter as my own–”

“So this is what it’s going to be?” Elizabeth asked. “Because I did something you don’t agree with, everything we built is gone?” She shook her head. “I don’t accept that, I can’t.”

“Everything we built is on the basis of lie,” Jason stated. “I thought that you trusted me and you don’t–”

“I do trust you, Jason,” Elizabeth argued. “Maybe I made a mistake, I’m willing to admit that. But I did what I thought I had to do. It was two years ago, Jason…” She rounded the desk and touched his arm. She flinched when he pulled away from her and put some distance between them. “Jason, I love you. Please don’t shut me out.”

“I’m not. But I don’t know what you want me to say,” Jason said. “And I know you think you did the right thing. But for two years, you’d led me to believe that you trust me enough to protect you, to take care of you and our family and I find out it was all a lie. I can’t put that away because you don’t think there’s a problem.”

“So we’re going just going to live in silence until you decide how you want to punish me?” A tear slid down her cheek. “Jason, please…” She took a step towards him and felt a slice in her heart when he took a step back. “We can’t live like this, Lanie will know something’s wrong…”

“You’re right.” Jason looked away. “And she doesn’t deserve that. I’ll get a room somewhere or–”

“You’re going to leave me?” The color drained from her face and her skin was almost translucent in the fading afternoon sun. “That’s your answer? You’re moving out of our home?” Her voice started to break, her breath began to hitch.

“Elizabeth, I’m just…I need some time. And Lanie doesn’t need her parents arguing. And you don’t need it either.” He looked away. “You went through a high-risk pregnancy with Lanie. Your blood pressure was through the roof most of the nine months and Dr. Meadows cautioned you against stress this time around. If I’m at the penthouse, we’ll argue. Or there will be same tension that’s been there since I found the letter. I’m not doing that.”

“You’re leaving me and our daughter for the good of the family. Okay.” Elizabeth wiped her eyes. “Fine. You know, you’re right. I’m not sorry. Because I saw my chance to protect you and take care of you, to keep you driving yourself insane searching for a woman who’s done more to wreck our marriage by staying gone than if she had come back at all. Why is it okay for you to make all the decisions and expect me to accept them and then be so angry when I try to do the same?”

She paused in the doorway, “And for the record, Jason, I did not leave you because you lied to me or because you faked Sonny’s death and didn’t tell me. I left you because I came dead last. I came after Sonny, after Carly, after your job…” she chuckled bitterly. “I came after Courtney on your list of priorities. I left because I didn’t like the feeling that being in that penthouse left me with. Feeling worthless, like you didn’t need or want me there. That’s why I left you.”

The door slammed shut behind her and Jason sank into his desk chair, rubbing his hands over his face. How had things gone from nearly perfect to devastation in the matter of a few days?

His eye caught a sheaf of papers to his left and he saw Sonny’s paperwork on the investigation into Faith’s disappearance.

She may be gone, but she was still destroying lives in her wake.

A Room

Faith Roscoe leaned back in chair and crossed her legs, still laughing over the scene between Jason Morgan and his mousy little wife. She’d watched it more than once, still delighting in the fact that she’d broken them up without having to raise her pinky finger.

“It’s almost too easy,” she sighed, pressing the rewind button and then paused so she could focus on the distraught expression on Jason’s face as he reserved a room at the Port Charles Hotel.

She turned back to her table and spread the photos out again. She tucked away the Spencer family photos, knowing that Laura and her children would be under Sonny’s protection as well as Luke Spencer’s. They would have to wait.

But there were others in their lives that perhaps they wouldn’t think to protect. Faith slid a set of photos out from beneath Carly’s. Information was a powerful weapon, she decided. The more you had, the more damage you could do.

“Just by looking at your photo, I can understand why Carly Corinthos can’t stand you,” Faith murmured as she lifted a candid photo and tacked it to the wall. “You do look like a pretty little princess that can’t keep her nose out of everyone else’s lives.”

General Hospital: Locker Room

“How’s your first week of rounds going?” Robin Scorpio asked as an exhausted Emily Quartermaine changed back into her street clothes, balling her green scrubs into her backpack.

“They’re going,” Emily smiled at her old friend. “If I’m this tired as a med student, I shudder to think about interning.”

“You get used to it after a while,” Robin confided. She slipped her purse over her shoulder. “I’m going to grab some dinner at the Outback, you wanna join?”

“No, it’s Lanie’s birthday today and I wanted to drop a present off. I missed her party,” Emily shrugged. “It’s just a My Little Pony set but I want to make sure she gets it tonight. Besides, I haven’t seen her since Christmas.”

“It’s still so weird to me that Jason married Elizabeth Webber,” Robin laughed as they exited the locker room. “When I moved to Paris, she was practically married to Lucky. But you know, they suit each other.”

“It took me a while to see it,” Emily admitted. “And I screwed up my relationship with my brother for good, but yeah, they do. And Lanie is just the most adorable ever.”

They took the elevator down to the lobby and started for the parking lot. “So how has it been adjusting back to life in Port Charles?” Emily asked.

“So much has changed since I moved away,” Robin admitted. “People, places. It was only five years but it feels like so much longer.” She waved to Emily who walked in the opposite direction towards her car and then Robin stepped off the curb to go to her car.

A car that had been moving very slowly down the road suddenly gunned its engine and careened straight towards the petite doctor.

“Robin!” Emily called frantically. Robin turned and her eyes widened at the sight of the car. Before she could take another step, someone grabbed her arm and dragged her back onto the curb and out of the path of oncoming car.

Robin took a shaky breath and looked at her rescuer. “Thanks–I didn’t even see that car.”

Emily dashed over to join them. “Thank God, I didn’t think–” she embraced Robin tightly. “That car could have killed you.”

“I should have been watching where I was going,” Robin laughed tremulously. She looked back at the dark-haired man who had grabbed her. “Really–thank you.” She held out her hand. “Robin Scorpio.”

“Patrick Drake–and I think you should ask yourself who has it out for you,” he ignored her hand. “I heard that car gun its engine the second you stepped off the curb.”

Robin let her hand fall to her side and she looked out to where car had disappeared into the night. “That’s…that’s ridiculous. Who would want to hurt me?”

A Car

Faith pulled over to the side of the road and slammed her hand on the wheel. “God damn Good Samaritans,” she snarled.

This entry is part 1 of 5 in the Fiction Graveyard: Burn in Heaven #1

Prologue

January 1, 2006

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

Elizabeth Morgan knelt in front of the fireplace and motioned with her hands. “Come here, baby.”

Laura Morgan toddled towards her mother and giggled when Elizabeth enveloped her in her embrace. “That’s my girl!” Lanie–the name that Luke Spencer had christened with after realizing how confusing it would be with two Lauras in the family–had been walking for almost six months but Elizabeth would never get tired of seeing her daughter coming towards her on her unsteady legs.

She picked Laura up and started towards the bottom of the stairs. “Jason! We have to go across the hall!”

She heard a door shut and a few moments later, he appeared at the top of landing. He hurried down the stairs and took Lanie from her. “You shouldn’t be lifting her,” he chastised.

Elizabeth rolled her eyes. “I’m six weeks pregnant, Jason. It’s okay to lift Lanie every once in a while, I won’t keel over.”

“Still.” Jason shifted. “How many times has Carly called?”

“Three, we were due over there twenty minutes ago for brunch.” She wiped a bit of shaving cream off his cheek and smiled at him. “But she said that since you were up late with Lanie last night, you would be forgiven if we went over now.”

“We’re staying for an hour and then we’re coming home so you can lie down,” Jason moved past her and pulled open the door.

“Jason, plenty of women manage to go three or four hours without lying down,” Elizabeth said as they exited the penthouse.

Corinthos Penthouse: Living Room

“So, I told Laura that if she wanted to use that girl for the new Face, she’d have to walk over my dead body,” Carly said as she took the glass of orange juice Sonny offered her. Sonny sat next to her and put his hand on her knee, keeping an eye on Michael across the room who was playing with his sister, Morgan and his cousin Lanie.

“And Laura probably told you go to screw yourself, she owns fifty one percent of the company and she’d do what she’d like,” Elizabeth laughed as she sipped her milk and then set it on the coffee table. “I can’t believe the two of you went back into the company, it’s wild.”

Carly shrugged and smiled wickedly. “Can’t let Laura get too complacent after all. I think she agrees about Isabella being a poor choice for the Face but she just doesn’t like to admit when I’m right.”

“Since that only happens once a year…” Sonny teased and ducked Carly’s half-hearted swing.

“And just think, instead of owning the gallery with me, you work with your other mortal enemy,” Elizabeth smirked.

Carly snorted. “One Corinthos-Morgan owned enterprise in this city is quite enough and I don’t want people getting the idea that I like you.”

“Can’t have that,” Elizabeth agreed. “And just for the record, it would have been Morgan-Corinthos.”

“Alphabetical order,” Carly shook her head. “It’s just the way things are done in the corporate world, Muffin.”

“Yeah, okay,” Elizabeth rolled her eyes. “Oh, hey, I brought those photos you asked about from the Christmas party.” She reached for her purse as Carly strolled to the bookshelf.

“What photos?” Sonny questioned.

“Elizabeth has a great shot of Morgan that I wanted for her baby book,” Carly answered as she pulled a white book from the top shelf, missing the white envelope that slid from its pages.

“Yeah, I was pleased with how nice it came out,” Elizabeth said, handing the photos to the other woman. “There are also some nice ones of all three kids, I thought. I have doubles for Lanie’s book but I thought you might want them.”

“Thanks,” Carly said. She started to flip to an empty page.

“I’m going to get another cup of coffee,” Sonny said. He stood and looked to Jason. “You want one?”

“Sure,” Jason held out his mug.

Sonny nearly stepped on the envelope lying on the carpet. “Hey, Carly–this must have fallen from the book–”

Carly frowned and looked up. “What is it?” she asked. “I don’t remember any–” Her eyes grew wide and she met Elizabeth’s panicked ones. “Oh–right–that.” She all but tossed the book on the shelf in her hurry to stand and get to Sonny. “Here–give–”

But Sonny had already focused on the name scrawled across the front in blood-red ink that had not faded in two years. He slowly raised his eyes to Elizabeth’s pale face. “It’s addressed to you.”

“To Elizabeth?” Jason looked at his wife. “What’s this about?”

“It’s–it’s nothing–” Carly bit her lip. “Just a little note to Elizabeth that I must have forgotten to give to her–” she reached for it. “Can–”

Sonny slid the note from the envelope and read the words scrawled in the same crimson ink.

Congratulations on the baby, Princess. I’m sure you and your hubby are just thrilled. Have a drink on me and don’t worry–I’ll be sure to see you soon.

Love,
Faith

Elizabeth exhaled slowly. “Jason–”

“When did she send this?” Jason demanded. He stood and ripped the letter from Sonny’s hands. “Elizabeth?”

“Not longer after Lanie was born,” Elizabeth sighed. “I brought it to Carly and we agreed–” she bit her lip. “We agreed that there was no immediate threat–Faith wouldn’t be back any time soon and we knew what would happen if we told you–we’d just go into lockdown and our lives were just getting back to normal–we decided to keep our eyes and ears open and we’d tell you if it became necessary.”

“Right,” Carly nodded, not wanting the brunette to shoulder the blame alone. “We both agreed and as time passed, and nothing happened–we both just sort of forgot about it. It’s obvious Faith is long gone, right?”

Jason slowly folded the note and handed back to Sonny. “We’re leaving. Now.”

Elizabeth sighed and stood. “Jason, don’t do this–”

“How could you not tell me about a threat made to our family?” Jason demanded. “How could you hide this from me?”

“I didn’t–” Elizabeth shrugged. “Faith was always talk and no action. She never pulled anything off–that was all Ric. I thought she was honestly just trying to rile me, trying to make me nervous. I didn’t think that there was any danger–I still don’t.”

“It’s not your job to determine the danger,” Jason said shortly. “It’s mine.”

“We know that,” Carly said quietly, “but Faith is more than just part of the job–she came after Elizabeth because of Ric. Ric’s gone, she has nothing left here in Port Charles and she’s too smart to come back here. She lit out because things were going wrong–she’s not coming back, Jason. We never would have kept this to ourselves if we honestly believed Lanie was in danger.”

“You know I wouldn’t put Lanie in danger,” Elizabeth said. She crossed to Jason and put a hand on his tense forearm. “Faith isn’t part of the job–anything she does now is personal and you can’t blame me for protecting my family from her. You know I’m right–Faith was trying to get a rise from us and she’s succeeding–if I had told you about this two years ago, you would have locked us in the penthouse until you found her and I just–I couldn’t do that again. Please tell me you understand.”

“I don’t,” Jason said. “But it’s too late for that now.” He looked to Sonny. “It’s been two years, if Faith were going to do anything she would have done it already.”

A Room

A woman sat in front of a mirror and leaned forward to apply a coat of her signature color to her lips.

She turned to pause the tape that had been playing on her television. The image of a pleading Elizabeth amused her–and the sight of her husband trying to hide his anger was too delicious. The timing was perfect for her return–they were too smug, too sure that the danger had truly passed them.

She’d been waiting for this moment–had been observing for over two years just waiting for her opportunity.

After all, the best revenge was a dish served ice-cold.

“All talk and no action, Princess?” Faith Roscoe laughed. “We’ll see about that.”

December 9, 2014

storyI’m not even sure why I bothered to ask if you wanted updates earlier than scheduled. Ha. Maybe to hear myself speak 🙂 As stated earlier, I’ll be moving servers on Friday. This will likely lead to the site being down for at least a day while things are shifted around and reconnected.  I’ll retain the address to the page, so you don’t have to change any book marks. I’m basically upgrading the hardware behind the scenes. I keep getting 404 Page Found links when I’m doing updates so it’s bugging me.

So, The Best Thing, Chapter 14 and All I Want For Christmas, Part 3 is now online. I might not update next week mostly because I wrote myself a little close to my buffer zone, and Cora, without whom I could not live, has an actual life separate from being my beta reader. Ha. So my new chapters are not yet Cora-approved. I don’t want to have to change and edit typos later. So wish her good luck on her finals 🙂 We’ll probably only miss a week. (Though now that I think about it, I’m not even sure I sent her Chapter 15 and 16. Hm. Will have to get on that.)

In other site news, the media page has now been redesigned into the music section to reflect better organization. On that page, you can links to sitenewsmy Spotify and Grooveshark music profiles — if you’re going to follow one of them, I recommend Spotify because you can preview soundtracks that I’m building for upcoming stories and you have access to the entirety of 2000+ Writing Soundtrack.

The page also has an artist/song highlight and musical spoilers. Plus a Matt Hunter music videos. Good times.

In site customization news, I finished tweaking the majority of the stories on the Alternate History section so that they’re all styled with the new colors, character pages cleaned up, etc. I also added a Character Guide page under Extras to remind readers of the minor GH characters of old that I tend to throw into the mix, as well as my small stable of original characters.

This entry is part 3 of 9 in the All I Want For Christmas

We won’t know what we’re missing
If we don’t go out for Christmas
Maybe we should stay in, baby
Won’t know what we’re missing
If we don’t go out for Christmas tonight

Christmas Tonight, Dave Barnes & Hilary Scott


December 9

ELQ: Jason’s Office

Elizabeth stepped over the threshold and closed the door before leaning on it. “We’ve got to stop meeting like this.”

Jason sighed and leaned back in his chair. “I know. I know. I’m sorry about last night. This is just—a crazy time of the year.” He rose from his desk and crossed the room to her, dropping a kiss on her mouth. “The board didn’t like one of the projections for next quarter, so I had—” He shook his head. “Never mind, it’s not important.”

“Hey, you date the CFO of a worldwide conglomerate during the end of the year, you take what you get.” Elizabeth arched a brow. “We don’t actually have to meet every day—”

“I want to meet every day,” he murmured, dipping his head to slip his tongue between her lips. She parted for him and wrapped her arms around his neck.

“Not going to argue with that,” she replied when he drew back. “Besides, I had fires of my own to put out last night.”

He led her across the office to the sofa where she curled up next to him. “What’s up?”

“Oh, well, I’m juggling my usual duties in addition to the stuff Emily usually does,” Elizabeth said. “So I have to secure the venues for the next six months of events. The Metro Court wanted to renegotiate the price for the AIDS benefit in June.” She rolled her eyes. “If their ballroom weren’t perfect for the performances during the Nurse’s Ball, I’d swear, we’d go elsewhere, but I managed to talk them down.”

“AJ’s ex-wife runs the place, so she likes to get her digs in when she can,” Jason explained. “They got pregnant in high school, she saw dollar signs and they were married for four miserable years until AJ finally paid her to go away. She bought into the hotel and has been plaguing us ever since.”

“Oh, that’s Michael’s mother?” Elizabeth asked. “Emily has photos of him on his desk. I wondered why AJ had a son in his early twenties.” She shrugged. “Though Carly being the first wife explains why he’s never remarried. I’d swear off marriage after that.”

Jason laughed. “Well, we don’t do that in our family that often. My grandparents have been married nearly seventy years.” He hesitated. “My…parents closer to forty-five. Ned’s been married four times and taking his fifth round.”

“Five?” Elizabeth smirked. “Someone’s a glutton for punishment.”

There was a light knock on the door. They both got to their feet, and Jason answered it. “Spinelli—” He stopped. “Ah, Mo-Monica.”

Elizabeth straightened the bottom of her skirt as Jason’s stepmother swept in the room, in a perfectly pressed pink Chanel suit, pearls at her ears and her neck.

“Can we speak alone?” Monica Quartermaine asked, eying Elizabeth.

“Monica, this is Elizabeth Webber. She’s Emily’s executive assistant.” Jason hesitated. “And I mean, we’re—”

“I don’t particularly care. You can go,” she told Elizabeth, who bristled.

“Elizabeth and I are going over plans for the ELQ parties this month, so if there’s something you need to say, Monica, then maybe you should say it and go.”

Elizabeth wrapped her arms around her waist, an ache in her chest. Jason’s shoulders were so tight and he looked so miserable. She was sure he’d been about to tell the woman who raised him they were seeing one another, but Monica had swept it away.

“Fine.” Monica lifted her chin. “As you are in a position of personally working on the holiday parties this year, I wanted to assure myself that our usual arrangements will be honored.”

Jason flicked his eyes to Elizabeth who wanted to shrink back. “Of course, Monica. I didn’t suddenly think I’d be invited. Elizabeth will be the ELQ rep at the hospital.”

“Good.” Monica cast another eye at Elizabeth before exiting.

“You’re not going to the hospital parties?” Elizabeth asked.

“Ah, I have those final decorator contracts you wanted.” Jason rounded his desk and reached for a pile of paperwork. “Accounting already cut the checks.”

“Thanks.” Elizabeth took the contracts from him and set them on the desk. “Jason, what’s the usual arrangement?”

He shook his head. “It’s not important, Elizabeth—” He lowered himself into the chair and reached for a pile papers on his desk. “I should get some of this work done if I wanted to be free tonight—”

He cut off his words abruptly when Elizabeth climbed into his lap, straddling his waist in one of her looser dresses. “I still have twenty minutes of my scheduled meeting.”

Jason hesitated, his hands automatically going to her waist to keep her steady. “Elizabeth—”

“In fact,” Elizabeth said, slowly undoing the buttons of her silk blouse and drawing the sides apart to reveal the pale red bra she wore underneath. “Maybe you should ask Spinelli to give us another ten to make up for the interruption.”

A smile tugged against his lips. “Elizabeth, you don’t have to—”

“Jump you the way I’ve wanted to since the moment you stepped off the elevator my first day of work?” Elizabeth let the blouse fall from her shoulders to the floor before reaching for his buttons. “I nearly swallowed my tongue the first time you said my name.”

“Then you’ll come with me to the ELQ parties?” Jason asked, dancing her fingers up her thigh.

Her eyes nearly crossing from the sensation, Elizabeth attempted a scowl. “That’s dirty pool, Jason Morgan.”

“Turnabout’s fair play.”

She unknotted his tie and tossed it aside. “Well, if those are the terms, I suppose I have no choice.” She dipped her head to find his mouth. “You drive a hard bargain.”

“You have no idea,” he responded, his voice low and gritty. He reached out blindly for his intercom. “Spinelli, push any meetings back. And no interruptions.”

ELQ: Elizabeth’s Office

There was something to be said for a quick office romp, which was half the reason she’d worn her hair loose today. Elizabeth entered her office suite, only to find Maxie Jones and her sister waiting by her assistant’s desk. “Oh, was today the final fitting?”

“Please, Liz, like I didn’t confirm this a hundred million times.” The perky blonde rolled her eyes. “Kate wants to make sure everything looks perfect, since these are going to be in the January issue.”

“Fine.” Elizabeth set the paperwork Jason had signed on Kiki Jerome’s desk. “Kiki, get these back to the vendors. Georgie, Maxie, come back into my office so I can try these on.”

“I love working at Crimson,” Maxie bubbled. “I get to borrow a dress for the New Year’s Eve gala.”

“And I get to hem it,” Georgie sighed. “I hate this job.”

“It’s paying for college,” her sister retorted. She drew out the first garment bag from the rack. “This is your Oscar de la Renta. The red silk with the ruffle back bow and mermaid silhouette.”

Elizabeth sighed and disappeared behind the changing screen. This was not her first fitting with gowns from Crimson Magazine, nor would it be her last.

“So, gossip on my floor is that you’re the new hottie seeing Jason Morgan.”

Elizabeth emerged from the screen, her back to Maxie for zipping. “We are. How did it get down there so fast?”

“Oh, news travels in the ELQ building. Nothing ever stays a secret.”

Elizabeth sighed and stepped up on the stool so Georgie could check the hem and the fit. “It’s…nothing serious, Maxie.”

“Well, duh.” Maxie rolled her eyes. “No one’s ever known Jason to do anything serious. He’s not like the rest of his family.”

Elizabeth wasn’t sure which part of that sentence disturbed her more. “What?”

“Oh, they all go for marriage within like the first five months. It’s why they rack up marriages so fast.” Maxie jerked a thumb at her sullen sister. “She’s Dillon Quartermaine’s first wife. Well, only wife at the moment. They got married straight out of high school. Lasted a whole year.”

“I’m going to stick you with this pin,” Georgie threatened.

“Tracy—that’s Ned’s mom—married at least six times, though I don’t think anyone’s kept up with the names. Ned’s been married four times, AJ got married that once. Alan and Monica have been married for ages, but whoo, did they have the affairs. Well, of course you know all about that.”

“Hmmm…” Elizabeth murmured stepping down. “What’s the next dress?”

“The Badgley Mischka.” Maxie reached for the second garment bag. “People are going to ask you, Liz. You gotta tell them the right names. It’s got the emerald draped chiffon, one shoulder with the a-line.”

“Right.” Elizabeth moved back behind the screen. “Ah…what else do you know about the Quartermaines?” she asked, hating to pump Kate’s assistant.

“Oh. Well, there’s Emily. She was married once, too. To Zander Smith, though that ended in a great deal of tears. We all like her Greek prince much better. But you know, as far as I know, Jason’s never been married.” She pursed her lips. “I’d like to think I would have heard if he had.”

Elizabeth handed the red dress back to Maxie who put it back in the garment bag and hung it on the rack. “Well, I guess that’s good.”

“I guess. I mean, there’s always gossip on who’s sleeping with who but it’s hard to know who to trust to be honest. I mean, if you believe half the tales, Jason’s slept with most of the women who’s passed through the ELQ doors. There was even a rumor about me and him once.”

Elizabeth stepped out in her green gown. “And…that’s just a rumor.”

“Yup. Not that I wouldn’t have jumped him because you know, hello! But people just talk. Don’t have anything better to do.” Maxie pursed her lips and stepped back. “Take up the right side just a bit, Georgie.”

“Um, if you could not…confirm the rumors about me seeing Jason.” Elizabeth hesitated. “I mean, it’s not like I’m keeping it a secret. But we work together, and I just….I don’t want people talking about me.”

“Then less hickeys on the collar bone,” Maxie said. Elizabeth clapped her hand over the red mark she hadn’t noticed until then. “Or I can send over this super duper powder that works wonders.”

“Thanks, Maxie.” She eyed herself in the mirror in a designer dress she was borrowing from the magazine publisher in order to fit in at a party where the jewelry would be real and the dresses owned.

Yeah, this was going to end well.

This entry is part 14 of 34 in the The Best Thing

When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you’re braving
Don’t tell yourself you can’t lean on someone else
Cause we all need saving sometimes

– We All Need Saving, Jon McLaughlin


Thursday, July 14, 2005

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

Elizabeth glanced at the clock on the mantel and winced. She fastened her earring as she slid her feet into her heels. “I’m going to be so late.”

Nora set Evie on the playmat behind the armchair then straightened. “I thought your meeting with your agent wasn’t for another hour.”

“Yeah…” Elizabeth crossed the room and retrieved her portfolio where she’d stowed it the night before in Jason’s office. “But I still have to pack up Cam, drop him at my grandmother’s before I can meet him at the Grille.”

Nora pursed her lips. “Ms. Webber, did I do something to annoy you?”

“What?” Elizabeth blinked. She set the portfolio on the ground. “Why?”

Nora gestured towards the mat where Cam sat, tugging toys from the basket she kept there. “He can stay with me, Ms. Webber. I’m here with Evie anyway.”

Elizabeth wrinkled her nose. “But you’re her nanny, I mean I know you watched him in New York—”

“But you’ve refused to let me since you and Mr. Morgan started dating.” Nora crossed her arms. “You’re always dropping him with your brother or grandmother. Did…did I do something wrong? I mean, if you don’t like me—”

“Nora, if I had a problem with you watching my son, why would you think I wouldn’t say anything to Jason?” Elizabeth tilted her head. “You’re fantastic with Evie. But I don’t pay you, Jason does. I don’t want you or him to think I’d take advantage of that arrangement. Cam and I…we’ve got our own thing—”

“Ms. Webber, if I could be real for a second here.” Nora held up a hand. “Mr. Morgan pays me an insane amount to hang out with Evie the few hours a day he’s not here. In fact, I’ve been praising the heavens you guys are together since he actually leaves the house at night. I mean, I barely earn the money I make, which is fine, but seriously. One more kid, who’s as awesome as Cam, is not taking advantage.” She shrugged. “Plus, you’re here so much—”

“I mean, I guess it hadn’t really occurred to me,” Elizabeth said. “I…just…I don’t know. I guess in my head, it’s one thing for Jason to hire a nanny, but…” She lifted a shoulder.

“It’s a mom thing.” Nora nodded. “You don’t work full-time like Mr. Morgan, so why would you bother with a nanny instead of baby-sitters as needed. Totally get it. We talked about this kind of stuff in my gender studies class all the time—”

At Elizabeth’s blank look, she explained. “I’m a part-time college student, that’s why I had Mondays off last semester. Anyway, it’s like this societal pressure on a mother. Gender stereotypes.”

“Um. I guess.” Elizabeth scratched her brow. “I mean I guess we could talk about it, but—”

“Let me make your life easier today by keeping Cam.” Nora shrugged. “We can work out any particulars later, but I can assure you I’m already basically overpaid.”

“Hmmm…” Elizabeth rested her hands on her hips. Nora might not realize it, but Jason overpaid her to ensure loyalty and to compensate for guards and security inconveniences.

Still, Nora was already here and Cam liked her. What could it hurt to allow the woman to watch him?

“All right.” She leaned down to brush a kiss on Cameron’s head. “Bye, baby. Be good for Nora.” She paused and then brushed a kiss to Evie’s cheek. “I’ll see you both later.”

Evie grinned at her, and held out a red truck with both her chubby hands. Elizabeth laughed and pressed the button to make the sirens wail. She giggled and then threw the truck.

“Thanks, Nora,” Elizabeth hefted the portfolio in her hand and left.

If she’d waited five minutes longer, she could have avoided the blonde woman waiting for the elevator. She turned to Milo who just shrugged and joined his brother Max who stood next to Carly.

Carly glanced at her as the doors opened. “Elizabeth,” she said stiffly. She glanced at the portfolio. “An art thing?”

The almost pleasant tone took Elizabeth aback for a minute, so she was slow to step onto the elevator. “Oh, yeah. A meeting with my agent.”

Carly nodded and folded her arms. They were both quiet as the elevator slipped from the fifteenth floor to the thirteenth. Carly cleared her throat. “So I guess things are good with Jason.”

Elizabeth glanced at her from the corner of her eyes. “They’re okay,” she drawled. “Why?”

“I mean you and your son are here all the time.” Carly shrugged. “That’s good. I mean, I want Jason to be happy.”

Remembering Jason’s suspicions, Elizabeth just nodded. “Well, we make each other happy.” Maybe she was baiting the harpy, but a pleasant Carly was a plotting Carly.

And a plotting Carly did no one any good.

“I figured.” The elevator slid to the fifth floor. Elizabeth had never wanted to see the parking garage more than anything else in her whole life. “It doesn’t bother you, about Evie, I mean?”

“What about Evie?” Elizabeth turned slightly, surprised Carly would address the situation so directly. “She’s a beautiful little girl.”

“I’m sure she is, but you know, people are talking about it all.” Carly shrugged. “But I guess if you don’t mind being known as the rebound—”

Elizabeth rolled her eyes as the door slid open and they both stepped into the parking garage. Milo stepped away to talk to the guard to bring around both cars. “Carly—”

“I mean, he was screwing that whore all of last year. They were planning a family together. It doesn’t bother you that Jason’s dumped you in her place?” She arched a brow. “He went and found himself a mother for his bastard.”

What the goddamn hell? Elizabeth stepped towards the other woman. “Are you serious? You’re coming at me because Jason and I are together more than six months after Evie’s mother died? What about you? How fast did you spin between Tony, Jason, AJ, and Sonny?” She narrowed her eyes. “And we can’t forget Lorenzo Alcazar.”

“I’m saying,” Carly said, her teeth clenched. “I’m surprised you don’t resent being a replacement for Jason’s whore. You know she screwed Sonny, Jason and Jax in about a five minute span—”

“That would be Sam’s business, not mine.” Elizabeth tossed her hair over her shoulder. “You know, Carly, for someone who says they want Jason to be happy, you sure spend a lot of time attacking Jason’s choices.” Lowering her voice, she continued, “Maybe this is a concept you don’t understand but Evie is not Sam, and to paint the daughter with the alleged sins of her mother is so goddamn reprehensible, I can’t even begin to see why Jason bothers with you.”

“Please, little Miss Mary Sunshine. I live in the real world.” Carly stepped towards her. “I know what Jason has done for me in my life. I am well-aware of the fact that everything I have — my marriage and my boys — is because Jason made that happen. He has protected me for years. You think I’m not grateful?”

“You’ve got a funny way of showing it,” Elizabeth snapped. “Attacking me, attacking Sam, attacking Evie…what the hell is wrong with you, Carly? You’ve got your precious marriage, your penthouse, your club, and your gorgeous boys. Why the hell are you so unhappy?”

Carly laughed then, a bitter and nearly twisted sound. “Please. Don’t throw stones at a glass house, honey. You and I both know what’s making me miserable.”

Her car drew up then. “I hate the way Jason and Sonny are around each other now,” Carly said. “You know how close they were once. How much Jason depended on Sonny, loved him, looked up to him.”

“I do.”

“That’s all gone now.” Carly pursed her lips. “Maybe it’s gone because Jason…” She paused. “Because Jason took Sam away under Sonny’s nose, but we all know when it started. We all know who’s to blame for this.”

Elizabeth drew her brows together. “Carly—”

“You think because I’m a narcissistic, self-absorbed bitch I can’t see what’s right in front of my face?” Carly demanded. She stalked to the car, where an impassive Max stood with the door open. “I started it. The night I slept with Sonny. When I let Sonny adopt Michael. I’d even bet money that Jason went after Sam to get her away from Sonny, so I wouldn’t destroy him in court over the boys.” She shook her head. “Nothing I’ve tried so far has fixed it. I don’t even know if I can. So here’s my piece of advice to you, Sunshine.”

Elizabeth pressed her lips together and remained silent, because Carly’s behavior was more troubling than she’d expected.

“Make Jason as happy as you can for as long as you can. He deserves it after the bullshit Sonny and I have put him through.” She stopped. “Will continue to put him through. He’s too good for both of us, and you know we’ll destroy him sooner or later. Make him see that. Because the only one who can make this stop now is Jason.”

Carly stopped and closed her eyes. “God, I really am a selfish bitch.”

And with that, she slid into the car and Max closed the door. His dark eyes met Elizabeth’s. “You all right, Miss Webber?”

“No,” Elizabeth admitted. “I never know what to think about Carly.”

“Join the club,” the older guard murmured as he slid into the passenger seat.

After Carly’s car had driven out of the garage, her car drew in front of the guard’s station. Milo hurried forward to open the door for her. “Miss Webber?”

She sighed and handed him her portfolio to place in the trunk. “Is this what if feels like when someone declares war?”

“I wouldn’t…know, Miss Webber.” Uncomfortable now, the young man shifted. “But I bet it’s not far off.”

General Hospital: Cafeteria

“Would you mind if I took a seat?”

Audrey glanced up and smiled warmly at her old friend. “Of course, Monica. Join me.” Monica set down her lunch tray as Audrey moved a set of charts to the side. “How are you?”

“Good.” Monica tore open a sugar packet and dumped the contents into her Styrofoam cup. “And…you? Your family?”

Audrey smiled, and took pity on Monica because she knew exactly what the point of this little meeting was. “Elizabeth and Cam are doing quite well.”

Monica’s cheeks were stained with red as the younger woman looked away. “I shouldn’t…but since Lila died last year, I’ve been so concerned for Jason. I’ve hoped he would find some sort of happiness, and…I’ve seen them around.” She held up a hand. “Not that I’ve been looking, but they’re at Kelly’s sometimes or…”

“It’s perfectly fine.” Audrey sipped her tea. “There isn’t much detail I can offer, to be honest. Elizabeth plays her cards quite close to her chest. I suppose that’s due to the last few years.” She tapped her fingernails against the porcelain mug in her hands. “I wasn’t always as supportive as I could have been.”

“Do you know how long they’ve been seeing each other?” Monica asked.

“I’d say seriously since Emily’s wedding.” Audrey smiled. “Your daughter is quite the Quartermaine, engineering that bouquet and garter nonsense. But they’ve been…” She pursed her lips. “I know Emily would call it circling one another for months. Meeting for talks, I’ve watched Cam a few times while she’s gone on that motorcycle.”

“What would you call it?” Monica asked.

“Finding one another again.” Audrey leaned back in the uncomfortable hospital chair, her mug in one hand, her other arm across her waist. “Learning who one another is after all this time. They were both…gun shy, I would say.”

“Hard not to be after what they’ve been through. Bad marriages, in particular.” Monica sipped her coffee. “I always liked Elizabeth, you know. I remember the first time I became aware…that there was something there. Something more than just Emily’s brother and her friend.” She tilted her head. “It was the summer he came home, and Elizabeth was in trouble. Jason allowed Edward to blackmail him in order to get help.”

“Well, I knew they were friends. After Lucky died, I was concerned about that.” Audrey glanced down at her cup, feeling that sick sense of shame spreading through her. “I judged her harshly. Him as well. I didn’t see what he could possibly bring to her life after all the loss and hurt she’d suffered. I couldn’t see how he had already helped her. The sparkle was back. The rebellious side that had been all but lost after her…”

“Her rape,” Monica murmured. “I…remember her outcry at Tom Baker’s trial.”

Audrey nodded. “She curled up inside herself for months, only letting Lucky in. Occasionally myself and her sister, but only Lucky really broke through that tough exterior. Then, she lost him and I truly thought I would never see my granddaughter shine again.” She closed her eyes and bit her lip. “Until I saw her getting off your son’s motorcycle that fall.” Opening her eyes, Audrey looked at Monica. “I encouraged her this time to take a chance if it was there to be taken.”

“I’m glad. Because we both know the road ahead for my son is…not so easy.” Monica glanced across the cafeteria where Bobbie was laughing with Amy Vining. “This…business with Evie is going to come to a head.”

“Sooner rather than later, I should think.” Audrey pursed her lips. “But I think Elizabeth will provide him the strength he needs to get through it.” She leaned forward. “I can tell you that in the last month, my granddaughter and her son have only spent a handful of nights at home.”

Monica lifted her eyebrows. “Oh? It’s…that serious? Her son is spending time at the penthouse?”

“She comes by to pick up clothes, spends the night sometimes for show but…” Audrey lifted a shoulder. “I wouldn’t be surprised if the situation changed soon. If perhaps something more permanent might be in the cards.”

“Oh, I wonder if they’d get married,” Monica mused. “Do you…think he would invite me?”

“I would think Elizabeth would encourage it,” Audrey said after a moment. “Jason’s not as close with Sonny and Carly as he once was. He may be more open to a relationship. As long as you didn’t push.”

“I wouldn’t.” Monica held up a hand. “I really…I try to take my cues from Jason.”

“Anyhow, I don’t know about marriage. I think Elizabeth is still quite…apprehensive on the subject, with her failed wedding to Lucky, then that disaster of a marriage to Ric.” Audrey frowned. “And Jason’s own experience hasn’t been much better. But maybe for the sake of the children, they would consider it. It’s hard, I suppose. Things are so different than when I was their age.”

“Marriage is not always the endgame,” Monica agreed. “But yet, they’re still quick to jump to it, as if it’s some sort of sport.”

“I wish I could have been smarter at Elizabeth’s age,” Audrey said. “To learn how lucky I was with Steve, how I should have cherished our life together. I can see things I could have done differently, things he might have done, even little things.”

“Well, Alan and I managed to stay together,” Monica mused, “but I wonder if I had to live it again, if I would have done it so much more differently.” She paused. “Then again, I wouldn’t have Jason if not for the troubles in our marriage”

“True. I often forget he’s not your biological son, you loved him so well.” Audrey reached out and touched her hand. “He’s coming back to you, Monica. Little steps. He’s not the same man who woke from that coma or kept Michael from you.”

“I hope that’s true, but I’m content to see that he’s happy.” Monica paused. “And while he is not a man who wears his heart on his sleeve, I can see that he is with Elizabeth. I just hope it can stay that way.”

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

Jason was already home when Elizabeth arrived later that afternoon. She set down the black portfolio and curled up to him on the sofa where he was reading through some files. “Ugh.”

He gathered her into his side and pressed her lips to her hair. “Bad day.”

“Long day.” She snuggled into him. “Where are the kids?”

“Nora took them to the park for a bit. There’s some sort of kid activity she said they’d love but that involved balloons and face painting.” He grimaced. “I decided to skip that.” He stroked her hair, his fingers sliding through the silky strands. “Did your meeting with your agent go badly?”

“No. He’s just exhausting.” She drew back. “He wants to schedule another, smaller show for this winter.” She rolled her eyes. “An intimate one. No big deal, right? Except he thinks we should hold it at a gallery in Port Charles.”

Jason hesitated. “Do we have an art gallery here?”

“Yes. But it’s kind of low-class, according to Luther—that’s my agent.” She sighed. “And I made the mistake of mentioning how much easier my life would be if I could deal with a gallery closer than New York, which started the argument we had last year. When I told Luther I was coming back here, he wanted me to move to the city because it’d be better for my art.”

He didn’t like thinking about her not coming home last winter, knowing the only reason they were together was her love for her grandmother pulling her back. “Where did things end up?”

“He wants to talk to some of his contacts in New York, to see if anyone is interested in opening a branch up here, with my show as their launching pad.” She wrinkled her nose. “He’s hot to schedule another show as soon as possible.”

Jason didn’t really care one way or the other, but he knew how much it meant to her to make a living from her art, so he nodded. “Is there a reason for that? Do artists do that normally?”

“No, it’s usually a lot longer between shows, but I’ve been really prolific and…” Elizabeth looked down, her fingers tracing a pattern on his jeans. “He wants to capitalize on the changes in my life.”

“The changes…” Jason repeated, not following her.

“Oh…” Elizabeth huffed. “Apparently my personal relationship with you is driving up the prices on the few pieces that remained unsold from my showing, as well as pushing in commissions.”

“Your…” Jason closed his eyes. “Because I’m a high profile alleged criminal.” Was there any part of her life his choices wouldn’t corrupt eventually?

“I know, people are insane. They’re willing to pay above market value because I have a connection to you.” She bit her lip. “This doesn’t bother you, does it?”

“Doesn’t it bother you?” he responded. “People should buy your wok because it’s good, because it speaks to them. Not because of what I may or may not do as a career.” He shook his head. “I’m sorry, Elizabeth, I didn’t think about it—”

“Hey…” She pressed a finger to his chest. “What did you tell me about that red shoe painting I sold? When I was hung up with the idea that I’d made money of it. What did you say to me?”

Jason frowned. “That other people put the price on it, you just painted it.”

“Exactly. First, let me make this very clear to you. The fact that morons are willing to pay more money for one of my paintings because we’re dating says more about them than it does about you,” Elizabeth said. “Second, being with you has only made my art better. Luther looked at some of the photos I took of the pieces in my studio that I’ve been working on since April, and he says they show an emotional arc that people will eat up.” She smirked. “Apparently, the darkness, loneliness and isolation of my first show is going be completely eclipsed by the newfound hope for the future I’ve found.”

Jason scowled. “What darkness?”

She laughed, which eased the tightness in his chest. “It’s just art speak. Luther loves the new stuff, thinks it’ll sell even better than the last show. To show emotional growth, it’ll just engage the art world, make them part of the story.”

“I…” He blinked. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“Yeah, neither do I. I just paint what I feel.” She shrugged and kicked off her heels. “That was actually the highlight of the meeting for me, even though I knew it would bother you a bit. The downside is this gallery idea — Luther wants me to partner in with whoever opens the branch. To lend my name will apparently give it credibility and popularity.” Her eyes were wide now. “I mean, do you hear those words? My name will lend credibility. Because I have a name in the art world.”

“That’s a good thing, right?” he asked, unsure. This was so out of his realm of comfort, he couldn’t begin to know the right thing to say.

“It’s weird.” She pursed her lips. “Jason, a year ago, no one had heard of me. I was in therapy, mostly feeling like a complete failure except for my beautiful little boy. And now, I’m…” She sighed and closed her eyes. “Now, I’m the toast of the art world, I have my amazing family and friends standing behind me…” Her eyes drifted open and they were sparkling. “I have you. I have Cameron and Evie. God, Jason, I am so ridiculously happy that I’m pretty sure I’ll screw it up any moment now. I’m really good at it.”

He leaned forward to capture her mouth in a soft kiss. “I know what you mean.”

“And I’m going to screw it right up now,” she said on a sigh when she drew away.

“What?” Jason frowned. “Elizabeth—”

“I ran into Carly when I was leaving earlier,” she said. “Jason…I think I know what she wants from you.”

Jason sighed, disentangled himself from Elizabeth, and crossed to the window to look out over the harbor. “To sign my guardianship of Evie over to Sonny.”

“Yeah…”

He heard the rustling as she stood. “Jason,” she continued, her voice drawing closer. “I don’t know how much longer we can put off making a decision.”

He turned to face her. “I thought I had. I told Sonny I wasn’t going to—”

“I know what you told him,” Elizabeth interrupted. “But Carly remains the wild card. Jason, I want…” She hesitated. “I want to build a life with you. That’s what all these months have been about. I have always understood how matters came to this point, but I don’t understand why…” She dipped her head. “Why we don’t get Sonny some help.”

“You say that like it’s so easy.” Jason folded his arms, feeling uncharacteristically annoyed with her, even though he knew she was right. “You think it’s the first time that’s been suggested?”

“I’m saying that I understand that the situation is difficult,” Elizabeth drew out the words. “That it’s not just about Sonny’s mental well-being. I know if any sign of weakness becomes apparent to the people who aren’t loyal to Sonny, it’ll create problems. You told me you’ve spent years placating him in these moods. I don’t know if that’s going to work this time—”

“I can’t force him to get help.” He shook his head. “Short of that, all I can do is minimize the damage—” He stopped. “What exactly did Carly say to you?”

“She’s so angry inside, Jason. She tells me how much you’ve protected her, she even told me that she knows Sam was part of a plan to continue that protection, to protect that boys.” Elizabeth shook her head. “I think she’s still trying to play as if she doesn’t know anything, but I don’t buy it. Her anger towards Sam is so fresh, but Jason…I’m scared for you.”

“For me?” Jason shook his head. “Carly isn’t a danger to me—”

“Really?” Elizabeth asked, tilting her head. “All the while she’s talking to me about knowing the damage she’s done, I only see the way her eyes look when she talks about you. And it’s not the way it used to be. Right now, she blames Sam. She blames herself. But we both know Carly isn’t going to play the martyr for long. It’s not a skin she fits in well.”

Jason sighed and rubbed his face. “You think she’ll blame me.”

“I think she’s halfway there even if she doesn’t recognize it.” Elizabeth stepped towards him. “You’ve told me yourself—in his good moments, Sonny seems to recognize his reasons for letting the situation stand, but in his worst moments, he blames you. Do you think Carly doesn’t see that? She’s so used to you fixing things. If you don’t come through for her, if you let Sonny crash and her world collapses with him, do you think she won’t find a way to blame you?”

“So, what do I do? Sign her away, give Sam’s daughter to Carly and Sonny?” Jason shook his head. “I-I can’t do that. Elizabeth, I can’t believe you’re asking me—”

“I’m not asking you to do anything,” Elizabeth said. “I love Evie, too. And I have a great deal of respect for Sam and her wishes, because I know what it’s like to feel disposable, to be desperate to protect yourself and your child from a man who’ll just ruin it all. I was married to Sonny’s brother, Jason. Do you think I don’t know the darkness that runs in their family? I want to keep her as far away from Sonny and Carly as possible. Unless Sonny gets some help, he’ll never be a fit father.”

He had never considered that Ric’s brand of insanity might be in anyway related to Sonny’s, but again he’d disregarded Elizabeth’s own experiences in this. She knew what it was like to be surrounded by someone who was sinking, refusing to see it, refusing to ask for help.

“So what do I do?” Jason asked.

Elizabeth closed her eyes. “I can’t…I can’t tell you that, Jason. This isn’t my world. I don’t know the ramifications in your business—”

“Forget that for a minute.” Jason shook his head. “Just…if I go to Sonny, lay this all out, tell him Carly knows, and has known for months, and still refuse to give up guardianship, do you really think he’d get help?”

“Or it might make matters worse,” Elizabeth said softly. “I know that. And God, Jason, the last thing I want to do is make this worse for you, but I…” She pressed her lips together. “Jason, I love you. And it kills me to see you like this. I’ve never known you to be paralyzed like this.”

He walked past her and sat on the arm of the sofa. “I love you, too,” he said, finally. “And you’re right. We can’t build a life together unless we start making decisions.”

Elizabeth’s eyes softened. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed her forehead to his. “I would take this all away for you if I could.” Her fingers slid through his hair, and he closed his eyes.

She was right. He’d been living like this for nearly a year, waiting for Sonny to change his mind, waiting for Carly to walk out. Waiting for the situation to explode. He wanted something different in his life. He wanted to have Elizabeth with him, to be with Cam and Evie, to have a family, even if he didn’t truly deserve it.

He’d spent too many years walking away from that.

It was time to walk towards something.

“I’ll talk to Sonny,” he said finally. “But…I can’t—I have to wait, make sure he’s in control. It’s the only way to make sure he listens to me.” His hands slid down to her waist, tracing the lines of her body, the feel of her skin beneath soft fabric of her dress. “I’ll make it clear. It’s time Carly knew the truth, and more importantly, that he needs to get help. Or…”

He paused. “I can pursue adoption for Evie after a year. That’s in November. If he hasn’t gotten help by then, he never will, and I’m not going to put my life on hold anymore hoping he will.”

Corinthos Penthouse: Living Room

It was late in the evening when Carly returned home, annoyed with herself for the confrontation with Elizabeth in the garage. She had tried so hard to keep her cool, to show Elizabeth that she was welcome at Harborview. That she and her son were a good thing in Jason’s life.

And instead, the vitriol poured out like it always did. Why couldn’t she control herself anymore? She’d blurted out the truth to Courtney all those months ago and it was only because her sister-in-law wanted to preserve the status quo that she’d refrained from telling Jason.

Carly kicked off her heels and lowered herself into the armchair adjacent to the sofa, her head throbbing. She was so tired. To the bone and even the deep tissues of her muscles tired. That kind of soul-shattering exhaustion she remembered when she’d been pregnant with Michael and trying like hell to keep the house of cards from caving in.

Jason must suspect that Carly knew more than she was telling. If he hadn’t before now, Elizabeth would surely tell him about the parking garage where she’d almost overplayed her hand.

Behind her, Sonny came in. Her husband murmured something to the guard on the door before walking to the mini bar to pour himself a bourbon. “Where are the boys?”

“At my mother’s,” Carly replied. She slowly straightened and drew her legs underneath her. “How was your day?”

“Fine.” Sonny tossed back the alcohol. “Didn’t fight with Jason, so that’s something.”

And Carly wanted to believe it meant something that it had been nearly a month since Sonny’s last violent mood swing, but she knew it didn’t. He still hadn’t had that crash. They were in a holding pattern, just waiting for the next storm.

And she was so close to tossing in her hand and walking away.

No. She could still do this. She’d meant what she said to Elizabeth earlier. Carly had started the damage between Jason and Sonny, and she knew that she’d played a heavy role in the events of the year before.

Jason couldn’t keep Evie. It couldn’t happen if Sonny was ever going to be the man he was before. Her husband was drowning in guilt, in anger and hatred for himself. Soon enough, that distaste would turn to her because it was her fault.

And Jason would ultimately be the one to end this stand-off, because he held guardianship. He’d have to sign it over for Sonny to start the road back to something normal.

But Carly knew she could change the game, and maybe it was time for a fresh hand.

“Sonny.”

He glanced at her over his shoulder, his eyes dark and weary. “What?”

“I know Evie is your daughter.”

The last few days, CG has had some loading issues. Sometimes you’ll click on a link and it might tell you the page hasn’t been found. That’s not because the page isn’t there, but because the site has exceeded my share of the resources on my hosting plan.  That’s not fun for anyone, haha, so I’m going to upgrade from shared hosting to a private server. It’s about $5 more a month, which isn’t horrible, actually.

I’ll be doing it at the end of the week, but it’s going to take sometime to migrate the site to the new server. I’m not sure how long but it’s likely the site would be down for a day or so. Since I’m scheduled to post The Best Thing, Chapter 14 tomorrow, and All I Want for Christmas, Part 3 on Thursday, that means the site would go down shortly within a day or so of posting them. Not my favorite option.

So I’m thinking about posting both of them today only at CG so there’s extra time to make sure you get to that material before the end of the week, so if the site is down all weekend, you still get to read it. I’d keep to the normal schedule on the other sites.

Thoughts?

December 7, 2014

sitenewsSo this is the last time I plan to post updates about this particular theme to the main part of the site. The majority of the tweaks that needed to be done are either completed, or are in the process. All that’s left is a few cosmetic changes.

The menu at the top of the page has been completed. The addition of the writing tab is also ready — the Fanfiction 101 series once located under “Site” is now there, with maybe more to come. But the Sort/Site section is now complete.

The media page is under construction — most of what was there were links to videos and soundtracks that been redistributed to their specific story pages (A Few Words Too Many, Daughters, and These Small Hours). What’s left will be reorganized into one Music page.

I also started to work on the various story pages to go with the new style design. Mostly just cleaning up character images, replacing the bolded words Characters/Background with styling for color changes.  There’s no point in listing all the specific ones updated so far.

The Fiction Graveyard section got a slight face lift — I worked on the way information is listed and continued work on the story pages in that area. I’m still gathering and formatting all the stories for this so that once I start posting, I can just do it in large chunks. Otherwise, it takes too long to format chapter by chapter.

The next time I bug you guys will be a story update on Wednesday with The Best Thing 🙂

This entry is part 1 of 1 in the Blank

This is a placeholder post in order to set up future series postings on story pages.  So, the story is coming soon.