October 6, 2020

This entry is part 3 of 25 in the Mad World: This Is Me

Put to rest what you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty
So let mercy come and wash away
What I’ve done
What I’ve Done, Linkin Park


Monday, November 10, 2004

Jones House: Georgie’s Bedroom

Felicia paused by her youngest daughter’s ajar bedroom door and knocked lightly. “Georgie? What are you doing home?”

“Oh.” Georgie blinked at her mother, glancing up from her laptop. She shook her head as if clearing her thoughts. “I—”

“Your classes start at nine, don’t they?” Felicia looked pointedly at the clock on Georgie’s nightstand, which read 11:34 A.M. “Are you feeling okay?”

“Yeah, I just—I fell behind in some reading, and I…” Georgie tapped her fingers on the keys lightly, then shoved the laptop away. “I needed a day. I’m sorry—”

“No, don’t apologize.” Felicia sat on the edge of the bed, tilting her head to the side. “It’s my own fault for not looking in on you more since school started. We’ve just been busy at the agency. You know, it’s that time of year.”

Georgie smiled faintly. “The holidays. Everyone wants to do a background check or find out if their boyfriend is cheating before Christmas.” She rubbed her hands on her jeans. “Yeah, I know. I—school is fine.”

“It’s different than high school, isn’t it?”

“Yeah.” Georgie bit her lip. “I kind of wish I’d gone away to school. Started over.” She looked at the picture board above her bed, filled with photographs of herself through the years. Felicia followed her gaze and saw a group photo from Georgie’s high school graduation the previous June. Georgie had her arm around Dillon Quartermaine’s waist, and she was turning her head to smile at Lesley Lu Spencer, her childhood best friend.

“It’s been hard, I guess, since Dillon and Lulu started dating. I’m sorry, sweetheart.”

“I don’t blame them,” she muttered. She dug her toe into the peach carpet. “And Dillon and I—we only dated a few months. It wasn’t that serious. But—they don’t invite me places anymore.”

“Because of Lulu and Dillon?”

“No.” Georgie met her mother’s eyes. “Because of Brooke. And what happened with Mac.”

“Ah. I wondered. Maxie still isn’t speaking to him, and I’m sure that’s been hard for him.” Felicia folded her hands in her lap. “I was proud of you, you know, for standing up for him. Believing in him, even when your friends didn’t.”

“You were?” Georgie squinted. “But—but I know you agreed with Maxie and everyone else in town. Everyone abandoned Mac. Like one mistake, and that was it—”

“No one who matters has abandoned him,” Felicia corrected her. “I was disappointed, but I’m glad he owned up to it. He dealt with it and tried to make it right. Maxie’s young. She’ll get over it. I understand that people make mistakes.”

“But he—” Georgie hesitated. “What happened to Brooke—it wasn’t his fault. Everyone made it seem like he didn’t do anything, but that’s not true. The mayor wouldn’t let him. I read all the papers, Mom. He tried to get more security for the park, he tried to let people know. He warned me and Maxie.”

“I know—”

“All he did—all he did was one stupid thing. He closed one case, Mom. And they wouldn’t have found anyone even if he had sent Elizabeth’s kit away. Vinnie wasn’t in the system—”

“Sweetheart—”

“It’s not Mac’s fault! He didn’t make Vinnie like that, and he didn’t want Brooke to die—” Her voice trembled. “I liked her, too! And I was nice to her. I thought we could be friends. I liked her more than Maxie did—I was the one who realized she’d left—”

“Georgie—” Felicia leaned over towards the desk and pulled Georgie’s hands, pulled her daughter to sit next to her. “I know you did everything you could. I’m proud of how you handled that night—all of you. You did the best you could. And I know Mac did. But, sweetheart, if Mac had her case tested—they would have known it wasn’t the man in jail. They might have still been looking—”

“They still wouldn’t have tested the other cases,” Georgie said stubbornly. “Sure, Elizabeth would know the truth, but would it have it made it better? It’s just—” She huffed. “I was so mad at all of them, and then they got mad at me—”

She stared blindly at the wall. “And Mac got fired anyway. It didn’t even matter. Ned isn’t going to let him forget what happened. And now everyone thinks I’m a stupid silly girl who doesn’t understand anything.”

“They don’t—”

“Maxie said so—” Georgie’s eyes were lush with tears. “She said they all laughed because I voted for Floyd, but Mom, I knew he wasn’t going to win, and it was—I just wanted to feel like I was helping Mac.”

“I know you did, baby.” Felicia’s heart was sore for her little girl. “Come here.” She put an arm around her, tucking her into her embrace. “And I love you for it. He’s been so good to you. And I know he made the choice he did because he wanted to take care of you and Maxie. He’s a good man, and I’m sorry that people seem to forget that.”

“I just—I miss my friends. I stopped eating at school because I didn’t—I just sit in the library and pretend I’m studying all the time because they won’t sit with me, and I don’t know anyone—” Georgie raised her eyes and looked at Felicia. “I just wanted a day where I didn’t have to do that.”

“Then you take your day. And don’t—don’t worry about your sister and the others,” Felicia said. She tucked Georgie’s hair behind her ears. “For them—this was black and white. You saw the shades of gray, and you did your best. I’m proud of you for it. Sometimes doing what feels right to you feels wrong to everyone else. And it takes a lot of strength to stand against people, especially family and the boy you care about.”

“I was thinking about transferring after this year,” Georgie said. “Maybe another campus. Syracuse isn’t too far away.”

“It’s far enough,” Felicia said with a pained smile. “But let’s get through this first semester. Then we’ll talk about it over the holidays.”

Corinthos & Morgan Warehouse: Sonny’s Office

With a little trepidation and worry, Jason followed Bernie, Justus, and Johnny O’Brien into Sonny’s office. Sonny wanted daily updates on the search for Ric, but each day that passed with nothing to report only increased Sonny’s frustration.

He’d felt powerless to protect Carly six months earlier, and Jason knew that not dealing with Ric in a way that felt final was only making that worse. When Sonny felt powerless and helpless, it usually ended in disaster for all of them.

“Well?” Sonny barked as he faced the four of them behind his desk. “What’s the deal? What do we know?”

Because Johnny was scheduled to return to his normal post in Puerto Rico, he volunteered to come forward. He’d come up in the organization at the same time as Jason, but last year, Johnny had taken a promotion to look after Sonny’s Caribbean interests. Mostly to get away from the daily pressure of working with Sonny.

“Nothing,” Johnny said bluntly. “I talked to Roy DiLucca last night. He said Hector Ruiz agreed to pass information in exchange for a few favors—nothing I wouldn’t have done anyway,” he added quickly. “But I probably would have charged Hector more for some of the shipments. Between my contacts in Caracas and Hector’s connections in Bogotá, we have most of the region covered. If Ric Lansing makes a move, we’ll know it.”

“Didn’t Alcazar have connections in Argentina?” Sonny demanded. “What if Ric is there?”

“I’ve thought of that, Sonny,” Bernie told him. “I looked into the situation, and there’s a power vacuum in Argentina. Alcazar’s death threw his organization into turmoil, and another local boss died of natural causes. I made some overtures, but we don’t have a lot to offer.”

“Didn’t Alcazar have a brother?” Jason asked, knowing it was Sonny’s next question. “Where are we on Lorenzo Alcazar?”

“He’s still teaching literature at the university in Caracas,” Johnny told them. “He took custody of Luis’s kid, and doesn’t look like he’s in the business. If he wanted revenge, Jase, he’s pretty cold about it.”

“He’s been missing almost a week. How do we not know where he is?” Sonny scowled. “Maybe he hasn’t left the country yet. Anyone else hiding him?”

“Taking in Lansing would be a suicide mission,” Jason said shortly. “It would be making a move against us, and getting into bed with Anthony Zacchara. No one is dumb enough to do both. Zacchara can’t be trusted, and we’ve got a track record of taking out anyone else who comes after us.”

Sonny frowned, placated by this reminder of his tenure in Port Charles, and how powerful he’d grown in the last decade. He sat down. Nodded. “Okay. Okay. Johnny, I want eyes and ears throughout South America. Anywhere Ric might go—do what you need to get it done.”

“On it. I gotta get going if I’m going to make the flight back. Good luck,” he said, eying Jason as he left.

“I’ll be in my office if anyone needs me,” Justus said, always slightly uncomfortable in these meetings where illegal things were discussed. He didn’t mind being their lawyer for the legal parts of the business, but he’d never enjoyed this part of the job. But when Sonny commanded attendance—

“Yeah, yeah.” Sonny waved him and Bernie away, leaving him alone with Jason. “We should have killed him months ago.”

“We can’t go back, Sonny. It doesn’t do us any good to wish things had been different—”

“If you’d let me take care of him in Crimson Pointe—”

“We’re not having this argument again,” Jason said flatly. “I made Elizabeth a promise—”

“It wasn’t your place to promise anything,” Sonny retorted. “I’m in charge not you—”

“He went after Elizabeth because of me,” Jason snapped, really not in the mood for this again. “And this isn’t business. Ric didn’t target you because of that—”

“It’s always business! He used the business to come after me!”

“He used the business to get close to you,” Jason corrected. “He had a personal grudge, Sonny. No one—except maybe Zacchara—would have come at us the way Ric did. He went after our family. Carly, Elizabeth, Courtney—he tried to destroy the people who mattered. He never gave a damn about the warehouse or the shipments—he wanted to destroy you.”

“You think I don’t know that?” Sonny demanded. He stalked over to his mini bar and poured himself a bourbon, his hand trembling. “I let him live after Martha’s Vineyard. After what he did to Carly. To Courtney. If I had had the strength to do what was right, he never would have been alive to go after my family. Or Elizabeth,” he added as an afterthought.

“But he did. I know you hate that you didn’t protect Carly. I didn’t do much better with Elizabeth.” Jason should have tried harder to get through to her, to make her understand who Ric was—

Or he should have been more honest with her a year ago when it would have mattered.

“Sonny, it doesn’t matter. None of this matters—”

“No?” Sonny turned to face him. “Did you tell Elizabeth or Carly we’d bring Ric in alive? After all this?”

Jason hesitated. “I said we’d try.” Or that he would try. “I know you told Carly differently, and they both understand it might not be possible—”

“It’s not going to happen. I’ve given orders that he’s to be shot on sight. When we have confirmation,” Sonny continued, “when we know it’s him, he’s to be executed. No more pussyfooting around on this, Jase. When we find Ric Lansing, we’re going to finish this once and for all.”

PCPD: Commissioner’s Office

Marcus Taggert wasn’t having the best of days even before he met with Mac about his open cases. Two of his snitches had turned up as overdoses in a Courtland Street motel, and another witness was threatening to recant his testimony on a robbery.

So the last thing he really wanted to do was go to Mac’s office and tell him he didn’t have any leads into the disappearance of Ric Lansing.

“I’m not surprised,” Mac admitted. He taped a cardboard box closed and set it on the floor, next to two others. Taggert scowled.

“Why are you packing already? I thought you said your replacement isn’t starting until December 10. That’s a whole month—”

“I’m doing a little bit every day,” Mac said with a shrug. “I’ve been in this job for eight years. There’s a lot to go through.” He returned to his desk.

Taggert grimaced, then settled back in his chair. “Anyway,” he said. “I don’t know what to do about Lansing. None of the usual stuff is working, you know? I put a trace on his accounts, the APB is state-wide—best I can do. And nothing. He vanished into thin air.”

“The contact at the FBI called,” Mac told him. He dug through a pile on his desk and slid the memo over. “They’re having the same issues. They’ve had the Zaccharas under surveillance for the last year, and their guy didn’t see Ric leaving either.”

“This is just like Carly,” Taggert muttered. “They look for panic rooms? Hidden, secret pockets of space? If he made Carly vanish, he could try the same—”

“I thought of that and reminded the Crimson Pointe PD of the nature of the charges. They got a court order to see plans of the estate and brought in an expert. To the best of their knowledge, there isn’t any such place. Ric’s not on the estate.

Taggert sighed. He glanced at the report. “Says here the FBI can’t trace him out of the country either.”

“No. I asked Anna to make contact with Interpol to see if they could get something—and nothing. You’re right. This is exactly like last June.” Mac hesitated. “Have you considered that Corinthos and Morgan might have done something?”

Taggert pursed his lips, then nodded. “It’s on the list. But—” He sighed. “The thing is—and I know what this sounds like, Mac—I don’t think so. At first, I wondered. But Corinthos had Carly move back in—and for her to go back after all these weeks, she probably believes he’s alive.”

“Sonny could be lying.”

“He could,” Taggert allowed. He tossed the memo back on the desk. “But I got to know Morgan better through the Lansing and Esposito case. I still think he’s a criminal,” he clarified, “but on this Ric thing—I don’t know. Lansing survived to be let out on bail. He survived to get all the way here. There’s a reason.”

Mac nodded. “Yeah. Yeah, Ned said the same thing the day after Lansing split. He thinks Corinthos and Morgan made a deal with their women—Lansing could go on trial, and they could testify. They were probably arranging an accident after the trial and sentencing.”

“You know if I could put this at their feet, I would, Mac. Just because I left Organized Crime doesn’t mean I haven’t forgotten who they are. I might not be able to get Morgan,” he said. “He doesn’t tend to commit crimes that aren’t related to the business. But Sonny—”

“Sonny has more of a checkered history,” Mac replied. “He’s committed more violent crimes for dumber reasons. You had some sort of connection with him, didn’t you? Back in New York?”

“I never met him personally,” Taggert told him. “But I knew his stepfather, Deke Woods. Deke was a good cop. Good guy.” His mouth tightened. “Sonny had him killed. Deke was trying to prove Sonny killed his own mother—used to kick the shit out of Deke once he got old enough. He got on the streets with Joe Scully and turned rotten.”

Mac squinted, then frowned. “I never heard this story about Sonny. That he killed his own mother—”

“I’m sure it was an accident. Or he hit her harder than he meant to. But this was the same guy who drugged and slept with Karen Wexler, remember?” Taggert reminded him. “Put her on those pills, and made her strip at his club. There were other girls at the Paradise we probably didn’t even know about. Then the crap he put Lily and Brenda through. He grew up, figured out how to control his temper, but he’s still the same violent piece of shit.”

He got to his feet. “That’s why I don’t work cases involving him anymore,” he told Mac. “Because I can’t be sure anymore if I’m biased. Maybe Sonny’s cleaned up his act, but anyone who could do that kind of thing once—he’ll always be capable of it. Morgan doesn’t have that in him.”

“I never thought I’d hear you say anything nice about Jason Morgan,” Mac said dryly.

“Yeah, well, Jason Morgan has literally one good thing going for him right now—and that’s Elizabeth Webber.” He shrugged. “Morgan’s not going to show up in any of my cases, and I’m done with grudges. Life is too fucking short—”

The door banged open behind them as Scott Baldwin strode in, his face florid with fury. He was shaking a packet of paper in his hand. “Did you see this bullshit?” he demanded.

“Uh—do we look angry enough to have seen whatever it is?” Taggert asked.

“What’s wrong?” Mac asked.

Scott slapped the packet on Mac’s desk, and Taggert realized it was a legal motion. He squinted— “Is that from the U.S. Attorney’s Office?”

“Vinnie’s attorney,” Scott spat, “is arguing that his civil rights have been violated in Port Charles. That the PCPD is framing him, and the goddamn feds are joining the petition—”

“On what grounds?” Taggert demanded. Mac shot out of his chair.

“The nature of the crimes,” Scott retorted, “and the recent PCPD scandals suggest Vinnie might have been unfairly targeted and framed to make the smoke go away—”

“We had a deal, Scott.” Mac scowled. “This was supposed to be over—”

“Yeah, well—” Scott nodded at the motion. “I’ll set them on fire. No way in hell this gets taken from me—”

“Why would the U.S. Attorney’s office intercede on behalf of a serial rapist?” Taggert cut in. “What the hell could Vinnie have that they want?”

“I guess we’ll find out.” Scott exhaled slowly. “I have to tell them.”

“What?” Taggert shook his head, knowing immediately who Scott was talking about. “No. Why? You’re going to win—”

“Because the last thing I’m going to do to Elizabeth or Ned and Lois is let them hear this crap in the papers. And Elizabeth might be able to help me with the other survivors.” Scott shook his head. “Do you think I want to drag the three of them into my office? We just lost Ric Lansing—you think I want to tell that girl we might be losing the other asshole who assaulted her this year?”

Scott glared at the legal motion. “After I win this—and I will—I am going to salt the Earth with these motherfuckers. I am tired of these damned politicians pushing me around.”

Corinthos Penthouse: Living Room

Carly smiled as Michael dashed in and ran to hug her. “Mama, Mama, I got an A on my math test,” he told her with a toothy smile. He held out the test paper for her to see. “I can add stuff.”

“That makes one of us,” Carly quipped, kissing his cheek. She looked at her mother. “You didn’t have to pick him up. Rocco would have—”

“I wanted to. I’ve missed our drives home,” Bobbie said. She came over to them, ruffled Michael’s blond hair. “Go put that on the fridge, then start your homework.”

“Okay.”

Michael raced into the kitchen, then dragged his backpack to the stairs. When they heard his door close, Carly turned back to her mother with a lifted brow. “Well, I’m sure you sent him away for a reason.”

“I just wanted to check on you,” Bobbie said innocently. “Morgan napping?”

“Yeah, for another thirty minutes, maybe. Then he’ll want to be fed.” Carly leaned back against the sofa. “I’m fine, Mama. I had to come home sometime.”

“I don’t agree with you on that,” Bobbie remarked with a wrinkling of her nose. “But I wasn’t sure if things were…any tenser because of the reasons you came home.”

“Sonny isn’t in the best of moods,” Carly admitted. “But it’s hard to argue with it. He’s at the warehouse all day, trying to think of any way he can find Ric. And I don’t think they’re making any headway.”

“They’re not,” Bobbie said. She bent her head to look for her phone in her purse and missed Carly’s bewildered expression. “At least not the last time I talked to Elizabeth, so I was hoping you’d know more, but judging by the look on your face, you don’t. Carly, exactly what do you know about the search for Ric?”

“Only that it’s happening, I guess.” Carly cleared her throat. “I—I’ve been busy with Morgan, you know. He needs so much right now. And there’s Michael, of course. Plus, I’m not supposed to, but I’m trying to get caught on paperwork from the club—”

“Carly.”

“I asked once or twice,” Carly said. She met her mother’s eyes. “But Sonny told me not to ask about the business. And I haven’t. It never—I’m surprised Jason isn’t doing the same—” She stopped. “That’s not true,” she corrected, her voice quieter now. “Because Ric isn’t business for Jason. They might be using business methods to find him—but—”

She chewed on her bottom lip. “I honestly hadn’t thought about it. I keep thinking it’s like before. Sonny trusted me last year because he had to—he knew I’d never forgive him if he faked his death, but Elizabeth didn’t need to know. It wasn’t about her. So I—I never thought it would be different.”

“Well, I don’t know.” Bobbie shifted, slightly uncomfortable. She looked away. “It might also be that Jason and Elizabeth just fell into different habits. When you were missing—Sonny wasn’t really here. Justus and Bernie had only just started working. There weren’t a lot of people Jason could trust with everything that was going on.”

“And he told Elizabeth everything, not Courtney,” Carly said with a nod. “Yeah, Courtney said it was—it was like he’d replaced her almost from the minute she called the police.” When her mother’s eyes flashed, Carly added, “Not that I agree with her. I think it was more that her phone call put Courtney on a list of people who couldn’t be trusted. And Elizabeth staying—believing in him—gave him a reason to trust her. I’m glad he had that, Mama. That he and Elizabeth have found something that works for them.”

“But?”

“But Sonny and I aren’t them. We’ve been together longer,” Carly reminded her. “And we’ve been through more. Talk to me in a couple of years when Jason and Elizabeth have been tested the way Sonny and I have.” She nodded, feeling more resolute in her words.

“Okay.” Bobbie lifted her brows, still skeptical. “So, I guess you’re treating this more like you’re back to stay.”

“I’m—” Carly hesitated. “I think so. Sonny said he’d try to do better, and he is. And he’s right. Things are different now. I wanted Ric to go to trial, which can’t happen now. Not unless the authorities catch Ric.” She hesitated. “I can’t have my way in this, Mama.”

Bobbie pursed her lips, then got to her feet. “Well, you know I’ll support whatever you choose. I’ll go check on Michael, make sure he’s getting his homework done.”

Kelly’s: Diner

Felicia smiled brightly at her eldest daughter as she sat across the table from her, tossing her purse on one of the other empty chairs. “How’s school?”

Maxie Jones peered her at her suspiciously, narrowing her brilliant blue eyes. “Fine. I’m not failing yet, which is good since we’re going into midterms.” She arched a brow. “Is there a reason you insisted on making me meet you for dinner tonight? Because, like, I have a thousand things I could be doing—”

“I haven’t seen you in a few days, and since you live on campus, I didn’t think you’d want me harassing you in your dorm.” Felicia picked up a menu, smiled innocently at her. “Unless you want me to come by—”

“No, this is fine.” Maxie sipped her water, then leaned back with a wince. “Oh, Penny’s working tonight. Well, we’ll be here a while.”

“How’s Kyle? Have you talked to him much?”

“We try to call every day,” Maxie told her, with a shrug of her shoulder. “And email. He’s got crazy midterms right now, so…” She leaned forward. “Mom. You don’t like Kyle.”

“I don’t think you should be in a long-distance relationship at your age,” Felicia corrected. “Kyle doesn’t bother me. He seems like a nice kid. He’s just too far away—” She shook her head. “Never mind. Do you see Georgie on campus much?”

Here we go.” Maxie rolled her eyes. “Are you mad because I’m not spending all my free time teaching Georgie how to be popular? Look, she was a nerd in high school, and she’s a disaster in college—she decided to live at home—”

“Mariah Maximilliana.”

Maxie pursed her lips. “You’re mad at me? Seriously? She’s the idiot who took Mac’s side—”

“You remember your father,” Felicia said softly. “She doesn’t. Mac is the only father she’s ever known.” And if her chest was tight at the reminder that Frisco had chosen the WSB over them so easily—she just put it away.

Maxie hesitated. “I just—I don’t understand how she can forget what happened—”

“She didn’t. Maxie, you know better than that. Mac took a lot of heat for this case—some of which was well-deserved,” Felicia added.

“Some?”

“At the end of the day, the only thing he didn’t do was send Elizabeth’s rape kit to the lab. That’s it. How would that have stopped what happened?”

“I—” Maxie hesitated. “They would have known—”

“None of the other cases were tested either. Because there was no suspect. That was departmental policy, and that’s not something Mac could change without financial and political support,” Felicia told her gently. “Knowing five years ago that Tom Baker was not guilty would have done exactly nothing to help Brooke Lynn.”

Maxie’s lip trembled. “I should have done more.”

“Maxie—”

“It’s my fault. Kyle and Lucas were arguing at the theater, and they got us kicked out. A-and we were all fighting—I was terrible and mean to Dillon, so he and I got into a fight—then Brooke left, and none of us noticed—”

A tear slid down her cheek, then another. “Mac told us not to go to the park at night. But we never told Brooke. We never thought about it. That’s all I could think—I was driving me and Georgie around—and we just—we just kept worrying because why would Mac say that—”

“Sweetheart—”

“Georgie noticed she was gone, Mom. Not me. Not Lucas. Not Dillon or Kyle. Georgie. We were all selfish and stupid, and I just—” She stared at her hands. “Maybe that’s why she could let it go better. Georgie was nicer to Brooke than we were. She was the reason we found her so quickly—because she noticed her.”

“It wasn’t your fault.”

“When Georgie stood by Mac—it just felt like a punch to the gut. It was so clear that he’d been wrong—but I don’t know—” Maxie looked away. “Maybe we’ve been too hard on her. I mean, Dillon—that’s fine. He was Brooke’s family. And her boyfriend. He probably had a right to expect her to be more supportive or whatever. But Lucas and I could have been nicer. Especially since this is her first year.”

“What about Lulu?”

“Oh—well, that’s just complicated because of Dillon,” Maxie said with a shrug. “Lu just took his side because she’s loyal like that.” She met her mother’s eyes. “Is Georgie okay? Is that why you brought it up?”

“She’s struggling a bit,” Felicia admitted. “It might be nice if you gave her a break. Your friends can do whatever they want, but you’re her sister.”

“I’ll talk to her, Mom,” Maxie promised. “And I’ll talk to Lucas and Lu about it.”

Spencer House: Living Room

Kelsey really should have given Lucky more credit about knowing his family. She’d been ridiculously worried that she wouldn’t measure up to his last serious girlfriend. Kelsey liked Elizabeth Webber and understood why she’d been well-liked not only by the Spencers but apparently the entire city since she’d single-handedly kicked Vinnie Esposito’s ass and saved herself.

But she’d been apprehensive that Laura Spencer might still want that girl for her son—that no one would ever really be able to replace her.

She shouldn’t have stressed herself out.

Laura was perfectly lovely—friendly, warm, and interested in everything Kelsey had to say. And Lucky’s father, the enigmatic Luke Spencer, had just looked so damn happy to have his wife home and herself again, that Kelsey could have been a stranger on the street, and Luke wouldn’t have cared.

“It’s so wonderful to see Ollie’s daughter, all grown up,” Laura told Kelsey as Lucky and Lulu cleared the dining room table. “I didn’t know your mother—he married after I—well, after we lost touch,” she said. Kelsey knew her parents hadn’t married until after Laura had mysteriously disappeared—kidnapped and held hostage in Greece by Nikolas’s family.

Port Charles was absolutely wild.

“It’s nice to know someone who remembers Dad. I mean, he grew up here and worked here until he died, but—” Kelsey sighed. “Scott doesn’t like to talk about him much.”

“It’s probably painful,” Laura told her. She reached over to squeeze her hand. “He and Ollie were like brothers from the day I met them. He’d be so proud of you, working at the DA’s office. I hadn’t heard that he died, but things were so crazy when we first moved back, I must have missed it.”

“Oh, well, it was just a car accident,” Kelsey replied. She hesitated when Luke frowned at her, then squinted his eyes. “June 1994,” she clarified. “I think Lucky said you’d only been back a few months, and I can’t imagine a car accident got a lot of newspaper coverage.”

“Car accident,” Luke repeated. “Uh, no, I guess not. Sorry to hear about it. I remember him a little, too,” he added. “Everyone in Port Charles runs into each other eventually.”

“How do you like working at the DA’s office?” Laura asked, drawing Kelsey’s attention away from Luke.

“Um, that’s a hard question to answer,” she admitted. She caught Lucky’s eye. “It’s not boring,” she said finally.

“Kelsey was injured in the Esposito case,” Nikolas told his mother as he set a cup of tea in front of her, then took a seat again. “She and Lucky had broken the case wide open, and Vinnie Esposito found out. He shoved her down the stairs to keep her from getting a warrant for his DNA.”

Laura’s eyes widened, and she looked at Kelsey. “I didn’t realize! I’m so sorry—”

“It’s really okay, and Lucky’s the one that figured it out. I just looked at some databases. Actually,” Kelsey said, looking at her boyfriend. “It was kind of crazy. We all solved it at once. Taggert and Jason had gone to Pentonville to interview Tom Baker—”

Luke held up a hand. “I’m sorry. Rewind that statement. Who went where?”

Kelsey laughed. “Yeah, that was the attitude at the PCPD, too, but Taggert figured Baker might be intimidated by Jason and finally come clean about what he knew. That was the same time Lucky got the receipts from Bobbie and remembered Vinnie being her regular.”

“Yeah, well, none of it was in time to stop him from nearly killing you and going after Elizabeth,” Lucky muttered. Kelsey put her hand over his, squeezing it lightly. He’d blamed himself for not remembering more of his past with Elizabeth sooner. The brainwashing that had erased his feelings for Elizabeth had left his memory looking like Swiss Cheese. He hadn’t remembered about Vinnie until it was almost too late.

“I’m okay,” she reminded him. “And that was his big mistake, remember? If he hadn’t gone after me, you wouldn’t have known to call Elizabeth. Or alert Taggert and Jason about her not picking up the phone. Elizabeth is okay.”

“Still.”

“Sounds like you did good work, Cowboy. My boy, showing up the PCPD his first few months on the job.” Luke pointed his fork at Lucky. “They should let you run the place.”

“Says the man who literally threw a hissy fit when Lucky applied to the academy,” Lulu offered with a snort. She handed Kelsey a slice of cheesecake. “Mom comes home, decides it’s the best thing that ever happened to Lucky, and Dad falls right in line.”

“Well, I know it hurts Luke’s soul to remember this, but other than a handful of times, he was usually on the side of good.” Laura arched her brow. “Or was it someone else who saved the world from Mikkos Cassadine?”

“I blame Robert for that. And you.” Luke grinned at her. “I’m useless without you.”

“Agreed,” Nikolas said with a grin.

“Watch it, Dark Prince.”

Laura rolled her eyes, but her joy in having her entire family at her table—all three of her children and her husband—was evident in her smile. “Well, I’m proud of Lucky for finding his passion.”

“He really is great at it,” Kelsey told her. She flashed Lucky her own proud smile. “He and some of the rookies who started with him are being fast-tracked to detective. For the Lansing and Esposito cases.”

“I didn’t do much for the Lansing case,” Lucky told his parents. “That was Cruz. I mean, we all patrolled the house to make sure Elizabeth was safe.” He saw Nikolas’s grimace. “Yeah, we didn’t manage that, but at least Cruz was there when she got sick.”

“It sounds like it’s been quite the year in Port Charles,” Laura said. Her smile dimmed slightly, then she took a deep breath. “I’m just glad my family is safe and happy.”

Lucky and Kelsey stayed another hour, lingering over coffee and cheesecake, but then Luke and Laura walked them to their car while Lulu and Nikolas argued over what to watch on television back at the house.

Laura watched Lucky back out of the driveway and sighed, folding her arms tightly around herself. Luke slipped an arm around her waist. “What do you think, Darlin’?”

“About Kelsey? She seems lovely. Can’t believe she’s Ollie’s little girl. I haven’t thought about him in decades. And it’s nice to see that she’s as proud of Lucky as he is of her. But mostly—he looks like our boy again.” She looked up at him. “You know? I almost feel like I was…that I was looking at the boy he would have grown up to be if Helena hadn’t stolen him.”

“He does seem more comfortable than he did when I left,” Luke admitted. “Can’t believe being a cop was an answer. Goes against everything I believe in—”

“When they were growing up, you always said Lu was mine, and that Lucky was yours. I agreed with you. But—now—” Laura smiled. “Now he reminds me of myself. And Lu—” She heard Lulu screech something at Nikolas. “That is definitely your child.”

“Let’s just hope she doesn’t make my mistakes,” Luke quipped as they went back inside.

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

“I can’t believe I’m actually going to go back to school next year,” Elizabeth said, as she dug into her dinner that night. She poked at her Chinese food with her chopsticks and looked at Jason. “I mean, if it’s okay with you. You haven’t said much—”

Jason frowned, leaned back against the sofa, stretching his arm along the back. “In the ten minutes since you told me you’d decided to do it? I told you. Whatever you want—”

“Yeah, but I’m contemplating going back to school—graduate school—when we’ll have a six-month-old baby,” Elizabeth reminded him. “I mean, maybe that’s crazy to think about—”

“Why?” Jason shook his head. “A lot of women go back to work earlier than that. And I’ll be here.” He hesitated. “I don’t have a regular schedule, but I could make it work. And when we can’t, I don’t know, we could hire a nanny—” He paused when he saw her wince. “What?”

“I don’t know. I guess it’s fine for Carly. And I know Monica had a nanny for you guys growing up. But it feels strange to hire someone to take care of my baby, so I can go to classes. I could wait until the baby’s old enough to go to school—”

“You’d wait three or four years?” Jason shook his head. “No. I mean, if that’s what you want to do, then fine. But we could make it work, Elizabeth. If you don’t want to hire someone full-time, maybe we could just find baby-sitters. People like you.”

“Maybe.” Her excitement slightly dimmed as reality set in. “I was always terrible at school. I’ll probably just fail—”

“Hey.” Jason put his container on the table and leaned forward to take her chin in his hand. Waited until she met his gaze. “What are you doing right now?”

She smiled faintly. “Writing out a terrible ending to a story I didn’t even start yet.” She sighed. “Crazy. I thought I was past that, but every time I take on something new, there I go—raining on my own parade.”

“You weren’t a great student, we’ll have a baby—what other obstacles are you going to throw in front of this?” Jason asked her softly. “I know it’s scary. It’s one thing to volunteer at some meetings—you can always step back. But this would be different.”

“Three years of graduate school,” Elizabeth told him. “And then an internship. And then they’d give me real patients to talk to. It’s—I’m so messed up. Why do I think I can do this?”

“Your meeting last week—with the other survivors. You didn’t think you could do that either,” Jason said. “But how did that go?”

“Really well.” Elizabeth wrinkled her nose. “One of the women sent me an email and said she slept through the night over the weekend. For the first since it happened. She thanked me. She thinks coming to the group will really help.” She took a deep breath. “It really helped me, too, you know. When I was raped. I was scared when Gail suggested it, but she was right. She knew I had to see I wasn’t alone. That I would benefit from talking with other women who’d been through it. Even better—it would help to see women who were on the other side of it.”

She met his eyes. “The first meeting, afterward, I didn’t have a nightmare. I mean—I still had them, but there were less after the meeting. And that first night—I slept the whole night.”

“Why did Gail think you’d be good at this?” Jason asked, and she smiled at him, knowing what he was doing and loving him for it.

“Because I’d been where a lot of these women are, and I could be someone to give them hope. One of them—one of the cases from this year—when she found out I was pregnant, she told me it made her think that maybe she might have a future.” Elizabeth rested her hand on her abdomen, over the slight curve of her belly. “I remember asking Bobbie how I could ever trust someone to touch me, and she told me that there’d come a day when I’d be okay.”

Elizabeth exhaled slowly. “And I’m glad it was Lucky. For all the pain we caused each other, we really did love each other once. But—that’s not when I knew I’d be okay,” she told him. He tipped his head. “I always trusted Lucky. You know? Because of the way he found me. But I didn’t trust anyone else. Not even Nikolas. Not really. But in my studio, when I had to take care of you—”

She paused for a second, gathering her thoughts. “I could see how strong you were—I mean, I knew it—I’d seen it when you took that guy to the ground at Jake’s with just one arm—but in the studio, I realized that I’d never been afraid of you. That I never ever thought you’d use that strength against me.”

She slid over until she was next to him, and Jason put his arm around her shoulders, curling her into his side.

“You were the first man I trusted physically. And I knew then that I’d be okay. I didn’t really believe it until then.”

“And that’s why Gail wants you to get your license,” Jason told her quietly. He pressed his lips to the top of her head. “Because you care. And you know what they’re going through. You understand people, Elizabeth. And you know how to help them. You talk about that fall like you’re the only one who got anything out of our friendship—”

“Well, I know I saved your life,” Elizabeth teased, tipping her head up to him.

“You did,” Jason told her. “But you did that before December. I told you. I had nothing. And then you came into my life.” He traced his fingers down her cheek. “I’m sorry it took me so long to see it. To admit it. But I love you, and there’s nothing you can’t do. If counseling is something you really want to do, I’ll make it happen. No matter what it takes.”

Elizabeth tipped her head up and kissed him, sliding her hand to rest at the nape of his neck. She leaned back, drawing him over her, sinking into the cushions.

Her phone buzzed on the coffee table just as Elizabeth pulled his shirt out of his jeans. She sighed, turning her head towards it. “Ignore it,” she murmured.

Jason might have—except his eagle eye had seen the caller ID flash on the tiny screen. He sat up abruptly. “It’s Baldwin—”

Flushed, Elizabeth sat up as well, reaching for her phone. “Maybe they found Ric?” she asked, her eyes glimmering with hope. “Maybe it’s over.”

“Answer it—”

She flipped it open and put it to her ear. “Scott—no, don’t worry about it. It’s not that late—oh. Oh, okay. Yeah, um—” She dagged a hand through her hair, still a bit disoriented. “Yeah, tomorrow is fine. Nine? Okay.”

Her face had paled slightly as Elizabeth looked at Jason. “It’s not about Ric. Scott wants to meet with me, Ned, and Lois tomorrow.”

“Ned and Lois?” Jason repeated. He frowned. “But—”

“He said it’s about Vinnie’s case. There’s, ah, a hearing scheduled before he can be sentenced.” She took a deep breath. “It sounds—it sounds like there’s a chance his case might get dismissed.”

September 21, 2020

This entry is part 2 of 25 in the Mad World: This Is Me

Here’s another pity there’s another chance
Try to learn a lesson but you can’t
If we can burn a city in futures and in past
Without a change our lives will never last
Cause we’re going fast
Mona Lisa (When the World Comes Down), All-American Rejects


Thursday, November 6, 2003

General Hospital: Carly’s Room

Jason knocked lightly on Carly’s hospital room door the next morning, and she smiled at him, cradling her newborn son in her arms on the sofa. “Hey.”

“Hey. Am I interrupting anything?” he asked, wondering if she’d been about to feed him.

Carly shook her head. “No. I was just trying to move around a little bit, and laying in that bed gets old fast.” She gestured with her head for him to sit by her. “You haven’t been able to see Morgan much yet.”

“Yeah, sorry,” Jason said with a wince as he sat down and allowed Carly to set the baby in his arms. “It’s been—”

“Crazy,” Carly finished with a knowing nod. “Story of our lives, but it’s okay. Morgan knows his uncle Jason loves him. Or he will when I’m done brainwashing him.”

Jason smiled, and she was glad to see it even for a moment because his expression quickly returned to sober. “Are you okay?” he asked quietly. “With Ric jumping bail?”

“I’m trying to be,” she admitted. She rearranged her robe, pulling the ends around her more tightly. “It’s…it’s a lot to take in. I knew he was free, but with the ankle monitor, I could still feel like I was safe.”

She hesitated, then said, “Did Sonny tell you he wants me to move back in until Ric is found?”

“He did,” Jason said evenly. He met her eyes. “You know the security is good. We’ve upgraded it since…” His mouth tightened, and he looked down at the newborn in his arms. Morgan waved his fist, yawned, fluttered his eyelids, then settled back down into a doze.

“Since,” Carly finished. “I know. What kind of changes are you making for Elizabeth?” she asked. “I mean, I know you’re not taking chances with her since she’s pregnant.”

Jason didn’t answer her right away, then almost reluctantly, he said, “Nothing.”

“Nothing?” Carly repeated. She sat back a little, her eyes wide. “Nothing at all?”

“I don’t know that there’s anything I can do short of locking her in the penthouse that would make her safer,” Jason said carefully. “We talked about it, and she’s really—she’s doing a lot right now. She’s leading her group meetings, and she’s still doing therapy. She’s…” He cleared his throat. “She has a guard with her at all times, and I know her schedule. She calls me if it’s going to change. That’s enough for me.”

“It wouldn’t be enough for Sonny,” Carly muttered. “Or I don’t know. Maybe it would have once. You know, a year ago, with all that Alcazar stuff—and Brenda,” she muttered as an afterthought. “With all of that—he never tried to change how I was living my life.”

“That was before the panic room,” Jason told her. “Before he—”

“Before he hallucinated Lily, the last pregnant woman he couldn’t protect,” Carly said with a sigh. “Yeah, I know. Maybe Mama was right. He should have gotten help. I don’t know, Jase. Sonny and I took this weird turn, or we messed something up. We can’t seem to get on the same page anymore.”

“What do you mean?”

“He was so angry that I wanted Ric to go to trial, to rot in prison. And he gave me this whole speech about I couldn’t get my way anymore. My way,” she repeated, almost derisively. “Like I wanted a vacation in Tahiti and not Barbados. Is that how it went when you and Elizabeth talked about it—”

“You can’t—it’s not the same—”

“Why not? I was locked in a panic room for a week in the dark, threatened with death every single day. Elizabeth was drugged and attacked—nearly died. We were both traumatized,” Carly pressed. “Why is it so hard to believe we both want the same thing? That testifying might help us get past it.”

“It’s not,” Jason admitted, then winced, realizing he’d ceded the point.

“What is different is how you and Sonny decided to react to it,” Carly insisted. “Did you argue with Elizabeth?”

“Carly—”

“Did you try to make her feel bad for wanting the trial? Did you berate her or tell her it made you weak to let Ric live?”

Jason stared at Morgan again, not wanting to look at Carly, into those hurt and confused eyes. “No,” he said finally. “I said okay.”

“You said okay,” Carly repeated softly. “How fast?”

“What do you mean?” he asked warily.

“Did you talk about it for a while, or did she say—this is what I need, and you said fine. Like it was a five-second decision for you, right?”

“Yes,” Jason admitted.

“Because what Elizabeth needs is important to you. It matters to you that she’s okay, that she can get past all of this—that’s the priority for you, isn’t it?”

This wasn’t helping Sonny’s case, but Jason wasn’t going to lie to his friend. Not about this. “Yes. It’s the only thing that mattered to me, but Carly, what Sonny went through—it was different—”

“Yeah, he had a breakdown. And I’m not blind to that. I get that he felt weaker because you and Elizabeth did most of the work, and Nikolas swooped in at the last minute with the panic room idea. Sonny fell apart, and I’m sorry for it, Jase, I am. And maybe I should…” She sighed, looked away. “Maybe I should just let it be that easy. I’m expecting him to put me first. Why shouldn’t he expect the same?”

“Carly, what works for me and Elizabeth—it’s not going to work for everyone. We’re different people,” Jason insisted. “It’s not that I love her more, or that Sonny loves you less. We just need different things. It’s up to you to decide if you can live with what Sonny needs.”

“I thought I knew,” she murmured. “I thought I was doing the right thing, but maybe it’s not any better than Courtney calling the PCPD instead of waiting for you and Sonny to figure things out, you know? If what I need makes Sonny weaker in the eyes of the people he needs to respect him—I don’t know, maybe there’s another way around it.” She looked at him. “I mean, it’s different now, isn’t it? Ric isn’t coming back from this alive.”

Jason hesitated. “I don’t know. I hadn’t thought about it. I guess—” He shifted, uncomfortable. “I guess not. I mean, we could—we could try—” He pressed his lips together. “Elizabeth and I haven’t talked about it lately. Do you—” He looked at Carly. “Is that something you still want?”

“A trial?” Carly asked, surprised by the question. “Do I still want to testify and for him to die in a cell, rotting away until no one even remembers him? Yeah. That’s something I still want. I just—I’m not sure if it’s something I need anymore. Maybe Elizabeth feels the same. You know, we felt one way about it months ago. But she’s—she just dealt with her rapist. And she’s pregnant. Maybe she wants to put it behind her.”

“Maybe. I’ll talk to her. But Carly, if you—if you decide this is something you need—” He gently handed Morgan back to her. “Then I’ll try to make it happen. It’s important to me that you’re okay.”

“Okay is a strong word,” Carly said with a sigh. “But it’s a goal. Hey, Jase—before you go, can you be honest with me about something?”

“Always,” he said, rising to his feet.

“Will it be easier for you if I come back to the penthouse until Ric is found?” Carly asked, searching his eyes. “I mean, Sonny will be more focused and less agitated if I’m where he wants me. And—and that would make things better for you.”

“Yes,” Jason said after a long moment. “But that’s not what’s important to me. I care about you—and the boys. Do what’s better for you. I can take care of myself.”

“I know. I just—I’m thinking about all of us. It’s something I’m trying out,” Carly said with a hesitant smile. “I’m not good at it, so be patient.”

He laughed and kissed her cheek. “I’ll see you later.”

General Hospital: Meeting Room

“Thank you,” Elizabeth said, looking at the four women in the room with her. “For doing this today. I know—I know it was hard.”

“Not as hard as I thought it’d be,” Dana Watson murmured. She toyed with the ends of her short, red hair—cut and dyed in the months since she’d been raped and beaten in the Port Charles Park. She wasn’t the only woman in the room who’d shed the long brunette hair that had served as a trigger for Vinnie Esposito to target them—to follow them.

Veronica Logan’s hair was also short and dyed black. Next to her, Wendy Morris’s hair was a white-blonde, worn in a pixie style. Other than Elizabeth, only Renee Norton had kept her hair color.

“It’s stupid,” Wendy muttered, folding her cardigan sweater around herself. “Ever since the papers published the kind of girls he was looking for, I stopped going to the movies.” She glanced at Elizabeth, then down at her nails, bitten down to the quick. “I’ve never gone back to the park. Not in all these months. I couldn’t go on the Fourth of July.”

“It took me almost a year,” Veronica said softly. She looked at Elizabeth. They were the bookends of the original attacks — Elizabeth had been attacked Valentine’s Day 1998, and Veronica had been Vinnie’s final victim in the first round, attacked in January 2000 because Vinnie had been one of the responding officers to the bomb in Elizabeth’s studio that New Year’s.

“It’s not your fault,” Veronica continued. “I—I read what the papers said. About him trying to replicate the first attack. That—that we were hurt worse because we weren’t you.”

Elizabeth’s stomach swirled as she took a deep breath. “Yeah, well, it was hard at first not to blame myself.”

I blamed you,” Wendy said bluntly. “But—” she swallowed hard. “But I don’t now.” She bit down hard on her lip. “Mostly. I know it’s stupid—”

“It’s not,” Dana said with a shake of her head. “I—I read that it’s normal, you know, for you to blame things like that. I—I was really pissed at my best friend because she flaked on the movies at the last minute, so I was alone. I couldn’t talk to her for weeks. I kept thinking—if she’d just come with me, I might have had a ride home.”

“I blamed myself for lying,” Elizabeth said. “If I hadn’t lied about having a date, I wouldn’t have been in the park. I—I hated myself a long time for that. Sometimes I still do. It’s okay if you blame me. I keep thinking—” She took a deep breath. “I served him coffee after that. All the time. He—he was one of my regulars. He was a good tipper—” Her voice broke. “But I forgot that. You know—I didn’t remember that he’d taken my statement at a shooting, or that I’d seen him a thousand times in town. He just—”

“He blended,” Wendy said. “I mean, he interviewed us after—how fucking disgusting is that?”

“That might be the worst part,” Veronica admitted. “He investigated the cases this time. How—how do I trust the police again?”

“I can’t,” Renee murmured. The youngest of them, barely seventeen, no older than Elizabeth had been the night her world had been shattered. “I won’t ever trust them again.”

“Maybe not,” Elizabeth said. “I trusted a few of the cops so much that I assumed that one of them had sent Vinnie to question me that day. I live in a secure building, and I let him in. After all of that.”

“I’m sleeping better,” Renee volunteered with a half-smile. “Since—since he was arrested, and they told me you bashed in his head with a bat.”

“I didn’t—” Elizabeth managed a smile of her own. “I actually hit him in the knees. My boyfriend—he gave me the bat to protect myself last year. He told me that I’m not tall enough to take someone down by swinging at their head. I might just make them angry. So I should go for the knees and run. He hit the edge of my bed on the way down.”

“I like that better,” Wendy said, swiping at her eyes. “I like that he suffered even more.”

“Me, too,” Veronica admitted. She looked at Wendy and Renee. “What happened to you—it’s fresher for you. And you,” she added to Elizabeth, who shook her head. “I don’t know if it will help you to imagine that it will get better.”

“When the last girl—when Brooke Lynn Ashton died, my mom got scared I might try it, too,” Renee told them. “She slept on my floor for two weeks. It helped.”

“I thought about it, too,” Dana said. “I just—I didn’t.”

“I’m so glad that you didn’t,” Elizabeth told her. “Thank you. Even if you don’t come back, thank you for coming today. For sharing your stories.” When the session had opened, each of them had recounted their experience—and it had helped to hear all the ways it had been the same.

“Thank you for organizing it,” Veronica told her. “It—it really helped. I mean, I used to come to survivor meetings, and it helped to know I wasn’t alone. But when I found out—” She sighed.

“I used to feel that way, too,” Elizabeth admitted as she got to her feet. “But then I found out I was the first of…” So many. Seven women Port Charles, and three more in Buffalo that were still being investigated. How many more had never reported? “It made me sick to know I wasn’t alone anymore.”

“I’ll see you next week,” Renee told her shyly as the last of the women to leave the room. “You—you were really my age when it happened?”

“Yeah. I’d just turned sixteen a few months earlier,” Elizabeth said.

“And now you’re okay.” Renee took a deep breath. “You—you’re happy, right? I mean, you have a boyfriend. And I-I read somewhere that you’re having a baby.”

“Yes.” Elizabeth smiled, touching her belly. “Fifteen weeks, so I’m not showing just yet.”

“So you could—you like…” Renee’s cheeks were beet red as she struggled to get out of the words. “You…could, like, do it. I mean—have—”

“It took a while,” Elizabeth told her gently. “But I was able to fall in love and trust someone with not only my heart but my body. I used to be so scared that I could never let someone touch me. But time and patience, and the love of my first boyfriend—I got through it.” She squeezed Renee’s hand. “I hope it will be the same for you.”

She walked out of the room with Renee and smiled when she saw Gail Baldwin, her therapist, and the reason she was leading these meetings, waiting for her. “I’ll see you next week, Renee.”

“Bye.”

“How did it go?” Gail asked as she and Elizabeth walked towards her office. “I know you were nervous.”

“Good,” Elizabeth answered. “Better than I expected. Um, I don’t know if they’ll all come back, but I’m glad they came once. Thanks for helping me set it up. I wasn’t sure if—” She shrugged as they paused at the doorway to Gail’s office. “I wasn’t sure if it would work, but it did.”

“You have an instinct for this,” Gail told her. “That’s one of the reasons I stopped by. I wanted to talk to you about the possibility of you doing this more formally.”

“Formally?” Elizabeth raised her brows. “Like a job? Gail, I’m not qualified—”

“Not at the moment. But you could be. You have your BA, don’t you?”

Elizabeth rolled her eyes. “For all the good it does me. Art History isn’t much of a field—”

“You just need a BA to qualify for graduate school. I have some friends at PCU. With a master’s degree in counseling, you could do more of this.”

Elizabeth hesitated, then tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. “You think?” she asked, almost skeptically.

“Yes. I do. But it has to be something you want.”

“I—” Elizabeth thought about it for a long moment. “Would I have to specialize in rape counseling? I mean—I can do that. I think it would be okay—”

“You don’t have to. There’s domestic violence, unfortunately. Marriage counseling, addictions—” Gail lifted a shoulder. “There’s a large field to choose from, and you’d make that choice later. I’ve just—I’ve been so proud of you these last few months. Rising up from what you’ve been through, reaching out to help others—you have a gift for this, Elizabeth.”

“I’d have to think about it a little more,” Elizabeth said. “I—I—with the baby and everything—”

“Of course.” Gail smiled at her. “Just let me know. I could make some calls and have you admitted for the fall at PCU. But you and the baby come first. Let me know if you need anything.” Gail paused. “How are you doing…otherwise? Scott told me about Ric Lansing. And, of course, I saw the news.”

“I’m okay. I mean…” Elizabeth paused. “I’m okay,” she repeated. “I’m trying not to think about it if I don’t have to. Jason and I talked about it last night, and I think I’ll be fine. But thanks for checking.”

“You call me any time,” Gail told her. She kissed Elizabeth’s cheek. “Just because we’ve finished formal therapy, it doesn’t mean I don’t still worry.”

Elizabeth squeezed her hand. “Thanks, Gail. I appreciate everything.”

Kelly’s: Diner

Kelsey Joyce shifted nervously as she pushed her lunch around her plate. “We should wait a few more days,” she told Lucky Spencer. “I mean, until your mother has settled in.”

Lucky’s best friends, and fellow rookies at the Port Charles Police Department, Cruz Rodriguez and Dante Falconieri, snickered. Lucky sighed and slid over a five to each of them. Kelsey narrowed her eyes. “What?”

“I just lost a bet,” Lucky admitted. “These idiots—” he jerked a thumb at the others. “Said you would try to get out of meeting my parents, and I figured you were braver than that.” He shrugged.

Kelsey narrowed her eyes, first at her boyfriend of four months before turning her glare on his friends—“Oh, I see how it is.”

“Face it, Kelse,” Cruz said with a shrug. He took a bite out of his burger. “We know you. You’re a wuss.”

“A wuss?” She flicked him hard in the shoulder. “Take it back.”

“Not that kind of wuss,” Dante clarified. “I mean, I’d go through a door with you if I needed to—better you than Beaudry.” Sergeant Ryan Beaudry was the training officer who was supposed to be shepherding the trio through their first year on the force and in Major Crimes, but Beaudry liked to spend most of his shift in his car.

“Just that you like to avoid uncomfortable conversations,” Cruz finished. “And meeting the parents—uncomfortable.”

Kelsey scowled, then sat back, and looked at Lucky. “And you actually bet them?”

“In my defense,” Lucky said, “I bet on you, so I’m the one that got screwed here.” He flashed her a grin, and she wrinkled her nose.

“You’re lucky you’re cute,” she muttered. “Fine. Okay. Yes. I am nervous about meeting Luke and Laura Spencer. Do you know who your parents are?”

“Uh…” He pretended to think it over, and she whacked him in the arm.

“I mean, your parents literally saved the world. And—” Kelsey shifted, uncomfortable. “They…really liked Elizabeth.”

“Oh.” Cruz blinked at Lucky. “Yeah? They were into your last girlfriend?”

Lucky hesitated. “Yes. And—well, they still think of her as part of the family,” he admitted. “Mom wanted to invite her to dinner that night, too—”

“See? They’re not going to like me—”

“Hey—” Lucky reached across the table and took her hand in his. “There were times my parents liked Elizabeth more than me—”

“Ugh—” Kelsey groaned. She shoved her salad away and put her head on the table.

“You are terrible at this,” Dante told Lucky.

“No, no, I mean—they like her for reasons that have nothing to do with the fact I almost married her. It’s—they got really close because of her—” Lucky winced. “Because of the…Dad was here that night when I brought her back. And she and my mom were, like, working through it together because of what happened to my mom. I mean, they like Elizabeth on her own.”

“Plus, there was that whole year you were dead,” Cruz reminded him.

“Exactly. Elizabeth—she’s just special to them. But that’s because my parents know how to make room for people,” Lucky said. He hesitated. “Well, my mom does. Dad takes some time, but only if you’re a Cassadine, and you’re not a Cassadine—”

“She is basically a Baldwin, though,” Dante said.

“The two of you are a giant pain in my ass,” Lucky snarled at the both of them. “Could you try not to enjoy this so much?”

“Then stop making it so entertaining,” Cruz tossed back.

Lucky glared at them, then turned back to his girlfriend. “Kelsey.”

“What?” she said, her voice muffled since she didn’t raise her head.

“My mother would like anyone I dated. I promise you on that. But she’s going to love you.”

“How do you know?”

“Because I know my mother. Plus, Mom probably knew your dad. You said Scott and your dad went to law school together, right?”

“Right?” Kelsey raised her head, then sighed. “Right. That’s when she was married to Scott. So—”

“So, I don’t think my mother has ever disliked anyone. Except Helena Cassadine. You’re in the clear. And my father likes almost anyone my mother tells him to. Except Nikolas. But that’s a whole other problem.”

“I’m being stupid. I know I’m being stupid,” Kelsey told him, “so don’t agree with me.”

“Wouldn’t dream of it.”

“Fine. I’ll have dinner with your parents the night your mom comes back.” She looked at Dante and Cruz. “He gets his money back.”

General Hospital: Carly’s Room

Carly still wasn’t sure that she was making the best choice, but when both Sonny and Bobbie came to the hospital at her discharge time, she knew it was the right choice at the moment.

Only until Ric is found,” she cautioned Sonny as she handed Morgan to him to strap the baby into a carrier. She looked over at Bobbie, who had said nothing since Carly’s announcement. “After that, I have to think about it.”

“Right.” Sonny nodded. “Thank you for this,” he told her. He finished fastening the carrier and turned to Carly, took her hands in his. “I mean it. I—I heard what you said yesterday. What you said a few months ago. I’m trying.”

“I know. And I listened to you. We’ll—we’ll figure this out.” She smiled faintly at him. “Can you do me a favor? Go find Dr. Meadows and make sure everything is signed so we can go.”

“Sure, sure. And I’ll call Leticia to let her know to pack up.”

When Sonny had left the room, Carly turned to her mother. “I know what you’re thinking.”

“I’m not thinking anything,” Bobbie said. She sniffed and started to make the bed. “You’re an adult. You can make your own choices.”

“Jason came by earlier—”

“Oh, don’t tell me he talked you into this? I expected better from him—”

“No, no—” Carly held up her hands. “No,” she repeated. “But I also—one of the things that’s helped me get through all of this is to remember I’m not alone. That Elizabeth went through some of this, too. And—I know she and Jason aren’t talking about it, but the physical problems still aren’t over for her.”

Bobbie hesitated, then nodded. “They’re not. She’s doing well right now. But it’s early in the pregnancy, and that could change. She could deliver normally or have any number of complications because of her medical history.”

“Exactly. I can’t do anything about that. I couldn’t stop him from drugging her. And she worked so hard to find me, to make sure Jason could find me. If she’d left him that first night—Ric might have killed me.”

Carly took a deep breath as her mother’s face paled. “I’m not stupid, Mama. Ric was obsessed with Elizabeth and hated Sonny. He wanted to give my baby to her. If Elizabeth had left him, I wouldn’t have had any value for him. I’m alive today, in part, because of that choice. And she almost died because she stayed. I owe her something for that.”

“She would be the first to tell you that you don’t—”

“But it helps me to see it that way,” Carly insisted. “I’m—I’m selfish. You know that. I am terrible at thinking about other people, and when I try to put them first, I just do what I think they should want. It’s always about me. All the time.”

“Carly…” Bobbie sighed, tilted her head. “You’re not…entirely wrong. But Sonny isn’t much different. You’re giving him what he wants—”

“But I’m not going back for him. Not entirely. That’s only part of it. I’m doing it for Jason and Elizabeth. I watched them every day, Mama, on those little monitors. I watched them search. I saw them put in cameras. They tried so hard to find me.”

“I know they did, and I’m grateful—”

“If I’m at the Brownstone, Sonny might be unfocused. He might be distracted. He’ll be wondering about me, checking on me, and even—maybe—irritating me to the point I want to slap him,” Carly continued. “How much energy do you think he’ll put into the job? Into finding Ric?”

“Very little,” Bobbie admitted.

“The same thing that happened when I was kidnapped. I’m not doing it again. I couldn’t stop it before—I couldn’t help. I can now. And it will be better for Jason if he’s not worrying about me, Sonny, and Elizabeth. He can just worry about his family. The family he’s creating. He deserves to be a father. To have a child no one can take from him.”

“He does.” Bobbie sighed, nodded. “All right. If you think this will help in the long run, I’ll support you. I just—I just want you to be happy.”

“I have my boys, I have my family, my club—” Carly took a deep breath. “And once Ric is out of my life for good, we’ll work on happy.”

Gatehouse: Living Room

Lois Cerullo took a deep breath and stepped over the threshold of the house that sat near the entrance to the Quartermaine estate. She’d lived here with Ned as a new wife, trying hard to make their marriage work—

And she’d stayed here briefly last summer. She hadn’t been back since the day Brooke died. Since her baby had left this world.

“Lois. You—” Ned looked at her, then closed the door. “I told you. We could have met in town. At the hotel—”

“We could have,” Lois said. She turned to him, lifted her chin. “But I needed to remember this is just a place. You—you were able to stay.”

“For now,” Ned admitted. “I thought I might move closer to downtown.” He folded his arms. “At least while I’m in office. Maybe getting a condo or something. I—I didn’t think you were coming up this week.”

“I’m not just here for a visit,” Lois told him. “I—I tried to go back to Bensonhurst after—” She looked away from the mantel, from the collection of photos of Brooke and Kristina. “After we found out.” She hesitated. “It always felt like a safe place before, you know? I went there when we got divorced, and after Brooke—” She closed her eyes. “After.”

“But now?” Ned asked.

“Now, I can’t move an inch without seeing Vinnie. He grew up on those streets, Ned. I knew him, you know? I was—I babysat him. I see him on the corners, on the porches—” She sighed. “And Ma isn’t doing much better with it all. The Falconieries—especially his mom and grandmother—they’re saying he was framed. Tricked into it.”

Ned clenched his jaw. “They’re wrong.”

“I know it. They think he’s being scapegoated, that the DNA results are fake—Frannie wants him to withdraw his guilty plea—” Lois’s voice faltered slightly, but she got past it. “I just—I can’t be there anymore.”

“I’m sorry, Lois.” He took her in his arms, wrapped her in a hug. She let him soothe her—it was easier now to let him comfort her. Now that she knew who had stolen their daughter away from them.

“I thought I’d hate Port Charles forever,” Lois said. She drew back slightly. “But—it’s not the same. It was terrible what happened, but it’s also—it’s where he got caught. It’s where he’ll be sentenced. No one around here thinks it’s a lie.”

“You should stay a while,” Ned told her. He stepped back from her, rubbing his hands down her arms, to her elbows, then up again to her shoulders. “You know Grandfather will let you have the owner’s suite at the hotel, or Grandmother would love to have you in the house.”

“Maybe. But I was thinking bigger than that. I, um, you ran for this job to do better, you know? To get rid of Floyd and help people. Like those other poor girls. I want—I want to be part of it.”

“Yeah?” Ned searched her eyes, then nodded. “Yeah, that’d be good. I think—you know, Alexis is going to be the City Attorney. And Jax is taking a sabbatical to be my Chief of Staff. I need people I can trust around me. People who won’t let me get away with—” He managed a smile. “With being me.”

Lois laughed, then bowed her head slightly. “Yeah, you need people who will speak truth to power. Jax and Alexis are good at that. I could—I was good at it once. For a while.”

“No one better. Be my Media Director,” he offered. “Or Communications. Or something. Be in charge of the message. Keep me honest. I—I started this because I needed to think about someone other than Brooke. I needed to make sure someone paid. That it could never happen again.”

“And I want to help,” Lois told him. “So, wherever I fit, I wanna do it. For Brooke.”

“For Brooke.”

Ward Home: Front Porch

“I can’t wait to meet Justus’s daughter,” Elizabeth told Jason as they stepped up to the front door. He took the bottle of wine from her and smiled. “Every time he comes over, he has a new picture of her. She’s adorable.”

Jason knocked on the door, then waited. “Thanks for coming with me,” he told her. “I don’t always make a good first impression.”

“You? No,” Elizabeth teased. “I can’t believe it.”

Justus pulled open the front door, grinning at them both. “Hey! Come on in! It’s still chaos here because the movers didn’t…uh…take us seriously when we labeled boxes.” He ushered them into a foyer, closing the door behind them. “Mikki! Jason and Elizabeth are here!”

He shoved a stack aside as they walked through the living room into a dining room where a tall, pretty woman was sorting through a stack of dishes. Her curly black hair was swept into a top loose knot on her head, tendrils falling around her face. “Oh—I am a mess.” She turned to them. “Hey. I’m Tamika. Thanks for coming by.”

Jason handed Justus the bottle of wine. “Thanks for moving up here,” he told her. “Justus is the best lawyer we’ve ever had.”

“We like him, too.” She tapped her cheek, and Justus kissed it. “How about you open that up, let it breathe? We can have a glass and toast our first night in the land of boxes?”

“You want some?” Justus asked them. “Elizabeth, I know you can’t—”

“Oh!” Tamika clapped her hands together. “Oh, I forgot all about it! You’re pregnant. Of course not! Justus, go put the wine away and get some of my mama’s sweet tea for us.” She reached out for Elizabeth’s hands. “How are you feeling? How many weeks?”

“Fifteen,” Elizabeth said with a bright smile. Talking about the baby was her favorite thing in the world. “I’m feeling mostly okay. Tired a lot, but that’s normal.”

“Get your sleep in now because it will be your last chance before—”

“Mama, Mama!” They heard footsteps clattering down the backstairs before a miniature version of Tamika appeared in the doorway, dressed in a pair of denim overalls and a pink shirt. “Mama!”

“Kimi, we have guests.” Tamika raised her brows. “Is that how we act with company?”

The little girl pursed her lips, sighed, then looked at Jason and Elizabeth. “Sorry. Kimi. Nice to see you.” She flicked her eyes to her father. “Daddy, my dollhouse is all in pieces.”

“I told you, baby, that’s how we moved it from Philly.” Justus knelt down to sweep her into his arms. “Kimi, this is Daddy’s cousin, Jason, and his—” He hesitated. “Girlfriend, Elizabeth. This is Kimi.”

“Kimani,” Kimi corrected with a sniff. “I let them call me Kimi.”

“Well, aren’t we lucky?” Tamika drawled.

“Cousin,” Kimi repeated. “Like Jeremiah and Haven? Because cousins mean presents.” She fluttered her lashes. “I like presents.”

“Lord, save me,” Tamika muttered. She plucked Kimi from Justus’s hands. “Elizabeth, you wanna come upstairs with me? We can put Miss Kimani’s dollhouse together while the boys talk shop.” She grinned at her husband. “Look at me. Being all helpful and not even waiting to be kicked out.”

“Uh huh.” Justus kissed her again. “We’ll be quick.”

“I’ll bet.” She looked at Elizabeth. “Come on. I’ll show you around the house.”

While Elizabeth and Tamika went upstairs, Justus motioned for Jason to follow him into a room off the living room—his office, judging by the desk and chair surrounded by boxes. “Sorry about Kimi. She thinks family equals gifts, and with Christmas next month—”

“Michael’s the same way,” Jason said easily. “He’s already working on his list. And you’re right. We’re cousins. I’m—” He rubbed the back of his neck. “I’m working on being more okay with that than I was before.”

“The Quartermaines take a lot to get used to,” Justus agreed. “We don’t really have much to talk about, though. I made some calls to my contacts in the State Department. The FBI is agreeing to help track Ric, but they don’t have any leads yet.”

“Yeah, I figured. Bernie’s been talking to our guys in South America. But nothing.” Jason exhaled with a frustrated air. “It’s like he vanished into thin air. I don’t like it.”

“Me, either.” Justus folded his arms. “But he’ll turn up sooner or later. No one can hide forever. And if he does mean to be gone forever, well—” He lifted his brows. “Would that be so bad?”

“No, but—” Jason paused. “I made Carly and Elizabeth a promise,” he told Justus. “They wanted Ric to go to trial, so they could testify against him—to his face,” he clarified. “And then they wanted him to rot in prison.”

“Ah.” Justus heard the words Jason hadn’t said. “Well, then, it’s gonna harder to keep that promise if we can’t find him.”

Jason nodded. “I know. But—” He remembered Carly’s face that morning, the way Elizabeth had looked the day he’d promised her. “I need to do whatever I can to try.”

This entry is part 1 of 25 in the Mad World: This Is Me

Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, enfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Breathe Me, Sia


Wednesday, November 5, 2003

Port Charles Municipal Building: District Attorney’s Office

Scott Baldwin stepped aside to hold the door as Elizabeth Webber and Jason Morgan entered his office. He dragged a hand through his hair, then gestured at his conference table. “Have a seat, have a seat. I’ll tell you what we know.”

He grimaced slightly, taking a moment to note the irony of this moment. Six months ago, he would have killed to have Jason Morgan walking willingly into his office, but things were different now. His life wasn’t about putting Jason Morgan or Sonny Corinthos behind bars. Not anymore.

Well, it was still a little about making sure Corinthos rotted in hell for eternity, but Scott had turned the corner on Jason thanks to Bobbie Spencer and Elizabeth Webber, who seemed to think there was something worthwhile about Jason.

“I don’t understand how this happened,” Elizabeth said as she sat down. Jason sat next to her, keeping a careful eye on her. It had been only a month since she’d come face to face with serial rapist Vinnie Esposito and survived to tell the tale, even if she’d needed a baseball bat to escape him.

“He was supposed to be wearing an ankle monitor,” Jason said. His expression was bland, almost blank, one might say, but Scott had spent enough time with him to know that Morgan was livid—the way the corner of his eyebrow twitched slightly, the clench of his fist on the arm of his chair, the white knuckles.

“I know.” He exhaled and sat down. “I’ve spent most of the night trying to figure it out. We’re consulting with Crimson Pointe police, but their guys don’t have anything. All they can tell us is that Ric Lansing’s ankle monitor turned off around 8:42 PM last night. They contacted us about ten minutes later. By 9:30 PM, they’d performed a search of the entire Zacchara estate. No sign of him.”

Scott looked at Jason. “Thank you. For allowing your guards to talk to us freely.” He’d been stunned silly when two of Morgan’s men had willingly sat down with Taggert that morning to give statements but grateful nonetheless. “Cassadine’s security also said the same. They all had eyes on the front gates. Nothing stirred.”

“So, what’s next?” Elizabeth asked, her voice tight. She clenched her hands in her lap, stared down at the table. Jason reached over, took one of her fists in his, laced their fingers together, forcing her to relax. She glanced at him, then sighed as she returned her attention to Scott. “I mean, where are you looking? Are you looking?”

“We put out the APB last night and is running in all the major newspapers in the state this morning, even in New York City,” Scott continued. “We’re contacting the FBI to see if we can get their assistance, but since Ric wasn’t charged with anything federal, they’re limited at the moment until we have proof he’s crossed state lines.”

“But you don’t know anything,” Jason said flatly. “Nothing that you didn’t know last night. Ric disappeared, and no one can say where he is or might go.”

Scott met his eyes, then swallowed hard. It was insane to feel like he’d disappointed Jason Morgan, but he also knew that Morgan had let Ric live. He could have had the scumbag disposed of at any point in the last four months since Lansing had been arrested for kidnapping and attempted murder, among the other charges levied for what had happened to Elizabeth.

But Lansing had survived to be released on bail. He’d survived months in Crimson Pointe. If Morgan had wanted him dead, Scott knew Jason could have made it happen. Instead, he had let the case wind through the system.

Now the system had let Elizabeth down. Again.

“No, we don’t. I wish we did. But Lansing has resources that we don’t even know about. I’m sorry,” he told Elizabeth. “I wish—I don’t know—I wish we’d done something different.”

“If Carly and I had agreed to a deal,” Elizabeth said softly, “it might be over. He’d already be in Pentonville or Sing Sing.” She looked at Jason. “Were we wrong? Did we make a mistake?”

“No,” Jason told her simply. “You wanted a trial. You deserved it.”

She swallowed hard and looked back at Scott. “What about me and Carly? We’re the star witnesses against him. I know he was trying to discredit me during our divorce proceedings, but the judge ruled last week that he couldn’t force a property settlement I didn’t want. Ric was trying to delay the divorce so I couldn’t testify against him, I think. But they finalized it—I mean, they gave me a date when it’ll be over. Is that why he escaped now?”

“Maybe,” Scott allowed. “I don’t know. I can’t see what Ric will gain by going after either you or Carly. You might be my star witnesses, but you’re not the only ones. Bobbie and Nikolas both saw the panic room. Cody Paul and Cruz Rodriguez were there when you found the button. There’s the real estate agent, and the footage you gathered during the week Carly was gone—your statements are on the record as well.” He forced himself to smile. “You two are the icing on top of a very well-baked cake.”

He looked at Jason. “And I’m sure that Jason here has made you and Carly as safe as you can be. Especially after what happened in September.”

“Yeah.” Elizabeth looked at Jason with a faint smile. “Yeah, I’m safe. I guess I was just—” She sighed. “I was hoping it would be over. We were going to trial next week—” She rubbed her temple.

“I’m sorry, Elizabeth. I wish this could be different. I promise to keep you loop, okay?” Scott got to his feet and surprised himself by reaching out, extending a hand to Jason, who reluctantly shook it. “We’ll find him. Somehow.”

“I know you’ll try hard. Thanks, Scott.” She also shook his hand, then held it a moment longer. “I mean that. Thank you. For everything you’ve done since he was arrested.”

“I’m just sorry I don’t have better news for you today.” He clasped his other hand over their joined ones, enveloping her hand in both of his. “But you know, you should be proud. For taking down Floyd, standing up for yourself and the other women—and you’ve got a lot to look forward to, you know.” He smiled at her. “Take care of yourself and that baby. Leave Ric to us.”

“Thank you.”

He walked them out, then returned to his office to go over the case one more time, praying for a detail that he had missed.

PCPD: Commissioner’s Office

Mac Scorpio grimaced as he hung up the phone. “Sorry,” he said to the city’s mayor-elect. “It’s crazy this morning with the Lansing case.”

“Yeah, I imagine.” Ned Ashton took a seat and studied Mac for a long moment. “How is that going? I don’t see Floyd stomping in to make demands.”

“No election left to win,” Mac said dryly. “He saw the writing on the wall and left me alone after the Esposito case wrapped up.” He tapped a pencil against the case report. “As for Lansing, we’re still waiting on some footage from red light cameras and speed traps in Crimson Pointe. Hoping for some sign of life. As of right now, it’s like Lansing disappeared off the face of the Earth.”

“Any chance that’s true?” Ned asked carefully. “Lansing, uh, made some enemies in this town.”

“If Morgan and Corinthos had wanted Lansing dead, he’d be dead,” Mac replied simply. “Scott got the impression they’d decided to let him live, at least through the trial. Elizabeth and Carly wanted to testify.”

“So it’s unlikely they did anything before their testimony.” Ned nodded. “I can understand that. I know how protective Jason is of Elizabeth, especially now. If he made her a promise, he’s not going back out. What about the other enemies? The Zaccharas?”

“I can’t see why Trevor and Anthony would bring all this crap on themselves right now,” Mac said. “If they wanted Ric dead, there were easier and cleaner ways. Right now, they’ve got authorities crawling over the estate with a fine-tooth comb. Better for all parties concerned if Ric is shanked in the shower at Sing Sing in a year or two.”

He shook his head. “No, I think Lansing took the chance and split. We’ve got the APB out, and media has been alerted. Baldwin’s working with the U.S. Attorney’s office in Syracuse to get federal help tracking him.”

“So you do know how to do this job,” Ned said, caustically. “It’s nice to see you actually doing something productive for a change.”

Mac exhaled slowly and took the hit. Ned, more than anyone, had earned the right to rake him over the coals whenever he wanted for what Mac had done.

It hadn’t felt so wrong five years ago when he’d quietly closed Elizabeth Webber’s rape case without further investigation. He’d believed Tom Baker had committed the crime and was on his way to jail. He couldn’t have known that Baker had falsely confessed to Elizabeth or that one of his own men had brutally raped her—

Or that Vinnie Esposito would rape six more women, including Ned’s daughter, Brooke Lynn, who had died by suicide earlier that summer.

He couldn’t have known it, but he knew he should have done more. At the very least, he should have done the right thing by Elizabeth five years ago. A DNA test would have excluded Tom Baker. It might not have stopped the later rapes, but maybe they could have caught Vinnie before he’d gone after Elizabeth again. Falsifying that lab report—it would haunt him for the rest of his life.

There was no way to know what might have been different, only to live with the consequences of his actions.

“Everyone wants Lansing brought in,” Mac said after a long moment. “I’d be surprised if he were still in the jurisdiction, but…” He trailed off.

“I’m not here for an update, but thank you for it all the same.” Ned got to his feet. “You know why I’m here.”

“I do.”

Ned’s handsome features twisted in a sneer. “Look at you, like a fucking martyr, ready to take your punishment like it will make a difference.” He shook his head. “It won’t. You can go quietly, you can go angrily, I don’t care which.”

Mac thought Ned did care—that he would prefer Mac to put up a fight and proclaim his innocence. He was searching for someone to blame, to be angry at. Somewhere to put all the energy, all the devastation from the loss of his daughter. He’d funneled it first into his campaign to replace Garrett Floyd as mayor, but now—

Now Mac wondered how Ned would go on without somewhere to focus that energy. Would he find comfort and solace in being mayor?

“I know what I did. I know it was wrong. There’s nothing I can ever do to make it right, Ned. I put myself in front of the job. I told myself I was doing it because I wanted to take care of my girls, but I should have seen all the other girls I let down.” He got to his feet. “I can throw a punch, I can yell at you. But I don’t want to. You’re right. I’m wrong.”

“Damn right. And I don’t care about your excuses. About your rationalizations. I take office on December 1.” Ned exhaled slowly. “I thought about demanding your resignation the same day, but the person replacing you can’t start until December 10.”

He looked at Mac. “You might know her. She’s been working in Pine Valley the last few years.”

Mac smiled faintly, then nodded as he looked down at his desk. “Anna,” he said quietly. He looked back up. “Anna Devane. That—you couldn’t do better than her.”

“I know. So—” Ned cleared his throat. “I need you to stay until she starts,” he muttered. “I almost wanted to let the department go without a commissioner for nine days because, hell, what difference would it make—but—” He shook his head. “Then Lansing jumped bail. And I know what he can do. What he’s already done. I would never forgive myself if I didn’t do everything I could to bring him in. So you’ll stay until she starts.”

“Of course.”

Ned went to the door, then stopped. He turned back to look at Mac, and Mac was startled to see that some of the hatred and anger had dissipated. “You know, I actually do believe you thought it was Tom Baker. You didn’t know a serial rapist was stalking the streets—”

“It’s my job to know,” Mac interrupted roughly. “I trusted Vinnie. I knew him back then. And he was—he wasn’t like that. Not where you could see.” He’d never seen the monster underneath.

“No. Some demons only come out in the dark. Keep me in the loop on the Lansing case.”

Corinthos & Morgan Warehouse: Sonny’s Office

Sonny Corinthos scowled at his partner, then started to pace the room. “How the hell can they say they don’t know anything?” he demanded.

Jason slid his hands into his pockets and sighed. “Because they had even fewer eyes on the place than I did. Harry and Tito didn’t see anything, Sonny. Neither did the guy Nikolas had watching the place. If the ankle monitor was deactivated—”

“He had help,” Sonny snarled. He whirled to glare at Bernie Abrams, their business manager and adviser. “Have you contacted Anthony? What the hell does he have to say for himself?”

“Trevor told me the same thing they told the police,” Bernie replied. He flicked his eyes to Jason and then back to Sonny. “He went up to check on Ric when he didn’t come down for dinner. He wasn’t in his room. Last time he saw his son was around noon. They didn’t contact the police because it’s not their problem. The police were only notified when the ankle monitor went dead.”

“They’re lying,” Sonny muttered. He jabbed a finger at Jason. “If you’d let me kill this fucker months ago, we wouldn’t be in this position—”

Since Elizabeth had voiced a similar thought about wishing she’d let the whole thing be pleaded down, Jason didn’t argue with Sonny. He wanted Ric Lansing dead, too, but it wasn’t up to him, and it wasn’t up to Sonny.

Carly and Elizabeth had made their wishes clear —to deal with what had happened to them, they both wanted to face him in court. End of story. Sonny had seen the whole thing as a betrayal by his own wife and a sign of weakness on Jason’s part for giving in.

Jason didn’t care. He had made Elizabeth a promise, and he wasn’t in the habit of breaking them. Not after what she’d gone through last summer with Ric Lansing almost killing her, then being attacked by the man who’d raped her as a teenager.

“Baldwin knows something,” Sonny decided. “He’s just not telling you. He hates our guts and isn’t gonna do us any favors. I kept telling Carly that, but she let her mother—and Elizabeth—change her mind. Don’t think I forgot about that—”

“Baldwin doesn’t know anything,” Jason snapped, done with the snide remarks about Elizabeth. “He didn’t have anything to hide. And he hates you. Not Elizabeth.” Or Jason, since Scott had gone out of his way to help Jason keep control of her medical care, but Jason didn’t think Sonny wanted to hear about all the ways Scott Baldwin had played this case fairly.

Sonny was livid that Lansing had slipped through their grasp, and he was worried that the other members of the syndicate might see it as a sign of weakness that Lansing still drew breath. Jason didn’t spend a lot of time worrying about that kind of thing — if he wanted to prove his strength, he just kicked someone’s ass.

“Baldwin wouldn’t lie to Elizabeth. He’d lie to me maybe, but not her. Not about Lansing. He knows she could still file charges against the PCPD and the city for the crap they pulled with both of her cases,” Jason told Sonny. “That’s the reason Baldwin called her in at all. They’re making sure she’s not pissed off.”

“I don’t know why I bother. You’re never going to see it my way,” Sonny muttered. He sat behind his desk, put his head in hands. “Suppose Baldwin isn’t lying. What’s the game?”

“I’m not sure it has to be that complicated,” Bernie offered. Jason looked at him, frowned, and Bernie continued. “Well, the trial starts next week, and the hearing last week made it clear that Elizabeth would be able to testify against him. He can’t drag out the divorce anymore, and he can’t put off the trial. So he split.”

“He’s probably halfway to South America by now,” Jason continued. “He still has contacts from his work with Luis Alcazar. He could disappear in Venezuela or Colombia and pass as a local with his coloring. He knows the language. I agree, Bernie. I think Lansing took his chance and left. I don’t know if the Zaccharas helped him, but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s in the wind.”

“You mean you hope he is. How do we know he’s not just licking his lips, waiting for another chance at Elizabeth or Carly? He was obsessed with Elizabeth. He tried to kill my wife, steal my son to give him to Elizabeth—and you think he’s done with her?” Sonny demanded.

“I’m not ruling that out,” Jason said. “I called Roy DiLucca in Miami. He’s laying groundwork with the Ruiz family to use their network in the region. They use a lot of the same connections that Alcazar did. Ric would probably use the same connections. I talked to Vic on the island to make sure Ric doesn’t get through the Caribbean without us knowing it.”

Sonny nodded. “Okay. Okay. That’s more like it. But that’s supposing Ric is going to South America. What if he’s not? What if he’s staying in the area?”

“The Towers are secure. Since Esposito got in, the PCPD doesn’t get in without a warrant.” Or unless they were cops Elizabeth trusted, but there was no way in hell Jason would tell him that. “And we have keys for the elevators. Stan finished installing that last week. You and I have keys. Elizabeth has one. So does Max, Marco, and Cody because they need access to the penthouse floor. We gave one to Wally on the front desk to let people upstairs—with authorization. No one gets upstairs without someone on the floor who lives there giving permission,” Jason reminded him.

Sonny nodded. “Okay. Okay. And Elizabeth—she should stay in for a while. I’ll get Carly to come stay at the penthouse with the boys until we get this bastard—”

“I—I don’t think that’s necessary,” Jason said, a bit unsettled by that suggestion. Carly had barely recovered from being locked up in the panic room—he didn’t think it was a great idea to ask her to be locked up again, even if it was in a luxurious penthouse. “I think the Brownstone has good security—”

“I’ll ask her anyway,” Sonny said. “Things are better between us, so she was going to come home soon anyway.”

Jason didn’t argue with him. He didn’t know Carly’s mind, and he wasn’t going to pretend he did. “We’re as prepared as we can be, Sonny. I don’t like this either, okay? Elizabeth—she’s pregnant. You think I’m going to take any chances with her?”

“No. No.” Sonny took a deep breath, and some of the anger and tension bled from his face as he met Jason’s eyes. “Of course not. How is she? I mean, with this Ric stuff—she handling it?”

“She’s doing okay,” Jason said, grateful that Sonny had remembered he actually liked Elizabeth. “She’s leading a support group for survivors at the hospital, and it’s helping. And we just had an appointment yesterday with the doctor. She’s good.” Her blood pressure had been elevated, but still in the normal range—nothing they hadn’t expected after Vinnie Esposito’s attack in September.

“Good. Good.” He looked at Bernie. “What’s going on down at the waterfront? Tommy collected on the World Series bets yet?”

General Hospital: Carly’s Room

Carly Corinthos smiled faintly as her mother gently laid a freshly washed and clean Morgan Stone Corinthos back into his crib. “He’s beautiful, isn’t he?” she murmured. She turned her head to face them. “You’d never know everything he’s been through.”

“That’s because he has a strong mother.” Bobbie Spencer leaned over to kiss her head gently. “Get some sleep. I’ll be back to take you home tomorrow.”

Bobbie turned towards the door and stopped when she saw Sonny standing there. “Sonny.”

Carly blinked, then winced as she sat up. “Sonny. I wasn’t expecting you.”

“I wanted to see my son again.” Sonny nodded at his mother-in-law. “Bobbie. How are you?”

“I’m good. I’m going home to check on Lucas, then coming back tomorrow to take both Carly and Morgan home,” Bobbie said, lifting her chin at the final word, reminding Sonny that Carly didn’t live with him anymore and hadn’t in almost two months.

“Mama,” Carly said, pointedly. “I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Bobbie sniffed, then kissed Morgan’s forehead one more time before leaving. Sonny closed the door behind her, and went over to check on their son. He lifted Morgan out of the bed, and cradled him against his chest.

“How was your meeting with Jason?” Carly asked. “Elizabeth came by after she talked to Scott. She said Baldwin didn’t know anything.”

A muscle in Sonny’s cheek clenched, and Carly knew it was because he wasn’t comfortable with her asking about business. She didn’t consider Ric Lansing to be business related, and neither did Elizabeth.

That was why she’d left Sonny—because he’d refused to remember that it had been Carly who’d been kidnapped, Carly who’d been traumatized by a week inside a cold, dark, panic room, locked up by a man who wanted to kill her and steal her baby. To Sonny, Ric was business. To Carly, Ric was what nightmares were made of.

And she’d left him to make sure Sonny never forget that Carly mattered, too.

“No, according to Baldwin,” Sonny said with a sneer, “they don’t know anything.”

Carly wasn’t in the mood for another go around on Scott Baldwin and her trust in the system, so she nodded. “Okay. But that didn’t tell me anything. What do you and Jason think?”

“We think we need to be cautious.” Sonny set Morgan back in his bed and walked over to sit in the chair next to her bed. “Jason is going to be dealing with Elizabeth’s security, and I—I think it’d be a good idea for you to come stay at the penthouse. Until Ric is found.”

Carly shook her head. “No, Sonny, we’ve talked about this—”

“We have. And I understand that you still have some things to work out—”

Carly narrowed her eyes at that because, as usual, Sonny was making it sound like this was all her fault. “We have things to work out,” she began, but Sonny continued speaking as if he didn’t hear her.

Story of her life.

“But with the new elevator security,” Sonny said, “there’s no place safer for you and the boys.” He hesitated. “I’m not asking you to stay forever, Carly. Just until we find Ric—”

“And how long is that going to take?” Carly demanded. She winced as she sat up further. “Weeks? Months?”

“Days,” Sonny said flatly. “We’re already on his trail, and Jason and I aren’t going to rest until he’s dead. You understand that’s what is going to happen, don’t you? It was one thing to let you get your way when we knew where he was and could control the situation—”

Carly closed her eyes. “Let me get my way—”

“But we don’t know what’s going on. What he’s planning. He’s escaped. I let him live after this, it’s just another sign of weakness. I can’t let that happen.”

She pressed her lips together. “I get it. It’s different now that he’s jumped bail, but that doesn’t mean I’m ready to come home.”

“If you understand it’s different now, then we don’t have any other problems. That’s why you left in the first place, isn’t it?” Sonny asked.

“Yeah, but there were other—” Carly was too tired to argue. “Look. Let me think about it. It’s been a long day, and I just—I don’t know. I’ll let you know tomorrow.”

“Okay.” He picked up her hand, kissed her fingertips. “I love you, Carly. I just—I just want to protect my family. I can’t lose you. Not again.”

“I know,” she said, softening slightly. She knew that he’d suffered a psychotic break during the kidnapping. It had been terrible for them all. Maybe he was right. Maybe it was time to try and put it behind her, too. “I love you, too.”

Scorpio House: Kitchen

Mac dumped a can of soup into a bowl, then shoved it in the microwave to heat. It was a sorry excuse for dinner, but he hadn’t been in the mood to stop anywhere for dinner on the way home.

The day after the election, after Ned had run on a campaign to oust not only Floyd but Mac at the PCPD—well, he knew what people were thinking when they looked at him today.

“You know, you could return just one phone call.”

Mac glanced over his shoulder to see his ex-wife leaning against the door, her brows raised. “Felicia. I didn’t hear you knock,” he said dryly. The microwave beeped, and he took out the bowl.

“I didn’t.”

“I know.” He crossed to the kitchen table and took a seat. “What do you want?”

Felicia sat across from him, studying him for a long time. “Did Ned come by today?”

“He did.” Mac swirled the spoon around in the bowl. “I’m officially fired as of December 9. My replacement starts the next day.”

“He’s already found a replacement?” Felicia asked. She leaned back in the chair. “Well, I suppose I can’t be surprised at that. He did make it clear what would happen if he was elected—”

“And it was obvious even to an insane person Floyd was going to lose in a landslide after that press conference.” Mac exhaled. “It’s Anna,” he said softly. He didn’t look up at her, couldn’t bear to see her face.

Because he knew she was thinking about their conversation last summer when he’d confessed to feeling like the lesser Scorpio brother. He’d never measured up to the great Robert Scorpio in life or in death, and to be replaced by arguably the second-best PCPD commissioner in history—his brother’s widow—

It stung, and Mac was hurt more than he had any right to be. He’d destroyed his own career—he’d let Floyd control the conversation, the narrative—he’d bent over backward to stay in power, to keep his job—

“I’m sorry, Mac,” Felicia said after a long moment.

“Well, Anna will do a good job.” He forced a smile on his face as he finally met her eyes. “And maybe Robin will come to visit more. That’s the best I can hope for right now.”

“Exactly.” She tipped her head. “The girls are on campus tonight. You wanna order a pizza, or are you devoted to that soup?”

Mac looked down at the orange liquid in the bowl, then shoved it aside. “I’ll get the menus.”

Morgan Penthouse: Master Bedroom

Elizabeth unfastened her necklace, then set it down on her vanity table, smiling at her reflection in the mirror. Despite the awfulness of the day, she still liked to take a minute each night to remember the good things in her life.

She was relatively healthy and expecting a child with a man she loved deeply—who loved her nearly as much as she loved him. And they were living together, planning a future. She had friends who loved her, a job that she was starting to fall in love with—

Ric Lansing might have been poking at the edges of her consciousness, but Elizabeth wasn’t going to let him win. Not tonight.

Not ever again.

“Hey.” Jason closed the bedroom door behind him and crossed over her, leaning over to brush a kiss against her neck. She smiled, closing her eyes.

“Hey.”

“How was the rest of your day?” he asked as he sat on the bed and took off his boots. “I’m sorry I wasn’t home in time for dinner.”

“No worries. Emily came over to check on me for the five minutes she could spare me on her dinner break.” Elizabeth turned around to face him. “Nikolas called from London. He wants to set up a dinner when Laura comes home next week.”

“Dinner?” Jason asked, with a pinched expression. “That—I don’t have to—”

“No, you don’t have to go,” she teased. “Lucky is introducing Kelsey to his parents the first night Laura is home, so I don’t want to get in the middle of that. But Nikolas said Laura wants to see me as soon as we can make it happen. I’m so glad she’s coming home. I can’t wait to tell her about the baby. She’ll be so excited for us.”

“Really?” Jason asked, skeptically.

“Yeah. Lucky and I aren’t together anymore, but she was really kind after it fell apart, and we kept in touch.” She hesitated. “I checked on Carly before I had my group meeting.”

Jason looked at her with a worried expression. “How is she? I wanted to see her, but—”

“She’s okay. We’re both a little nervous because Scott didn’t have any leads, and she wasn’t sure if Sonny would tell her anything. I told her you might be okay talking with me, so I’d keep her in the loop.” Elizabeth bit her lip. “I’m sure a lot of it is business related, so I just—”

“We don’t know much yet either,” Jason told her. “We put feelers out to anyone we know in South America. We think he’ll go there because he worked for Alcazar.” He hesitated. “I agree with Baldwin, you know. I don’t think you and Carly are in any danger.”

“You agree with Baldwin?” Elizabeth managed a smile. “I should get that on tape in case I want something later.”

He smiled at her, then stood and pulled her to her feet. “I can’t think of anything you’d want that you’d need to use leverage to get,” Jason told her before kissing her. She sighed and melted against him for a moment—then drew back.

“But if Carly and I were in danger—”

“The elevator security system is up and running. There are only seven keys right now. We might give one to Justus when he gets back from Philly with his family tomorrow. Maybe Bernie and Francis. But it’s going to be limited to the people who need access to this floor.”

“That does make me feel slightly better, but then again—I did let Vinnie up—”

He slid his thumb under her jaw, lifted her chin so their eyes met. “And Cody went downstairs without you. That won’t happen again. And you’re not planning to invite Taggert or any of his people over for dinner, so I think we’re good.”

“You’re right. And don’t blame Cody—”

“I don’t. He blames himself enough for both of us.” Jason stripped off his shirt and pants, pulling back the comforter. “You have Cody during the day, and Marco if you need to go out at night. Is—is there something else I can do to make you feel safe?”

“No.” Elizabeth sat on the bed, then pulled him down next to her. “No,” she repeated more firmly. “And I do feel safe.”

“Are you sure?” Jason asked. “Because Sonny—he wants Carly to come stay in the penthouse. You could—you could stay in for a few days if you wanted—”

“No, that—I have things I want to do. And need to do. I have a meeting tomorrow,” she told him. “It’s—” She managed a smile. “I told you I was hoping to get together with some of the other survivors. Vinnie’s other…” Elizabeth sighed. “In case we want or need a statement at his sentencing next month. Plus, I was hoping we’d feel better if we were working through it together.”

“The first one is tomorrow?” Jason asked. He smoothed his hand down her hair, letting his fingers slide through the strands. “You’re sure? Right now—it’s not public that you were the first—that the others—”

“It will be by the sentencing. They can do the math. And I’m not—it wasn’t my fault what happened to them.” Elizabeth took a deep breath. “It wasn’t their fault they went into the park. Ric isn’t my fault either. So, no, I don’t want to stay in the penthouse. I worked hard—and so did Carly. We both worked really hard so that what happened doesn’t control our lives.”

She leaned forward to kiss him. “Tomorrow, I’m going to work. Then we’re taking wine to Justus and his wife to welcome her to Port Charles. And then, if you’re not busy, maybe we can do something for dinner. Take the bike out before it gets too cold.”

“Then that’s what we’ll do.” He kissed her back, then gently laid her down on the bed.

November 11, 2019

This entry is part 31 of 31 in the All of Me

I am here, I am here
I’ve already seen the bottom, so there’s nothing to fear
I know that I’ll be ready when the devil is near
I am here, I am here
All of this wrong, but I’m still right here
I don’t have the answers, but the question is clear
I Am Here – P!nk


Tuesday, November 4, 2003

General Hospital: Hospital Room

Election Day in Port Charles was a cold and blustery one as winter weather made a surprising appearance—almost as surprising as the birth of Morgan Stone Corinthos, two weeks before his due date. Carly was just grateful she’d sent in her vote for the mayor by absentee ballot the week before.

No way in hell was she going to miss her chance to shove Garrett Floyd out of office.

The birth was relatively easy, and Carly allowed Sonny to be there with her while their son came into the world. She was still staying with her mother, still unsure as to what her marriage was going to look like once the trial—slated to begin in a week—was over.

But Sonny looked nearly like his old self as he beamed at his son and showed off Morgan to Bobbie and to Michael, who was eager to be a big brother. Dr. Meadows proclaimed Morgan to be perfect, which Carly already knew.

Her son was her miracle baby that had helped her survive a nightmare and it was her job to make sure he had the best life possible.

“I want you to come home,” Sonny told her when Bobbie had taken Michael home and Morgan was laying peacefully nearby, dozing off.

“We talked about this, Sonny,” Carly murmured. She shifted, her epidural fully worn off. “After the trial.”

“I know, I know. I just—” He looked over at the portable crib where Morgan’s tiny fist was waving in the air. “I just want my family back. The way we were before any of this happened.”

“I know.” Carly reached up to touch his cheek. “I know. But we can’t go back. We can only go forward. And right now, I’m not sure if we can do that.”

Sonny felt a bit more tense, but finally nodded. “Okay.”

“Okay. Can you turn on the television? WXPC is going to have the election results starting at six, and I don’t want to miss the moment Floyd is gone.” She winced as she shifted again. “Did Jason call?”

“Yeah, he and Elizabeth are on their way. They had a doctor’s appointment first.” Sonny leaned down to touch Morgan’s soft baby skin. “But no one wants to miss that asshole getting thrown out of office.”

Port Charles Hotel: Renaissance Room

 The Ashton campaign was throwing an election night party, and Dillon was there to support his brother even though everyone knew Ned was going to win. The polls had put Ned ahead for the first time shortly after the press conference and Vinnie Esposito’s arrest, but in the month since, they had opened up a gulf so wide that it would take a miracle for Floyd to win.

But this was Port Charles, so Dillon was prepared for anything.

He’d invited Lucas, Felix, Maxie, and Kyle, and of course Lulu.  He’d left Georgie off the invitation list, so he wasn’t expecting anyone to show up. They all did.

“You really voted for Ned, even though he’s going to fire your stepdad?” Felix asked Maxie as they settled at the one of the large round tables set up. He eyed the plate of hors d’oeuvres as a waiter passed them. He looked at Maxie with raised brows. “He’s not mad you’re here tonight either?”

Maxie shrugged. “I’m sure he’s not thrilled, but I’m not gonna make important decisions to be sentimental. One of us has to be a rational adult, and apparently, it’s me. Georgie decided to vote for Floyd.” Maxie rolled her eyes. “Her first vote as a registered voter and she threw it down the drain.”

“How do you know who she voted for?” Lulu asked, leaning forward.

“I heard her talking to Mom about it when we got home. She said she felt like she needed to support Mac. Whatever. Ned is going to be a better mayor.” Maxie popped an olive in her mouth.

“I’d drink to that,” Lucas said, craning his neck, “but all of these people know exactly how old I am.”

“Hey, celebratory party at the pool house?” Lulu asked Dillon. “I can make some calls and pick up something to celebrate with.”

“Hey, let’s not celebrate just yet.” Dillon reached for a glass of water. “You never know in this town.”

Across the room, Alexis worried. When Ned had started this run for mayor, she hadn’t really expected him to win. He’d gotten into the race late, Floyd was a popular incumbent—but after the serial rapist case had blown up in everyone’s face, it was clear that Ned was going to be the next mayor.

And it had occurred to her last night that she was now a liability for him—her daughter was a liability—a secret that a political enemy would love to discover. She fretted as Ned watched the election results on the large television they’d set up for the events, as it inched closer to eight and the official close of the polls—the earliest time the race could be called.

“Sorry,” Lois said, as she retook her seat next to Ned. “Sonny called me to let me know Carly had the baby.”

Olivia started, looking at her oddly—as did everyone else at the table. “When did you get friendly with Sonny Corinthos again?” she demanded. “You haven’t talked to him in years.”

“I saw him when I came up last month, after the arrest.” Lois frowned at her friend. “We reconnected. Don’t worry, Ned. We’re not married anymore so no one is going to complain—”

“I’m not,” Ned said dryly. “I think Sonny might be more popular than the PCPD at this point—”

“That’s not hard,” Jax muttered. “So, Carly had the baby.”

“She did.” Lois looked at Olivia who was still frowning. “Liv, what’s your problem? I know you haven’t talked to Sonny since he left the old neighborhood—”

“I forgot you grew up with him, too,” Ned told Olivia who just sighed.

“I did, but he was closer with my cousin, Connie.” Olivia shifted, looked around. “I think I need to go check on something in my office.”

She got up and left without another a word. Lois twisted in her chair and watched her leave. “Almost twenty-five years later, and she’s still mad that her cousin stole her boyfriend. Liv went away for almost a year to stay with relatives in Buffalo after Connie and Sonny hooked up. But Sonny got his in the end—Connie broke his heart and went away to college.”

“Sounds like a woman I’d like,” Jax said, with a broad grin.

“But it worked out for Liv, too,” Lois said, with a shrug. “She met Dante’s father and now she has that beautiful boy—” She took a deep breath and forced a smile on her face. “Anyway. She’s still sensitive about it.”

“Oh, look they’re going to call the election,” Alexis said, pointing her finger at the screen.

PCPD: Commissioner’s Office

Mac had already largely packed up his office. The new mayor would take office on December 1, but everyone knew that Mac would be the first casualty.  Floyd had all but abandoned him, and Mac had done his best to stay under the radar since Esposito’s arrest a month earlier.

He sat in his office, watching the election returns on a small television. He glanced up when Taggert and Scott came in, both looking disheveled, Taggert carrying a six pack of beer. “They’ve called the election,” he said.

Scott grimaced, looked at the screen. “Well, it was nice working with ya.” He sat on the sofa. “I wonder who they’ll get to replace you.”

Taggert offered Mac a bottle of beer. Mac looked at him. “We’re off duty, and what’s Ned gonna do? Fire you?”

Mac took it, twisted off the cap, then looked at Scott. “Haha. Very funny. Kelsey was back at work today, wasn’t she?”

“I tried to talk her out of it. Told her to take a few more weeks, but she’s determined to make sure I don’t screw up.” He hesitated. “I’m going to make her second chair on Lansing. Ease her back into things, help her run Major Crimes more closely.”

Taggert scowled as Floyd came on the screen to give his concession speech, looking wan and exhausted. “How’s that going? It hasn’t been in the papers lately.”

Scott took one of the beers Taggert was offering. “Nothing to report. Ever since he lost his bid to get Sonny’s medical records, he hasn’t done anything but the bare minimum for this trial.”

“Maybe he’s hoping Carly and Liz will fall apart on the stand,” Taggert said. “He’s in for a rude awakening if that’s it. He might be able to talk himself out of the drugging charges, but there’s no way to talk away those videos of him going into the panic room and Carly and Elizabeth both testifying to the kidnapping and finding her—”

“I don’t know. I just—” Scott leaned over to dig his cell phone out of his pocket as it rang. “Baldwin—” He closed his eyes. “How in the fuck—”

He listened for a long moment, then let loose another string of profanity before flipping the phone shut and almost throwing it.

“Well.” Scott set the beer down. “That was the service monitoring Lansing’s ankle monitor. It was deactivated about ten minutes ago.”

“God, damn it.” Taggert surged to his feet. “I’ll call Crimson PD—”

“I’ll put out an APB,” Mac said as he started for his desk.

“I’ll go give Carly and Elizabeth the bad news.” Scott grimaced. “Better put them on high alert.”

Luke’s: Bar

An election party was also in full swing at Luke’s club. When the results were announced, the crowd cheered, and the party only got more raucous. The live band that had been hired was keeping the crowd happy while Claude kept the drinks flowing.

His parents would be home in another week, his grandmother was currently dancing up a storm with his aunt Amy, but Lucky couldn’t bring himself to be quite as happy as everyone else in Port Charles.

And he wasn’t alone, as his two best friends sat with him at the bar, both of them trying to make the same decision as he was.

Should they keep plugging away at the PCPD? Or was it time to move on? After almost five months on the job, Lucky wasn’t sure it was what he wanted to do. He liked the part where he helped people, and he was glad he’d been able to help put together the case against Vinnie. He knew Dante and Cruz had worked hard on Carly’s kidnapping.

But the PCPD seemed more hopeless than ever.

“We could get a PI license,” Dante suggested. He grimaced. “Or I could go home to Bensonhurst, but it makes you wonder if cops are like this all over the place.”

Lucky hesitated and then straightened as he saw Kelsey winding her way through the crowd, scanning it. He held up a hand and she joined him behind the bar, brushing a kiss against his lips. “Hey, you. Sorry I’m late. Are you guys talking about who might be the next commissioner?” she asked.

“No. You want a drink?” Lucky asked.

“Dr. Jones finally cleared me, so pour me the biggest gin and tonic you can.” She reached for a pretzel. “I think Ashton has to go outside of the city. Bring in new blood. I liked Mac, but he made a lot of mistakes. I definitely think it’s time for a change.”

“So, you’re staying?” Dante asked, frowning. “Even after—”

“Am I thrilled I needed brain surgery because a cop I worked with turned out to be a psychopath?” Kelsey shrugged. “No. But we did the job. We solved the case.” She looked at the Dante. “I know it’s hard on you—he turned out to be family—”

“Yeah, well…he was the least favorite son of my mother’s least favorite sister, so I guess it could have been worse.” Dante shifted. “What about all the crap with Floyd and Mac—”

“It sucks, but it came to light, didn’t it? Because you guys didn’t stop working. Because Taggert didn’t stop working. This isn’t what I thought my first job would be like, but you know what?”

She turned and twisted to gesture at the television screen still carrying the election news. They were rerunning a clip of Elizabeth from the press conference. “At the end of the day, the asshole who hurt her? We get to put him on ice for the rest of his life. And next week, we’ll slam the door on her ex. I can live with that.” She turned to Lucky, who grinned down at her. “I think we did okay, don’t you?”

“Yeah, we did okay.” He kissed her again. “I guess we’ll stick with it.”

Cruz’s beeper started to vibrate. He scowled and looked down at it, then pulled out his phone as a text message came through. He was the only one of them on call. “Hold that thought. Taggert just sent a 911. Lansing jumped bail.”

General Hospital: Hallway

Bobbie closed the door, leaving Sonny and Carly alone with their son and rejoined Jason and Elizabeth in the hallway. “So, does that make you even more excited for your little one?” Bobbie asked with a light teasing smile.

Elizabeth wrinkled her nose. “I’m not sure it’s possible to be more excited.” She linked hands with Jason. “I just wish my divorce was final. Ric decided to fight it, so it’ll be another month. Maybe two.”

“But it’ll be over,” Jason told her. He wrapped an arm around her shoulder, drew her in close. “And the trial will be over.”

“With any luck, we can all be moving on by Christmas,” Bobbie said with a smile. She stepped forward and wrapped them both in a tight hug. “Thank you so much. Without the two of you, I don’t know what would have happened to my grandson and daughter. You brought her home.”

“We couldn’t have done it without you,” Elizabeth said. She kissed Bobbie’s cheek. “We worked together, and you know, we make a hell of a team.”

“Jason would be happier if we had less drama for a while,” Bobbie said, with pointed look at Jason’s pained expression.

“He’s stopped taking my pulse every other hour,” Elizabeth reported with a broad smile up at him. “Now it’s only every three hours—which is what Kelly recommended.”  The last month had been so good—she’d gone home for bed rest and then Jason had surprised her by taking her to a cabin he’d rented in Niagara Falls. Just the two of them for five whole days.

She was starting to believe that this time, they were going to get it right and get the happy ending they deserved. She smiled up at him, and he grinned at her when he caught her looking.

The elevator doors slid open and Scott hurried out, looking unhappy. Bobbie scowled. “Scott Baldwin, don’t you dare come over here with bad news—”

“It can’t be helped. Morgan, do you have security on Lansing?” Scott demanded shortly.

Jason hesitated, exchanged a look with Elizabeth whose face drained of color. “We have guys on the house where he’s staying—so does Nikolas Cassadine, but—what happened?”

“His ankle monitor has been deactivated. Crimson Pointe PD searched the house—he’s not there.” Scott clenched his fists. “Lansing jumped bail. We don’t know where he is.”

This entry is part 30 of 31 in the All of Me

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
Dare You To Move, Switchfoot


Thursday, September 25, 2003

General Hospital: ICU

Lucky’s chest eased as Kelsey opened her eyes, just a sliver of brown as she shifted and turned her head slightly. “What—” Her voice was little more than a raspy whisper. “What happened?”

“You were pushed down the stairs at work.” He leaned forward, taking a hand in his. “You hit your head.”

“Oh. Ow.” She closed her eyes again. “Am I okay? Why does everything hurt?”

“You cracked some ribs. And broke your ankle. But you had—” He had to stop. Take a breath. Remind himself she was okay. “You had a head injury. A brain bleed.”

“B-brain—” Her eyes opened again, wider now. “What?”

“You’re okay,” Lucky added, quickly. He kissed her palm. “The doctors say you’ll be fine.”

“The warrant—did—I was getting a warrant—”

“We got him, Kelse. He got a call from a cop in Buffalo about you asking for his cases, and he went after you to give him time for his grand finale.” Lucky grimaced. “He attacked Elizabeth—she’s okay,” he assured her when she gasped. “She took him out with a baseball bat. She’s here for observation because of the baby, but she’s okay. We got him. He got moved into lock up earlier.”

“We got him.” Her eyes fluttered close again. “She got him. Did you—”

“We sent out the DNA for a match, but we already charged him with your attack and Elizabeth’s. He’s not going anywhere.” He managed a smile. “Now you can just focus on getting better and out of this hospital.”

“You’re up!”

Lucky turned to find the disheveled district attorney at the door, with Bobbie just on his heels.  “She woke up just a few minutes ago.”

“Hey, sweetheart.” Scott hurried to the other side of the bed to take Kelsey’s other hand. Lucky got to his feet and took the coffee his aunt offered him. “Your mom is on her way up here—”

“Great. Just what I need,” Kelsey muttered.

“Scott, why don’t I go get one of her doctors while you tell them the good news?” Bobbie said, putting a hand on Scott’s shoulder.

“What? Oh. Yeah. Yeah.”

“I’m glad you’re awake and doing better, honey.” Bobbie patted the leg that wasn’t wrapped up in a cast and raised up in the air slightly.

“What good news?” Lucky asked as his aunt left the room. “We couldn’t have gotten DNA back yet—”

“We won’t need it.” Scott looked at Kelsey with a smile, before looking back at Lucky. “I’ve been in a meeting with Vinnie’s newly appointed lawyer. You and Spencer—you put together a tight case. We have the contact with Elizabeth, the contact with cases involving the other victims. We have Baker’s statement, naming him as the cop who confessed to him about Elizabeth. Emily identified him as one of Baker’s security during her photoshoots, and we got word from Brenda Barrett that she also knew Vinnie.”

“Wait—” Lucky held up a hand. “He’s confessing to the rapes? Not just yesterday—”

“He knows the DNA is going to match. He’s looking at seven separate rapes in the first degree, two of which were against minors. Outside the attacks yesterday, at trial, he’ll get seven consecutive sentences of 25 years to life.”

Kelsey sighed. “You’re pleading him down to a single sentence of 25 years, aren’t you?”

“I’ve contacted the other victims. Even Elizabeth Webber.” Scott shrugged. “Up to me, I’d lock the door and forget about him for two hundred years. But the others—”

“They just want it over.” Kelsey looked at Lucky. “I can’t blame them.”

“He’s young, Scott,” Lucky said quietly. “In twenty-five years—”

“He’ll be up for parole,” Scott told him. “But I will crawl out of my nursing home to bring those DNA reports to a parole hearing. He’s pleading to Elizabeth Webber’s rape and the attack yesterday. She deserves that. But his DNA matching in six other rapes? That keeps the door locked.”

He met Lucky’s eyes. “He’s not getting out. It’s over.”

“Yeah. Yeah. I guess—I don’t know. It feels like it’s not enough.”

“There is nothing we could ever do to make him pay enough for what he did to all of those girls. To Kelsey. We can’t bring Brooke Lynn Ashton back. But that’s the job, Spencer. Sometimes…throwing away the key is all we can do.”

“Thank you.” Lucky grimaced as Scott raised his eyes. “I know you’re the one that told Ned Ashton what happened to Elizabeth. I know you did it to get back at Floyd, mainly, but Ned and Elizabeth both deserved to know it.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.” Scott shrugged. He leaned over to kiss Kelsey’s forehead. “I better go check in with your mother. See how long before she gets into town.”

“Thank you,” Kelsey murmured once Scott had left and they were alone again. “I know he’s not your favorite person—”

“If that guy had been investigating my mom’s case last year—” Lucky shrugged. “I don’t know. Maybe he turned himself around or something.” He smoothed her hair back, off her forehead, leaving his hand resting lightly against her skin. “You scared me.”

“That wasn’t the plan,” she murmured. “But hey, you’re a cop, so it’s only a matter of time before you’re in this bed, and I’m the scared one.”

“Yeah, well, let’s try not to do this again any time soon.” He hesitated. “I love you, you know.”

“Yeah.” Kelsey opened her eyes again, that smirk he’d fallen for all those weeks ago back in her eyes. “I know. I love you, too.”

Port Charles Hotel: Owner’s Suite

An exhausted Lois opened the door, her face lined with an obvious lack of sleep and her eyes red and puffy. “Hey.” Ned stepped forward to embrace her tightly.

“Hey.” She stepped back, kissed his cheek, and gestured for him to come into her room. “I’m sorry. I only got in around midnight.”

“Yeah, I asked the front desk to call when you checked in. I hope that’s okay.”

“Yeah, yeah.” Lois shook her head, sat back on the sofa, and wrapped the ends of her cardigan more tightly around her torso. “I can’t seem—I can’t seem to make this work in my head.” She gestured at the television where WXPC News at Noon was muted. “They’ve been running the story all day, and I know what Alexis said on the phone—”

“Yeah. It—” Ned sat down, looked at the screen where the news anchor was speaking, a photograph of Brooke positioned in the upper right corner. “I thought when we knew—”

“I thought it’d be some stranger,” Lois murmured. “Someone we never knew. Not—” She looked at him, the tears sliding down her cheeks. “She knew him, Ned. Vinnie grew up down the street from her. They were never close—he’s older. But he knew her.”

She pressed her fist to her mouth. “I keep thinking maybe that’s why she did it. Maybe she remembered and she needed that image to go away. How—”

Ned slid closer to her and put an arm around her, drawing her in closer. “I know. I wondered, too.”

“Olivia called me as I was getting my things together, and she was—she was crying. Frannie—Vinnie’s ma—she was at my door, blubbering, trying to explain it was all a mistake, and I just kept—” She squeezed her eyes shut.  “Did he go after her because he knew her?”

“Why—”

“The reports said that he went after one of his other victims—Elizabeth Webber—that he went after her again yesterday because he knew her. A-And—” Her voice trembled. “He knew her then, didn’t he?”

“I don’t—” Ned exhaled slowly. “I got a case update this morning from Taggert. That’s the operating theory. He was one of her regulars at Kelly’s, and he started following her around—”

“Jesus. She was just a baby.” Lois lunged to her feet. “I did the math. Sixteen years old, and a grown man—a cop following her around. What? One night, it was just too much and he grabbed her?”

“Yeah. And then he attacked other girls who looked like her every time he came across Elizabeth. He was at the garage fire when Lucky Spencer—” Ned shook his head. “And in Buffalo, he attacked girls on the anniversary of her rape. Taggert said he kept picking girls who looked like Elizabeth, who left the movies, and stopped at a fountain—”

Lois shook her head. “Stop, stop.  I get it.”

“I got another call on my way over. Scott Baldwin said he’s been in contact with the other victims, and he wanted my input. Vinnie’s asking for a deal. He wants to plead guilty—”

“You tell him to go to hell!” Lois snarled. “You tell him that we will see him fry—”

“The case is airtight, Lois. The DNA is gonna match. But a trial means all those women have to testify. Be cross-examined—”

“In front of the man who raped them.” She sighed. Leaned her head against the window that overlooked the park. God, she could see the fountain where her daughter had been stolen from her. “Yeah. I guess that makes sense.” She pursed her lips. “What’s the deal Baldwin wants to make?”

“Twenty-five to life for rape in the first degree of Elizabeth Webber, aged sixteen.”

“Just her case—” Lois furrowed her brow. “Why—”

“Because he’ll never plead to all seven of them. And Elizabeth’s case started it all. She ended it yesterday with a baseball bat. She said she would come to the hearing, give a victim impact statement if we needed. No one else would. It was hard enough to get the other women to sit down for an interview, Lois. We can’t ask them to do more.”

“They want it over.” Lois rubbed her fist against her chest. “He’s only twenty-nine years old, Ned. Twenty-five years—he’ll be in his fifties—”

“And we’ll go to his parole hearing with his DNA match in every other case. Scott said he’d make it a point to make sure the DA’s office fought parole. And honestly, Lois—” Ned offered her a grim smile. “How long do you think Vinnie’s gonna live in prison after raping Jason Morgan’s girlfriend?”

Lois exhaled slowly. “I believe in the system most of the time,” she said finally. “But there are just some people who don’t deserve to live. But he can’t get the death penalty for our girl. He should. Because Brookie? That’s on him. He did that to her.”

“I know, baby—”

“But you’re right. A trial would make this all last so much longer. If he’s willing to sign a deal today—” She pressed her lips together. “If that part of it can be over today, we can all find a way to move on. I mean, nothing is bringing back our little girl, so better if it’s just over.”

“I told Scott to go ahead,” Ned admitted, “but I warned him I hadn’t run it past you. He assured me if one of the women or you or I had vetoed it, he’d go forward with our charges.”

“I appreciate it. At least something in this town is working right.” Lois looked back out over the park that stretched along several city blocks in downtown Port Charles. “You wipe the floor with Garrett Floyd in November, Neddy. And you make this a better place.”

“That’s the plan.” He put his hands on her shoulders and rubbed them lightly. “Come to the house. Lila is worried about you. And we have a better view.”

“Yeah. You’re not wrong. Thanks.”

Port Charles Police Department: Lock-Up

Dante was grimly pleased when he found his cousin laying on his back in the cell, moaning slightly. Vinnie’s face was bruised and cut from where he’d busted his cheekbone on Elizabeth Webber’s bed, and Dante knew the asshole was walking with a limp from the hit he’d taken from the bat.

He only wished Jason Morgan had had a chance to go after him—to finish the job.

“Hey, Cuz,” Dante said with a pleasant smile he didn’t feel. “Bad day?”

“Go to hell,” Vinnie muttered.

“Just found out my cousin is a dirty cop who brutally raped and beat seven women that we know of, so I don’t know, I kind of think I’m already there.” Dante tipped his head, jerked his chin out. “Why Brooke?”

“What?” Vinnie turned his head and looked at him, his brown eyes blood shot. “What?”

“You knew her. You went to her Communion. Her birthday parties. She and the Cerullos—they’re family. Why Brooke?”

It was a horrible ache in his chest, in his head, a rage coursing through his blood. Blood he shared with the animal locked in his cell. He had to know. He had to understand how someone he’d known all his life could hide this part of him.

“You really wanna know?” Vinnie looked back up the ceiling. “I mean, Dante, if you really wanna know, I’ll tell you.”

Dante closed his eyes, took a deep breath. “Yeah, Vin. I really wanna know.”

“I thought it would be like the first time.” Vinnie’s voice turned slightly wistful. “You know the first time you’re with a girl, and it’s everything you pictured? Everything you fantasized about? I kept trying to figure out why it was never right.”

Oh, God. Dante’s stomach pitched, but he kept his features even. “That’s what you always told them. It was never right.”

“You didn’t know Elizabeth back then. You should get some pictures.” Vinnie laughed, a slow, smooth chuckle like they were trading stories in a bar. “She was hot. I saw her when she first moved here that summer. High cut shorts, low cut tops. Oh, man. She had a way of smiling at you—”

Jesus Christ. He knew from Elizabeth’s file that Vinnie was waxing poetic about a fifteen-year-old girl. “Why didn’t you just ask her out?” he forced himself to ask.

“Thought about it. But I figured her old bat of a grandmother wouldn’t like it. Would tell her no. I’m not that much older than her, but you know how some bitches are about that shit.”

“That doesn’t explain Brooke—”

“For months, I followed her around, waiting for an opening. Hoping she’d look at me, that she’d give me that smile—but that night at the movies—I saw her dress. She wanted it, man. Dressed in that slutty red dress, mmm….”

Bile rose in his throat, but Dante swallowed hard. He needed to hear it. He needed to hear him say it, to admit it. “Get to Brooke—”

“I thought about going after Elizabeth again. Followed her a couple of times, but she never went anywhere alone at dark again. So, I tried to find someone else. Someone who looked like her. I followed them, just like her. They had her hair—and you know, if they stopped at the fountain—it was a sign that it meant to be.”

Vinnie sighed, almost sadly. “But it was never right. They never smelled right. Their hair never felt right against my skin. I thought…I thought maybe I had to know her. I had to want her. When I saw Brooke at the theater, I saw her go into the park, and man, I just knew it would be right. I knew it would feel good. And I knew I’d be her first. That would make it special. Like it was with Elizabeth.”

Oh, God. Vinnie had followed Brooke on purpose. Had known—had intended it—

“How’d you know—” Dante had to struggle to force the words. “How’d you know you’d be—”

“I caught her once with the Graziano girl.” Vinnie grinned, sat up and leaned back against the wall, his bruised and torn cheek looking grotesque. “She was a lesbo. Never drove stick, you know?” He shook his head. “Maybe part of me wanted to make her understand what she’d been missing—”

“I read her statement, Vinnie. You beat her. Like the others.”

“Brooke—I figured out what I’d been doing wrong with Brooke.” Vinnie nodded, as if he’d answered some philosophical mystery. “All those girls—it didn’t matter if they were virgins. If they stopped at the fountain. If they were young or brunette. Valentine’s Day didn’t work. Even if I knew them. It would never be right. It would never be as good as the first time.” He got to his feet, limped closer to the cell wall, to Dante. “It needed to be her.”

Dante swallowed hard. “So that’s why you went back. Why you went after Elizabeth Webber.”

“She’s my soulmate.” Vinnie sighed happily. “She doesn’t understand that yet. But she will. One day.” He looked at Dante. “Sorry about Brooke. I should have figured it out a long time ago. That’s on me.”

“Yeah.” Dante’s voice was barely above a whisper. “Yeah, that’s on you.”

He turned and stalked out of the holding area, straight down the hall to the bathrooms and into one of the stalls. And then he threw up.

When he’d finished, cleaned his mouth out, and could think clearly again, he pulled out the recorder he’d stowed in his pocket. He pressed the stop button, rewound it, and then played. When he heard the beginning of his conversation with Vinnie start to play, he stopped it again. He didn’t know if this would be admissible, but if Vinnie tried to back out of his deal, maybe Scott could use it as leverage.

Dante slid down against the tiled bathroom wall, pressed the recorder to his forehead, and didn’t even bother to wipe the tears as they stained his cheeks.

Port Charles University: Campus Center

Lulu dropped her bag down next to Dillon at their usual table and frowned at him. “You’re here.”

“Yep.” Dillon didn’t look up from the reading response he’d been trying to finish for the last hour. “I had class this morning. And another in about an hour—”

“Yeah, I know your schedule, dink.” She tugged out her own laptop, scowling at the notebooks and folders that came with it. She’d promised her aunt she’d go to college, make her mother proud, but man, academia was not her thing. “I mean, why are you here today?”

“Because sitting at home wasn’t going to change anything.” Dillon looked at her. “Mom’s in from New York, and she and Grandfather are figuring out how to spin this so Ned can get elected—”

“Ugh, really?” Lulu wrinkled her nose. “But—”

“That’s how the Quartermaines cope with tragedy. Some people cry in each other’s arms, we plot to take over the world. Don’t make that face, Lu. Spencers are just as crazy.”

“Yeah, fair play.” She waited a beat. “Have you seen Brooke’s mom yet?”

“No. She’s at the hotel, and Ned was leaving to see her when I left for class.” Dillon cracked his knuckles. “Lu—”

“The thing is, Dillon, even though we’ve known each other for five minutes and have been dating for thirty seconds, I know you.”

He met her eyes. “And—”

“And maybe the rest of the Quartermaines plot to take over the world, but you don’t. You live your life. You go back to work. To your movies.”

“Sounds normal to me—”

“Hey. Dillon—” She put a hand in front of the screen to force him to turn, to really focus on her. “I get it. I did the same thing when my family fell apart last year. I pretended nothing was happening. And eventually, everything slid back the way it was supposed to be, and my mom is coming home. I just—I don’t know. I wanted you to know that you’re not invisible to me. That I see you. That I get you. And if you want us to just sit and study and go to class like we do every other day, then okay.”

“That’s what I want, Lu. I just want to finish this thing, go to class, and—” Dillon exhaled slowly. “I think Brooke killed herself, Lu. I think that’s what made her take all those pills. I think she remembered him, and she wanted it to go away. She couldn’t live with it.”

“Maybe,” Lulu said, softly.

“And just maybe, if I’d been a better friend to her—if I hadn’t treated her like such a pain in the ass when she moved here, instead of taking those pills—maybe she would have called me.” He sat back in the hard, plastic chair. “It’s not—it’s not my fault that any of this happened, but you know, it’s a little on me that she didn’t feel like she could turn to anyone.”

“Maybe we all could have done more when she moved up here. I could have called before I went to London,” Lulu said. “I mean, I knew her, too. Dillon, you’re not the only one who bailed because she wasn’t friendly. Me, Maxie, and Georgie—we’ve known each other all our lives. And we used to play with Brooke when she visited Ned. We knew her, too. So, if this is on you, it’s on us.”

She waited a moment. “The thing is that even if we had been best friends, even if we’d all been like a family, she might not have called. Because all the friends in the world doesn’t change the fact that maybe she knew the guy who raped her, that it was someone she’d known her whole life. She might have taken the pills anyway.”

“Yeah.”

“And no matter how close we might have been, we would always have thought we could have done more. That’s just who you are, Dillon. And it’s hard to accept that maybe we couldn’t save Brooke.”

Lulu straightened, took a deep breath. “So maybe we should try to help people like her. We could do some shifts at a suicide hotline or something. Maybe you could talk to your brother about doing a charity thing for rape victims. I don’t know. My brother might have some ideas, too.”

“Yeah.” Dillon’s chest felt a bit easier as he looked at Lulu. “Yeah. Thanks.”

“No problem. Now, leave me alone because I was supposed to read all of this stupid book by my next class, and I have like twenty minutes to find an online reading guide.”

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

Elizabeth stepped just inside the penthouse door and stared at the sofa where, less than twenty-four hours earlier, her rapist had attacked her again.

“We should have gone to the condo,” Jason said. He set her duffel bag down. “Let me just pack a few things—we’ll go now—”

“No—” Elizabeth touched his arm. Looked at him. “No. The whole point of telling Scott I wanted to plead out the case was I needed this to be over. And now…in a few days, when he goes for his arraignment, it will be.”

She looked at the sofa, took a deep breath. “Yeah. Yesterday was bad. I was terrified. I made it out. I fought back, and I won, you know?” Elizabeth turned to frame his face with her hands. “This is your home—”

“It’s just a place. We can go anywhere—”

“I’m not letting Vinnie Esposito steal one more thing from me, Jason. We—” She turned around, gestured at the window. “You remember last year? When we stood there, and I talked about the yachts in the harbor—”

“Yeah.”

Elizabeth whirled back around, a grin on her face. “I remember the way you asked me about it—you asked me if I wanted a boat like one of those—and I thought—you know, I wondered if I said yes, if you’d go buy me one.”

Jason smiled now, warmth and humor back in his eyes. “I might have. I liked seeing you here. I did not like Zander. I should have shipped him to a safe house or locked him in his room, but I—” He hesitated. “You’re right. This is just a place.”

“I like the view from this penthouse. I always have. Those windows look out over the water, and it’s not that different from the view at Vista Point. Sometimes when I stand here, I think about being up there with you. We can remember the bad things that happened here, but I don’t want to do that.”

She gripped the sides of his leather jacket and smiled up at him. “This is the place where we talked about names for our baby, and where you almost offered to buy me a yacht. We played pool here. We’ve made love in that bed. I’m going to decorate one of the spare rooms so our child has a place of his own. This is our home. And if we decide to move one day, it’s going to because we decided to. Not because of bad memories.”

Elizabeth leaned up to press her lips against his, tugging him closer. “We could go upstairs now—the cops said they cleaned the carpet—”

Jason broke the kiss with a groan— “You’re really mentioning the cops right now? And Monica said bed rest.”

“Can you think of a better reason to stay in bed?” Elizabeth grinned, winding her arms around his neck. “Because I can’t.”

November 7, 2019

This entry is part 29 of 31 in the All of Me

Surrounded and up against a wall
I’ll shred ’em all and go with you
When choices end, you must defend
I’ll grab my bat
And go with you, I’ll go with you
I’ll go with you, I’ll go with you, yeah
My Blood, Twenty One Pilots


Wednesday, September 24, 2003

Morgan Penthouse: Bedroom

It took two tries before the door flew off the hinges, the frame cracking from the pressure as Vinnie rushed into the room, his eyes lit with fury. “You fucking bitch!”

And she swung.

She swung for his knees first because Jason had taught her to do that. She swung low and hard, and cracked him right in the kneecaps. He flew forward, arms flailing, his chin hitting the foot board, the crack of bone hitting wood echoed in the room.

She didn’t stop—couldn’t stop—to see if it had taken him down. Baseball bat in hand, she flew out of the bedroom, down the stairs, into the living room—

Where the door was being busted open. She barely had time to see the security guards flying in before Jason and Taggert were there. She dropped the bat and launched herself into Jason’s arms.

“I went for the knees,” she managed as the tears came. “And I ran.”

“Christ,” he managed as he buried his face in her hair and couldn’t say anything else.

Taggert left Elizabeth with Morgan and followed the mixture of security and uniforms into the bedroom where Vinnie Esposito was moaning, his chin busted open and his knee soaked in blood.

“She went crazy,” Vinnie managed. “Thought I was gonna hurt—”

Taggert kneeled down, careful to avoid the blood soaking the bedroom floor. “Not gonna work, asshole. You’re not going to be able to half-ass your way through this. I got you cold. Assault and attempted rape here. But you see this blood? We’re gonna test it, Vinnie. We already knew it was you. Now we’re gonna prove it.”

He looked at the uniform. “Call paramedics. Call CSU.  I want his blood collected and taken to the lab.”

“Jesus, Taggert,” the uniform whose name he couldn’t remember. “He’s one of us.”

“He’s nothing now. He raped seven women. He doesn’t walk away from this.”

He left the room and found Jason downstairs examining Elizabeth’s wrists and her jaw from his perch on the coffee table as she sat gingerly on the edge of the sofa. “Elizabeth.”

“How did…” She winced as Jason pressed on her busted lip. “How did you know?”

“Everything came together at once.” Taggert looked at the medics who came in. “He gets cuffed. Cop stays in the room with him. I find out he’s been alone for even a second, I’ll have your asses.”

He returned his attention to Elizabeth. “Lucky tracked down a few records that put him at Kelly’s during that period in contact with you. And then the pattern—we thought it was newspaper coverage—”

“But it was actually talking to the cops,” she murmured. “I’m okay,” she told Jason. “He didn’t—he hit me. And my shoulder is sore from when I hit the sofa. But I’m really okay.”

Jason just pressed his lips together and shook his head. He reached for her wrist so he could take her pulse. “It’s too fast. We’re going to the hospital.”  Jason got to his feet, looked at Taggert. “Can you take her statement there?”

“Yeah. I’ll ride with…” Taggert scowled as the medics rolled a stretcher out and Vinnie moaned. “I want to make sure he stays under lock and key. I’ll see you guys down there.”

He nodded at the bat near the sofa. The same bat he’d found her clutching that horrible day in July. “Is that what you took him out with?”

“Yeah.” Elizabeth sighed. “It’s one of the few things I’ve kept with me. Jason taught me to aim low and run.”

“Didn’t think you’d ever have to use it,” Jason muttered gathering her into his arms again, almost as if he weren’t touching her, she’d disappear.

“I’ll meet you at the hospital,” Taggert said, clearing his throat. “Good work, Elizabeth.”

Port Charles Hotel: Lobby

Dante strode into the lobby of the hotel, frantically searching for his mother before heading to the front desk. “I need Olivia Falconieri. Now.” He flashed his badge. “It’s an emergency.”

The desk clerk disappeared into the back. It felt like a thousand hours before his mother rushed out, but it couldn’t have been more than a few minutes.

“Baby, what is it?” Olivia demanded, her dark eyes worried. “Are you hurt? Are you sick—” She hurried around the counter to touch his face. “Dante—”

“It’s Vinnie, Ma.”

“Vinnie?” Olivia repeated. She stepped back, shook her head. “Is he hurt? Should I call Aunt Fran?” But something in his face, in his tone must have registered. “Dante, stop beatin’ around the bush.”

“It was Vinnie. The whole time. He did it.” He clenched his hands into fists. “All those girls—”

Olivia took her son by the elbow and led him away from the center of lobby, to a cluster of chairs near the large fireplace. “What are you sayin’ to me? That my nephew, your cousin, that he attacked—” She shook her head. “No. He knew Brooke. He grew up with her. Just like you. He was supposed to—”

She squeezed her eyes shut. “How can you know that? What happened?”

“A lot of things, but he went after Elizabeth Webber today. Lied his way into her apartment, pretending he was there to question her.”

Olivia pressed her hands to her mouth, shaking her head. “No. Oh, God, that poor girl. Is she okay—has someone told Ned? Called Lois?”

“I don’t know. Elizabeth is okay, I think. That’s what the report said. She had a baseball bat and went at him.” Dante’s skin felt wrong, like it was stretched too tightly over his body. “Ma—the whole time.”

“I—I can’t—but if he went after—” Olivia set her hand on the wall, looking for balance. “I should call your aunt. I should—I should—Ned is here. His campaign office is here.”

“I’m going to the hospital, Ma. To check on Elizabeth and Kelsey.” At his mother’s mystified look, Dante added, “Oh, yeah. Lucky figured out Vinnie was the guy, and Kelsey called Buffalo for some open cases. They warned Vinnie, and he shoved her down a flight of stairs to keep her from getting a warrant.” He smiled, a broad sour smile. “He needed time to go after Elizabeth. Like a grand fucking finale.”

“I—” Olivia shook her head. “I can’t wrap my head around this. I changed his diapers. I’m—” Her voice trembled as she struggled to get herself together. “I’m his godmother.”

“You all right? I’ll stay—”

“No. No. I can—” Olivia squared her shoulders. “I can do this. Ned should know, and I want him to hear it from me. I want Lois to hear it from him, from me—that my blood did this.” For a moment it looked as though she might crumble. “My blood took their daughter. Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, he’s the reason—”

Dante hugged her and didn’t pull back until he felt her shoulders stop trembling. “Are you sure don’t want me to stay?”

“No.” Olivia exhaled slowly. “No.”

He walked his mother to the elevators where he helped her in and pressed the button for the fifth floor where the offices were located.  “Call me if you need anything, Ma.”

“I’m not the one who needs anything,” Olivia murmured.  The doors closed, her son’s face disappearing as the car started to climb.

Oh, how was she ever going to explain this to Ned and Lois? She’d known Brooke all her life—she’d known Vinnie all his life. She didn’t like her sister that much, and Vinnie was a disappointment but this—

She’d never seen this coming.

When the doors opened on the fifth floor, Olivia took a deep breath, pressed a hand to her belly to remind herself to keep it together. This wasn’t about her.

Ned’s campaign office was the third door down, and it was already open. She was grateful he wasn’t alone—relieved to find Jax and Alexis with him as they went over the schedule for the next week.

“Olivia—” Ned said, smiling at first as he saw her on the threshold. Then he saw her face. Alexis and Jax both turned. “What’s happened?”

“Dante just—” Olivia swallowed hard, the bile rising in her throat. “He just came. They—there’s been an arrest.”

“Oh, thank God.” Alexis closed her eyes. “How strong is the case—”

Jax touched her arm, quieting her. His dark blue eyes on her. “Olivia, what’s happened?”

“It’s Vinnie.” Olivia shook her head. “Vinnie Esposito. He’s my nephew. Dante’s cousin.”

“He’s a cop,” Alexis said, moving closer to Ned who just stared at her, expressionless. “You’re telling me they arrested a cop—”

“I don’t—” Olivia’s voice faltered, and she was grateful when Jax came to her side and just took her hand. “I don’t know all the details. I just—I know that it must have happened fast. He was tipped off that he was a suspect and shoved the ADA down the stairs when she went to get a warrant. And then he went after Elizabeth Webber—she’s fine,” she added hastily as Ned started to lunge forward, towards the phone, towards the door, she couldn’t quite say.  “At least Dante said he thought she was. She had a baseball bat and went after him.”

“A cop did this,” Alexis repeated. She wrapped a hand around Ned’s upper arm. “How could—”

“He was the investigating officer Floyd was trying to suspend,” Ned managed to say. He was shaking—just the slightest tremble. Alexis could feel it beneath her fingers. “He—he investigated the first three—refused to make the connection.”

“I can’t—he knew Brooke,” Olivia said, her voice thick. “He knew her. What kind of animal could—” She couldn’t say anything else.

“I have to call Lois,” Ned said after a long moment. He closed his eyes. “And then my family. I want to go to the hospital. I want to see Elizabeth. I just need to be sure—”

“I’ll make some calls,” Alexis told him. “Jax, can you call the hospital? Get Elizabeth’s status? I’ll call your family. And I should call Nikolas. If he doesn’t know already—”

“I’m so sorry,” Olivia said faintly, the tears sliding silently down her face. “So goddamn sorry.”

But Ned was already picking up the phone to call Lois and shatter her world just as thoroughly as Olivia’s. After all…Lois knew Vinnie, too.

General Hospital: Emergency Room

Sonny rushed through the doors, almost skidding to a stop as he made his way to the front desk where a harried nurse was making notes on a chart. “Elizabeth Webber,” he demanded.

“Family or police?” the nurse asked without looking up.

Sonny scowled, but Bobbie came up and grabbed his arm. “We’re over here, Sonny.” Her face was pale as she led Sonny towards a closed curtain.

“They called me at the warehouse—” He dragged his hand through his hair, mussing the curls. “How the hell did this happen?”

“I’m not—” Bobbie exhaled slowly. “I’m not sure. It—it happened fast. Everything fell into place—Lucky developed Vinnie as a suspect at the same time Baker was confessing to Taggert and Jason. But by the time we knew—he had already talked himself into the penthouse, unhooked her phone and gotten rid of her guard.”

This is why you don’t cooperate with the goddamn PCPD,” Sonny muttered as he followed Bobbie behind the curtain where a pretty Asian doctor was studying an ultrasound monitor.

Elizabeth was stretched out on the bed, dressed in a hospital gown. Her face was bone white. There was a new bruise on her cheek bone, another blooming at the edge of her collarbone, and her upper lip was cut and slightly swollen. Jason was standing next to her, one of her hands intertwined in both of his and pressed to his chest.

“Elizabeth,” Sonny said, simply. “I—”

“Sonny.” Elizabeth managed a smile. “Don’t look so worried. I’m okay—” She winced. “My face hurts—”

“Jason—” Sonny looked at his partner who didn’t have much more color than his girlfriend. “What—”

“We’re waiting,” Jason said, flatly, but not unkindly. “Bobbie, have you heard from anyone at the department—”

“No, but my usual source is up in surgery, waiting with Lucky about Kelsey Joyce.” At Sonny’s confused glance, Bobbie shook her head. “Lucky went to Kelsey Joyce, the ADA, and they looked up Vinnie’s record in Buffalo. There were a bunch of Valentine’s Day attacks. She requested the files, hoping it would strengthen her case for DNA. But someone at the Buffalo police called Vinnie and warned him. He shoved her down a flight of stairs, and she hit her head pretty hard.”

“I hope she’s okay,” Elizabeth told Jason. “She was working so hard on this case.” She twisted her head back to Kelly Lee. “Dr. Lee?”

“Your vitals are high, but that’s not unexpected,” the doctor told her. “Elevated blood pressure is common after someone fights for their life.” Her smile didn’t match the worry in her eyes. “But the baby looks good on the ultrasound so far. We’ll keep you overnight, and I’m sure Monica will want to run some additional tests.”

Elizabeth closed her eyes. “That’s not what I wanted to hear.”

“I know, honey,” Bobbie murmured, touching Elizabeth’s foot at the bottom the bed. “But you’re in the best hands, and we’re right here. Emily is in surgery, but she’ll be down, and Nikolas is on his way. You’re not alone, baby.”  She looked to Sonny. “Why don’t you and I go update Carly? She’s at the Brownstone with Michael, and I’m sure she’s worried.”

They left the curtain as Bobbie’s face dimmed slightly. Sonny winced. “It’s bad, isn’t it?”

“He threw her around the living room, chased her up the stairs—” Bobbie wrapped her arms around her torso. “So far so good, but if after everything they’ve been through—everything Elizabeth went through—to lose the baby—that just wouldn’t be fair.”

“Elizabeth is tough, Bobbie.” Sonny put an around her, and Bobbie allowed him to pull her into a light hug. “Tougher than anyone I know. And she hasn’t had one of those panic attacks Jason told me about, right? No breathing problems?”

“No, but I don’t know if it’s even hit her yet. The man who raped her was a police officer she willingly let into her home.” Bobbie managed a sad smile. “And upstairs, Scott is worrying about a young woman he’s known all her life. I didn’t tell Elizabeth, but—” Her voice broke. “Kelsey had serious bleeding on the brain when she came in.”

Bobbie bit her lip, then shook her head. “But I don’t want Elizabeth or Jason to deal with any of that right now. Can you stay with them while I call Carly, then check on Scott and Lucky?”

“Sure. Whatever you need. You said Emily and Nikolas were on their way?”

“They’ll be here shortly.” Bobbie hesitated once more before she went down the hall. “You look good, Sonny. Better. Whatever you’re doing, keep doing it. I want—” She pressed her lips together. “I want us all to put last summer behind us. Including you.”

“I hope we can do that soon,” Sonny told her.

General Hospital: Surgical Waiting Room

Scott couldn’t sit. He’d always been restless, and even now—pacing the length of the room, back and forth until he was dizzy—it didn’t change the fact that a woman barely out of law school, a woman he’d known since she was born—she was in an operating room, fighting for her life.

He’d given her too much responsibility. End of story. Put her in charge of this rape case her first month on the job? He scowled at himself, dragged his hands through his hair, letting it stand up crazily on its ends. What the hell had he been thinking?

He looked over to find Lucky and Cruz sitting next to each other, both pale and silent. Fucking kids. That’s all they were. They’d come on the job, looking to do good, and what had they gotten? Nothing but bullshit.

“Spencer.” Scott looked at him, swallowed hard, as Laura’s son turned to look at him—his mother’s eyes in his father’s face. He liked them together, liked how happy and settled Kelsey had seemed these last few months. “Don’t go blaming yourself for this.”

Lucky grimaced. “I shouldn’t have left her alone. I should have realized that a request for the case files might leak back to Vinnie—”

“Five minutes after you left the office?” Cruz demanded. “Fucking cops protecting each other.” He snorted. “That’s it. I’m turning in my badge.” He glared at Scott. “And if you think I’m alone—”

“I don’t.” Scott sat down, but his foot kept tapping. “I don’t know how we could have missed it, but—”

“We didn’t miss it,” Lucky cut in. “The evidence wasn’t there to see until we had the link, until we talked to all the victims. Until we knew Elizabeth was the trigger. The problem isn’t that we didn’t know it was Vinnie. It was that Vinnie was left in charge of these cases for six months. A blind man would have seen the connection.”

You didn’t miss it,” Cruz said with a pointed look at his friend. “You knew Vinnie was wrong. You just didn’t know why.” He looked at Scott. “He went with Vinnie to interview Renee Norton. He could tell he was handling the case wrong, that he was giving Renee the creeps. But Taggert brushed it off. Didn’t even get a reprimand for telling a sixteen-year-old girl she shouldn’t have been in the park alone at night. The only heat Vinnie ever took was to save Floyd’s worthless ass.”

Scott sighed, rubbed his eyes. “We all dropped the ball. Everyone but you two and Dante. And Kelsey. You took care of Elizabeth Webber during the Lansing case, Rodriguez, and Spencer, you cracked this case wide open. Don’t think that because of what happened to Kelsey that it wasn’t worth it. You got all those women justice. When we work together, when we put the cases first—we do good work.”

“Yeah, but an innocent woman always seems to pay the price,” Lucky muttered. He shoved himself to his feet. “Dr. Jones said it might be a few more hours, so I’m going to check on Elizabeth downstairs.” His hand was almost trembling as he let it fall to his side. “I can’t sit here anymore.”

He stalked out of the room, leaving Scott alone with Cruz.

“I understand if you go,” Scott said after a long moment of silence, “but I’m asking you to give us a chance—”

“Funny. That’s what Taggert said the last time the PCPD put a woman in the hospital,” Cruz muttered, but then fell silent as they waited for news.

General Hospital: ICU Waiting Room

When Ned had arrived at the hospital, Jax and Alexis following in his wake, he’d been told that Vincent Esposito was being treated in the ICU for shattered kneecaps, a busted jaw, and a concussion, and that Mac and Taggert were upstairs waiting to take his statement.

“Maybe this isn’t a good time,” Alexis said softly as they stepped off the elevator. She touched Ned’s arm. “Maybe we should come back or meet with them—”

“No. I want to see them. I want to see their faces,” Ned muttered as he stalked towards the waiting room. He shoved open the door to find Mac and Taggert both sitting down, a coffee table in front of them covered in paperwork.

Taggert got to his feet as Ned walked in. “Ned—”

“What’s the case against him?” Ned asked as he looked at the man who had allowed his daughter’s rapist to literally operate beneath his nose. “How strong is it?”

“We got him cold on the assault today which is the initial charge we’re filing,” Mac said, without any inflection in his voice. “Elizabeth Webber reported that he confessed to her about being her attacker, that he had come back to finish it. We’re filing charges of aggravated assault and battery, with an option to upgrade to attempted murder on Kelsey.” He rubbed the back of his neck.

“He was one of Elizabeth’s regulars back at Kelly’s where he rented a room. Ruby Anderson kept a lot of notes from that time, and Lucky and Bobbie both remember him coming in every evening for coffee. He also took statements from Elizabeth and Sarah in 1997 and was involved in several other police cases—”

“That’s all circumstantial,” Alexis interrupted. “What do you have—”

“Today, I went to the prison to interview Tom Baker,” Taggert told them. “He will also testify that Vinnie confessed to him about attacking Elizabeth. More importantly, we got the warrant for his DNA which will link him to all seven rapes. And the security cameras show him going into the stairwell at the same time Kelsey Joyce was known to be shoved down the steps.”

Ned thought all of that sounded good, but he looked to Alexis for confirmation. She pursed her lips but nodded. Ned looked back at Mac and Taggert. “He knew my daughter.”

“Dante said as much,” Mac said. He got to his feet. “Ned—” He swallowed hard. “There’s no words—there’s nothing I can say—”

“No, there’s not.” Ned clenched his fist. “A serial rapist operated in this city while you missed every sign. And then it turned out to be the very officer investigating the case. Your career is finished, Mac. Even if I were in a mood to forgive—”

“I offered my resignation to the mayor,” Mac told him. “I tried earlier this summer, but he refused to take it. He refused to take it again today. He believes any indication of fault from me will follow him.” His lips twisted into a sick smile. “It’s already too late, but he doesn’t see it. I can quit outright, or you can fire me as your first act.”

“You think you’re doing me a favor?” Ned demanded. His temper broke and he lunged across the room, taking Mac by the collar and shoving him against the wall. He shoved him once more, even as Jax and Taggert were scrambling to pull him back.

He wrapped his hand around Mac’s neck and squeezed. “You son of a bitch—you stole my daughter from me. You and this entire system—and you think you’re doing me a favor by letting me fire you? Fuck you—” He released Mac with another shove.

“Ned,” Jax said, taking Ned’s arm and pulling back slightly. “Lois is on her way. Let’s—let’s go make sure she’s got a place at the hotel. We can work on a press statement—”

Ned shook off Jax’s arm and stalked out of the room. Jax sighed, then followed. Alexis hesitated. “Ah, I hope we can just—chalk that up to—”

“I don’t intend to press charges if that’s what you mean,” Mac muttered as he touched his throat. “I owed him that. And a lot more.”

“Cut the martyr act, Commissioner,” Alexis said, coolly. “No one is impressed. You made a selfish choice, and you’re going to pay for it.”

She stormed out. Taggert looked at his boss, then took his seat again.  He wasn’t sure what the world would look like after Ned was sworn in as mayor, but he didn’t think the PCPD would ever be the same.

General Hospital: Hospital Room

The room was quiet, and all the lights were off save the one near her bed. It was nearly midnight, and most of the hospital floor had long since retired for the night.

But not Elizabeth. She was wide awake, staring at the monitors that were tracking her vitals and the fetal heartbeat. Both had remained steady since her blood pressure had returned to normal around six that evening, three hours after the attack.

She turned her head to find Jason still sitting next to her bed, still staring at the same monitor.

“I can’t believe it’s over,” she murmured. She took his hand in hers, tracing her fingers over the roughened skin. “And here I am, in another hospital bed.”

“All the security we put into place and…” Jason shook his head. “Guards. Alarms—” He dipped his head. “None of it worked.”

“You bought the baseball bat,” she offered weakly, but she knew the fact that this had happened to her in the penthouse—the fortress where he’d insisted they move—was going to bother him for a long time.

“And you’ve used it twice,” he said with some exasperation. “That was supposed to make you feel better, not—”

“I knew—” She sighed. “I knew I’d never make it to the door and unlock it before he got to me, but I thought I might be able to get to the bedroom, that I might be able to get to the bat under the bed. I knew it was there. I knew it was the last resort. But it worked, and you know what?” Her smile was faint but genuine. “It felt damn good to swing that bat, to see him fly forward and crack his head open on the end of the bed. But I ran. I did what you told me to do.”

He brushed her hair back, off her forehead, letting his thumb rest against her temple. She closed her eyes, comforted by his presence, his scent. “Are you…we haven’t really talked about what happened. What he said.”

Jason had listened as Elizabeth had painfully recounted Vinnie’s actions, his words, and most importantly, his confession to Mac and Taggert. He’d said nothing, hadn’t even been sure what he could say.

“That night I told you I’d been to the prison—” He couldn’t force the words out. “You went back to that night. You were living through it again. And you’ve had it in your head since—”

“I was terrified,” she murmured. “He talked about what happened between us like it was a bad date. He looked at me like I was supposed to have remembered him and I just—I didn’t. Until I remembered—he was there at Luke’s. After Nikolas went to the hospital…” She closed her eyes. “Such a scary night, and I didn’t even think about the cop who took our statements. I didn’t remember he was someone who came into Kelly’s all the time. How could he have been so obsessed with me, been around me so much without me knowing?”

“I don’t know,” Jason said. “He’s sick. And you were just the excuse he used to go after these women.”

“Brooke knew him. She’d grown up with him.” Elizabeth closed her eyes, a sob bubbling up in her throat. “I keep thinking about her final words. The last thing she said before the phone went dead. She remembered something. Was it him? Do you think part of her knew it? Knew he was someone she knew? Poor Ned. And poor Lois. She must have known him, too.”

“Maybe. I don’t know. We’ll never know for sure.”

“I just—I want to go home. I want Monica to come in here, to tell me the scans are clean, that our baby is okay—” She shook her head. “I just want this to be over. It’s so close to being over.”

“It will be. And by the time the baby is born, all of this—” He stopped. God, he wanted to promise her that it would be a distant memory by May, but—

“I know. But whatever happens next—” She reached up, touched his cheek. “We’ll get through it together.”

He leaned down to kiss her, brushing his lips against hers and lingering.

The door opened then, and Monica stepped into the shadows. “I’m so sorry,” she murmured. “I know it’s late, but the scans came back—”

Jason pulled back and switched on another light. “No clots?”

“The MRI was clear. Your vitals have remained stable for six hours, and Kelly said the fetal heartbeat is strong. We’ll be releasing you in the morning.”

Monica came to the bedside and touched her son’s shoulder. “We might recommend some light bed rest, but beyond that, we’re cautiously in the clear.”

The pressure on her chest eased. She looked at Jason who was smiling down at her. “Bed rest,” she repeated. “Not a problem.”

“I’m so glad you’re all right,” Monica told her, and now she sounded less like a doctor and more like Jason’s mother. “That this horrible case is over. I only wish that Brooke—I wish that she were here to see it. But the other women will sleep more peacefully knowing that animal is behind bars.”

“I know I will,” Elizabeth said. She watched as Monica left. “Of course, it means I might have to testify at another trial. But after today, nothing will feel scary again.”

November 4, 2019

This entry is part 28 of 31 in the All of Me

That’s the price you pay
Leave behind your heartache, cast away
Just another product of today
Rather be the hunter than the prey
And you’re standing on the edge, face up ’cause you’re a
Natural
A beating heart of stone
You gotta be so cold
To make it in this world
Natural, Imagine Dragons


Wednesday, September 24, 2003

Kelly’s: Lucky’s Room

Bobbie knocked on Lucky’s slightly ajar door, a folder tucked under her arm. “Hey. I didn’t think I’d catch you here—” She grinned. “You never seem to be in this room anymore.”

“Yeah, well—” Lucky shrugged. “I’m spending a lot of time with Kelsey right now.” He nodded at the folders. “Did you find something?”

“I don’t know,” Bobbie admitted. “I found some of Elizabeth’s old timecards and tried to match her schedule to Ruby’s notes. She liked to keep her thoughts about the waitresses. What needed to be done.” And reading her aunt’s spidery handwriting had opened that well of sadness. She hadn’t realized just how much she missed Ruby’s comforting presence.

She handed a notebook to Lucky. “This covers the period between the time Ruby hired Elizabeth and shortly after the attack. She talks about hiring Elizabeth—mostly because Audrey begged her.”

Lucky opened it to one of the pages Bobbie had flagged and smiled, his fingers tracing the papers. “Aunt Ruby was a soft touch.” He skimmed an entry.

“Didn’t fire the Webber girl again,” he read. “Wanted to. But there’s something about her that reminds me of Barbara. A fire. If it’s not tended properly, it can burn out of control. Better to watch her.” He laughed at that. “God, she really was a terrible waitress.”

“A disaster,” Bobbie agreed. “Anyway, Ruby didn’t comment much on the customers, but she said for some reason, Elizabeth had a small stable of regulars.”

“Yeah.” Lucky blinked up at her. “Aunt Ruby couldn’t understand it, but there were a few people who came in when she was working. Mrs. Hanson. My dad liked her attitude.” He frowned. “I can’t remember who else.”

“Well, that’s what gave me the idea to start pulling her timecards and see if I could match some receipts. People didn’t pay by debit card that often, but Ruby ran tabs for the regulars who were just getting coffee or something quick.”

“Yeah, I remember that—”

“And I thought you could ask Vinnie Esposito if he saw anything.”

Lucky looked at his aunt. Shook his head. “Vinnie? Dante’s cousin?”

“Yeah, he was staying in one of the rooms. Right around the time Lois Cerullo moved back to Bensonhurst, she said a friend’s nephew was starting at the PCPD and could we do them a favor. Give him a room? So, Vinnie lived up here for…oh, almost two years, I think. From…”

Bobbie pressed a finger to her chin, trying to remember it. She hadn’t really been involved as much with Kelly’s then. But it was in the middle of that awful time when her marriage had fallen apart. She could remember that Lois’s call had been commiserating about Tony’s affair, asking if Bobbie was doing all right. “1996, I think. He moved out, oh, before Ruby died, I think, but he was still here in the fall of 1997. I’d have to double check the tax records to be sure, but—”

“Vinnie lived at Kelly’s.” Lucky just stared at her. Because damn it—that was it. That was what he’d been trying to remember.

“Yeah, and so I thought maybe he might…” Bobbie trailed off. “Lucky—?”

“He was one of Elizabeth’s regulars,” he murmured, more to himself. “I…I remember that now. He came in for coffee in the evenings, halfway through the third shift.”

“Strange he wouldn’t have mentioned that if he knew her case was being reopened.” Bobbie tilted her head. “Lucky—”

“I need to…” He swallowed hard, closed Ruby’s book. “I need you to get me those tax records. Find out exactly how long Vinnie lived here. What kind of tab he ran. Ruby used to write down the dates and times so she could track their expenses. Do we still have those?”

“Ruby never threw out anything,” Bobbie murmured, as she realized what Lucky was getting at. “I’ll get that for you.”

“I’ve got to talk to Kelsey. I have to check on something.” Lucky’s hands were shaking as he reached for his jacket.

“Lucky, you should call Taggert.”

“Accuse another cop because he used to live here?” Lucky shook his head. “No. Besides, Taggert is out of town. There’s just…there’s something else I need to check. Something that might…Aunt Bobbie, thanks for this. But I gotta go.”

And then he ran out, leaving Bobbie with the horrifying concept that maybe Elizabeth had known her rapist…and had continued to serve him for months after it had happened.

Pentonville: Interrogation Room

Baker was pale when he was led in, his eyes fixated on Morgan. Taggert eyed the prisoner before looking at Jason Morgan, who remained standing, leaning against the closed door.

Something told him that Baker wasn’t entirely surprised to find Jason Morgan here today, and however the hell Morgan had managed it—Taggert didn’t give a damn.

On this case, cutting a few corners was worth it. At least it was for the right reasons this time. He hit record on the player in front of him.

“You know why we’re here, Baker.” Taggert raised his brows. “Do we have to go through the motions where I promise you I’ll make sure you never see parole if you don’t come clean?” He offered a short sardonic chuckle. “That’s if you even get that far. You never know what might happen in a prison.”

And now Baker’s eyes flitted from Morgan to Taggert and back to Morgan. “You dirty son of a bitches. Cops ain’t no better than the assholes in here—”

“Cut the crap, Baker. You know something. You knew the color of her dress.”

“I—” Baker shifted. “Valentine’s Day. Lucky guess.”

“How’d you know Elizabeth was attacked on Valentine’s Day?” When Baker remained silent, Taggert slapped the table, and Baker visibly jumped. “Tell me!”

“No way.”

“Did you gossip with the cops you hired for security?” Taggert demanded. “Did someone talk too much?”

Baker’s eyes slid away. “Maybe.” He looked up to find Jason staring at him. Hard. Then Jason uncrossed his arms, flexed them, crossed them again.

“Sometimes…I got some…help with my…” Baker coughed. “Plans. Endeavors. Some…enforcing.”

“Someone helped you blackmail people?” Taggert asked. His blood boiled. “A cop helped?”

“One guy. He…wanted to make money. Security wasn’t enough. Had a gambling problem. I hired him for shoots. And then to make visits. Marks paid faster when they thought the cops were in on it.”

Dirty piece of shit. “Which cop?”

“He liked to talk. Liked to brag, and I didn’t care much. He talked about this girl he wanted. She was a little young for him, he thought. But another year, maybe he could talk her into bed.” Baker licked his lips, sweat dripping down his cheeks. “But…I dunno, something happened. He couldn’t wait.”

“Couldn’t wait.” A cop. Fucking Baker was telling him it was a cop. A name skittered at the edge of his consciousness, but Taggert shoved it back. No fucking way. “What does that mean?”

“Saw her walking. She was sad. He liked her dress. Talked about the pretty red dress.” Baker slid back, almost as if he could feel the fury emanating from the mob enforcer behind Taggert.

“And he just…took it. Took her. She didn’t know him. Or didn’t realize it. She saw him all the time, but never knew it.” Baker wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.

“The name,” Taggert said quietly. “Which cop?”

But he already knew it. Even as Baker said it, Taggert knew it. It made too much sense, closed too many holes.

“Esposito. The one who moved to Buffalo.”

Port Charles Municipal Building: Kelsey’s Office

Kelsey stared him. Visibly swallowed. “Lucky, just because he lived at Kelly’s—” Her face was pale as she shook her head.

“Just listen to me,” Lucky said as he set a pile of folders on the conference table in her office. “Listen. I get it. I know it sounds insane, but once I realized Vinnie lived at Kelly’s—I started to think how well he fit the investigation. He was one of her regulars, but he was also the first reporting officer to the Lopez and Logan attacks. He was assigned to Watson, Norton, and Morris. He never made the link, Kelsey. What if it wasn’t just laziness? He knew the department policy on testing suspects. He knew his DNA wasn’t in the system. He knew we’d increased patrols in the park after Brooke. That’s why there hasn’t been another attack.”

He set out the victim statements. “Every single one of the victims this year expressed a dislike for the investigating officer. And both Lopez and Logan didn’t think much of the first responding officer.”

“But about our theory about newspaper coverage?” Kelsey asked, leaning forward. “How does that fit?”

“It still tracks.”  He took out a manila folder. “The investigation into Nikolas’s shooting? Vinnie took statements from Elizabeth and Sarah. He also took statements at the Christmas party where Nikolas and Jason went after each other, and Nikolas almost pressed charges for assault.”

Kelsey rose to her feet and reached for the folder. “He took a statement from Nikolas about the punch?”

“Veronica Logan was attacked in January of 2000. Vinnie got married in February of 2000 and moved to Buffalo. He moved back last fall.”

“And then first attack was February 14. Anniversary?” Kelsey asked. “She was questioned at Rice Plaza—” Her face paled as she saw the report. “By Vinnie.”

“He didn’t work the kidnapping case, but it was all over the squad room.” Lucky shook his head. “It wasn’t the newspapers. And what’s worse, back in ‘98, Vinnie logged Elizabeth’s dress into evidence.” Lucky tossed the copy of the evidence log on top of the others. “I know this is all circumstantial—”

“If your aunt can get us those timecards and the tab that shows he was in Kelly’s at the same time as Elizabeth, it’s something to start with.” She looked at Lucky. “I believe you. It’s too much of a coincidence that he took those statements. That he investigated. It was never the newspapers or tabloids, it was her involvement with the cops.”

“Yeah.” Lucky exhaled slowly. “I think maybe that’s how Baker knew about the dress. Vinnie moonlights as security at some of the clubs in town. He probably worked for Baker back then. I think if we showed Brenda Barrett his picture or Emily—”

“They might pick him out as a cop who ran security. Maybe.” Kelsey looked at the pile of work. “If we could get his DNA, we’d lock it up, but I don’t know if this is enough for a judge.”

“But—”

“We can put him at Kelly’s, yeah, but that’s not getting us anywhere. If Taggert gets his name from Baker, maybe…” Kelsey bit her lip. “Did you look into Buffalo?” She went back to her computer and pulled up a database. “I can’t remember if Buffalo is reporting yet to the state database—”

And there it was. February 14, 2000. February 14, 2001. February 14, 2002. Three more rapes. In a park. All unsolved. Nothing more was listed.

“Buffalo has three unsolved rapes on Valentine’s Day from the time Vinnie moved there until he came home.”

“Then Dana Watson here on Valentine’s Day. Sticking to his schedule—-”

“Until he sees Elizabeth at the hospital. Takes her statement about the fall. A week later, Renee Norton. It triggers the old pattern.” Kelsey reached for the Corinthos kidnapping file. “You said he didn’t work the Lansing case, but…” She nodded. “I remember his name. He signed up for shifts to watch the Webber house, but Taggert didn’t need him.”

“And he was one of the responding officers when Elizabeth found Carly. Because Capelli had been suspended, we were short-staffed. Vinnie was there that day.”

“Then a few days later, Wendy Morris.” She looked at him. “What about Brooke?”

“Elizabeth had been released from the hospital, but she came by the station that same day to fill out some paperwork. Vinnie was probably there.”

Kelsey chewed her lip as she made notes, trying to make it all line up. “It’s…too neat to be a coincidence, but—”

“He’s a cop,” Lucky said. “That’s how they’ll play it. This isn’t enough, is it?”

“We’ll need more. Your aunt’s records will help. If Baker gives us Vinnie’s name as guy who told him about the dress, I think it’ll add to it. I need to call Buffalo. Ask about these cases. If Vinnie investigated even one of them—if all the victims are similar in any way—” She reached for her phone.

“He came in for months afterward. I remember him now,” Lucky said, his teeth clenched. “She thought he was safe. He was a cop. She never once suspected him.”

“We’ll get him, Lucky.” The misery on his face tugged at her, and she reached out to touch his forearm.  “Once we have his DNA, he won’t be able to talk his way out of it.”

“Yeah, well. We better get it soon.” He exhaled slowly. “I should check in with Taggert on this, but he left for the prison.” He looked at his watch. “They’re probably there by now. I’ll call him in about a half hour. Get those files from Buffalo.” He leaned in, kissed her hard. “Be careful, okay? Let’s keep this under wraps. I don’t want to spook him.”

Buffalo Police Department: Squad Room

 “Some skirt from Port Charles DA office wants the files on our Valentine’s rapist.”

Chuckie Johnson scowled as his commanding officer dumped the memo on his desk. “What for?”

“Says there’s a link to an open case they got there. Get her copies,” the captain said, “but don’t give away the farm. She’s got a lead on the bastard, I want the collar. We worked the case too hard not get it.”

“Yeah, yeah.” When his captain had gone back into the office, Chuckie reached for his phone. If some bitch wanted the details on his cases, she could damn well get them from the original investigating officer. Why bother wasting his time with copying and scanning when he could just make a call?

“Yo, Esposito. How are the sunny shores of Port Charles treating you?”

Port Charles Municipal Building: Hallway

Kelsey scowled as she saw the line for the elevators. Lunch rush. Damn it. It would take at least two trips before she could make it on board, and the last thing she wanted to do was pull rank and force her way forward. She didn’t want to draw any attention to herself. If anyone found out she was looking at a cop—

She checked her watch and sighed. She wanted to get this search warrant before a judge as soon as possible. Lucky’s aunt had dropped off tax records proving Vinnie’s residence, records of his tab that were dated and could be corroborated by Elizabeth’s timecards. She’d combined that along with the handcuffs, the hair signature, and Elizabeth’s official interactions with Vinnie on the job—

Kelsey had polished everything up and had decided not to wait for official word from Buffalo—the captain she’d spoken to hadn’t seem all that enthusiastic. She would never understand people who got their panties in the twist because someone else might solve the case.

She knew Vinnie was guilty—could feel it in her bones—and she was determined to get a judge to sign an order for DNA to prove it.

Kelsey pushed open the door to the stairwell and started down the three flights to the ground floor. The courthouse was only across the street and down two blocks—she could catch Judge Farrell before he left—

Her thoughts flew out of her head as something shoved her forward, a force between her shoulder blades sent her flying through the air.

She landed hard halfway down the stairs, her hip and shoulder slamming against the concrete treads. She hardly had time to scream as she tumbled the rest of the way—

And then her head slammed into the floor. Everything went black.

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

Elizabeth looked at the clock. She’d hoped that Jason would call at some point to tell her how the visit went—they should have been on their way back home by now, but—

She picked up her cell phone, then scowled. She’d forgotten to plug it in. Again. Jason was always reminding her to do it but—

She sighed, plugged it in and was reaching for the landline when it rang. She picked it up.

“Miss Webber, Detective Esposito from the PCPD is here. He’d like to talk to you.”

“Oh. Uh, send him up, I guess.” She didn’t really remember talking to Detective Esposito before—the name sounded dimly familiar so maybe he’d been around during the summer. Taggert was with Jason, so it was likely he’d sent this detective with follow-up questions. Maybe everyone else was busy putting out fires after her press conference.

When the knock at the door came, Elizabeth opened it. “Detective Esposito?” she asked. He was tall, lanky with short dark hair and brown eyes. He did look familiar. “Have we met before?” she asked with a slight frown. She looked past the detective, noticed that her guard, Cody, wasn’t there. Maybe he’d stepped out to use the bathroom. Strange. But maybe he’d taken the opportunity because she was with a cop.

“Yeah.”  He flashed her a hesitant smile. “You probably don’t remember. I talked to you after your fall in May.”

“Oh. Right.” She stepped back to let him in. “I knew you looked familiar. How can I help you?” Out of habit, she flipped the deadbolt and secondary lock on the door.

As Elizabeth turned her back to walk towards the sofa, Vinnie carefully unhooked the phone cord from the back of her receiver.

“Just a few questions, Miss Webber. It won’t take long.”

PCPD: Commissioner’s Office

 It was too horrible to be true but as Lucky Spencer detailed the case he’d built against Vinnie Esposito, Mac simply closed his eyes, his stomach twisting. A cop. A cop under his command was a serial rapist. And it made too much sense for it to be anything else. It all fit.

God help them.

He took a deep breath, looked at his officer. “This isn’t going to be easy,” Mac warned him. “Vinnie filed a complaint about the suspension. He’s back on duty, pending a hearing. We need more—”

“Can’t we bring Vinnie in? Do something to get his DNA? I could get him a soda or something.” Lucky paced the office. “Aunt Bobbie got Kelsey the records, but there’s no way to know how long before Buffalo gets back to us—”

“Lucky—”

“If this is his pattern, Elizabeth was in to give a statement. He could be looking for a new victim.” His eyes found Mac’s. “With the press conference—he might go for her next.”

“It’s not dark yet, Lucky. I’ll…give him an assignment. Something overnight.”

“Mac—”

Lucky’s phone rang, and he scowled at the ID. “Why the hell is Scott Baldwin calling me?”

“Spencer—” Scott’s characteristic bombastic nature was absent from his tone. “You tell Scorpio to get everyone over to the MB. All the crime scene people. His best—” His voice faltered. “Kelsey was pushed down the steps. Some people heard her scream. We don’t know anything yet. She’s on her way to the hospital—”

“I’ll take care of it.” Lucky cut him off. His hands were trembling as he shoved the phone into his back pocket. “Mac. Someone just shoved Kelsey down the steps.”

“What?” Mac lunged to his feet. “Why? How could he—” He rushed out of the room and Lucky followed.

Vinnie was nowhere to be seen, but Dante was at his desk, watching security footage. He blinked as they rushed towards him. What’s—”

“Where’s your cousin?” Lucky demanded.

“Why?” Dante slowly got to his feet. “Everything okay? He got a call and left—”

Mac ignored him and grabbed for Vinnie’s extension, called down to the receptionist and switchboard operator. “Judy, did you transfer any calls to Vinnie Esposito today?” He listened to her answer, then closed his eyes. “Okay. Yeah. Thanks.”

He set the phone down carefully. “Charles Johnson from the Buffalo Police Department called Vinnie about a half hour ago. What do you want to bet he was giving a friend a heads up that some old files were being requested by his new ADA?”

Lucky fisted his hands at his side. “He knew we were on to him. Why the hell go after Kelsey? Why not run?”

“What the hell is going on?” Dante demanded. “What do you—No fucking way. My cousin isn’t a rapist—” He grabbed Lucky’s shirt, fisting his hand in the fabric. “No—not Brooke—He knew her!”

“Dante—” Mac shook his head. He looked at Cruz. “Rodriguez.”

“Yeah, boss?”

“Put together a detail. Call CSU and get over to the Municipal Building. There’s been an assault.” He looked to Lucky. “I need you to put out an APB on Vinnie. No details. Just locate him and report. And call Taggert.” He checked his watch. “They should be on their way back by now.”

“Mac, what about Elizabeth?”

Mac frowned. “What about her—” He swallowed. “A distraction. Kelsey’s a distraction. Vinnie knows it’s over for him. If he’s not using this time to get out of town, then—”

Lucky tugged his cell out of his pocket. Started to dial. “He’s been trying to recreate it all along. He was always going back to Elizabeth eventually. Let me call her—”

“Call her. She’s at the Towers, and their security is top notch. Get them to hold Vinnie if he shows up. Get that APB out. Get Taggert up to speed.” He jabbed a finger. “Rodriguez, I’m with you.”

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

 “So, what brings you by?” Elizabeth asked. “I know Lieutenant Taggert is up at Pentonville.”

“Yeah.” Vinnie leaned against the arm of their sofa and looked at her. “I don’t know if anyone’s told you but there’s a theory that maybe you knew the guy. That you came into contact with him.”

Elizabeth wrinkled her nose. “Yeah. They said they think I was the first.”

“Yeah. You were.” Vinnie tilted his head. “And you know they say there’s something special about the first.”

Elizabeth hesitated as she shuffled some magazines on the coffee table into a pile, but then shook it off. She was just…feeling a bit jumpy, maybe. “I guess. To him. So…you want me to try to remember back then?”

“Yeah. Someone maybe you didn’t even realize was around. Someone who you saw at Kelly’s. Or maybe when you went out. What did you do for fun back then?”

“Oh…not much.” Something was making her skin crawl, and she just…she wanted to believe it was that she was talking about this era with a cop she didn’t know. That was it. He was a man and talking about her rape was uncomfortable with men.

“I was grounded a lot. Um. Usually, Kelly’s. Sometimes the mall. The movies. We used to go to Luke’s but not after the shooting.” She sighed at that memory as she picked up a glass of water she’d left on the table. “My grandmother worried about us, I guess.”

“The shooting?” Vinnie prompted.

“Oh. December ‘97. Nikolas Cassadine was shot.” She sipped her water, remembering that night. “In the throat. God, it was so terrifying. He couldn’t breathe, and he just—he almost died. But Jason…saved his life. My sister was dating him—Nikolas I mean– so I tried to keep her…”

And then she turned, the glass in her hand, and stared at him. “You were there.”

“I wondered if you would remember.”

And this time, when Vinnie Esposito smiled, she knew.

She knew.

SUV

Taggert had to let Morgan drive on the way back. He had brought a copy of his files with him and was now pouring over them, looking for any connection he could find. He wanted to have everything together before he presented a case to Mac and Kelsey.

And he knew that Morgan needed something to do, something on which to focus his anger.

Now that they had a name.

They were just inside the city limits when Taggert’s cell rang. Out of habit, he hit the speaker phone so he could take the call without stopping his work. “Yeah?”

“Taggert, we’ve—we’ve had a development here.” Lucky Spencer’s voice was tremulous as it echoed in the car. “I think we know who it is.”

“Hopefully it matches what Baker gave us—” Taggert said, leaving the phone on speaker. He hesitated. “What’s wrong? You sound like shit—”

“Uh, I got a lead—I took it to Kelsey Joyce, and…Christ, he shoved her down the stairs. We can’t find him. Elizabeth’s not answering. Where the hell are you guys?”

Taggert felt the speed increase as he glanced at Jason. Those features could have been etched in stone for all the emotion that could be seen—and yet, the fury was palpable, radiating throughout the car.

“What the hell happened?”

“I talked to Bobbie who remembered Vinnie lived at Kelly’s during Elizabeth’s attack. And then I remembered he came in almost halfway through his shift. During Elizabeth’s. So, I just…I pulled records. He interviewed her at the drive by at Luke’s.  And then—”

“He took my statement when Cassadine went after me at the Christmas party,” Morgan said, his voice flat. “Elizabeth was there.”

“Yeah. And the garage fire. He responded then. Wasn’t on call but came. He investigated the Rice Plaza fall before I took over—”

“And the Lansing house this summer. He wanted to take a shift watching it. Fuck me. He investigated three of the rapes. Fucked them up, but he’s a goddamn lazy piece of shit so I thought–”

“You’re not surprised— did Baker gave his name?”

“Yeah. Baker gave his name. You said he went after Kelsey?”

“Yeah.” He could hear Lucky swallow hard. “She was putting together a warrant for his DNA. She found three other rapes in Buffalo while he was there, but when she made the request for more info—”

“One of his good buddies gave him the heads up because I’ll just bet he investigated those, too.” Fuck this world. “Is she okay? What’s going on?”

“She’s…in surgery. She, um, hit her head pretty hard. And there’s some bleeding. We got an APB out on Vinnie. Just to locate and report back. But I tried to call Elizabeth. Her cell goes to voice mail and her phone just keeps ringing. She’s not here at the hospital. I had her paged. I’m calling everybody—”

“Get uniforms to her place. We’re going there first. I’ll be in touch.” He ended the line. “You got security at the building, yeah?”

“Yeah, on the door, but—” Jason swallowed hard. “We’ve been cooperating with the police lately. And she doesn’t know—” He gave Taggert a number to dial and put on speaker phone. “Wally, is Elizabeth at home?”

“Yeah, she came home about twenty minutes before the cop got here. I let him up about ten minutes ago.” There was a pause. “You know, Cody came downstairs like five minutes ago, said Miss Webber was going to be down to go to the station, but she’s still not—”

Jesus Christ. “Get up there!” Taggert ordered.

“Was that…Lieutenant Taggert?” Jason’s security guy asked, confused.

Jason’s hands clenched on the steering wheel. “Get anyone you know. Anyone on duty. Get upstairs.”

The line went dead as Jason pressed down on the gas pedal. Taggert reached into his glove compartment, pulled out the portable siren, and stuck it on top of the car.

They raced towards Harborview Towers, praying they wouldn’t be too late.

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

 “You…took our statement,” Elizabeth said. Her cell was dead, but maybe…if she could get the cordless off the receiver. She looked at it…and saw the thin telephone cord laying on the ground. Could she—would the cordless work if the base wasn’t plugged in? Could she get to the phone in time?

Her blood froze over, but she sipped her water. “I’m sorry, I didn’t remember you when you came to the door. That was so long ago. And…I think you used to come to Kelly’s.”

“I used to live there before I got married,” Vinnie said easily. “You know you’re not the only woman. The first. But not the only.”

“No.” She cleared her throat. “No, I mean, I know.” Keep calm. Keep cool. Get to the door. Get to the intercom. “Lieutenant Taggert told me.”

“Do you know why there were others?” Vinnie asked as she slowly stepped towards him. Get around him. Get to the door.

“I…I’m not sure. Um…” Elizabeth hesitated. “Maybe I know them. Did you bring pictures? Do you know any names?”

“They look like you,” Vinnie said. “But they were never you.” His smile slid away a bit. “I tried so hard to find someone who was as perfect as you.”

Oh. God.

“I—” Her mouth was dry. She was two feet from him. More than fifteen from the door. Oh. God. “What was wrong with them?”

“They should have been right.” He shook his head. “Same hair. Same ages. Same body. I followed them all just like you. They stopped like you. It was supposed to be a sign. It should have been right.” His face twisted in irritation as he swung out— the glass flying from her hand and shattering against the hardwood floor.

She bolted, but never made it more than half a step before he grabbed her from behind, an arm around her waist, another at her mouth.

Just like before. It was just like before. Her brain froze. Blackness threatened at the edge of her vision. Oh, God. Oh, God. She had to get away. Had to make this stop.

“They were wrong!” he raged as he lifted her, tossed her on the sofa. He straddled her, took her hands in his, wrapping his fingers around her wrists. “They didn’t smell right. Didn’t feel right!”

“Please, God, please. Please.” She’d never make it out alive this time. She knew him. Could identify him. “Please don’t.”

“I never wanted to hurt you.” His grip softened as he stroked her cheek. Bile rose in her throat. “I was sorry. I saw your statement. You knew I was sorry. You heard me crying. You didn’t…you didn’t like it.”

“No.” She closed her eyes, the tears streaking down her cheeks. “No. I didn’t. I didn’t want it. Please don’t…. not again.”

She’d never survive it again.

“I couldn’t try again. Not with you. I had to wait. For you to get older. To understand. To see me. I waited, but—” He slapped her face. “Look at me, damn it!”

Elizabeth did and saw the insanity lit in his eyes. “Please—”

“But you never saw me. I had to find someone else. But they were never you. They were never right. I knew you had to be next, and I wanted it to be perfect. But that bitch attorney—” He hissed. “She’s on to me. I took care of her, but she probably told that pissant Spencer. I had to get to you. To see if it would be the same. Or better.”

Oh, thank God. Kelsey Joyce somehow knew. Maybe Lucky knew. He wouldn’t get away with it.

“It won’t—”

“No, it’ll never be the same,” Vinnie agreed. “I was your first. That’s why you were special. Because I was first. But it’ll be better than the others. Because it’s you. It had to be you.” He slid his hand down to stroke her hair.

His grip loosened on her wrist and she took her chance, maybe the only chance she’d ever have.

Elizabeth brought her knee up sharply against his groin and then sprang up, twisting until her elbow could get him in the abdomen. He howled, reared back.

He’d catch her before she could unlock the door—so she ran upstairs, to the bedroom.

She slammed the door shut, flipped the lock, and reached under her bed for the baseball bat Jason had given her. If he came through that door, she’d be ready.

October 31, 2019

This entry is part 27 of 31 in the All of Me

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I’ve paid the price
I’m still paying for it every day
I Don’t Know You Anymore, Savage Garden


Monday, September 22, 2003

 Warehouse: Jason’s Office

 Jason raised an eyebrow when the secretary he and Sonny shared announced that Lieutenant Taggert wanted to see him. With a sigh, he let the cop in. He wanted this case to be over so that Elizabeth would be safe—but also so he’d stop having to let Taggert through his damn door without a warrant. He wanted some things to go back to the way they used to be.

“Morgan.” Taggert hesitated when Jason simply remained seated behind his desk, paperwork in front of him. He took a seat. “Lucky Spencer told me he’d talked to Elizabeth about investigating her past. I figured she’s talked to you about it by now.”

“She has,” Jason said. “Why?”

“Because it occurs me that you knew her, too, back then. And I wasn’t sure if Spencer had talked to you. And there’s this other thing about Baker I wanted to run past you.” He took out his notepad. “The first time I was aware you knew Elizabeth outside of your sister was just before you left town. The fall of 1999.”

“We weren’t friends until that summer, in August,” Jason said, leaning back, considering. “I didn’t have a lot of interaction with her, but she came by with Lucky a lot. He washed cars for me, then worked for me at the garage, doing paperwork and running the website. I rented him the room.”

He frowned, trying to remember the first time he’d seen Elizabeth. “She was at Sonny and Brenda’s wedding. I guess as Lucky’s date. I remember seeing her as they left because she was someone I didn’t recognize. And then a few months later, when Nikolas got shot. She was there with her sister.”

“You’re good with faces. You don’t remember anyone hanging around her? Or your sister?” Taggert pressed, leaning forward.

“No. I really don’t. I went to Kelly’s, I’m sure she waited on me. But nothing sticks out.” Jason shook his head. “I’m sorry.”

“Yeah, well, it was a long shot. Spencer’s looking into the records at Kelly’s. Anyway.” Taggert huffed. “I tried to go see Baker once, in August, but he stuck to his original story from ‘98. No idea what Elizabeth is talking about. He never touched her, blah, blah. But when she mentioned that he knew the color of her dress, I thought maybe he does know something.”

“I got that feeling, too,” Jason admitted. “But I—” He shook his head. He hadn’t wanted to know anything else, hadn’t wanted another secret to keep from Elizabeth. “So?”

“So, I’m going back, and I’m thinking combined with my threat to his parole…” Taggert gestured at him. “Maybe you being in the room might remind him what awaits on the outside.”

Jason stared at him. “You want me to go to the prison to intimidate him?” he finally managed. “Is that even legal?”

“I can bring a third party to the interrogation,” Taggert said. “It’ll take a day or two to set it up.”

Jason stared at him for a long moment before leaning forward. “There was a week between Baker’s arrest and Edward’s call. Why didn’t Elizabeth’s case get investigated during that time? Why wasn’t sending that kit to the lab the first thing that happened the day after you arrested him?”

Taggert looked away, shook his head. “I didn’t think about that part of it when I realized what happened to her case. Because it’s just…it’s routine. We were waiting on the charges. How much time the DA was going to ask for the kidnapping and extortion. And yeah, it’s what Elizabeth said. He was facing more time for those crimes than we could have gotten him for on the rape. That case was supposed to be airtight.”

He grimaced. “Easy to see all the ways you could have done better. I just—I believed her. I believed he confessed. And you know, I wanted it to be over. I wanted her to have peace. She kept coming in, wanting updates, trying to find ways to help—” Taggert shook his head. “I wanted it to go away for her, so I let it go.” He sighed. “Will you go with me or not?”

“I’ll go with you.”

“I’ll call when it’s set up.”

Quartermaine Estate: Dillon’s Room

Dillon scowled at his laptop screen, trying to concentrate on the paper he was writing for his modern film class, but nothing was going right.

He glanced at his phone, managed a smile when he saw that Lulu had sent him a text reminding him he’d promised not to sulk all day and take her to the movies that night. He hadn’t been dating her that day they’d all gone out as a group, but he was now.

And it was nice to have something to look forward to. He’d watched his brother’s press conference earlier that day and then had spent hours trying to get it out of his head.

There was a light knock on his slightly ajar door. He twisted to see Georgie standing at the threshold, her cheeks tear stained. She’d called him a few times, but he hadn’t picked up. Hadn’t want to hear it again.

“If you’re here to defend your stepfather—”

“I’m not,” Georgie said, her voice cracking. She swallowed hard. “I—he sat us down to watch the press conference. We—we all watched it. And then he said it was true. And I just—” She clasped her hands in front of him. “I just wanted to see you. To apologize.”

“I get it. You want to believe he was a good guy.” Dillon shrugged. “Now you know—”

“He’s not a bad man,” Georgie said defensively. “No, don’t give me that look. You don’t know him. He did something awful, Dillon. He did it because my mom didn’t make a lot of money, and their restaurant was failing. If he’d lost his job then—”

“And this summer, Georgie? Let me guess — college tuition, right?” Dillon shook his head. “You know, I know you see the good in people. But sometimes it blinds you to the bad. He was selfish and he played with other people’s lives. I’m glad he feels bad, but all his guilt won’t bring back Brooke.”

We’re just as responsible,” she insisted, her voice climbing. “We ignored her, we didn’t treat her well, and she walked away from us. And then Maxie and I— we never said a word to any of you about what Mac told us. Once we thought she was in the park—” Her voice broke as tears slid down her cheek. “We should have said something. If we’d said something, you would have called the cops or maybe run or moved faster. But we didn’t. Because—”

“Because Mac just told you to be careful in the park or something dumb like that? Not — hey there’s a vicious rapist who beats women and rapes them until they’re broken and bloody and by the way, he likes brunettes—” Dillon cut off abruptly as Georgie cried harder.

“I don’t blame you,” he said after a long moment. “I don’t even blame Kyle or Lucas anymore. I don’t blame me. I blame the man who did it. I blame the people who knew that park wasn’t safe at night and did nothing to fix it. Where were the extra cops, Georgie? Why weren’t there officers patrolling those damn fountains?”

“I—” Georgie wrapped her arms around herself. “I don’t know.”

“Your stepfather played games with my family—with the lives of every single woman in this town—and I don’t care how good he is or how much pressure he was under. He had a choice, Georgie. Forgive me if I’m not in any damn hurry to forgive him. Because his choice cost Brooke her life!”

“I’m going to go,” she said carefully, sucking in a deep breath. “I—I’m just sorry.”

She ran out of the room, and he didn’t even bother to go after her. Instead, he called Lucas to check on his cousin and make sure she got home safely.

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

Nikolas eyed the guard stationed on Elizabeth’s door as he entered the penthouse. “That’s new. Didn’t you used to share a door guard with Sonny?”

“It’s only during the daytime when Jason isn’t here,” Elizabeth said as she gave him a light kiss on the cheek. “Just a few added precautions.”

“I can’t be mad at that.” Nikolas squeezed her hand as they took a seat on the sofa. “I just wanted to see you in person after yesterday. You looked okay but—”

“I’m good. My vitals are in the normal range, and I have a checkup with Monica next week. She wants to do monthly visits in addition to my OB appointments. They’re really not taking any chances.” She set a hand on her abdomen. “And I’m not either. I wasn’t expecting this baby, but I’m going to do whatever I can to make sure he or she is safe.”

“Well, let me know if there’s anything I can do, or Emily. You know we both just want the best for you.” He paused. “I made a donation to Ned’s campaign and put out an official statement from Cassadine Industries endorsing him.”

“Oh, that’s good. Most of the major businesses in town are affiliated with the Quartermaines, so I’m sure Ned appreciates an independent endorsement.” She tucked a leg underneath her body. “Is that all you came over to do? Check on me?”

“I—” Nikolas hesitated. “Have you heard from Ric since the protection hearing?”

“No.” Elizabeth blinked. “No, not even to annoy me about a deposition for the trial. And Scott hasn’t brought it up in a while. I guess we’re moving full steam ahead on that. It’s…weird, I guess how little I think about Ric. Apart from thinking about my health, he’s not in my head at all.” She smiled at that, looking at her hands, enjoying the way they looked without those awful engagement and wedding rings.

“I wanted you to know I put men on him,” Nikolas told her. “I’m sure Jason and Sonny have as well, but I just…” He pursed his lips. “After that day at your house—when I saw you dying in front of me—”

“Nikolas…” She touched his hand. “Hey—”

“It’s not even the first time you’ve died in front me,” he admitted, and she managed a hesitant laugh at that memory. “But I just remember looking at you, that monitor flatlining — and thinking — Oh, God, he’s killed her. I’m not sure I’ll be able to rest easy until he’s behind bars. And not even then, maybe,” he admitted.

“I appreciate that, but—”

“I just have someone watching him. I know he’s in Crimson Point. I know he hasn’t left the city since the protection hearing. I just—I didn’t know if Jason and Sonny give you reports—”

“Jason doesn’t talk about it much,” Elizabeth admitted. “But I assumed he’s got someone watching Ric. But thank you, it does make me feel better that Ric is miles away. I can only hope the trial will be short. I don’t think Scott plans to call lot of witnesses. Me, Carly. Monica, for sure. Probably you. I don’t know if he’ll call Jason or Sonny. Taggert. Cruz, the cop who was with us that day.” She sighed. “I don’t know why he’s bothering with the trial. Even if they can’t prove the charges about what happened to me, Carly’s are a slam dunk.”

“That’s what we thought about Baker,” Nikolas reminded her quietly. “And there’s no reason that mistrial should have ended up with him serving a quarter of the time he was supposed to.” He shook his head. “You know, I used to wonder if we’d have been better off going to the cops with the blackmail, but now I know they just would have screwed it up.”

“Let’s talk about something else. How’s your mom? And grandmother? Laura still doing well?”

Talking about Laura Spencer and her triumphant homecoming was Nikolas’s favorite subject, so he happily moved on from Ric, the PCPD, and all of the tragedies they’d suffered.

Warehouse: Sonny’s Office

For the first time in weeks, Sonny looked up to find Jason entering his office. They hadn’t spoken much since Jason had come by the penthouse earlier that week and almost not at all at work.

His friendship, his partnership with Jason was changing and Sonny didn’t know what it was going to look like going forward. If they could go back. Or even if they should.

“Hey.” Sonny cleared his throat. “How’s it—” He broke off the awkward question. “What’s up?”

“I, uh…” Jason took a seat. “I wasn’t sure if you saw. Or heard. Taggert was just here.”

Sonny furrowed his brow. “What’s going on? Did you call a lawyer—”

“No, no…” Jason shook his head. “No, it’s not about—it’s about the case.” He told Sonny that Taggert wanted him to go to the prison to see Baker as intimidation.

“Oh. I saw the press conference.” Had been humbled, awed by the woman he’d seen on the screen. “I was going to stop by—but how is she?”

“Yeah. She’s…handling it. Gail Baldwin has been good for her, I guess.” Jason shifted. “I just…didn’t want you to think there was…a reason Taggert was here that I wasn’t—”

“We’re not so far gone, you and I, that I would think that,” Sonny said quietly. He met Jason’s eyes. “Things are…rough right now, but for you to go to the police against me? It wouldn’t enter my mind.”

“Okay—”

When Jason made a move to stand, Sonny held out a hand for him to stop. “I don’t want this distance between us when…I just don’t.”

“I don’t either,” Jason admitted.

Sonny got to his feet and looked out his window, turning his back on his friend. “I blame me for not handling it all better.”

“Last summer, Elizabeth was kidnapped, too,” Jason said. “She’s not my wife. We don’t have kids. But I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t see straight. I almost didn’t find her.”

“I remember.”

“So, maybe I should have thought about that. Sonny, Carly was gone. And I wasn’t even sure I was right,” Jason admitted. “I had to be right, because I didn’t have any other leads. Any other ideas. She had to be with Ric. If I was wrong…she might never have come home.”

“I put a lot of pressure on you,” Sonny murmured. “I’ve always done that. Always made you responsible for me, my black moods. My family. I sent you to Courtney when you had other things to worry about. Anyone could have looked out for her. I sent you. And it wasn’t right.”

“I could have said no.”

“Yeah, well…” Sonny turned back to him. “I like Elizabeth. And I’m glad she’s doing better, I really am. I’m sorry about this…that someone is out there preying on women. And if you have to work with Taggert to make that lying son of a bitch Tom Baker give you something to make this finally over, then that’s what you have to do.”

Sonny rubbed his jaw. “You can’t say anything during the interview because it’s being recorded. Any hint of actual intimidation makes it useless.”

“That’s what Taggert said, yeah.”

“Doesn’t mean we can’t threaten him before you get there. We can pass on the message that if we find out Baker knows anything about Elizabeth he’s not telling you, he won’t even have to worry about after parole. He might not make it to sunrise one day.” He met Jason’s eyes. “I want him terrified when you show up with Taggert, so you don’t even have to work at it.”

“Yeah, I’ll call my guy at Pentonville. That’s a good idea.” Jason hesitated. “You look better,” he said finally.

“I’m feeling better. I saw Elizabeth on that screen—and I remember that night. She was standing there, drugged out of her damn mind, and demanding that we let her stay. That we let her help. Taking it all on her own shoulders.” He shook his head. “She risked her life for Carly. Because she blamed herself. The least—and I mean the very least—I can do is help her get justice.”

Kelsey’s Apartment: Living Room

Lucky scowled down at his notes as Kelsey switched the channel from the news to a movie he didn’t recognize.  “There’s something I’m not remembering.”

She shifted on the sofa, turning to face him and folding her legs underneath her body. “What do you mean?”

“My Aunt Ruby’s records from before she died. Elizabeth mentioned there might be records of people who kept tabs, and Aunt Bobbie said Ruby never threw anything out.” He grimaced. “I should stop by there tomorrow. See if it jogs my memories—”

“You live there,” Kelsey reminded him. “And you were just there a few nights ago—”

“I know.” He threw the pencil and notepad on the coffee table and leaned back against the sofa. “But there’s something at the edge of my memories. I remember something—”

“You have to stop pressuring yourself.” She touched his knee, leaned in. “Go to Kelly’s tomorrow. Get the records from your aunt. You’ll probably remember it when you see the list of tenants. But right now, Lucky, you’re just driving yourself insane.”

“Yeah, yeah, I guess.” He curled an arm around her shoulder and drew her closer. “But Taggert and Jason are going to see Baker on Wednesday. If they get a name—”

“We’ll need more than a name to build a case. So, if we get a name, it might also jump start whatever you’re trying to remember.” Kelsey sighed, closed her eyes. “Think about it. By the end of this week—this monster might finally have a name. We might be able to get everyone some justice.”

“Listening to Elizabeth today, thinking about what all of these women have been through—” Lucky sighed. “I’m not sure justice is even possible. But we could make it over. And that’s not nothing.”

Morgan Penthouse: Bedroom

Elizabeth was sitting up in bed, a book of baby names in her hands, when he came home from work that night. A shipment had arrived three hours later than they’d expected, so it was nearly eleven by the time Jason could leave the warehouse.

She smiled up at him when he came in, setting the book aside. “Hey. You’re not as late as you thought you’d be. It’s not even midnight yet.”

“Yeah, we got a break.” Jason stripped down to his briefs, climbed into bed next to her and kissed her. “What are you reading?” He reached for the book. “Already?”

“Well, we have to be prepared,” Elizabeth said, her cheeks flushed slightly. “Emily came by after Nikolas and dropped it off as a baby gift. The first of many—which I’m taking as a threat. Your sister always goes over the top.”

He took the book from her and flipped through it. “So, what do you like?”

“I don’t know. I know Emily said you picked Michael because of Sonny. And didn’t Carly say they were naming this baby after you?” Elizabeth smirked as Jason’s cheeks reddened slightly. “I thought it was a sweet name. Morgan Stone. Did you want…to name the baby for someone? Emily?”

Jason shrugged. “We can if you want.” When she rolled her eyes, he continued, “It’s a name, Elizabeth. I woke up in the hospital, they told me I was Jason Quartermaine. I didn’t like it, so I changed it. No big deal.”

“Yeah, I’m sure it was a bigger deal than that. If names don’t matter, why did you change it?” she challenged.

He hesitated, trying to remember those days after the accident. He’d been angry all the time—at these strangers who kept telling him who he was supposed to be and always looking so damn disappointed when that version of him didn’t show up. “I thought if I didn’t have their name—if I didn’t use the name they kept telling me was mine—they’d stop wanting me to be him.” Jason shook his head. “It seems stupid now. And I don’t know—I couldn’t see it as them grieving. Their son died. He ran after AJ, promising them he’d take care of it. And he never came home.” He looked at her. “And to make it worse, I was wearing his face.”

“It’s better now, isn’t it?” Elizabeth asked softly.

“It was always easier with Grandmother and Emily. And Ned—until I found out about AJ driving—he and I got along fine. But it took longer with Monica. And I’m not sure I’ll ever get there with Edward and Alan.” Jason was quiet for a long moment. “It’s not as bad as it used to be.” He cleared his throat. “But I get what you mean. The name mattered. I picked Morgan because it was my middle name, and when I told Grandmother I was using it, she just looked so happy. I liked making her happy.”

“There’s no one like Lila.” Elizabeth picked up Jason’s arm so she could tuck herself underneath it. “I think I want our baby to have their own first name. Something that belongs completely to them, you know?”

“I like that idea.” He leaned down, kissed her forehead. “I had a strange visitor at work today.” When she frowned at him, he went on. “Taggert. He wants to go visit Baker at Pentonville and thinks I might be good for intimidation.”

“Why does he want to see Baker?” Elizabeth scowled. “I thought he was cleared—”

“He is—of the actual attack. But I got the feeling that day I saw him—and Taggert said he got the same one—Baker knows more than he’s saying. He knew the color of your dress, and you said he had no trouble going along with what you’d said. Like he already knew you and what happened.”

“I guess.” She sighed. “And…you’re going?”

“It’s not my first choice to spend an hour driving to Pentonville with Taggert, but—” He paused. “I asked him why your kit wasn’t sent that first week. If you were right, and they were just going to let your case go anyway, before the call.”

“What’d he say?”

“That he thought it would be easier for you if Baker went away for the twenty-five. It was more time than he’d get than your charges. And maybe he didn’t want to put you through testifying after the kidnapping.” Jason shook his head. “But if Lucky was right, if Ned told the story right—Mac lied to Taggert, too.”

“Yeah, I guess I can understand that. And Taggert’s the one that reopened my case in the first place. I don’t think he would have been on board for lying to me.” She grimaced. “Are you going to go?”

“Yeah. Because he came to me and asked for my help. And he’s always been good to you. Whatever I can do to make this over faster. If Baker knows who did this—”

“Then it could be over by the end of the week,” she murmured. She sighed and leaned against his shoulder. “Good. I want to get on with the rest of my life. The rest of our life.”

October 28, 2019

This entry is part 26 of 31 in the All of Me

You never asked for trouble
But you’ve got fire that burns so bright
You turn and face the struggle
When all the others turn and hide
You hold your head above the waves
Above the war they try to wage
You are stronger than their hate
In Your Shoes, Sarah McLachlan


Friday, September 19, 2003

Port Charles Hotel: Office

Elizabeth peered through the crack in the door that led from the back offices into the conference room set up to deliver a press conference. A podium had been set up at the front of the room with rows of chairs arranged facing it. Those chairs were filled with members of the Port Charles media, print and screen and even, she’d been told, an Internet blog.

Her friends and family were already sitting out there in the back row—Jason, Bobbie, Monica, Emily, Nikolas and Lucky filled one of the rows by themselves. She caught Jason’s eye, offered a him a smile meant to reassure him.

He hadn’t tried to stop her or talk her out of doing this, but Elizabeth knew putting herself out there like this made her a target in all sorts of ways. The announcement that she’d be giving a statement had hit the media the day before, and she and Jason had had to unplug their main line to stop it from ringing.

“We can stop this any time,” Ned said as Elizabeth closed the door and took a deep breath. “I can go out there, make excuses.” His eyes met hers, a concerned warm brown. “You don’t need to do this.”

She bit her lip, looked at Edward who was also planning to give a statement as to his involvement, then back to Ned. “No, maybe I don’t need to do this. But I want to. For Brooke. She can’t fight for herself anymore. It’s up to us.”

Ned touched her shoulder. “Okay.” He looked over at Olivia, talking last minute arrangements with Jax and Alexis. “All right, we’re ready.”

“Okay. I’ll go with you to check the sound one more time,” Alexis told Olivia as the two women opened the door and went into the conference room. When Alexis knocked to let them know everything was set up correctly, Ned opened the door for Elizabeth.

She went to one side of the podium and stood next to Edward, who put a hand on her shoulder. Ned stepped up to the microphone.

“Thank you for coming,” he began, as he set his prepared remarks on the podium. “I launched my campaign for mayor last month after the death of my daughter because I wanted women like her to be better protected by our police department and our justice system.”

He paused, his breath catching slightly as he looked down at his notes. After a moment, he looked back up at the crowd.

“I am a grieving father, angry at the world. When I learned just how devastating the failures of this city had been, I wanted to burn it to the ground. But I am just a grieving father. A bystander to all the women that Garrett Floyd ignored in his selfish pursuit of power.”

He paused again, looked at Elizabeth, who nodded. He looked back at the press. “So today, I think you should hear from one of those women.”

He stepped back as Elizabeth started forward, but Ned put his hand over the mike and whispered to her, “We can still stop this.”

“I can do this,” she reassured him. Ned removed his hand and went to stand next to his grandfather. Elizabeth stepped up to the microphone, Olivia moving in to adjust it slightly for her shorter stature.

“Good morning,” she said, flinching at the echoing sound of her own voice. She found Jason in the audience, focused on him.

“My name is Elizabeth Webber, but you already know that thanks to the tabloids and the newspapers that covered the kidnapping of Carly Corinthos and the physical assault I suffered at the hands of Ric Lansing due to the police department’s reckless disregard for my health and safety.” She paused. “I am not here to talk about that case today.”

The room started to buzz with whispers. Elizabeth knew they’d expected her to rail at the PCPD over her assault.

“On February 14, 1998, at the age of sixteen, I took a walk in the Port Charles park after dark.”

And now the room was eerily silent as she continued. “I was a silly girl who had told a lie about having a date to a dance, then was too embarrassed to admit the truth. So, I walked in the park, sat on a bench, and waited for time to pass.”

She found Lucky’s eyes, still full of deep regret as they both thought of the night that had changed their lives. “A man grabbed me from behind, threw me behind the bushes, and raped me.”

Elizabeth closed her eyes, took a deep breath. “I didn’t go to the police. I couldn’t even tell my grandmother. But a friend found me in the park and took me home. His family gave me strength and support to get through the night. I didn’t want anyone to know. I couldn’t bear for anyone to look at me and know.

“I stayed in my room for days. Every man became the man who raped me. Even men I had felt safe to be around before that night—they terrified me.”

She paused to look around the room. It seemed less scary now, easier to keep talking. She looked down at her notes and kept going. “I went to the hospital a few days later and did a rape kit. They took pictures of my bruises and I gave them the dress I had been wearing. I eventually went to the police and for a long time, I felt grateful to Detectives Taggert and Garcia who handled my case. They were kind, but not hopeful. At the time I didn’t remember a lot of the details of my attack, couldn’t give a description, and I was told my rape kit could not be processed without a suspect.”

She gripped the edges of the podium as she continued to speak. “But that fall, we had a suspect. Tom Baker, who blackmailed Emily Quartermaine and held the both of us hostage in his photography studio. He said something that my attacker had, and I accused him of raping me. I was terrified, frozen, and he went along with my charge. He was arrested, and I thought—finally—finally, they’ll be able to investigate.”

She closed her eyes, took a deep breath as her breath caught. “But a month later, I was told that he couldn’t be prosecuted for my attack. That there wasn’t enough evidence. I was told that my rape kit had come back negative for any DNA and he was denying his confession.” She smiled bitterly. “I never doubted Detective Taggert’s word. He said my kit had been run, and now my case would be ruled inactive. Put into cold storage.”

She saw that Scott Baldwin had slid into an empty seat next to Bobbie and he gently nodded when they made eye contact. So, he had been Ned’s source. She’d wondered. “I thought the man responsible was in jail for what had happened to Emily Quartermaine and would be there for a long time. Not as long as we’d hoped, but he was gone. I put my life back together, I moved on. I put it behind me. And then this summer, the Herald told us a serial rapist was stalking the park.”

Her hands fisted at the podium.

“I didn’t…I didn’t let myself believe it was the same man. I couldn’t believe it. I didn’t call, I didn’t ask. Even when I was asked by the family of the last young woman to speak to her about my own experience, I never once let myself believe we had been victimized by the same man. Because I assumed that the PCPD had taken care of me. Even after they had planted a story that put my life in danger, I still thought I could trust them.”

She sucked back a sob that tried to bubble up in her throat. “But I was wrong. The PCPD never ran my rape kit. If they had, if they had processed even one of the kits in cold storage, they would have known that the man stalking the park this year was not just my attacker, but that I was the first of at least seven women, beginning in February 1998 and continuing until this past July. All seven of us, including Brooke Lynn Ashton—we were all raped by the same man. A man that the police department continued to let wreak havoc because of budget woes and blind ambition.”

She looked at Lucky, who nodded, reminding her it was okay to tell them everything the PCPD had done. “For a week after Tom Baker was arrested on charges of kidnapping, stalking, and extortion, nothing happened in my rape case. He was never questioned, and my dress sat in evidence, untouched. Because Baker was charged with crimes that would put him away for twenty-five years to life, my case was deemed to be a waste of time and money for the department. A week after his arrest, Garrett Floyd and Mac Scorpio got the political cover they needed to ignore my case.”

Elizabeth glanced back at Edward and Ned who were both ashen, knowing what would come next. “Concerned for their family member, Ned Ashton and Edward Quartermaine called Mayor Floyd to make sure that they had everything they needed to put Baker away. And Floyd took that as an invitation to ignore anything that might derail or delay the trial. Including my case. When I disrupted the trial, accusing Baker of rape, Edward called Floyd again. And this time, Floyd and Scorpio made it official. They generated a false lab report stating my rape kit had returned negative results. Then my case was marked as solved, so it would no longer show up as an open case.”

The room exploded as that news sunk in — that the PCPD had unwittingly delayed the capture of a serial rapist, falsified official evidence, and had engaged in political corruption. She waited for the din to quiet down.

“If my case had been handled properly according to procedure, we would have known five years ago that Tom Baker did not rape me. I would not have had justice, but the women who came after me — the attacks in 1999 and 2000, the four in 2003 — they might have been avoided. If the rape kits for all rape cases were processed at the time of report, then we would have known four years ago that one man was raping women in the park. The DNA would have been on file in state and federal databases. But that did not happen. Because Mac Scorpio, Garrett Floyd, and the PCPD threw me away. I didn’t matter. Their bottom lines, their jobs, their needs mattered more than me and the public they’d sworn to protect.”

She looked at the back of the room where Taggert was standing, his eyes cast down. She didn’t know how long he’d been there, but she wasn’t in the mood to see him.

“They knew a serial rapist was haunting the park by the end of June, but they refused to tell the public. The commissioner warned his own daughters not to walk in the park, but no one warned Brooke Lynn Ashton. If we had known we were being hunted, do you think anyone would have walked there? Brooke Lynn would be alive today if the mayor and the commissioner hadn’t decided that women like us were expendable.”

Rage was now coursing through her veins, her chest rising more rapidly. “I was sixteen when I was raped, little more than a child. I was terrified to tell anyone, sure that the world would blame me. Because my family wasn’t wealthy and couldn’t deliver an election, Garrett Floyd threw me away. He could do that because that’s what this world does. It decides that women are less, that we can be forgotten, put away, disposed of because a man’s reputation, a man’s election somehow matters more than my right to walk in the park without fear, to have justice for the terror I was put through.”

She paused, the room silent. “Garrett Floyd wanted to be your mayor more than he wanted to serve the people. Mac Scorpio wanted to keep his job more than he wanted to protect the public. They don’t care about the people they’ve taken an oath to look after. I nearly died for their greed and ambition. Seven of us were ignored. One of us gone forever. I will fight for Brooke Lynn and for all the others that came after me because I will not let Garrett Floyd throw away one more woman. He got away with it once because I was nothing more than a little girl who didn’t know how to stand up and shout.”

She looked straight ahead at the WKPC television cameras she knew was carrying the conference live. “Little girls don’t stay little forever. They grow up and return to destroy your world. I am not going to be thrown away, and I will not stay silent. I am going to vote for Ned Ashton in a few weeks, and I hope that everyone listening will as well. This city deserves a change. I’m sorry I can’t take any questions.”

She stepped back from the podium as Ned put an arm around her shoulder, steadying her. “Are you okay? Do you need Bobbie or your doctor?” he asked as Edward stepped up to deliver his short and furious condemnation of Floyd’s actions.

“No.” She took a deep breath, was relieved when it came easily. She pressed her own fingers to her pulse and found it only a bit more rapid than usual. “I just want to go home. Do I have to stay—”

“Olivia—” Ned started to ask but Olivia was already taking Elizabeth by the elbow and steering her into the back room.

PCPD: Squad Room

Taggert had arrived at the hotel just after the press conference had begun, hoping to slip in and out without being noticed. But once Elizabeth’s incendiary statement had been delivered, he found himself all but chased down the street back to the PCPD, reporters and cameras at his heels.

In the squad room, he found a group of sullen officers gathered around the television set. “She dates a fucking criminal and we’re the bad guys,” Capelli muttered. Taggert shot him a dirty look.

“You’re wanted in the conference room,” Beaudry said with a grunt. “Floyd came in five minutes ago, grabbed Esposito by the scruff of his neck and hauled him in already. With your rookies.”

“Fantastic,” Taggert said with a roll of his eyes. He went down the hall to find the mayor in a fury as he berated the officers in front him.

“I want to know who the hell is leaking the confidential investigations in this office!” Floyd demanded, jabbing his fingers at the trio standing sullenly in a line. “You!” He barked at Dante who stared back at him with open hostility. “You grew up with the last one, didn’t you? Angry at the PCPD?”

“I don’t know,” Dante drawled, “probably not nearly as angry as you were when you leaked her name to the press, asshole.” His dark eyes were lit with fury. “The ‘last one’?  You piece of shit—”

Floyd’s face was almost florid in his rage. “You—you’re fired—”

“Can’t fire him,” Taggert said calmly as he shut down the door. “And if you got a problem with the officers under my command, you take it up with me.  Vinnie isn’t even on this case. I knew months ago something was wrong with the Webber case. I didn’t leak it, but I wish like hell I had.”

“You son of a bitch,” Floyd hissed. “You have screwed up this case from the beginning—you and this Brooklyn asshole—”

Vinnie snorted. “Oh, that he remembers about me,” the detective snarled, his accent thick. “But you don’t remember that I wasn’t even on the damn cases back then!”

“You were a patrol officer in this division!” Floyd gestured wildly. “Why didn’t you make the link?”

“Because even when we did make the link,” Taggert said, stepping in front of his officers. “You refused to let us do anything about it—”

“I said you couldn’t announce it!” Floyd retorted. “Not that you couldn’t investigate it—”

“No public warning, no extra patrols for the park—” Cruz rolled his eyes. “Sounds like not being able to investigate to me,” he told Dante.

Taggert’s mouth twitched—he so badly wanted to smile at the level of disrespect the rookies were showing the line of command. He shouldn’t—but maybe it meant they couldn’t be corrupted or bribed. “We’re working the cases as hard we as we can. You got more damage control to worry about anyway.”

“That’s why I’m here—” Floyd stabbed a finger at Vinnie. “I’ve recommended to the ethics board that Esposito be suspended for thirty days, pending termination for his negligence and public disregard for safety.”

“Fuck that shit!” Vinnie roared. “You’ll hear from my union rep!” He stormed out of the room.

Floyd smirked at Taggert and the rookies. “Careful, officers, or you’ll be next.”

He sauntered out of the room.

“He doesn’t get it, does he?” Dante asked, shaking his head. “He’s a dead man walking. Elizabeth Webber flayed him alive and all that’s left is his rotting corpse.”

“That just makes him more dangerous,” Taggert muttered.

Kelly’s: Dining Room

Bobbie went behind the counter, murmured something to Penny who had been managing in her absence, then looked at Lucky who took a seat in front of her. “Well.”

“Yeah, I’m not looking forward to work tomorrow.” Lucky rubbed the side of his face, exhausted already. “I got a voicemail from Cruz that Floyd went to the PCPD after the conference, accused Dante of being the leak, tried to fire him—and did manage to engineer Vinnie’s suspension. Which is bullshit because Vinnie’s a crappy cop, but this was a system clusterfuck, not just one person.”

“Yeah, well.” Bobbie sighed. “You said you had some questions about the case? I don’t know what I could offer you.”

Lucky explained that their theory about Elizabeth as the trigger victim and how they were trying to think of anyone who fit the profile and was part of her past. “It’s a huge pool of suspects, but Elizabeth thought maybe the regulars she had back then might be a place to start. She didn’t really remember any names or faces. Not after so much time, but we were wondering if Ruby would have kept something.”

“Well, we have the tax records for the rooms we rented going back to about, oh, ‘94, I think. I can check that.” Bobbie pursed her lips. “I have a few boxes of paperwork your aunt left behind that I really don’t know anything about. Ruby kept track of unpaid tabs — she might not have thrown them out once it was paid off. I wasn’t paying a lot of attention to Kelly’s when she was here.” Bobbie’s smile was sad. “Didn’t really need to, you know?”

“Yeah, Ruby always made it look easy.”

“I might even have some of her journals. I could pull out what I have when I get home.” Bobbie shook her head as she poured herself a cup of coffee. “It just seems wrong that Elizabeth could have known the guy. Wouldn’t they have done this—” She stopped, shook her head. “We can’t assume anything. Not knowing what we know now.”

“To be honest, Aunt Bobbie, having looked at Elizabeth’s file — Garcia didn’t do anything with Elizabeth’s case. They didn’t look at the crime scene. Didn’t interview anyone in Elizabeth’s life. They seemed to assume it was a stranger rape and moved on. By the time Taggert got assigned it, it was pretty cold.” Lucky shook his head. “But that seems to the way the PCPD operated. Doing the bare minimum.”

“Well, I hope Ned winning in a few weeks will start changing things. I’ll go through Ruby’s things and see if I can’t give you something to help.”

“Thanks—” Lucky stopped, took out his buzzing cell phone. “Hey.”

“Hey. I saw the press conference,” Kelsey said. “The phones are ringing off the hook at the office—do you think Scott is the one that told Liz?”

“Maybe,” Lucky allowed. “I knew she had a lot of the details from someone in a position to know. If the Quartermaines admitted making the call, then someone had to have tipped off Ned Ashton.”

“Yeah.” Kelsey sighed. “Yeah, she was already asking questions, so I’m glad she knows. You okay?”

“As okay as I can be. Will the DA’s office get out of this without a lot of heat?”

“We might be okay. Different DA, former ADA not working here anymore—” She paused. “Will you come by after I’m done work?”

“Yeah. Yeah, I’ll see you tonight.”

Lucky hung up the phone to find his aunt smiling at him. “What?”

“Nothing. Your voice—” Bobbie sighed, her eyes a bit brighter. “It changes when you talk to her. Did you know that?”

“No, but—” He shrugged. “I gotta get going. I have a shift at the club. Call me if you find anything in Aunt Ruby’s records.” He kissed her cheek, then left.

Scorpio House: Living Room

 

When Edward Quartermaine’s face faded from the screen, Felicia picked up the remote and silently switched off the television. On the other sofa, Georgie was crying, Maxie was sitting silently, staring straight ahead. Next to her, Mac was pale, his eyes looking down.

“Is this what you were talking about when I came home in July?” she asked softly. “When you told me Floyd had pushed you on this case?”

“I—”

“Why?” Georgie said, with a sob. “Why would she say those things? Tell them that Floyd made you do it, Dad!”

“How could he make him do anything?” Maxie looked at her stepfather. “He tells you to do something, you tell him to go to hell. It’s not hard. I say it to you all the time.”

“Girls—”

“Don’t start acting like we’re kids and can’t handle this,” Maxie said. She got to her feet and flipped her hair over her shoulder. “I’m an adult. I was there the night Brooke got attacked. I’ve watched Dillon tear himself apart. Kyle and Lucas drowned themselves in guilt. Georgie broke up with Dillon because she was defending you—”

“Because you didn’t have a choice,” Georgie said to him, but even her own conviction was fading. Her voice trembled. “He made you do it.”

“You always have a choice,” Mac said after a long moment. “I didn’t have a good choice. Elizabeth is right. We didn’t immediately investigate after he was arrested. I should have. But I was concentrating on the Quartermaine part of the case, and I didn’t—I wasn’t aware of the rape charges until Floyd called me. But I should have known it.”

“Why wouldn’t Taggert have gone after him—” Felicia pressed her lips together. “Is she right? Did you weigh the odds? Twenty-five to life? Why waste time on a dubious rape charge when you could just sit back, do nothing, and get the same result?”

“I thought he was guilty,” Mac said, numbly. “At first it didn’t seem like a big deal. Until I realized we were lying to Elizabeth. Until Edward called and—I had a choice, Georgie,” he told his youngest step-daughter painfully. “You always have a choice,” he repeated.

“Then why?” Maxie demanded, her voice ending on a wail. “Why did you do this? Why did you let him keep hurting women and why is Brooke dead because of it? Why?”

“Because I didn’t want to lose my job,” Mac said. And damned if that felt like a shitty excuse. “We had the Outback and it was already failing at that point—if I’d lost that income—”

“And it wasn’t like I was making a lot from my work as a private investigator,” Felicia said, with a slow exhale. “And you had the guy’s confession. So, you buried her case to keep your job and support us.”

Georgie sniffled and looked away from them. “I have to go call Dillon. I have to—I have to apologize.” She rushed away, her feet pounding on the stairs.

Maxie stayed for another minute. “You always have a choice,” she repeated. “And yeah, I guess that was a terrible choice. What about this summer, Dad? When you chose to warn me and Georgie, but didn’t make it sound so bad that we told anyone else? How do you think it makes me feel that your choice helped put Brooke in that park?”

“I will never be able to forgive myself—”

“Good. You shouldn’t.”

Without another word, Maxie stalked out the front door, slamming it shut behind her. Mac shook his head, looked to Felicia. “I—”

“You put the needs of your family above those of the people you were supposed to protect.” Felicia offered him a wistful smile. “You think you’re the only person in the world who has ever been selfish? Who’s ever sacrificed one person to save himself?”

“The girls—they’re in college. The Outback is long gone. We didn’t—I couldn’t—”

“The girls are my responsibility,” Felicia told him. “And I’m grateful for the help you’ve given us. The stability you’ve given them. But please, don’t ever use them as a reason not to do the right thing.” She shook her head. “I told myself that whatever was bothering you—I could deal with it. I wasn’t a good wife to you. I depended on you too much. I made my girls your problem to fix. And that’s my fault. But I’m not sure—”

She met his eyes, sighed. “I don’t know, Mac. I just don’t understand how you could have done this. We knew Elizabeth Webber. Steve and Audrey were so good to me. She was at our wedding—she caught my bouquet. And six months later, you put her on a shelf like she was nothing. I get it—you thought the guy was guilty. And if you’d actually investigated the case, maybe you’d have been right. Maybe there wouldn’t have been evidence.”

“I—”

“And it’s hard to blame you for that choice now—because how could you have known that animal would go on to rape six more women? But that’s why you do the job right the first time. So, you can look back and tell yourself—I did everything I should have.” Felicia rubbed the back of her neck. “You haven’t resigned.”

“I offered a few times, but Floyd refused to take it. Now, I think he’ll either have to fire me or—if Ned wins, I want him to fire me. It won’t bring back his daughter, but if it gives him a moment of peace—” Mac sighed, looked away. “I owe him that. At the very least. I’m sorry, Felicia.”

“You’re a good man, Mac, who made a mistake.” She reached up to kiss his cheek. “We’ll get through this.”

Morgan Penthouse: Living Room

 Elizabeth was exhausted by the time they got home that afternoon. She dropped her purse on the desk, kicked her shoes off, and sat on the sofa with a huff. She closed her eyes and extended her arm, expecting Jason to check her pulse.

He didn’t put his fingers on her wrist but took her hand and pressed it to his chest as he sat next to her. She opened her eyes, looked at him suspiciously. “You’re not checking my vitals?”

“I will. But I just wanted to tell you that I love you.”

She smiled, sat up. “I love you, too.”

“You terrify me,” he admitted. “With your fearlessness, your courage—you declared war on the PCPD, the mayor, and the man who did this to all of you. And you did it by reminding everyone who matters here. Not the election. Not the men who screwed up the case. But you. And Brooke Lynn. And the other women.”

“Someone had to,” Elizabeth murmured. “He’s still out there, Jason. And if Lucky is right, he’s still attacking women who look like me. Every time he rapes someone, he’s raping me again in his mind.” Her voice trembled slightly. “Part of me is a little…a lot…scared that standing up there—reminding him I exist—showing him that he didn’t destroy me—”

“He’ll want to come after you.” Jason nodded, his fingers sliding over her smooth skin of her inner arm. “Yeah, I thought about that, too.”

“But I couldn’t hide. I can’t hide. I won’t live my life in fear. Not ever again. I wouldn’t let him break me five years ago.” Elizabeth turned her hand so that she was the one clutching his hand, squeezing it. “I wouldn’t let Ric Lansing break me. I won’t let him be the thing I think about for eight months, worrying about what he did to me or if it’ll cost me my life or my child’s. And I won’t let my rapist drive me to fear either. I run my life. Not them.”

He leaned forward, brushed his lips over hers. “I love you,” he murmured again.

“I love you, too.” She managed a smile for him as he drew back. “Now. Let’s check my vitals and talk about the security I’m sure you want to add.”