March 16, 2014

This entry is part 6 of 15 in the Intoxication

Lucky’s Room

“Sometimes…” Elizabeth sighed and stared out the window. “Sometimes, I look at him…and there’s so much anger in him–over his mother, over Sonny. It scares me.”

Lucky exhaled slowly. They’d been in his room for over an hour and Elizabeth had proceeded to lay out everything–every emotion, every event, every feeling she’d had since she’d found out the truth about Ric.

With every word that spilled from her lip, Lucky’s confusion at her decision to marry him grew. He couldn’t understand why she’d go back to him after his revelation about Carly, much less trust him enough to bind herself to him forever.

But he’d forced himself to have patience–eventually she’d get to the point–she’d get to the big picture, where he could realize why she loved this man who’d dedicated his entire being to destroying Sonny.

And now she was silent and he was no longer closer to understanding her than he’d been before she walked into his room.

“Are you scared of him?” Lucky asked finally.

She didn’t answer right away and that worried him. Finally Elizabeth sighed and shook her head. “No. He wouldn’t hurt me. I don’t…I’m not scared of him, but the anger he has–that scares me. He doesn’t think sometimes and he just acts.” She glanced at her ex-fiancé. “I think he’s the reason Scott Baldwin didn’t call me.”

“You think he wants Sonny prosecuted?”

“I think that…no matter how much he thinks he wants peace and to start a new life…the second he lost his reason…the second I lost our child…he decided it was just another reason for Sonny to be destroyed.”

Lucky stood and shoved his hands into the back pockets of his jeans. He crossed the room and peered over her shoulder into Kelly’s courtyard.

“It used to be so simple, Lucky,” Elizabeth sighed. “Remember when they were us?”

He followed her gaze and saw the Police Commissioner’s daughters Georgie and Maxie sitting with his cousin Lucas and with Emily’s newest cousin, Dillon. “Yeah. You, me, Emily and Nikolas.”

“The Four Musketeers,” she said faintly. “Why did it have to change?”

“We grew up,” Lucky replied. “But, hey, we’re still friends.”

“Yeah, I guess.”

“Are you going back there tonight?”

Elizabeth hesitated. “I have to,” she answered. “He’s my husband. I can’t…I can’t just abandon him because we had a fight.”

“I wish you’d stay here tonight,” Lucky told her. “Just give him time to calm down or whatever.”

“I can’t. If I run out now–how is this ever supposed to work?” Elizabeth asked. “How am I supposed to make my marriage work if a little fight sends me running?”

“It wasn’t just a fight, Elizabeth. He’s got this hatred for Sonny that scares you and–”

“Lucky…” Elizabeth shook her head. “Just walk me out, okay?”

“Okay.”

Jason’s Penthouse

“He was indicted for aggravated assault?” Carly shrieked.

Jason held his hand up to his friend. “Carly, let me handle this.” He turned back to their lawyer. “What does that mean exactly?”

“It means Scott Baldwin convinced the grand jury that Mr. Corinthos pushed the victim with the intent of causing her bodily harm. Add to the fact that Mrs. Lansing actually miscarried, well…the jury didn’t appreciate it,” Robyn reported.

“What happens if he’s convicted?” Carly demanded.

“He won’t be,” Robyn told the blonde with little patience. “Because I get to present a defense. We’ve been over this, Mrs. Corinthos. The prosecution was able to get an indictment because they neglected to call Mrs. Lansing. If they don’t call her at trial, I will.” She hesitated. “I have reason to believe Baldwin was bribed not to call her.”

Jason frowned. “Bribed? By who?”

“I don’t know that yet,” Robyn told him. “If I had any actual proof, I would have reported him to the Ethics Committee.”

“Okay then. Is there anything I can do?” Jason asked.

Robyn shook her head. “The most you can do is visit Mr. Corinthos as often as possible. It can’t be easy for him. I’ve got a bail hearing set for Monday morning–it’s the earliest I could get it.”

“Sonny’s already been in there since last Monday!” Carly cried. She looked to Jason. “Isn’t there a judge you can’t talk to? He can’t last another four nights. Please, Jason–”

“I’m going to pretend I didn’t hear you request that,” Robyn remarked dryly. “If there’s nothing else, I’m going to go and start work on the defense. You know my number if you need anything. Just remember, after six, I charge double. And triple on weekends.”

“You’re positive you can get my brother acquitted?” Courtney spoke up. “I mean, you said he wouldn’t even be charged.”

Robyn narrowed her eyes at the blonde. “I said that with Elizabeth Lansing’s testimony, he wouldn’t be charged. I can’t very well be held responsible if they didn’t call her, now can I?” she finished in a condescending tone.

“You can’t speak to me like that,” Courtney retorted. “You work for me.”

“Actually,” Robyn said, cutting both Carly and Jason off before they could speak, “the last time I checked, I get paid by Corinthos and Morgan Coffee Company. Now, if you suddenly became an owner…maybe then you could try to treat me like a servant.” She picked her briefcase up. “As it is, I represent Sonny Corinthos and Jason Morgan. His fiancée was not included in the agreement.”

She pulled the door open and left.

“I don’t like her,” Courtney announced sharply. “You should fire her.”

Jason exhaled slowly and eyed his fiancée. “She’s right. She doesn’t work for you and even if she did, you don’t get to speak to her like that. She’s a good lawyer and Sonny and I like her.”

“She couldn’t even get the charges dropped,” Courtney said, scathingly. “What makes you think she can get him acquitted?”

“Haven’t you been listening to a thing she said?” Carly asked. “She was depending on Elizabeth’s testimony to exonerate Sonny. Scott didn’t call her. At the trial, Robyn will present a defense, which she couldn’t do with the grand jury. I believe her–she’s not going to lose.”

“And what makes you so sure that by the time the trial gets here that Elizabeth hasn’t changed her mind?” Courtney demanded.

“Because Elizabeth has said from the beginning that she doesn’t believe Sonny did this. She went to see him at the jail,” Carly informed them both. “Now, I asked one of the guards and she came to see him right after I did. When I left, he was withdrawn and depressed. And now…now he’s different. He seems lighter, more hopeful about getting out.”

“And you think Elizabeth is the reason for this?” Courtney demanded.

“I think Elizabeth managed to do what Jason and I couldn’t.” Carly sighed. “I think she convinced him he didn’t do it.”

Jason looked at her sharply. “Are you sure?”

“Wait, why did she have to convince him?” Courtney asked.

“Because Sonny doesn’t remember anything he said to her–he just remembers he was angry and she was–that they were both yelling. He doesn’t remember walking away, or whether she did. He just remembers going there and then being in the limo.”

“You mean Sonny thought he might have done it?” Courtney asked, skeptically. “That’s crazy.”

“Not to Sonny, it wasn’t,” Carly said quietly. “He was genuinely terrified that he’d pushed her.”

“And you think Elizabeth convinced him he didn’t?” Jason asked, steering the conversation back to his question.

“I don’t know for sure. But whatever she said…he looks better, Jason. And you and I both know that it can’t be easy on him in there.” Carly’s eyes were glossy and she raised a hand to her mouth. “He hates small spaces so much. And every time I try to go to sleep in our room without him, I think about him there and it hurts so much because I can’t do anything. There’s no crazy scheme I can plot that will change it.”

Jason sighed and drew his friend into his arms. “I know, Carly. I hate to think of him being in there, too. But he’ll be out on Monday. And he’ll be acquitted. It’ll be okay. I promise. I would never let him go to jail.”

She nodded and sniffled against his chest. “I know you wouldn’t. You’ve never failed us.”

Courtney sighed and crossed her arms, rubbing them absently. “You know…I wonder who really pushed Elizabeth,” she said suddenly.

Jason’s cell rang then and he extricated himself from Carly’s arms to answer it. “Yeah?”

“It’s me,” Johnny said. “We might have a situation.”

Jason frowned. “What? What’s wrong?”

“Elizabeth left her apartment about an hour and half ago. She was upset and she went to Kelly’s. I followed her up to Lucky Spencer’s room and then went downstairs to wait for her. She finally came down with him about ten minutes ago and she left. But instead of heading back to her place, she went to the park and she’s been sitting there since.”

“Any idea what’s wrong?” Jason asked, rubbing the back of his neck.

“Not a clue. But Lansing is still at home, so I assume she had a fight with him. I wasn’t sure if I should call, but just to be on the safe side. Do you want me to just keep an eye on her at the park, try to talk to her?”

Jason hesitated and thought about how relieved Carly looked when she talked about Elizabeth’s effect on Sonny. “I’m going to call someone who’ll come and take care of it. Keep an eye on both of them and call in if anything changes.”

“Will do.”

Jason hung up and looked at the curious eyes of his fiancée and best friend. He sighed. “Sonny’s got Johnny on Elizabeth. He was concerned that if he didn’t do it, that whoever had would come back and finish the job.”

Carly nodded. “It was good of him to do that,” she said. “So what was wrong? Is she okay?”

“Johnny’s just worried. Elizabeth was upset when she left her apartment and it looks like she’s stalling on going back,” Jason answered. He picked up the penthouse phone and started dialing. “I’m going to call Emily to go check on her.”

Courtney nodded. “Yeah, that’s probably for the best.” She was minimally relieved that Jason hadn’t taken upon himself to go check on the brunette. Elizabeth was married now and Jason was engaged to her. There was no reason for the two of them to be in each other’s sphere.

“Em? It’s me. Listen, if you’re not busy…” Jason hesitated. “Look, I’ve got a guard on Elizabeth after her fall. Just to be careful. And Johnny thinks something is wrong. She’s been sitting at the park for ten minutes and before that, she spent an hour with Lucky after she left her apartment all upset. I’d appreciate it if you could go check on her–but don’t tell her I sent you or that Johnny is there…is that okay?” When his sister answered in the affirmative, he said his thanks and hung up.

“You’re doing the right thing,” Carly assured him. “Besides, even if you went to check on her yourself, she wouldn’t talk to you. She’ll talk to Emily.”

Jason eyed her curiously. “Since when did you become the authority on Elizabeth?”

Carly flushed. “Look. We came to an understanding…and she’s doing everything she can to convince everyone Sonny’s innocent. I can’t be civil to her in return?” When his gaze didn’t stop being skeptical, she growled. “Hormones, okay? How’s that? Pregnancy hormones. You don’t like the actual explanation, let’s go for the easy one.”

Park

Elizabeth sighed, hearing footsteps coming closer to the bench she was sitting on. She looked up to see Emily approaching. “Emily. Hi.”

Emily smiled in return. “Hey, how are you feeling?”

She shrugged. “I’m okay. How are you? How’s the chemo going?” Elizabeth asked weakly.

Emily sighed and sat next to her friend. Jason’s call had mystified her–it was the first time she’d heard her brother speak about Elizabeth since she’d been back but she’d been worried about Elizabeth since she’d heard about the accident. “It’s going well, I guess. We won’t know any results for a while. Listen, I’m so sorry I haven’t visited you or called–”

“I haven’t either, Emily,” Elizabeth interjected. “We’ve both been so caught in our respective dramatic lives that we’ve barely sat down and talked since you’ve been home. I want…I want that to change.”

“I do, too,” Emily agreed. “So, how’s Ric?” she asked weakly.

“Ric…Ric is…” Elizabeth hesitated. “He’s angry,” she said finally. “He’s angry with the world, but he’s mostly angry with Sonny. No matter how much I try to tell him that Sonny couldn’t have pushed me, he’s determined to blame it on him. I think he’s just turning this into another reason to get revenge on him.”

“Are you arguing a lot or something?” Emily pressed. “Is everything okay?”

“We had a bad fight today,” Elizabeth admitted. “He wanted me to consider the possibility that Sonny did push me and I just…I can’t. Because I know he didn’t. I was so furious that he’d use our child…our baby…as a way to get at Sonny…and he…” Elizabeth sucked in a deep breath and closed her eyes. “He said that it wasn’t a child, it was fetus. And that it was gone.”

“Asshole,” Emily muttered. She sighed. “Elizabeth, he was angry and maybe he didn’t mean it the way it came out. Do you love him?”

“Of course,” Elizabeth said immediately.

“Do you want this marriage to work?” Emily asked. “Or was this a marriage of convenience?”

“No!” Elizabeth denied quickly. “I love him. I…I wanted to marry him.”

“You’ve only been dating since January,” Emily reminded her friend, sensing her weakness and vulnerability. “You and Lucky dated practically forever before you decided to get married and look how that turned out.”

“Lucky and Ric are completely different,” Elizabeth said quickly. “And…I know it’s only been five months since we started dating and only seven since we met…but why does it have to matter? What does time have to do with anything?”

“Normally, I’d say nothing,” Emily replied. “Sometimes, you just know. But you’ve even admitted that Ric spent a lot of those five months lying to you.”

“But not about how he feels!” Elizabeth replied, desperately. “He’s always been honest about that.”

“And that’s very admirable,” Emily told her. “I know how much you needed that. But if he’s not honest about everything else, how you can you learn to trust him?”

Elizabeth hesitated and looked towards the sky. “I’ve spent so much time being scared, Em,” she whispered. “I’m tired of being scared and running. Ric…he loves me. I know that. And I love him. And even though getting married so quickly might have been a mistake and even though I can’t always trust him…I can’t run from him.”

“Sometimes we love people…and we want it to work out…but Elizabeth, love isn’t enough. It can’t be. Not for the long run,” Emily advised. “You have to trust the person. You have to know them. You have the most passionate and vibrant love…but if you don’t have trust, it will fizzle and you will be left with nothing.”

“I know you’re right,” Elizabeth sighed. She looked at the ground. “Trust–it is important. And without it, a relationship will never last. But I can’t just give up the first time we have a fight.”

“No, you can’t,” Emily admitted. “But you need to learn when to give up. I just hope your marriage never comes to it.”

“Yeah, me too.” Elizabeth took a deep breath and looked at her friend. “What about you? Have you told Zander?”

“No,” Emily confessed. “I’ve tried so many times but I think…no, I know he’ll be better off without me.”

“That’s not your choice to make,” Elizabeth told her. “You should never make that decision for someone else. Zander loves you, Emily. He’s never loved anyone else like he loves you. Pushing him away and concocting elaborate schemes isn’t going to make it go away.”

“It will if he hates me,” Emily told her. “And he will when I’m done with him.”

Elizabeth regarded her suspiciously. “Do I want to ask?”

“You can ask, but I’m not telling,” Emily said. She stood. “Come on. I’ll walk you home.”

“I’ll get it out of you,” Elizabeth promised as the two headed towards the entrance.

“Yeah, okay.”

“You’re a rotten liar,” Elizabeth reminded her. “I know how to work you.”

“Things have changed, doll, things have changed,” Emily laughed. Elizabeth managed smile.

Johnny stepped out from behind a set of bushes and started to follow, pulling his phone out.

“Morgan.”

“It’s me. Emily showed up and they talked for a while. Whatever your sister said, it worked. She left and she looked a little better. I’m following her now.”

“Thanks, Johnny. Keep me posted, okay? And if Faith Roscoe takes one step near that building, I want you to stop her, is that understood?”

“Understood.”

Courtyard

Lucky managed a smirk as his cousin took his order. “Never thought I’d see you working here.”

Lucas shrugged. “It’s an easy job and I get to see my friends a lot. Personally, Georgie got the better summer job.”

“Oh, yeah?” Lucky asked as Lucas set his soda down. “Where’s she at?”

“Dillon Quartermaine was doing something over at the courthouse–probably at one of the Quartermaine’s latest hearings about Kristina–he overheard some lawyer complaining she had no assistant. He knew Georgie was looking for a job and told her.”

“Well, that was cool of him. I haven’t really gotten a chance to talk to him,” Lucky said, “but he seems okay.”

“He’s a jackass,” Lucas muttered. “He’s only trying to impress Georgie. He’s got this thing for her.”

“So, who’s the lawyer?” Lucky asked curiously. “Anyone I’ve heard of?”

“Actually, yeah. Probably. Robyn Nichols, the chick defending Sonny Corinthos in that assault case against your friend Elizabeth. Normally, I’d be worried about her being involved with a mob lawyer,” Lucas said, “but this isn’t exactly a mob case.”

“No, it’s not,” Lucky replied. “Listen, I’m heading up after I eat. If Elizabeth comes back in, looking for me, just send her up, okay?”

“Sure. Is she okay?” Lucas asked.

“She’s fine. Just having some problems,” Lucky replied. “Thanks, man.”

“No problem.”

Robyn Nichols’s Office

It was late morning the next day and Robyn was up to her ears in legal precedents for Sonny’s bail hearing. She already had her new assistant alphabetizing those cases as well as ones she planned on using at the trial. She intended on impressing Sonny Corinthos and Jason Morgan with her performance in hopes they’d hire her permanently. Right now, it was on a trial basis.

She wasn’t thrilled with Courtney Matthews and sometimes Carly Corinthos could get a little grating, but Robyn was willing to deal with it for the kind of paycheck the job offered.

“Here’s the next set you wanted, Ms. Nichols,” Georgie Jones chirped helpfully. “You’ve also got a message from Commissioner Scorpio. He needs to meet with you about his testimony.”

Robyn managed an amused smile. “Georgie, first of all, it’s Robyn. And secondly, you don’t need to be so formal. I’m well aware that the commissioner is your father. You’re doing fine. I’ll need the next set in a few hours, okay?”

“Okay,” Georgie replied, leaving the office and disappearing behind the temporary desk she’d set up. Georgie was a little young for the job, but Robyn had received a personal call from Edward Quartermaine, requesting a personal favor. She’d been flattered and offered Georgie the job on the spot.

She’d get Sonny Corinthos acquitted if it killed her.

This entry is part 5 of 15 in the Intoxication

Port Charles Courthouse

It almost seemed like a stand-off, Robyn Nichols mused, as she perched on the wooden bench outside of the grand jury room. Inside, District Attorney Scott Baldwin was just beginning his case and he hadn’t called any of his witnesses yet.

Across the hall from her, sitting on an identical bench was the victim, Elizabeth Lansing. She was dressed conservatively in a pair of black cotton pants and a white silk blouse. Her dark hair was loose around her shoulders, but styled straight. She wore no make up and her only jewelry were her engagement and wedding rings. It was the first time Robyn had laid eyes on the former close friend of her clients and it made her wonder what Elizabeth Lansing could have ever had in common with two men whose taste in women ran to Carly and Courtney.

Her husband, in a silk Armani suit, sat next to her, one of her hands enveloped in both of his. They were talking in low whispers but were very intent on their conversation.

Mac Scorpio was standing a few feet away, leaning against the wall, the case folder in his hand. He was troubled and rethinking his decision to go along with Scott Baldwin’s plan.

Robyn was seated next to an irate Carly Corinthos and her vacuous sister-in-law Courtney Matthews. Carly was still going on and on about Sonny being stuck in jail while every word out of the second blonde’s mouth was about her upcoming wedding.

The groom in question was standing to the right of his fiancée, leaning against the wall. Every once in a while, Jason would glance at Elizabeth before looking at the end of the hallway where Johnny, Max and Marco were standing. To anyone who didn’t know any better, they’d think each of them had a guard. Elizabeth wouldn’t suspect that Johnny was there guarding her and that’s the way Jason preferred it.

Just because they were no longer close and not friends, it didn’t mean he didn’t care about what happened to her. He was deeply sorry she’d miscarried her child and found himself wondering–not for the first time–why she was married to Ric Lansing anyway. Did he have something on her? Was he blackmailing her?

The door opened then with a slight squeak that shattered the tension-filled silence. A uniformed man stepped out, the bailiff Robyn decided. He cleared his throat. “Uh, Commissioner Scorpio, they’re ready for you.”

Mac nodded and he paused in front of Elizabeth and Ric. “No matter what happens here today,” he told the couple, “I won’t stop looking for the person who really did it.”

Elizabeth nodded. “I know you won’t, Commissioner.”

He nodded and stepped inside the courtroom.

Elizabeth shifted in her seat and sighed a little. Ric frowned. “Do you need something?” he asked, for once his voice carrying to the other side of the hallway. “Coffee? Tea?”

She shook her head. “No. I just…I want this over with.”

“Well, if you hadn’t accused Sonny,” Courtney muttered, shooting the brunette a nasty look.

“Courtney,” Carly admonished quietly. “You know that’s not true.”

“Well, why else was Sonny arrested?” Courtney demanded. “They have no evidence against him. All they have is her word that she was pushed. That’s as good as accusing him.”

Elizabeth sighed and shook her head. “Courtney, this isn’t what I wanted. I think that they’re wasting their time trying to prosecute Sonny. We all know he didn’t do it. And all I want is the person who did brought to justice.”

Courtney rolled her eyes. “You’re so perfect aren’t you?” she snarled, her voice dripping with sarcasm. “You think you have the perfect life now that Ric has decided he’d rather be with you than destroy my brother. Well, I’ve got news for you–it’s not. Because Sonny hates Ric and–”

“Courtney,” Jason cut in quietly. She looked up at him and he shook his head. “Stop it. This isn’t the time or the place.”

Ric glared at the younger man. “Well, it’s good to know where you stand on this,” he snapped. “You can let your little twit of a girlfriend shoot her mouth off to Elizabeth, spouting lies but all you’ll tell her is that this isn’t the time–”

“Ric,” Elizabeth interrupted. She sighed. “Please don’t fight. Courtney and Jason are going to believe what they want to believe. Arguing is only going to make it worse.”

“That’s so self-sacrificing of you,” Courtney retorted. “Aren’t you the little angel?”

“Courtney please!”

Courtney looked at her sister-in-law. “Carly, I–”

“Elizabeth didn’t accuse Sonny. She’s even made a statement to the police stating that he didn’t do it. So just stop blaming her already. Don’t use this tragedy to further your dislike of her.” Carly’s eyes flicked to Ric. “And don’t you use this to get at Sonny. What happened was horrible and we’re all sorry. But it’s ridiculous to keep on with all this fighting.”

Elizabeth nodded. “Carly’s right.” She stood. “I’m going to get some air. Come get me when they need me to testify?” she asked Ric.

“Sure,” Ric said. He stood. “I’ll come with you if you want,” he offered.

Elizabeth shook her head. “No. I’ll be fine.”

She slipped her purse over her shoulder and headed towards the elevators. When she had slipped inside, Jason met Johnny’s eyes from the other end of the hall and tipped his head towards the bank of elevators. Johnny nodded and went towards the stairs.

After a few moments, Robyn shook her head. “You’re all a bunch of idiots,” she muttered under her breath.

Carly, being seated next to her, glared at her but said nothing.

PC Courthouse: Court Steps

Elizabeth took a deep breath and closed her eyes. She’d needed to get away from the scene as quickly as possible. Sitting in the small space, across from Courtney, Carly and Jason was almost suffocating. She’d felt so guilty for being there with her husband–and she felt stupid for being guilty. She loved Ric. She was glad she’d married him.

She didn’t have to answer to anyone–not to Jason, Sonny, Courtney or Carly–about her reasons for marrying him. None of them knew her–they couldn’t possibly understand why she loved him.

Hell, she didn’t even understand it.

Lucky had offered to be with her today, but she turned him down. It would have been uncomfortable enough at the courthouse with the resident mobster, the blondes, and her husband. She didn’t need to toss in the ex-fiancé.

She sat down on the steps and dragged a hand through hair. She loathed the idea of going into a court room, knowing that Scott Baldwin was going to use this opportunity to finally get Sonny where he wanted him.

“Hey, Mrs. Lansing.”

Elizabeth looked up and smiled. “Johnny. Long time no see.”

Johnny shrugged and sat beside her. “I’m here with the wife,” he told her. “Saw you leave and wanted check on you.”

She nodded. “I’m fine.”

“Yeah, you always are, aren’t you?” Johnny replied. “I also wanted a chance to tell you I was sorry.”

“Thanks,” Elizabeth said. She sighed. “I have a bad feeling, Johnny.”

“Why’s that, Mrs. Lansing?” Johnny asked.

She shook her head and stood. “I just don’t think this is going to go away. I’d better get inside.”

“I’ll walk back with you.”

Court Room

“And did Mrs. Lansing tell you that she did not see Mr. Corinthos leave the plaza?” Scott questioned.

Mac glared at the DA, realizing that Scott had no intention of doing the right thing. “No, Mrs. Lansing remembers walking away first.”

“Which is when she was pushed,” Scott finished.

“Yes,” Mac replied. “Mrs. Lansing doesn’t remember anyone else being present and Mr. Corinthos didn’t see anyone on his way out.”

“Now, did you find any evidence that anyone other than Elizabeth Lansing and Sonny Corinthos were at that location that night?” Scott pressed.

Mac sighed. “No we did not.”

“And is there any evidence that proves Sonny Corinthos did not push Elizabeth Lansing down those stairs, seriously injuring her and causing a miscarriage?”

“No, there is no evidence that shows that, but the victim herself states–”

“Thank you, Commissioner,” Scott cut in quickly. He looked at the judge. “That’s all for this witness and I’m finished presenting my case.

Mac gaped at Scott. “You’re supposed to call Elizabeth.”

“I changed my mind,” Scott protested. “I don’t see the need in forcing her to relive that awful night.”

“That’ll be all then,” the judge declared. “You may step down, Commissioner Scorpio.”

Hallway

Mac stepped outside the room and Elizabeth stood. “Do they need me?” she asked.

Mac shook his head. “Ah, no. Scott…he’s not calling you. At all.”

Elizabeth frowned. “But…I’m supposed to tell the jury that I don’t think Sonny did it. I thought that was what we discussed. Sonny’s…he’s not supposed to be charged.”

Carly launched to her feet. “What the hell is going on?”

Robyn slowly stood and sighed. “Can we expect an indictment, Commissioner?” she asked.

Mac nodded. “Yeah. I don’t doubt the jury is going to vote on it. I tried to work in your statement, Elizabeth. But he cut me off.”

Elizabeth closed her eyes. “That doesn’t surprise me.”

“Because this is exactly what you wanted!” Courtney seethed as she stood. She advanced on the other woman. “You’re in on this whole thing with Ric, aren’t you? This is just another part of the plan!”

Elizabeth sighed and shook her head. “No, Courtney.”

Jason tugged on Courtney’s arm. “Calm down. He’s not going to be convicted.”

“It doesn’t matter!” Courtney retorted angrily. She yanked her arm out of Jason’s grasp. “He’s still going to trial for a crime that probably didn’t even happen.”

Elizabeth frowned. “Excuse me?”

“You heard me,” Courtney replied. Her eyes narrowed. “We’ve only got your word for it that you were pushed. How do we know you didn’t trip and fall?”

Elizabeth’s eyes filled with tears. “You think I’d use the death of my own baby to get at Sonny?” she asked softly. “You don’t think very much of me do you?”

Courtney faltered then and hesitated. “I…”

Elizabeth turned to Ric. “I want to go home, now. Can we just go?”

Ric nodded and put an arm around his wife’s waist, leading her towards the elevator. He pressed the button and they stepped inside.

Once they were gone, Carly turned to her sister-in-law. “I cannot believe you said that to her.”

Courtney sighed. “Look, I was upset. I went too far–”

“You’re damn right you did,” Carly snapped. “God, Courtney, losing a child is one of the worst things a woman can go through and you just threw it in her face. Grow up.”

Courtney glared at her friend and stalked down the hallway towards the stairs.

“You need to control her,” Carly warned Jason. “She can’t be going around, attacking people like that. It’s not right.”

Jason nodded. “Yeah. You’re right.” He sighed and followed Courtney.

Robyn smirked. “You know what?”

Carly sighed and turned to the lawyer. “Yeah?”

“That’s the most intelligent thing you’ve said all day.” She picked her briefcase up from the floor. “I’ll hang around and wait for the actual indictment, but you can go home if you want. Once I get it, I’ll head over to my office and do a brief to get a bail hearing.” She patted Carly’s shoulder. “Don’t worry. It’ll be okay.”

Lansing Apartment

Elizabeth tossed the purse on the couch and stalked over to the window. “This is unacceptable,” she declared.

Ric remained silent, removing his suit jacket and carefully set it on the back of the desk chair. He loosened his tie and started to untie it.

“He didn’t do this,” Elizabeth continued. She yanked the curtains back and stared over the Port Charles park. It was almost ironic that she lived with a view of the fountain, she mused. The rape victim with a park view. Who would have thought?

“Elizabeth, I know that you want to believe that,” Ric began finally, “but the truth is, we don’t know that. We don’t know who pushed you and it could have easily been Sonny.”

“It easily could have been Faith Roscoe!” Elizabeth retorted whirling to face him. “Remember her? Your little psycho one-night stand?”

Ric exhaled slowly. “I won’t deny that Faith is capable of this, but–”

“And Sonny isn’t,” Elizabeth snapped. She crossed the room to the kitchen and disappeared inside. After a moment he followed her and watched as she made herself a cup of hot chocolate. “He may be your brother, but I’ve know him for years. God, I snuck into his wedding to Brenda Barrett. My boyfriend was thought to have died because he slept in a building connected to Sonny.” She glared at her husband. “Sonny may be your blood, but I’m the one who knows him.”

“Fine. Then believe Sonny is perfect. Believe he can do no wrong,” Ric replied angrily.

“I’m not an idiot,” Elizabeth countered. “I know who he is, what he does. I’ve always known. But I know that he didn’t do this.”

“The fact is you don’t want to him to have done this,” Ric told her. “You don’t want it to have been him, so in your mind, there’s no chance that it was. You won’t even consider the possibility–”

“Don’t you dare use this as a reason to renew your stupid revenge against Sonny!” Elizabeth cried, finally voice the fear that had been wracking her since the miscarriage. “Don’t you use our child as a reason to destroy him!”

“We don’t have a child, Elizabeth!” Ric yelled back. “We had a fetus and it’s gone now!”

She choked out a sob and pushed past him and by the time he’d gotten to the door, she was already on the elevator and gone.

Lucky’s Room

Lucky pulled the door open, stopping the pounding against the cheap wood. He found Elizabeth on his doorstep, silent tears streaking down her face and violently trembling.

“I…” She shook her head and tried again. “I didn’t have anywhere else to go,” she said softly.

Lucky reached for her and drew her shaking body into his arms. “It’s okay,” he murmured in her ear. He closed the door behind her and shook his head. “It’s okay, Elizabeth. You can always come to me.”

Then…and only then…did Elizabeth break down and sob.

This entry is part 4 of 15 in the Intoxication

Lansing Apartment

Elizabeth was curled up on the couch, reading a magazine when Ric came home late that afternoon. He tried not to look at the plush teddy bear still perched on the mantel of the fireplace. He’d tried to take it down when he’d first come home from the hospital, but he’d found himself unable to do so.

Elizabeth had touched it once when she’d come home. She’d picked it up, stared at it for a moment and then set it back in its place. It seemed neither of them were quite ready to give up the fantasy of their own family.

He’d been avoiding her–he knew it, and he knew that she knew it. Ever since the horrible day in the hospital when she’d looked up at him with those beautiful trusting eyes and asked him why he’d made Carly believe they’d slept together.

He couldn’t answer her and he found that it was hard to look at her now. She had a right to know why someone she’d been dating had pretended to sleep with someone else and she had even more of a right to know why her husband had done it.

He’d spent the last week or so searching for the answer, an answer that she’d accept and understand. An answer so that they’d be able to put it behind them and move on.

He hadn’t found that magical answer yet, but he was tired of avoiding her. So he was going to tell her the truth.

Elizabeth looked up at him from her position on the couch. She was facing the door–almost as if she was waiting for him to come home. She closed the magazine she’d been reading and set it on the table. “Mac Scorpio was by,” she told him. “You didn’t tell me he’d called.”

Ric nodded and sat gingerly on the other end of the couch. “I know. I’m sorry. I didn’t want to be here when he came by.”

‘Why not?” Elizabeth asked softly, hurt. “It didn’t occur to you that maybe I’d need you here?”

He exhaled slowly. “I was wrong not to be here and I admit that. I know that he arrested Sonny after he left here–I heard about it on the radio while I was driving home. But I should have been here for you.”

“What’s going on?” Elizabeth asked. “You’re never home, don’t think I don’t know that you’ve been avoiding me. Why?”

“Because I don’t know what to say to you,” Ric admitted. “You asked me to tell you why I made Carly believe we’d slept together and I didn’t answer you. The truth is, Elizabeth, that the only answer I have is not good enough for you. It won’t make you forgive me and you probably won’t accept it. And all I’ve been trying to do this last week is find an answer that’s good enough.”

She sighed and drew her knees up, wrapping her arms around them. “I don’t need an answer like that. How am I supposed to know you, supposed to trust you…if you’re constantly searching for some way to explain the truth away. I don’t need to be coddled or protected…all I want is the truth.”

“The truth is that I wanted leverage on Sonny,” Ric said quietly. “He didn’t trust me, he didn’t want to let me near him. Nothing I’d done up to that point had worked. I saw Carly at Jake’s. She was drunk…and I could tell she was close to passing out. I took her to the motel room and the idea…the idea just occurred to me.”

“You wanted to get close to Sonny so that you could destroy him,” Elizabeth said slowly. “Why?”

“We’re half-brothers,” Ric said unnecessarily. “We share the same mother. When our mother was pregnant with me, she and Sonny and my father were staying at the house on Martha’s Vineyard. He pushed her down the stairs and she nearly died. She nearly lost me. My father told her that he couldn’t be around Sonny–that he was dangerous. He wanted her to give him up and she wouldn’t. She chose him–over me.”

Elizabeth sighed and slid closer to him, wrapping her arms around his neck. “He was just a little boy,” she said softly. She used one of her hands to stroke his hair. He turned and pressed his face into her neck. “He was a little boy and it wasn’t his choice to make Adela choose. It was your father’s. I can’t imagine any mother who would turn their child over for adoption.”

“But she didn’t even think twice about giving me up,” Ric said in a strained voice. Elizabeth closed her eyes and drew him closer.

“She was in love with your father, right?” she asked. When she felt him nod, she continued. “She knew that your father would love you. That he would take care of you. That you would not be hurt. How could she know any of those things about the family that would adopt Sonny?”

His arms hesitantly reached for her. They slipped around her waist and tugged her closer to him. “I guess she didn’t.”

“She made the only choice she could have…the only choice that would ensure both her sons would be loved. And I’m sure she missed you every day of her life,” Elizabeth assured him. “I can’t imagine any mother who’d make a choice like that and not miss her child.”

“But he ran away…he let her die…”

“And I don’t think a day goes by that Sonny doesn’t regret that,” Elizabeth replied. “He’s so controlling, so fiercely protective of his family. He’s trying to compensate for failing your mother. And I’m sure in his mind, he’ll never measure up to it. He’ll never be able to make peace.”

Her fingers were still combing through his hair and she exhaled slowly, sighing in relief, when she felt warm tears on the soft skin of her neck. “It’s okay,” she murmured. “It’s okay.”

Jason’s Penthouse

Carly shook her head. “This is unacceptable,” she snarled at the lawyer Jason had hired for Sonny.

“I’m sorry, Mrs. Corinthos,” Robyn Nichols apologized. “But I can’t argue with the judge’s reasoning. Like it or not, your husband is a flight risk and you managed to come up against one of the few judges in the area that isn’t impressed by the name Corinthos.”

“Sonny cannot stay in jail all night!” Carly declared. She looked at Jason. “We have to do something–he can’t sit in that cell, you know that.”

Jason exhaled slowly and looked towards the redhead again. “What about the charges? Can you get them dropped?”

“I’m inclined to wait until the grand jury hearing on Friday,” Robyn told him. “If the statements are right and Mrs. Lansing testifies the way we expect her to, Mr. Corinthos will not be indicted and this will go away.”

“And what if Scott Baldwin doesn’t give her an opening?” Carly challenged. “What if Sonny is indicted and forced to go to trial?”

“Then I’ll reopen the bail issue,” Robyn said coolly. She was not impressed with Carly’s hysterics nor intimidated by Jason’s blank stare. She had only been recently retained by the reputed mobsters and this was her first chance to show her skills. The best kind of lawyer for people like them was someone who wasn’t scared of them–and could play on their field. “Mr. Corinthos will surrender his passport and we’ll make some sort of arrangement. I’m sure the only reason bail was denied was because of his name. Assault defendants usually aren’t held without bail.”

“I just can’t stand the idea of Sonny locked up all night in a tiny little cell,” Carly whimpered. “I want this to go away.”

Jason put a hand on the small of his friend’s back and directed her towards the door. “Carly, just let me handle this.” He looked at Courtney. “Courtney, take her across the hall. Make sure she eats. Check on Michael, okay?”

“Okay,” Courtney said. She wrapped an arm around her sister-in-law’s shoulders and they left the penthouse.

Jason eyed their lawyer. “What are Sonny’s chances of being indicted?”

“It all depends on Scott Baldwin’s questions and Elizabeth Lansing’s testimony,” Robyn replied immediately. “Mr. Corinthos is the only witness, he has a known grudge against Mr. Lansing. They both admit they were arguing. There’s no evidence that says he did it, but there’s no evidence that says he didn’t. If Mrs. Lansing gets the chance to tell the grand jury she doesn’t believe he did it, then I don’t think he’ll be indicted. Juries aren’t quick to indict someone the victim doesn’t believe committed the crime. If Scott Baldwin doesn’t give her that chance, he will be indicted.”

“And if he’s indicted?” Jason questioned.

“He’ll go to trial,” Robyn told him. “He won’t be convicted because then I’ll have the chance to present a defense. I’ll be able to cross-examine Mrs. Lansing, present different theories of the case. I’m positive, Mr. Morgan, that Mr. Corinthos will not be convicted for this.”

“All right,” Jason replied. “Then we’ll see you on Thursday.”

“You won’t be allowed in the courtroom,” Robyn said as she picked up her briefcase and headed for the door. “Neither will I. We’ll be waiting outside to find out.”

“I understand,” Jason replied. “Thank you.”

She nodded and left.

PCPD

Georgie Jones knocked on Mac’s open office door, a large paper bag in her hands. “Hey, Dad,” she greeted.

He smiled and motioned for her to come in. “Georgie, what brings you by?”

She set the bag in front of him. “Making sure you eat dinner,” she reported. “You’ve been late so often this week. Maxie and I are worried about you.”

He opened the bag and removed the wrapped plate of hot dogs, beans and French fries. “Maxie?”

“It was her turn to cook,” Georgie offered. “There’s a can of soda and some ketchup, mustard and fork in there.”

He nodded and started unwrapping everything. “How did you get here? Lucas?”

She shook her head. “No. Dillon drove me. He’s waiting outside and then we’re going to the movies.”

Mac glanced up. “It’s nine.”

Georgie sighed. “Dad…it’s just Dillon. I’ll be home by midnight, I promise. He’s just really excited about this new film that’s opening. It’s the old theater on Van Ness that shows a bunch of old movies and he’s been waiting for Some Like It Hot to open for the past month.”

“He’s really into all these old movies, huh?” Mac asked, opening the can of cola. “Well, I suppose with taste like that, he can’t be that bad.”

“He’s not,” Georgie replied. “He’s really great. I know if you got more of a chance to get to know him, you’d love him.”

“I thought you were interested in Lucas,” Mac said.

She sighed. “I was. But after I had an absolutely boring time at the prom, I gave up on that. Besides, Dillon’s just a friend.”

He nodded. “Okay. If you say so.”

Georgie hesitated. “So…why are you here so late all the time?” she asked.

“Georgie…”

“Come on, Dad,” Georgie protested. “I can tell it bothers you. You’re so tense now and distracted. It’ll help to talk about it, I promise.”

“You’ve heard about Sonny Corinthos’s latest arrest?” Mac questioned. She nodded. “Well, I don’t think he’s guilty of what we’re charging him with.”

Georgie frowned. “Then why did you arrest him?” she asked.

“Because we needed to save face,” Mac admitted bitterly. “Because I need to save my job.”

“And the fact that you’re charging an innocent person bothers you doesn’t it?” Georgie asked. “Because you don’t believe you’re doing the right thing.”

“I’m doing the right thing for me, for my family,” Mac replied. “But no, on the large scale of justice, I’m not doing the right thing.”

“If he’s not guilty,” Georgie said slowly, “then I’m sure it’ll work out. I mean, the system is designed to set innocent people free, right?”

He had to smile at her innocence. His sweet little girl had grown up so fast–already dating boys–dating Quartermaine boys, much to his chagrin. She seemed so mature, so much older than her sister, that at times Mac would forget she was only fifteen.

“Right,” he replied. “I’m sure it’ll work out. You should go…don’t want to keep Dillon waiting.”

She stood and leaned across the desk to kiss him on the cheek. “Don’t worry, Dad. Even if you’re not doing the right thing right now, you will in the end.”

Port Charles County Jail

Carly clutched at Sonny’s hand from the other side of the table in the visitor’s room of the jail. It was the first time Sonny had gone to the county jail–he’d never been denied bail before so he’d never really gone further than the PCPD lock up.

His eyes were sunken and red, his face ashen and drawn. He hadn’t slept the night before–every time he’d tried; he’d seen the inside of the closet from his youth. He’d been unable to breathe at alternate times that night. He’d tried to pace the room, tried to remind himself that the cell was not as small as the closet was and that he was no longer nine years old being held in a small closet by his stepfather.

But the pacing had just reminded him that cell was small–that he had no way to escape–that he couldn’t leave at any time.

“The lawyer said that after tomorrow, this should be all over,” Carly told Sonny for the fifth time. “You’ll come home and we’ll…we’ll go to the island where the beach is nice and it’s open and air is fresh. I promise Sonny.”

Sonny nodded absently. “Yeah.”

“Even if you are indicted, she’ll get the bail issue reopened. She promised, Sonny. And–and Elizabeth will tell everyone that you’re innocent, that she knows you’re innocent. I know she will.”

“Carly,” Sonny said softly. “Go home. This place…it isn’t healthy for you.”

She shook her head fiercely. “No. I’m not leaving here.”

“Carly. Go. I…” He took a deep breath. He had to be strong–he had to show her that he was strong. That he could take a few nights in a jail cell as long as he knew his family was safe. “I’m okay. I promise. Go home.”

She was still shaking her head. “I am not leaving you. I am going to stay until they kick me out.”

“I will feel better if you go home,” Sonny told her. “I will be okay if I know you are at home, with Michael, taking care of yourself and our child. Please, Carly.”

Her voice was thick. “God, Sonny, I hate to think of you here, for a crime that you didn’t commit. They’re railroading you, Sonny. And I can’t sleep knowing you’re here. I can barely breathe. Sonny–”

“Go home, Carly. I will be okay,” Sonny said, even though he knew he wouldn’t he. He needed to show her that he was strong. He’d be okay if she thought he was strong.

“But–”

“Go home,” Sonny repeated again. “Please.”

Finally, she nodded in agreement. She stood and kissed him softly. He could feel her tears against his skin. She left the room.

Sonny was waiting for the guard to take him back to his cell when he realized that someone else was making their way through the room. She was weaving in and out of the other tables full of inmates speaking with their lawyers, their families, their girlfriends.

Elizabeth Lansing sat across from him and sighed. “I’m so sorry,” she apologized quietly.

He nodded. “I know you are.”

“I never once accused you,” she told him. “Even when I knew that’s what they wanted me to do…I can’t imagine ever accusing you of this horrible thing. I’m sorry, Sonny.”

“Elizabeth…I know you are,” Sonny said quietly. “But…I…I don’t really remember what happened and you don’t know who pushed you.”

Elizabeth stared at him for a moment. Her face was confused and she tilted her head to the side. “You think…you think that you could have, don’t you?” she asked softly.

Sonny shrugged a little and looked away.

“Oh, God…” she shook her head. “No, Sonny. I know you didn’t do it.”

“How?” he demanded. “How can you know?”

“I can feel it in here,” Elizabeth replied, pressing a hand to her heart. “I know you, Sonny. I pretend that I don’t, I pretend that we don’t know anything about each other. But I know you. I remember the night you and Carly lost your baby. I saw you…you would never hurt anyone that way–you would never push a defenseless woman down a flight of stone steps, much less a pregnant woman.” Her eyes filled with tears. “Sonny, you didn’t touch me. You walked away. I know you did. You didn’t do this.”

Some tension left his shoulders and he slumped a little. He closed his eyes. “Thank you.”

“Do you believe me?” Elizabeth asked intently. “Do you?”

“I…I believe you.” He raised his eyes. “I know that I yelled at you that night. I said things that I didn’t mean. You matter to me, Elizabeth. You’ve always been there when it counted and I can’t…I can’t fault you because you’ve chosen to believe there’s more to Ric Lansing than he’s shown the rest of us.”

“There is,” Elizabeth told him. “I know you hate him, but he’s screwed up. He’s screwed up from his father telling him that it was your fault Ric never had a real mother and believe me, Ric knows more than anyone else that he’s screwed up. But he doesn’t want to be like that anymore. He wants to build a life for himself that doesn’t include hating you and wanting revenge.”

He nodded. “I remember how much you used to fight for Jason and how loyal you’ve always been to the people you love. I hope…I hope your faith in Ric is justified and he makes you happy.”

“I will make sure you’re out of here,” Elizabeth promised him. “You didn’t do this. And you don’t deserve to be here.”

This entry is part 3 of 15 in the Intoxication

PCPD

Scott Baldwin scowled. “Why wasn’t I informed that there was a case pending against Sonny Corinthos?” he demanded.

Mac barely glanced up from his computer as he typed Elizabeth’s statement up. “Because Sonny is not a suspect.”

“The hell he isn’t!” Scott declared. “He was the only person there, Elizabeth Lansing can’t remember if he walked away first, he’s got a known grudge against her husband–”

“Since when does Corinthos push defenseless women down the stairs?” Mac snapped. He pushed away from his desk and stood. “I know he’s the prime suspect! But I don’t think he did it!”

“Who the cares what you think? The evidence shows different!” Scott yelled.

“There is no evidence! Circumstantial evidence, maybe–”

“You either do the right thing or I’ll take this case from you,” Scott threatened. “And I can do it, you know that.”

“Don’t you presume to lecture me on what’s right!” Mac retorted. “I’m not the one that bungled Alcazar’s murder trial!”

“We finally have the chance to put Sonny Corinthos away and you don’t seem to give a damn!”

Mac sighed and looked down, bracing his hands on the desk. “I understand that you’re angry about what happened to Karen. I’m angry that Maxie got a hold of drugs too. But it’s been a decade, Scott. Sonny doesn’t run drugs, he doesn’t do prostitution.”

“And that makes him okay?” Scott demanded. “And that just negates what he did to my daughter?”

“No, of course not, but you can’t go around as DA with a vendetta against Sonny because of that! You’ll be reported to the Ethics Committee! You could lose your license. Damn it, you’re a good lawyer when you don’t let yourself get carried away.”

Scott sighed and drug his hand through his hair. “Look, I’m just saying that we need to save face. The papers have gotten a hold of this now and they’re demanding his arrest. All we gotta do is arrest him. Elizabeth Lansing testifies at the indictment hearing, tells them she doesn’t think he did it and he goes away. We look good because, hey, we tried.”

Mac studied him and looked away after a moment. Scott had a point. The mayor was threatening his job again if things didn’t start looking up. To save face, arresting Sonny would be the best idea. At least when he wasn’t indicted, the egg wouldn’t be on their face.

“Let me do some more work,” Mac said finally. “I’m sure there are other people with a grudge against Ric.”

“Fine,” Scott told him. “One week.”

General Hospital

Elizabeth laid her head against the pillows and closed her eyes. Four days in this hospital and she was about to go insane.

The door creaked open and Lucky stepped in. “Hey,” he greeted, revealing a bouquet of white roses. She smirked.

“Still can’t find another color?” she asked pointedly.

Lucky shrugged and came forward to hand them to her. “Hey, white roses–they’re our thing. I figure enough time has passed that you don’t hate the sight of them any more.”

She managed a weak laugh. “Thanks.”

“How you feeling?” he asked softly.

“Empty,” Elizabeth replied. Her hand trailed to her abdomen. “I was so happy, Lucky. I was married, I was looking forward to a family and now…”

“Well…you still have Ric,” Lucky reminded her.

“Yeah…” she said faintly. She turned her head to the side. “He hasn’t been to see me in two days. Not since I asked him why he pretended to have sex with Carly.”

Lucky frowned. “What?” he demanded.

“I didn’t tell you?” Elizabeth asked wryly. “Yeah. Back in February. She was drugged, passed out. He undressed her and got into bed with her. She thought they slept together.”

He stared at her. “Knowing this, you married him anyway.”

“I was pregnant,” Elizabeth offered lamely. “And…I know you don’t understand, but I love him.”

“You’re right, I don’t understand,” Lucky replied. “But you were also in love with Jason, so–”

“Lucky, do me a favor?” Elizabeth asked softly. “Don’t talk about Jason. Because he’s the reason I married Ric.”

“What?” Lucky sputtered. “What the hell?”

“I walked away from Jason,” Elizabeth explained. “And I gave up. Despite how I felt. I didn’t want to do the same thing with Ric.”

“So you decided to go back to him, regardless of what happened with Carly?”

She nodded. “I thought…I thought having our own family would be enough. And it would have been. Oh, Lucky, he bought me a teddy bear the morning after the wedding and he bought wedding rings…you don’t know what it felt like to finally come first.”

He sighed. “Okay. So, now that…now that there’s no family on the horizon?”

“I just need…I need to understand how he could do that to Carly and think it was okay,” Elizabeth told him. “I need to understand that.”

“What did he say when you asked?”

“Nothing,” Elizabeth replied. “He shrugged it off and left to check on a job he applied for. He’s called but he hasn’t come back.”

“I’m sorry, Elizabeth.”

Elizabeth sighed. “Me, too.”

Lansing Apartment

Faith Roscoe was waiting for Ric when he entered the apartment. He stopped just inside the door and glared at her.

“What do you want?” he demanded.

She shook her head. “Poor little Lizzie. Her darling husband hasn’t been to see her in two days. After the big bad Sonny Corinthos pushed her down the stairs because she pleaded for your life, and in the process lost your baby…you can’t even see her?”

“Get out,” Ric snarled. He stepped aside and motioned to the door. “If you come back again, I’ll call the police.”

“You’re so law-abiding,” she purred. She stood and crossed the room. “It’s sexy.”

He grabbed her hand as it started to trail down his chest. “I’m not kidding, Faith.”

“Neither am I.” Her blue eyes turned cold while the warm smile stayed in its place. “If I were you, I’d use this opportunity to get rid of Sonny while you can. He goes to jail for assault, you’re in the perfect position to take over his territory. We can run it together.”

Ric shook his head. “I don’t want his territory and I’m not sending him to jail if he didn’t do it.”

Faith laughed. “Oh my God, you’re serious. What has this little twit done to you?”

“Get out,” Ric said. He shoved her through the door. “Don’t come back.”

She was still laughing when he slammed the door shut.

Sonny’s Penthouse

“This is ridiculous,” Courtney snarled, throwing down a copy of that morning’s Port Charles Herald. “Yet another letter to the editor asking why Sonny wasn’t arrested for pushing Elizabeth.”

Carly shook her head. “I don’t know. We haven’t heard anything from Mac since he was here that day. Mac doesn’t think he did it…but Sonny’s…he’s the only suspect.”

“It doesn’t matter,” Courtney replied. “He didn’t do it.”

“Since when does that matter to the PCPD?” Carly demanded. “Our best hope is that if he is arrested, that Elizabeth testifies and tells the grand jury she doesn’t think he did it. I mean if the victim doesn’t think so, that’s got to count.”

“She’ll probably end up accusing him,” Courtney muttered. “Just let Ric get five minutes with her.”

“No, she seemed pretty adamant about it when I saw her,” Carly replied. “She’s got bad taste in men and makes mistakes, but she’s not stupid. She knows Sonny would never hurt her, no matter how angry he got.”

“But Scott would never give her an opening to tell the jury she doesn’t think he did it,” Courtney pointed out. ‘”He wants Sonny and he’ll do anything to get it.”

Carly sighed. “There might not be an arrest. It’s been a week since Elizabeth fell. She’s home now. They’ve had all week to arrest Sonny and they’ve done nothing.” She shook her head. “Let’s talk about something else.” Her face brightened. “Let’s talk about the wedding.”

Courtney wrinkled her nose. “Let’s not.”

“Why not?” Carly asked, laughing.

“Because you’re going to want to help plan it and Jason and I will end up with a wedding that neither of us want. We want a traditional wedding but we don’t want to go overboard,” Courtney explained.

“I would never go overboard!” Carly denied, but she was still laughing. “Seriously, though…”

Lansing Apartment

Elizabeth gingerly stepped into the living room. She ached everywhere, but refused to stay in bed any longer. She needed to get herself moving again, her blood going.

She needed to talk to Ric.

He’d brought her home from the hospital, set her up in their bedroom and then he’d set up camp in the living room. He’d been attentive for the first two days she’d been home, but for the last three days, he’d been up and gone before she’d woken up. He was looking for space to open a law practice, he’d told her.

But she knew the truth–he was avoiding her because he knew she’d bring up Carly again and he obviously did not wish to rehash that particular subject. The trouble was that Elizabeth had never been properly satisfied with his explanation and was determined to work it out with him.

She pulled her sweatshirt down over her knees and curled up on the couch, wrapping her arms around her knees.

She’d gotten herself into a marriage she probably shouldn’t have rushed and now she was worried her husband wanted out.

A few minutes later, there was a knock on the door. Elizabeth sighed and pushed herself to stand.

“Be right there!” she called as she slowly moved across the apartment to the front door. She unlocked the bolts and slid the chain lock open. Ric had had them installed before she’d gotten home and Elizabeth suspected it was to keep Faith Roscoe out.

“Commissioner…” Elizabeth stepped back to let Mac in. “I didn’t know you were coming.”

“I called Ric last night and told him that I needed to see you both,” Mac said. His eyes searched the room. “Is he here?”

“No,” Elizabeth said softly. “He had to…he had an appointment with a realtor for some office space. I guess he couldn’t reschedule.”

“That’s okay,” Mac told her. “This won’t take long.” He hesitated. “The judge signed an arrest warrant this morning.”

“You’re arresting Sonny aren’t you?” she asked.

“We…look, Elizabeth, I know you don’t think he did it and to be honest, we don’t either. But the mayor is calling for the arrest. It’s my job and I need to keep it,” Mac explained.

“I understand that,” Elizabeth replied, “but what about Sonny? He’s innocent.”

“And you’ll testify that you don’t think he did it at the grand jury hearing,” Mac assured her. “He won’t be indicted.”

She hesitated. “I just…I don’t feel right about arresting an innocent person.”

“I understand, but it has to be done.” Mac paused. “Are you okay?”

“I’m fine. Do you…do you need me for anything?” Elizabeth asked. “Another statement?”

“No,” Mac told her. “Well, I’m going go serve the warrant. I just wanted to warn you.”

“Thanks,” Elizabeth replied. “I appreciate everything you’ve done.”

“We’ll get the person who did it,” Mac promised. “But right now, I need to buy more time.”

Warehouse

“If it all goes well,” Jason said, setting the folder on Sonny’s desk and putting his hands on his hips, “we can open in July.”

“Sounds good,” Sonny replied.

The door to the office opened and Johnny stepped in. “Just got the word. Judge Carter signed an arrest warrant this morning.”

“They’re arresting him?” Jason asked incredulously. “That’s ridiculous.”

Johnny shrugged. “Yeah, well, the papers have been demanding his arrest for two weeks. I bet the mayor has been pressuring Scorpio to make an arrest.”

“I thought I put you on Elizabeth,” Sonny said pointedly.

“You did,” Johnny replied. “But she hasn’t left her apartment since Lansing brought her home from the hospital. Paul’s on him and Ric’s barely been home the last few days.” Johnny shook his head. “His wife has had major surgery and suffered a serious trauma and he’s out looking for office space.”

“He leaves her alone?” Jason asked, skeptically. “By herself all day?”

“Well, yeah,” Johnny replied. “Don’t be so surprised, Jason. You used to do it too.”

Jason glared at him. “That was a different situation–she was in a protected penthouse with guards.”

“Yeah, while you were in a dinky apartment with your present fiancée,” Johnny reminded him.

Jason clenched his fists. “You got something to say O’Brien?” he demanded. “Because you’ve been dancing around it for the last two weeks.”

“Hey, you two, knock it off,” Sonny interrupted. “Johnny, quit being a jackass–”

“Just as soon as Jason does,” Johnny quipped.

Jason took a step towards the guard but Sonny quickly stepped in middle. “Knock it off,” he warned. “Both of you. Johnny, just keep an eye on Elizabeth. I have a feeling Faith Roscoe had something to do with Elizabeth’s fall.”

“I’ll head back over now,” Johnny said. Before he could step towards the door, it opened again and Mac Scorpio entered with a uniformed officer in tow.

Mac took a deep breath. “Sonny Corinthos, you’re under arrest for the assault of Elizabeth Lansing.” He nodded to the office behind him to step forward and cuff Sonny.

Jason and Johnny stepped aside while Sonny let the officer lock the handcuffs on him.

“You have the right to remain silent,” Mac started to recite as Sonny was led from the office.

“Someone needs to call a lawyer,” Johnny said. He shoved his hands in his pockets. “Because honestly, the evidence is pretty tight. And all Baldwin has to do is phrase his questions to Elizabeth in a way that she doesn’t get to say anything helpful.”

“If she really doesn’t believe Sonny did it, she’ll work that in,” Jason said quietly. He looked at Johnny. “You should get back over to her apartment.”

Johnny managed one last parting shot as he stepped out of the office. “Isn’t it a little late to pretend that you give a damn?”

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Sonny’s Penthouse

Sonny was glaring at Johnny when Carly came down the steps. “Hey, what’s going on?” she asked, peering at her husband and her best friend before looking at the guard.

“Elizabeth’s in the hospital,” Sonny told her. “Someone pushed her down the stairs after I left her at the Rice Plaza. She lost the baby.”

Carly inhaled sharply. “Oh my God. She must be devastated.”

Sonny shook his head. “I feel bad for her, but–”

“But what, Sonny?” Carly demanded. “She just had a miscarriage. I don’t care if she was stupid enough to drag you out just so she could plead for Ric’s life or that she was an idiot for marrying him in the first place. She just had one of the worst things in the world happen to her.”

“Since when do you care about Elizabeth Webber?” Sonny snapped, feeling even more defensive.

“I don’t need to be her best friend to sympathize with her,” Carly retorted. “If Alexis had lost her baby, I would have felt bad. God, Sonny. Do I look inhuman to you?”

Johnny stifled a snort, causing Carly to throw him a nasty look. Johnny cleared his throat. “Anyway, I’d expect a visit from the police as soon as they take Elizabeth’s statement.”

Carly rolled her eyes. “Great. So Sonny’s going to be accused of pushing the girl down the steps?”

“Well,” Johnny drawled, “Sonny was the last person to see Ms. Webber before she was pushed. He’s the only witness…and probably the only suspect at this point.”

Jason, who’d remained characteristically silent up until now, spoke up. “Elizabeth should know that Sonny wouldn’t do that to her.”

“Yeah, because Sonny is known for his cool temper and well-thought out decisions,” Johnny remarked dryly.

Sonny glared at his guard. “You’re coming real close to disappearing, Johnny.”

“Yeah, okay,” Johnny replied, clearly amused by the idea of Sonny knocking him off. Johnny was the third most important person in the organization, right after Jason. He was the head guard, he trained all the newcomers, regulated assignments–Sonny wasn’t going to take him on a long trip to the country because he spoke his mind. “You want me to keep an eye on Ric?”

“No,” Sonny said. “Clearly, you’re biased in this situation and I think you’d be better off somewhere else.”

“Like where?” Johnny asked, hoping he wasn’t assigned Courtney’s detail. He shuddered at the thought.

“Tell you what,” Sonny began, “you’re such of a fan of her and someone obviously has it out for her, why don’t you look after Elizabeth?”

Johnny narrowed his eyes. “You’re kidding right? You’re assigning me Ric Lansing’s wife? Maybe you are serious about me disappearing.”

“She doesn’t have to know you’re there,” Sonny said, shrugging. “Can you handle that?”

“Yeah, I can handle that,” Johnny replied. He eyed Carly. “You know, if you really feel bad, you could tell her so.”

Carly raised her eyebrows. “You’re awfully talkative these days, Johnny.”

Johnny shrugged. “Well, I know that Francis always spoke highly of Elizabeth. He really admired her and the way she tried to comfort when she thought Sonny was dead. I’m sure it wouldn’t kill you to try and show a little decency.”

“Johnny,” Sonny warned.

“Okay, I’m going. Don’t want to disappear or anything.” Johnny strode towards the door. “But I’m serious about the police. Don’t be surprised if Taggart shows up and arrests you right away.”

“Yeah, okay. Thanks, Johnny.”

After Johnny was gone, Carly laughed. “Who knew he had that kind of personality? He’s a kick.”

Sonny gave her a withering glance. “I don’t know what’s gotten into him today, but please don’t encourage him Carly.”

Carly shook her head. “Oh, no, Sonny. I like Johnny this way. Besides, he’s right. Elizabeth made me brownies and cleaned the penthouse and was…nice to me when she thought you were dead. The least I could do is offer my condolences.” She eyes Jason. “Stupid question. You want to come with?”

“I don’t think that’s a good idea,” Jason said.

“I’d ask Courtney, but that’s an even more ridiculous idea,” Carly replied. She turned back towards the stairs. “I’ll go get ready.”

When she was gone, Sonny shook his head. “I don’t know about this Jason.”

Jason frowned. “About what?”

“I don’t…” Sonny hesitated. He looked away. His eyes were troubled. “I don’t remember much of the conversation with Elizabeth. I don’t remember walking away. All I knew was one second I was yelling at her…and the next…I was back in the car.”

“What are you saying?” Jason asked. “You think you could have pushed her?” He shook his head. “No way, Sonny. And even if she accuses you, there’s no way you could have done this.”

“She questioned my honor,” Sonny continued. “And she was throwing the baby’s death in my face–about how she was there for me that night and that I owed her.” He exhaled slowly. “I honestly don’t know if she walked away first or I did.”

“Sonny–”

“What if I did push her?” Sonny asked, agitated. “Even accidentally? What then?”

Jason was skeptical. “You think you pushed a pregnant woman down a flight of stairs?”

“Why not?” Sonny murmured. “It’s not like I haven’t done it before.”

General Hospital

When the report of Elizabeth Lansing’s assault crossed his desk, Commissioner Mac Scorpio made sure to be the one to follow up on it. If he let Scott Baldwin within five feet of Sonny Corinthos’s sister-in-law, this case would go away before it got a chance to be prosecuted. Scott would muck it up like he had most of the past few cases.

He’d waited until early afternoon of Elizabeth’s second full day in the hospital before he went to take her statement. She was pale and she had some bruises on the visible skin of her arms, but for the most she looked as normal as she ever had.

“I’m very sorry, Elizabeth,” Mac began gently. “I understand that is a difficult time for you.”

Elizabeth nodded and looked down at the sheets of her hospital bed. “Thank you, Commissioner Scorpio,” she said quietly. “I didn’t expect you to handle this yourself.”

“What happened to you was abominable,” Mac told her firmly. “And I want to do my best to see that this person is prosecuted. But…”

“But what?” Elizabeth asked, meeting his eyes. “Commissioner?”

“We won’t be able to charge him with the death of your child,” Mac said contritely. “In New York, the fetus has to be twenty-five weeks old and yours was only nine weeks.”

She sighed and looked away. “I understand.”

“But they will be charged with assault,” Mac told her. “So, what I need you to do is tell me exactly what happened.”

“I went to Rice Plaza to speak with Sonny Corinthos,” Elizabeth told him. She hesitated. “He’s Ric’s half-brother and well…they don’t get along. I guess you could say I was trying to work on the situation.”

Mac nodded, having a pretty good idea of what Elizabeth was talking to Sonny about. “And Sonny showed up?”

She nodded. “We were talking for about ten minutes or so. We were arguing and I walked away. As I started down the steps, I felt someone’s hand on my back and they pushed me. That’s the last thing I remember before I woke up.”

Mac noted this down. “Did Sonny leave before you left?”

Elizabeth shook her head. “No. I turned my back and that’s the last I saw of him.”

“And it was just the two of you?”

“Sonny brought one of his men,” Elizabeth reported. “Max Giambetti, I think. But he told Max to wait inside.”

Still scribbling, Mac asked, “You said you argued. Were you yelling? Was he angry?”

Elizabeth hesitated. “Commissioner, I don’t think Sonny pushed me if that’s what you’re getting at.”

“For the record, Elizabeth, I don’t think he did either. But if we want this done right, we need to look at all suspects,” Mac replied.

“I understand. We were both angry, and yes there was some yelling. He can’t stand Ric and I don’t think he’s fond of me right now either. I called in a debt I probably shouldn’t have and I think we both said things we didn’t mean.” Elizabeth paused and sighed. “At least I did.”

Mac capped his pen. “This is off the record, Elizabeth. You went to Sonny to ask him not to hurt Ric didn’t you?”

“Possibly,” she hedged. “But Sonny…he wouldn’t hurt a woman. Not a pregnant one.”

“Look right now, Sonny is both the prime suspect and the only witness,” Mac admitted. “He’s the only person you can remember seeing there and I’ve already taken your husband’s statement. He didn’t see anyone either. Just you.”

“What are you going to do?” Elizabeth asked.

“Well, I’m going to question Sonny,” Mac told her. “And right now, I’m going to handle it personally. Because just between you and me, Scott Baldwin would screw this up and Taggart would let it get too personal.”

“Thank you, Commissioner. I appreciate everything you’ve tried to do,” Elizabeth told him. “And even if this never goes to court or you never arrest anyone, I know that you’ll do your best.”

“Thank you.” Mac stood and put his notepad away. “Rest, Elizabeth. I’ll keep you updated on the investigation.”

As soon as Mac exited, Ric entered. “Are you okay? What did he say?”

She sighed and held out her hand. He came forward and took her hand in both of his, sitting on the side of the bed.

“Even if they make an arrest, they can’t charge anyone because of the miscarriage,” Elizabeth told him. “Because the baby wasn’t old enough.”

“I know that,” Ric said.

Elizabeth sighed and looked down. “Mac is considering Sonny as both the prime suspect and only witness.”

Ric’s hands tightened around hers. “I assumed that would be the case,” he said as calmly as possible.

“Are you angry with me?” she asked softly. “For talking to him?”

Ric shook his head. “No. I don’t know why you felt the need to do so, but I know you had a good reason.”

“I wanted to ask him not to hurt you,” Elizabeth confessed. She sighed. “I just…I wanted to protect our family.”

He leaned forward and kissed her forehead. “I understand, Elizabeth. And I love you for wanting to protect me.”

“I only knew about the baby for a week,” Elizabeth said softly, “but it was long enough for me to fall in love with it. Long enough for me to have dreams about what our little girl or boy would have been like.” She sighed and leaned her head against the pillows. “I just don’t understand why this had to happen.”

Later

Ric had stepped out for some dinner and Carly made sure of this before she knocked lightly on Elizabeth’s hospital door.

“Come in.”

Carly pushed it open and Elizabeth’s face tightened at the sight of the blonde. “What do you want?” she asked scathingly.

Carly hesitated. “I just…I wanted to say I was sorry–”

“Are you?” Elizabeth demanded. “I mean, since when do you care about what happens to me?”

“I really don’t,” Carly snapped. “But I’ve been where you are and I know how devastating this can be. I just wanted to tell you I was sorry.”

The fight drained from her face and Elizabeth looked away. “Thank you,” she said softly. “Did…did anyone from the PCPD talk to Sonny yet?”

“No,” Carly replied. “But you know what’s going to happen when you tell them you two were arguing and that you were both alone.”

“Mac already told me he’s going to have to look at Sonny as both the prime suspect and the only witness,” Elizabeth replied. “I told Mac that I don’t think Sonny did this and I want you tell Sonny that, too. That I would never accuse him out of spite.”

“I didn’t think you would,” Carly told her. “But I know it would mean a lot to Sonny to know that. Do you think that Mac will listen to you?”

“Mac is probably the best person to handle this case,” Elizabeth said. “He’s fair and he’s not going to arrest Sonny for the hell of it.”

“Well, I’m glad one of us trusts him,” Carly answered. “I should probably go. I’m glad you’re all right.”

“Thank you for coming, Carly,” Elizabeth replied.

Carly slipped back out and caught a glimpse of Ric stepping off the elevator. She turned and hurried down the hall to find another set of elevators.

Ric entered Elizabeth’s room and frowned. “Was that Carly I saw leaving here? Did she upset you?”

Elizabeth shook her head. “No. She just…wanted to say she was sorry about the baby.” She looked away. “When I found out I was pregnant, I was filling out forms for an abortion and Carly was here at the hospital too. She saw them…and she tried to talk me out of it.”

“She did?” Ric asked, clearly surprised. “Why would she care?”

“She had a miscarriage a few years ago. Her and Sonny’s first child–it really devastated them both,” Elizabeth told him. “She told me that when she was first pregnant, she was thinking of getting rid of the baby, but that she was glad she hadn’t. She wanted me to think about that…to concentrate on the baby, not the father.”

“Well…” Ric paused. “That was very nice of her.”

“She hates you,” Elizabeth said unnecessarily. “For what you did to her.” She hesitated and met his eyes. “Why would you do something like that? What purpose did it serve?”

Sonny’s Penthouse

Carly set her purse on the desk. “Well, she’s all right if that matters,” she told Sonny and Jason. “She’s already talked to Mac Scorpio about what happened.”

“What did she say?” Sonny demanded.

“We didn’t get into semantics,” Carly told him. “But I assume she told the truth. That you were alone and arguing.”

“Did she tell them that Sonny pushed her?” Jason questioned.

Carly frowned and studied her best friend. “Are-are you serious? Do you…do you really think she’d do that?” Jason just shuffled his feet and looked away. Carly sighed. “No. She even told Mac that she didn’t think you did it. But he’ll probably be by anyway.”

Sonny exhaled slowly. “So…she doesn’t think it was me?”

“Nope.” Carly frowned. “Sonny…” She stepped towards him. “I know you’re not sure what happened…but you didn’t do it. I know you didn’t do it.”

Sonny nodded and looked away. “Okay.”

“Sonny–”

Marco opened the door. “Commissioner Scorpio is here.”

“Send him in,” Sonny directed. Mac entered by himself and Sonny raised his eyebrows. “No Baldwin?”

“As of right now, no one else knows about this case,” Mac told him. “I’m handling it personally.” He shifted and looked around. “Do you want to call a lawyer or anything?”

“Sonny doesn’t have anything to hide,” Carly snapped.

“Carly…go upstairs and see if Michael’s okay,” Sonny directed. Carly glared at him as she passed to go to the stairs. “No, Mac. I don’t need a lawyer.”

“All right. Elizabeth says that the two of you met alone at Rice Plaza,” Mac began. “That you brought Max Giambetti with you, but he waited inside. The two of you argued about her husband, Ric Lansing. How am I doing so far?”

“That’s all fine,” Sonny said, hesitantly.

“Elizabeth went on to say that the argument got pretty heated, that you were both yelling. She turned her back and walked away towards the stairs where she felt a hand on her back. She fell down a set of fifteen concrete steps and she was unconscious for most of the night, so the last thing she remembers is the hand on her back.”

“After Elizabeth walked away, I left too,” Sonny told him. “I didn’t see anything or anybody.”

“What about Max Giambetti?” Mac questioned. “Where can I get a hold of him?”

Sonny glanced at Jason who’d been following the conversation carefully. “Jason, get Max. He’s at the warehouse.”

“I’ll go call,” Jason said, crossing to the door and leaving heading for his own penthouse.

“Max will be here shortly. Unless you want him to meet you at the PCPD?” Sonny asked.

Mac shook his head. “No. I’ll wait.” He paused. “Elizabeth doesn’t believe that you had anything to do with this and I’m inclined to agree with her. But I will follow up because honestly, you are the only other person who was there that night. You didn’t see anyone. There’s no one who saw you leave until you went to Mr. Giambetti inside. You realize what it looks like.”

“Yeah.” Sonny shrugged. “It looks like I pushed her.”

Mac nodded. “I’m not going to let Taggart or Baldwin near this until I rule you out as a suspect,” he told the other man. “Because we both know what will happen then.”

“Yeah. Thanks.”

“I’m not doing this for you,” Mac told him coldly. “I’m doing this because someone pushed a defenseless pregnant woman down a flight of concrete steps and left her there. They killed her child and it was done deliberately. I’m doing this because I intend to bring that person in and prosecute them to the fullest extent of the law.”

General Hospital

Faith Roscoe peered in through the window of Elizabeth’s hospital room and smirked at the newlyweds sitting on her bed.

“You’re going to wish you didn’t wake up,” she muttered under breath.

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General Hospital

There were sixty-seven yellow tiles visible on the floor of the emergency room–visible to his eye anyway. He’d been counting them since the doctor shoved him out of out the trauma room almost forty minutes ago.

He concentrated on the tiles, convincing himself that it was important that he know exactly how many tiles he could see from his position sitting on the floor, his back against the wall, his knees bent and his elbows braced on his denim-clad thighs.

Because as long as counting those tiles was the most important thing in his life, Ric Lansing wouldn’t have to think about the reason he was here. If he didn’t close his eyes, he wouldn’t be back at on those stairs, peering down at her motionless body on the cold concrete.

His father had taught him this trick once when Ric had been cramming for the SATs in high school. He’d been going nuts over some mathematical formula and his father had told him that memorizing it wasn’t going to do any good. Trevor Lansing suggested he think about something else. That if he wasn’t trying so hard to memorize the formula, he might realize he already knew it.

It’d worked–he’d gotten a perfect 1600 on the SATs and now Ric was desperately hoping it would work again.

It wasn’t but he was persistent. Time to count the white ceiling tiles. One, two, three…

He was at forty-nine when a doctor finally emerged from the room. Ric launched to his feet. “How is she?”

“She’s stable,” the doctor replied. “We stopped the internal bleeding.” He drug a hand through his short brown hair. “Your wife was very lucky, Mr. Lansing. There’s going to be a lot of bruising and she’ll have to stay in the hospital for about a week.”

Ric nodded, letting out a relieved sigh. He hesitated and asked the question. “Elizabeth is pregnant…” he trailed off. “The baby?”

“I’m sorry, Mr. Lansing,” the doctor apologized. “There was too much damage. We couldn’t save the fetus.”

The fetus. His child, their child. The reason she’d forgiven him and married him was gone and had been reduced to a mere fetus. He inhaled sharply. “Is she awake?”

“She’ll be moved to a recovery room in a few moments and after a few hours there, she’ll be moved to her own room.”

“I want a private room,” Ric said immediately. “She has to have the best you can give her.”

“I’ll mark it on her chart,” the doctor replied. “A nurse will come and get you when you can see her.”

“Thank you,” Ric told him. The doctor strode away and disappeared in the trauma room again. Ric exhaled slowly. It was okay–Elizabeth was alive, she’d be okay. She’d be fine. He was disappointed that they’d lost their child and he knew this would devastate her.

But she loved him and he loved her. It was going to be okay.

His fists clenched at his sides and he allowed himself to think about the reason Elizabeth had just gone through emergency surgery and had lost their child.

Sonny.

He took a deep breath and tried to quell the anger rising in him. He had to believe that Sonny wouldn’t push a pregnant woman down a flight of stone steps. His own wife was pregnant–and Sonny had to be better than that. Elizabeth could have tripped and fell, there was always that possibility.

Because Ric had promised Elizabeth he was done with Sonny…and if he believed for one second his brother had pushed Elizabeth, he’d have to break that promise.

Sonny’s Penthouse

Sonny set the phone down and eyed Johnny carefully. “You’re sure about this?”

The seasoned guard nodded. “He didn’t leave the hospital all night.”

“Did you find out why he was there?” Sonny asked.

“No. He wasn’t admitted. He went in there last night and hasn’t left yet.” Johnny shrugged. “I don’t know why he’s there.”

Sonny sighed and looked away. “Check and see if Elizabeth Webber was admitted. Or an Elizabeth Lansing.”

Johnny frowned. “Ms. Webber married him?”

“Yeah.” Sonny shook his head. “She’s pregnant so I suspect that had something to do with it.”

“You’re not concerned about it?” the guard asked, surprised. “You’ve got someone watching him all the time, you think he tried to blow up everyone…and someone you’ve known for years marries him…and it doesn’t bother you?”

Sonny gave Johnny a withering glance. “Elizabeth makes her own choices.”

“Yeah…but….” Johnny shifted. “Does Jason know?”

“Yeah,” Sonny said, feeling strangely defensive. “I told him. He thinks she’s making a mistake but it’s none of his concern anymore.”

“None of his concern?” Johnny repeated. He frowned. “Did he say that?”

“No…but I’m sure that’s what he thinks,” Sonny replied. He narrowed his eyes. “You questioning me?”

“I don’t question your business decisions,” Johnny told him. “But I can question your personal motives. It’s not disloyal to do that. If you think Ric is such bad news, why didn’t you say something to her?”

“Why do you care?” Sonny asked, turning the tables on the guard.

“Because Francis would have wanted me to keep an eye out for her,” Johnny snapped. Sonny fell silent at the mention of Johnny’s cousin and Elizabeth’s former body guard. He’d been killed in Puerto Rico a few months ago. “Francis thought very highly of Ms. Webber.”

“I know he did,” Sonny replied. “He always requested her detail when the need arose. Look, Johnny, I can’t do anything to convince her he’s just going to hurt her. She wouldn’t listen. Elizabeth has a lot of loyalty and tends to believe the best in people.”

“That she does. I mean, she never listened to anyone about you or Jason,” Johnny remarked, dryly. “If you ask me, maybe she should have.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” Sonny demanded.

“Nothing,” Johnny answered. “I’ll try and find out if Ms. Webber was admitted.”

“Let me know what you find out.”

Johnny headed to the door, but Jason opened it and stepped through first. “Hey, Johnny.”

“Jason,” Johnny said shortly, pushing past the enforcer. He closed the door behind him.

“What’s his problem?” Jason asked.

“Ah, he’s a little upset,” Sonny replied. “He found out Elizabeth married Lansing and he’s worried about her.”

Jason frowned. “Why does Johnny care?”

“Because Francis used to guard her and I guess he asked Johnny to look out for her,” Sonny answered. “I’ve got Johnny watching Ric’s every move. He’s been at the hospital all night.”

“Why?”

“Don’t know. He wasn’t admitted, so he’s there for someone else. I’ve got Johnny checking to see if Elizabeth was admitted.” Sonny shook his head. “You know…I talked to her last night and I can’t remember a single word I said. I don’t even remember leaving.”

“Why’s that?”

Sonny shrugged. “I don’t know. I was just so angry at her. She used to be such a nice girl, reasonable and smart, you know? Now…I barely recognize her.”

General Hospital

Elizabeth moaned slightly and her eyes fluttered open to see Ric perched on the side of her bed. “Ric? What happened?”

Ric sighed and brushed her hair off her face. “You fell down the stairs at Rice Plaza. Do you remember?”

Elizabeth frowned and looked away. “I was talking with Sonny…and I walked away.” She looked at him. “Someone pushed me as I was going down the stairs.”

Ric exhaled slowly. He’d been afraid of that possibility. “Are you sure?”

“Yeah,” she breathed. “I felt someone’s hand at my back.” Her blue eyes widened with fear. “The baby…?”

Ric looked down and took her hand in his. “I…I’m sorry…but the baby…” He shook his head, unable to speak past the lump in his throat.

“I lost the baby?” Elizabeth said softly. Tears gathered in the corners of her eyes. “It’s gone?”

He nodded and closed his eyes. “I’m so sorry…”

Her lower lip trembled and she closed her eyes too. “Oh, God…”

Sonny’s Penthouse

Johnny strode back into the penthouse a half hour after he’d left and crossed his arms. Sonny and Jason looked at him, waiting for him to speak.

“Elizabeth Lansing was admitted last night,” Johnny reported in a calm voice. “She had internal injuries and a concussion. She’s in stable condition but she miscarried. Ric Lansing also filed a police report.”

Jason blinked. “Miscarried,” he repeated slowly.

“She was nine weeks pregnant,” Johnny told the enforcer, glaring at him.

“Why did he file a police report?” Sonny asked. “What happened to her?”

“Someone pushed Elizabeth down the stairs at Rice Plaza,” Johnny replied. “You’d better hope that Lansing doesn’t suspect you, because he already came after you because of your mother. What do you think is going to happen if he suspects you pushed his defenseless pregnant wife down a flight of concrete stairs?”

March 15, 2014

This entry is part 11 of 34 in the I Shall Believe

Warehouse: Jason’s Office

Carly stood abruptly. “I have to go.”

“Wait, wait.” Jason stood and rounded the desk. “Carly, we need to talk about this.”

“I can’t talk–I need…” She didn’t know what she needed. The only thing she was absolutely positive of was that she needed to get out of there. The air was suffocating–her throat felt tight.

“I have to go,” she repeated. She rushed through the door, Jason was hot on her heels.

But she got to her car and had the door closed before he could reach her. She took off, her tires squealing.

Lorenzo’s Apartment: Bedroom

Sage pouted as her uncle continued to pack. “I wish you weren’t going away,” she complained. “I don’t want to stay with Carly.”

Lorenzo glanced at her. “Well, you are. Carly has two small children and this is going to be a tough week for her. I expect you to step up.”

“She’s your obsession not mine,” Sage said haughtily. She flopped on the bed and turned onto her back. “Can I enroll in school?”

“You don’t like your tutors?”

“Please, Uncle Zo. The tutors are dryer than dirt and they make me want to curl up and take a nap.” She gave him a charming smile. “I want to go to the high school. I want a normal life for once. You seem to be settling in here after all. Why don’t we really pretend like this is home?”

“This is home, Sage,” Lorenzo told her. He sat down and sighed. “I know you’re unhappy here.”

Sage sat up and shrugged. “It’s not that I’m unhappy,” she told him. “I just…I think I came on too strong with Dillon. And now he won’t even look at me.”

“He’s in love with his girlfriend, sweetheart,” Lorenzo informed her. “You won’t make him forget that.”

“I just…” She hesitated and glanced at him quickly–just long enough to see the sadness in the depths of her dark eyes. “I guess I’m just lonely. I’ve been at boarding schools for most of my life or I’ve had tutors. I’ve never really had a friend. Dad was always away working with Brenda,” Sage spat. “And you were always on business. So I thought if I could just go to the high school like all the other kids…I’ll meet someone new. You know?”

Lorenzo kissed her forehead. “Okay, baby. If it’s that important, I’ll ask Carly to take you to get enrolled. I’ll see that she has all the information. And I’ll even give you a credit card to do some shopping.”

Sage grinned and threw her arms around him. “Thanks, Uncle Zo. You won’t regret this.” Her eyes were dancing with excitement. “Can I decorate my room too? With furniture I pick out? And posters? You know…make it my own?”

“Well…” Lorenzo hesitated. “I’d hold off on that–in this place at least. It’s a good apartment but you need to have a real home base. A place you’re always sure of.”

“You mean an actual house?” Sage asked, surprised. “Like…what Dillon lives in? Or a normal place…like where Georgie and her sister live?”

“We can talk more about that when I come home next week. But until then, you are staying with Carly. Promise me you’ll be on your best behavior?”

“Do you love her?” Sage asked instead. “I mean, honest to God, from the top of head to the bottom of your feet love her?”

“Yes,” Lorenzo admitted.

“Then I’ll do my best,” she promised. She smirked. “But you know…this is still me we’re talking about here. My best is…well a lot of people’s worst.”

There was a knock on the open bedroom door–one of Lorenzo’s guards. “Senor Alcazar? Mrs. Corinthos is here. She looks upset.”

Lorenzo shot up and was out of the room almost before the guard had finished speaking. Sage just stood and shook her head, amused.

“Oh, yeah, he’s in love,” she said under her breath as she finished her uncle’s packing.

Carly was standing just inside the door when Lorenzo came into the room. Her face was pale, her hands were trembling and her cheeks were stained with tears. Alarmed, he went over to her and took her hands in his. “Carly, what’s wrong? What’s happened?”

“I…I remembered,” she said fearfully, her eyes wide and filled with a kind of hesitant fear.

“R-remembered what?” Lorenzo asked with a sense of dread. He took a deep breath. “Sonny?” he prompted.

She nodded. “I was talking to Jason–a-and I was trying to explain why I was siding with Courtney–because all of my feelings for her just came slamming into my head last night and now everything for Sonny a-and I just remembered the boys yesterday, Lorenzo. All these feelings are just swarming around in my head and I can’t make them stop.”

He pulled her into a hug, almost forcing her head into his chest. He’d known it would come to this–he’d hoped that she’d never remember but she did now.

And she wouldn’t need him anymore.

“I don’t know what I’m doing anymore, Lorenzo. I thought I had a handle on everything–I thought I was okay and…” She wrapped her arms around her waist and clung to him. “I don’t know anymore.”

“It’s okay,” he soothed. He ran his hand up and down her back, trying to calm the violent tremors she was experiencing. “You need to go see Dr. Lewis.”

She pulled away from him and clasped her hands together. “I-I should have gone straight there I guess b-but I really didn’t know what I was doing. I was just…talking and it all slammed back into me.”

Lorenzo nodded. “I understand. And I understand if you don’t want Sage to stay with you after all–”

Carly frowned and looked at him. “I–” She shook her head. “I’m not doing this right.” She licked her lips and looked up at him. “Yes, my feelings for Sonny came back but that’s not what’s scaring me.”

His mouth dry, his throat tight, Lorenzo swallowed hard. “What is then?”

“The fact that my feelings for you–which I thought were just part of a dream I hadn’t really woken up from–they’re still here,” she whispered. She pressed the heel of her hand to her chest, just above her heart. “And they’re real.” She took a shaky breath. “And they’re strong.”

He hesitated. “They are?” he asked. He couldn’t have heard her right.

She nodded. “They’re…stronger than what I feel for Sonny and I realized that it’s because these last few weeks…you’ve been…” Carly hesitated. Unable to find the words, she slid her hand around the back of his head to tug it towards her. She kissed him hungrily, giving into the feelings and the emotions that she’d been fighting for so long.

He wrapped his arms around her waist to pull him flush against him, devouring her and absorbing every inch of her delectable mouth.

Sage peeked around the corner into the living room and grinned. It was about time her uncle found a little slice of happiness.

Carly pulled away a few moments later, breathing heavily–her eyes just a little calmer. “I…probably shouldn’t have done that,” she remarked, her cheeks flushed. But the words were light and caused him no pain.

Lorenzo just smiled and shook his head. “You’ll never get rid of me,” he joked. He smoothed her hair off her forehead. “Now that I know how you taste.”

Her cheeks flushed even more deeply and she felt so warm. But she couldn’t keep the smile from her face. Gone was the confusion and fear of just a few moments ago. Feelings and emotions were still swarming inside her mind but she knew one thing now–one completely concrete and absolute thing.

She cared deeply for Lorenzo–maybe she even loved him. And for the first time since she woke up–she didn’t want to change that.

Kelly’s

Elizabeth sat down and sipped her hot chocolate. “I should be mad at you for calling Jason,” she told Emily.

“Be mad all you want,” Emily replied. “You needed someone and I couldn’t get there. I knew Jason would be interested in knowing that you were in a cold studio with no heat or electricity. So…you’re at the hotel?”

“Yeah. It’s temporary. He was going to ask Carly if I could stay with her but she played the Courtney card and really…that’s better in the end. We never would have survived in the same house.” Elizabeth sighed. “He’s coming over after work and we’re supposed to work out a plan for the future.”

“Elizabeth…I know you value your independence and believe me, I understand that you don’t want to give that up…but you have to bend a little.”

“I know. I know,” Elizabeth repeated, seeing Emily’s skepticism. “But how far am I supposed to go? Do you know what it would look like if I let Jason do what he obviously wants to do? Buy me a place to live, pay for me to live there?”

“It would look like a married man keeping a mistress,” Emily allowed. She shrugged. “So what? That’s not true. Jason and Courtney might be married but they’ve barely lived together since the wedding and while I certainly don’t condone your actions–or his, I might add–you’re not his mistress. It was a one night thing and you don’t have to be ashamed of it. He wasn’t married and you’re separated.”

“But I slept with my husband, my ex-boyfriend and your ex-husband all pretty much in the same span of time. That really doesn’t say much for my morals, does it?”

“No,” Emily allowed. “But it’s a unique situation, Elizabeth. Don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re only human. You get to make mistakes.”

“So what do you think I should let Jason do?” Elizabeth asked. “How far should I let him go with this?”

“I think you should let him pay for the rent on a decent apartment,” Emily told her. “You can probably afford utilities until you have to go on maternity leave and then Jason can take up those bills. You should also let him pay for the back medical bills from this summer so you don’t have any issues with your doctor’s care for the pregnancy.”

“You mean basically let him take care of me for the next year of my life.”

“Well…do you have a more realistic resolution?” Emily pressed.

“I’ll let you know,” Elizabeth said, with a tone of defeat in her voice.

Haye’s Landing

Courtney was just hanging up the phone in the kitchen when Brian entered through the back. He had two coffees in his hands. “Hey.”

“Hey.” She sat down, and chewed her thumbnail. “That’s the third time,” she said softly. “I get as far as his voice mail and hang up.”

Brian sat in the chair across from her. “Probably not a conversation you want to have over the phone.”

“I just…I ran out of there. I never gave him a chance to say anything or even come clean on his own. I just demanded to know the truth and took off.” She sighed and slumped in her chair. “I don’t know, Brian. I know I’m right to be angry but…”

“But what?” Brian asked. “Courtney…he cheated on you and he’s having a child with this woman.”

“She’s not just some tramp he picked off the street,” Courtney jumped in. “He has a history with her–”

“I’ve heard this all before,” Brian sighed. “You told me this yesterday. Since the day I met you, all you’ve done is sing his praises. Don’t give him an excuse–don’t give him this easy out. No matter how tempting it is–”

“The thing is,” Courtney interrupted, “that I don’t want to give him an out. I…” she chewed on her lower lip. “If I forgive him for this…I’ll never be able to trust him again. Every time he’s with her…I’m going to wonder. Every time I see them together with that baby, I’m going to want to curl up in a corner and cry.”

She took a deep breath. “I love him, Brian. But I won’t do that to myself. I can’t.”

He exhaled slowly. “I guess you’ve made up your mind.”

“Yeah.” She smiled at him–her eyes filled with tears, and her hands trembling. “Just as soon as I can get up the courage, I’m going to go back to Port Charles and file for divorce.”

This entry is part 10 of 34 in the I Shall Believe

Carly’s House

She’d just finished showering and changing for bed when she heard a hesitant knock on her bedroom door.

Assuming it was Michael, she got into bed and pulled the comforter over her legs. “Come in.”

Jason pushed the door open. “Hey…sorry to bother you so late.”

Carly sat up. “No, it’s okay. What’s wrong? Where did you go earlier? Was it about Courtney?”

Jason sat down on the edge of her bed. “I don’t ask you for a lot of things, you know and I know you don’t get along with her–or at least you didn’t but I really need to ask you a favor.”

“Oh, it’s about Elizabeth. What do you need?”

“I got a call from Emily who had just talked to Elizabeth. Apparently, her building was condemned and her electricity went out. The heat’s never really worked correctly in her apartment so she can’t stay there tonight.”

“And for obvious reasons, she can’t go to the penthouse.” Carly folded her hands in her lap. “She’s downstairs isn’t she?”

“It’s just temporary,” Jason assured her. “It’s almost December and I just…I couldn’t leave her there.”

“Of course not. But surely, there’s other people she could go to. Emily, Nikolas, or Lucky…Jason, if you want to work this out with Courtney, you can’t go running to Elizabeth’s rescue all the time.”

“What am I supposed to do?” Jason demanded. “Leave her in a freezing studio? Emily and Nikolas are on the island with no way to get to the mainland at night and Lucky’s on night patrol. I already covered this with Emily.” He stood. “I had to argue with her just to accept my help. I thought I could come to you for help, but I guess I was wrong. I’ll just take her to a hotel.”

“Jason, wait, I didn’t say she couldn’t stay,” Carly argued. She swung her legs to the floor and stood. “I’m just asking you to be realistic. Your marriage is in serious trouble and if you want to make it work, you cannot go running to help Elizabeth every time she needs you–”

“She’s pregnant, Carly. We slept together and now she’s the one who’s got to deal with it. She’s the one whose entire life has to change–who has to face this hypocritical town. You of all people should know what she’s going through. Of course I’m going to be there when Elizabeth needs me. Because not only is she the mother of my child, but she’s my friend and that’s what friends do, Carly. They help each other out.”

“Look, she can stay in the guest room,” Carly sighed. “I just don’t think you’re thinking of Courtney’s feelings.” She frowned and pressed a hand to her chest much like she’d done the night she’d remembered her hatred for Robin. “She must be devastated and you didn’t even try to find her. You just ran to Elizabeth like you always did, completely disregarding your own wife.”

Jason narrowed his eyes. “You told me to give her time. You told me that she needed to work it out. What’s changed?”

“She loves you so much,” Carly argued, ignoring his question. “And what kind of sister-in-law would I be if I let the woman who’s wrecking her marriage stay in my home?”

“I guess you’re beginning to feel your connection to Courtney,” Jason said stiffly. “This was a mistake. I should have just taken her to a hotel.”

“Jason, I’m sorry–I want to support you but I did just…it’s coming back now,” Carly told him, tears in her eyes. “I can feel it and I refuse to ignore it. Things are coming back so fast for me I can hardly breathe. I remembered Robin, the boys, Courtney and I think some of the irritation I’ve always felt towards Elizabeth is coming back. Maybe I’m not being a really good friend to you right now but I can’t help it. I have to put myself first for once. I am through putting Sonny and you first. No, she can’t stay here.”

He exhaled slowly. “You’ve never put me first, Carly,” he said quietly. “You put Sonny first. You put Courtney and the kids first. But you have never put me first.”

“Jason, that’s just not true–”

“I have stood by you throughout our entire friendship–even when I knew I should turn you away. Even when I knew all you’d do is hurt me.” Jason put his hands on his waist and looked down. “You’ve screwed over just about everyone in your life at one time or another Carly, I think I’m just one of your favorite targets.”

Tears were sliding down her cheeks rapidly and she reached for him. “Jason, I love you. You’re my best friend–I don’t know who I am if you’re not in my life–”

“I have to go. It’s late and if I want to get a room for her at any hotel, I have to go now.”

He turned and walked out of her bedroom door without once looking back. “Jason!” she called. “Jason, please!”

Downstairs

Elizabeth was standing at the door when he came down the steps. She’d heard most of the argument upstairs and she felt just sick for him–Carly had shown her true colors once again and not for the first time, she wondered how Jason could put up with her.

She was destroying his life, Elizabeth realized as she watched Jason come towards her. Not Carly, but her. Telling him the truth about the baby had probably destroyed his marriage but apparently was causing strain in his other friendships.

The last thing she wanted to do was hurt him but how could she really fix this? How could she go back in time and make this right?

“I think we could probably still get you a room at the PC Hotel,” Jason told her, pulling the front door open.

“I’m sorry,” she told him as she followed him out the door to where his bike was parked in the driveway. “I heard parts of…what happened upstairs.”

Jason shook his head and fished out his car keys. “It’s just Carly being Carly. I thought…since she couldn’t feel the same about Courtney or you…that this would work but I was wrong.”

“But it’s good that she’s remembering,” Elizabeth tried to tell him. “I remember when Lucky was trying so hard to remember his love for me…how just…sad it was looking into his eyes and not seeing it anymore.”

He handed her a helmet. “Lucky and Carly’s situations are completely different. Carly couldn’t remember anyone and all Lucky didn’t remember was…” he trailed off, not wanting to bring it up further.

“Lucky just didn’t remember me,” Elizabeth finished. “That doesn’t make it any less painful for the people involved.” She tugged the helmet over her head and slid onto the back of the back. “I’m sure Carly didn’t mean to hurt you–it must be so confusing when emotions just swamp you suddenly.”

“Yeah.” He said nothing more and just started the bike. She wrapped her arms around his waist.

She’d made her decision. She knew what she had to do now.

— Port Charles Hotel —

Jason set her bag just inside the door. “Until we figure out what’s next, you can just stay here. I’m going to set you up with that night guard we talked about.”

Elizabeth sighed and pushed the heavy curtains back to see the view of the harbor. “I can’t do this anymore,” she said quietly.

He frowned and stepped towards her. “What are you talking about?”

She took a deep breath. “I mean, I can’t keep…keep lying.”

Jason frowned. “Who’re you lying to?”

“You.” She wouldn’t look at him–couldn’t do this if she were looking at him. All she had to do was tell him that she’d lied, he’d go back to his marriage because surely Courtney would forgive him if she weren’t pregnant. And Elizabeth would…she’d figure out something.

She always did.

“I lied,” Elizabeth said firmly. She cleared her throat. “I told you the baby was yours because that’s what I wanted it to be.”

His throat dry all of sudden. Very dry. He almost couldn’t breathe. “Excuse me?”

“It was stupid a-a-and it was wrong. But I knew you’d be the best father. But I can’t keep lying anymore. It’s…too much.” She blinked back tears. This was the right decision.

“You wouldn’t do that,” Jason said quietly. “You wouldn’t tell me something like that and not mean it. You wouldn’t lie about something like that.”

“I’m not perfect, Jason. I just…I wanted to create a good life for my child and I really thought I could do it. But it’s…too much. It’s costing you too much and it’s costing me. I’m sorry, Jason.”

She was lying. He knew her well enough to recognize that. It was in her tense shoulders–the ways she refused to look at him. The baby was his–he was sure of that. She’d never deliberately lie about this. Not when it would be too easy to prove.

So it just left him to wonder what her motivations were for actually trying this. Was she trying to pull away from the life again? Or was she trying to protect him after hearing about Courtney’s reaction and overhearing his argument with Carly?

“Elizabeth, I know what you’re trying to do and it won’t work. If you’re going to continue to deny this, then we’ll just have to get a paternity test,” Jason told her firmly. “You can do those during pregnancy now.”

“Jason, come on…” she turned suddenly, her eyes red and swollen, her cheeks stained with tears. “I’m giving you an out here. Take it.”

“I won’t,” he refused. “I won’t be a coward and walk away from you and the baby just because it’s causing problems in my life. Carly and I will work it out. We always do. And Courtney and I…you don’t have to worry about that.”

“Yes, I do,” she sighed. “Jason…I lied to you. That’s the end of it! Why can’t you just take it for what it’s worth and go?” she demanded.

“Because the only lie I’m hearing is the one you’re telling me right now.” He stepped towards her. “Elizabeth, you can’t…you can’t take this away from me. Not when I’ve gotten used to the idea of being a father again–of having a child that no one can take from me.”

She sank onto the nearby sofa and put her head in her hands. “I’m sorry, Jason. I’m just trying to do the right thing.”

He kneeled in front of her. “I know. I know you are but the only person you can do right by is yourself.”

“I can’t stay here forever. And once I scale back my shifts at Kelly’s…I won’t be able to meet even half the rent on a good enough apartment. And when I have to stop working–”

“We don’t have to think about any of that right now,” Jason told her. “Just…for once…let me take care of this.”

“I don’t like depending on people,” she told him. “I learned the hard way not to do that so I’m sorry if I seem stubborn sometimes.”

He stood. “I should get going. I have to be at the warehouse early. If you need anything, you’ve got my number right?”

“Yeah. I have a shift at Kelly’s anyway. Thanks, Jason. I’m sorry…about before.”

He shook his head. “Don’t worry about it. I know what you were trying to do and I even appreciate it. I’ll stop by after your shift tomorrow and we can try and talk about this.”

She nodded. “Okay.”

November 22, 2003

Haye’s Landing

Brian set a coffee cup in front of her and then sat down at the adjacent seat at the kitchen table. “Are you sure you don’t want something to eat?”

Courtney shook her head. “I don’t think I’d be able to keep it down.” She rubbed her forehead. “I just took off when he told me. I have the kids’ luggage still in my car for Christ’s sake. I just couldn’t deal with it.”

“You will have to…deal with it, that is,” Brian told her. “I mean, I don’t mind having you here. You’re a good tenant and all, but you can’t hide here forever.”

“I thought I might call Carly. Just to gauge the situation. He didn’t even come after me.” She bit her lip. “I want to know if he did it before the wedding.”

“What can that possibly matter?” Brian questioned. “Either way, he cheated on you.”

“Yes, but if he slept with her and then took his vows…it means he kind of chose me,” Courtney said, “and maybe then we could work through this–”

“Don’t. Don’t do that. Don’t make this okay for him just because he went back to you,” Brian argued immediately. “That’s what cheaters do. They go back to the relationship. But he did it once. He’ll do it again.”

“I just wish…I wish it had been anyone but Elizabeth. I might have understood someone else. We were having a lot of problems this fall and late summer…if it’d been some nameless woman in a bar…I could have dealt with it.”

“But it wasn’t. It was a woman that you’ve said yourself–he loved her once. And just because you were having problems–that doesn’t give him an excuse. Did he ever cheat on Elizabeth?”

“No. Not that I’m aware of,” Courtney murmured. “They have this huge history, Brian. A very long one, a very close one. She saved his life once. More than once. They’ve known each other since she was at least fifteen. She’s his little sister’s best friend. How can I possibly compete with something like that?”

“You shouldn’t have to. Okay, long history for them. Doesn’t matter. He proposed to you. He married you. He didn’t marry her so he doesn’t get an out because they were together for a long time.”

“No, they were actually together for a very short time,” Courtney protested. “He was in love with her for three years. He says he wasn’t but I know. I saw him that summer. She was kidnapped and I don’t think he ate or slept the whole time she was gone. She was shot–grazed really in the arm–and he freaked out so bad he tried to push her away. You didn’t see him, Brian. He practically pined after her that summer and I’m sure it started longer before that.”

“Still doesn’t matter,” Brian said, shaking his head. “Stop trying to give yourself excuses to forgive him. Work it out, get past it but don’t let him think for one minute it’s okay because he slept with an old girlfriend.”

“I just…I don’t know I’m supposed to handle this,” she said softly. “I mean…is there some kind of code or plan one has to follow? I mean…he didn’t just cheat on me…she’s pregnant and Jason…he’s not someone who runs from confrontations or mistakes. He’ll be a father to that child and I don’t know if I can handle that.”

“The beauty of the situation is that you don’t have to,” Brian replied. “You have the control in this right now.”

“But I love him, Brian. And he’s talked a little about the pain he felt when he lost custody of Michael–he raised him for the first year of his life, did I tell you that?”

Brian shook his head. “No. Is he Jason’s son?”

“No, he’s actually AJ’s son but Sonny adopted him. Anyway, I wasn’t in Port Charles when he lost custody, but it’s still such a painful subject for him. How can I tell him that he has to walk away from his own child just because he cheated on me?”

He stared at her. “Courtney, you’ve got to be kidding me. He cheated on you. So what if the girl’s pregnant? That does not negate what he did to you.”

“I just…” She ran her hands through her hair. “The reason I wanted to go home–the real reason–was because this life was becoming something I wanted and I needed to get away from that.”

Brian frowned and leaned forward. “What do you mean by that?”

“I mean, that living in Haye’s Landing, in this house…being around you…it was starting to sound good to me and I just couldn’t deal with that.” She sipped her now lukewarm coffee. “I live in a bullet proof penthouse in Port Charles. Most of the time, I get driven around by a guard whose name I don’t know and I can’t go out unless I tell at least three different people where I’m going.”

“Sounds restrictive,” Brian said.

“The other day when I was getting Michael ready to go sledding, I told him you were a cop and he was disappointed.” Courtney shook her head. “Most kids would that thought that was cool but he’s been brought up not to trust the police. I mean…can you believe that?”

“Well…with the line of work your brother and husband are in…trusting the police is probably but a good thing.”

“But Michael’s just a little boy, Brian. He’s not part of that life and he deserves to have a normal childhood.”

“It sounds like it’s not a life you’re happy in,” he said.

She hesitated. “It’s not that I’m not happy. I love my brother and Carly and god, of course I love Jason. I just wish…” She chewed on her lip. “I wish they were just coffee importers.”

“Maybe you just need some more time,” Brian told her. “You don’t need to figure it out right this minute.”

“I just…I need to ask him why. I have to know why. If I know why, then I can go from there. I have to know.”

“Then ask him.”

Warehouse

Carly knocked hesitantly on Jason’s ajar office door. He glanced up and sighed. “What is it, Carly?”

She entered and shut it behind her. “I came to apologize for last night. I…the emotions about Courtney and Elizabeth came back so quickly–so unexpectedly, they were just swirling around in my head and I couldn’t think.”

He nodded. “Fine. Is that it?”

“No, it’s not it,” Carly argued. She sat down. “Look…you were right. I don’t put you first and I’m going to try to be a better friend. You don’t ask me for favors and last night you did and I wish I’d been in a better frame of mind but Jason, you have to realize the position you were putting me in. Courtney is my sister-in-law and my best friend. Even without the connection, she feels that way about me and I am trying so hard not to hurt anyone. How could I agree to let Elizabeth stay there?”

“It doesn’t matter. I took her to a hotel.” Jason shoved some files aside and sighed. “She overheard the argument and she already knew Courtney’s reaction. I guess she felt guilty because the next thing I know, she’s telling me that she lied to me about the baby.”

Carly frowned. “What?”

“She was lying then of course. Not about me being the father but about me not being the father. It is my child, Carly, but she felt so guilty about what I was going through, she tried to give me an out. So I want you to know that. Just because you don’t like her, I’m not going to hide my friendship with her. I don’t argue with you about Alcazar, don’t argue with me on this. Just…be my friend for once and not Courtney’s sister-in-law.”

“Okay, okay. I just…I feel sorry for Courtney. Because I know what she’s going through a little. After I saw Sonny kiss Brenda last winter–” Carly broke off abruptly and frowned. “I was devastated,” she said softly. “I thought…I thought he was going to leave me for her–and from the moment I found out she was alive, I thought that’s what he’d do. I mean…Brenda…she was so important to him–so much of his life…how could I ever compete with that?”

“Carly?” Jason frowned. “Are…are you remembering Sonny?”

Carly looked at him, her eyes wide in her face. “Yeah. I-I think I am.”

March 14, 2014

This entry is part 9 of 34 in the I Shall Believe

Carly’s House

Michael curled up next to his mother and leaned his head against her shoulder. “I really missed you, Mommy. When can we come home?”

“Soon, honey. Daddy’s sick right now and it’s better if you’re away with Aunt Courtney so you don’t have to see that.” Carly shifted Morgan in her arms. “But I’m feeling much better now and I’m going to come to Haye’s Landing to visit you–”

“Aunt Courtney said we were coming home,” Michael told her. “She said she misses Uncle Jason.”

“Oh.” Carly wouldn’t begrudge her sister-in-law from being with her new husband but what with Carly knew Jason was telling her…she wasn’t so sure if that would work now.

The kitchen door flew open and Courtney rushed out. She was almost a blur as she rushed past them towards the door. Jason was hot on her heels.

“Courtney, just let me explain–”

She was already in the car and pulling out of the driveway by the time he reached her.

“I guess it didn’t go well.”

Jason turned to see Carly walking down the path towards him with Morgan securely in her arms.

“She already knew,” he said quietly. “The other night, I went to Kelly’s and Ric was harassing Elizabeth. He’d found out about the pregnancy and assumed the baby was his.”

“And you set him straight, I imagine,” Carly murmured. “And he tracked down Courtney and told her?”

“Damn it, Carly, what am I supposed to do now?” he demanded. “She’s taken off–I don’t know where she’s going and she has every right to just…” He looked away. “I asked her to marry me, to share my life with me and after everything we’ve been through, I sleep with Elizabeth and now she’s pregnant. What the hell was I thinking?”

“Come inside,” Carly said. “Say hello to Michael, have some dinner. She might come back and…maybe she just needs time to go through this. Work it out in her mind.”

“Yeah. Okay.” He sighed and followed her back into the house.

Studio

Elizabeth reached for the shrill ringing phone and put the receiver to her ear. “Hello?”

“It’s me,” Emily chirped. “I just got off the phone with Lucky. He’s trying to pin down next week’s dinner guests for his aunt. Luke’s even coming. Are you?”

“I don’t know yet,” Elizabeth sighed. She rolled onto her back and stared the ceiling. “So I got evicted today.”

After a moment of silence, Emily responded. “How’d you manage that?”

“The city condemned my building. I knew it was only a matter of time. I was already looking for a new place because…well, let’s face it, this place smells like turpentine and it’s always drafty. I can’t raise a baby here.”

Emily hesitated. “Jason would give you the money in a heartbeat.”

“I’m not going to use Jason. I got myself into this mess, I’ll get myself out of it. I’m the one who–who slept with an almost married man, my psycho ex-husband and one of my friends. I have been wracking my brains trying to figure out how to pay rent on a better place but the truth is, Em, I am barely making ends meet now.”

As if on cue, her lights flickered and then shut off completely.

“Perfect,” she muttered. “Correction, Em, I’m not making ends meet at all.”

“Honey, what happened?”

“My lights just went out. I haven’t…I didn’t pay my electric this month.” She sat up and started to cry. “I can’t do this, Emily. I c-can’t take care of a baby, I can’t even take care of myself–”

“Shit,” Emily took the phone from her ear and looked at Nikolas. “How soon can the launch get me to the mainland?” she asked.

“It’s down for the night. I can’t afford to keep the launch master on during the night. Why?”

“Okay, Elizabeth, honey, you can’t stay there tonight. You have to go to Lucky’s place or Bobbie’s.”

“I have to go…I can’t even remember if I paid my phone bill this month. I’ll talk to you tomorrow,” Elizabeth whispered brokenly. She hung up and hugged her knees to her chest.

Wyndemere

Nikolas came up behind Emily who was staring at the phone with tears in her eyes. “What’s wrong?”

“Elizabeth.” Emily looked at him. “I…I was going to tell you but I knew she wanted to keep it kind of low key for a while but she’s pregnant.”

“Pregnant,” Nikolas repeated. “I thought she and Ric–”

“It’s Jason’s baby,” Emily told him. She bit on her lip. “Her building just condemned and while we were talking, her electricity went out. She sounded so upset.”

“Whoa…Jason’s the father?” Nikolas asked. “That’s…wow. That’s a bad situation on many levels. Well…why doesn’t Jason help her with rent on a better place? Or at least her bills now?”

Emily sighed. “You know Elizabeth. She’s so independent–she’s paid for that studio all by herself for four years. Her salary at Kelly’s always took care of everything because…well she works double shifts, triple shifts…”

“But with all the medical bills and the lawyer’s fee with the divorce, she’s broke,” Nikolas concluded. “Well, she’s got to bend, Emily. If she’s pregnant, she can’t work those kind of hours and no one is going to hire her with her about to go on maternity leave.”

“Look, I can’t…she can’t be alone right now. I’m going to call Lucky to go…pick her up and force her to stay with him. If he has to arrest her, I don’t care. She can’t be alone.” She snatched the phone up but Nikolas stopped her.

“Call Jason,” he advised. “She needs his help and honestly, Em, he’s the one that got her in this position in the first place.”

“It takes two,” Emily reminded him.

“And she needs him. Look, I know he would at least want to know that the mother of his child is currently residing in a studio apartment with no heat or electricity. If Jason is anything like the man I think he is…he won’t need to be told to go to her.”

She sighed. “You’re right. I’ll call him.”

Carly’s House

“Are we sleeping here tonight?” Michael asked, handing his mother his plate so she could put it in the dishwasher.

“Yep. You still have clothes here from when we first moved in.” She smoothed his hair away from his face. “Maybe we can even make this a permanent gig after all. What do you think?”

His eyes lit up. “Yeah! I want to come home!” He wrapped his arms around his mother’s waist. “I miss you so much, Mommy.”

“I’ve missed you, too baby.” She met Jason’s eyes in the doorway. “Why don’t you go and put Morgan down for sleep while Michael and I get all caught up?”

“Sure.” Jason lifted Morgan into his arms and carefully made his way up the stairs. The baby was so tiny, tinier than Michael had been.

In a few months, he’d be holding his own child. As he entered the nursery, he wondered for the first time what the baby would look like. More like Elizabeth? Like him?

Morgan barely woke up as Jason put him to sleep and no sooner was the baby out of his arms than his cell phone rang. He ducked into the hallway so the baby wouldn’t be disturbed.

“Hello?”

“Jason?” Emily said hesitantly. “We have a problem.”

Haye’s Landing

Brian pulled his car to a stop and frowned when he noticed lights on in the house. Courtney and the kids had left only hours ago and he hadn’t been expecting them to come back.

He parked the car and went up the walkway, noting her car had returned to its normal place in the driveway.

He got a sick feeling in his stomach, knowing she was going to confront her husband as soon as he got home.

The door was slightly ajar and Brian pushed it open to see Courtney curled up on the couch.

“Hey.”

She looked over at him, her eyes wet and swollen. “It’s true,” she whispered. “She’s pregnant.”

He closed the door quickly and went to her side. “Jesus, I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry…I know I said I wouldn’t be back…b-but I-I didn’t have anywhere to go.”

“C’mere,” he tugged her into his arms and tucked her head under his chin. “I told you that I’d be here if you needed me.”

“How could he do this to me?” she said softly. “I…I gave up so much to be with him. I knew what people were saying behind my back–because of the way my last marriage ended. But I loved him. I…” her voice broke and she started to cry harder.

He smoothed his hand up and down her back. “I’m so sorry, Courtney.”

“I don’t know what I’m gonna do,” she sniffled. “Carly is obviously on his side. He’s got this whole supportive family with his sister and her boyfriend. I don’t…I don’t have anyone.”

“You have me,” Brian told her. “You’ll always have me.”

Studio

Elizabeth stared into the darkness and studiously ignored the knocks on her door. She knew it was Jason and she’d ream Emily out tomorrow for calling him.

She didn’t need him. She didn’t need anyone.

The knocks stopped and Elizabeth sighed, grateful that he’d given up. But just as soon as she’d decided that, the door swung up and he stood, sliding his lock picking tools into his coat pocket.

“She shouldn’t have called you,” Elizabeth murmured.

Jason sighed and closed the door behind him. It was pitch black in the studio but he managed to feel his way to the couch and sit next to her. “You can’t really think you can stay here tonight.”

“This is my home,” she replied. “Of course I’m staying here.” She tugged a folded comforter from the back of the couch and wrapped it around her.

He took a deep breath. “You were right…about Ric. He went straight for Courtney.”

He could feel her eyes on him. “She knows?”

“She came home with the boys tonight and told me that Ric had been by to tell her. I don’t think she wanted to believe it but…I told her and then she ran from the house. She’s gone, I think she went back to Haye’s Landing.”

“I’m so sorry,” Elizabeth sighed. Her eyes burned with tears. “We’ve really made a mess of this haven’t we?”

“Yeah,” he paused, “but Elizabeth…I’m serious. It’s almost December, it’s freezing in here, there’s no electricity. Let me do something. Let me help.”

“This isn’t your problem,” Elizabeth replied stubbornly.

“Even if you weren’t pregnant, I would want to help you. But the fact remains is that you are pregnant and this is not a good environment–”

“You think I don’t know that?” she demanded scathingly. “I’m the one who has to live like this–I’m the one who blew her savings by going back to school last year. If I hadn’t done that, I’d be fine.”

“But you have your degree now,” Jason argued.

“What the hell does that matter?” she retorted. “I’m still a waitress at Kelly’s.” She blew out a large exasperated breath. “I can’t get a better job–with the baby, I won’t even be able to work.” The tears slid down her cheek, little paths of warmth on her icy skin. “I can’t do this Jason, I can’t.”

“Not alone,” he agreed. He took her hands in his and swore–they were ice cold. “Elizabeth, you can do this–you are strong and I know you’re capable of making it. But you’re not just taking care of yourself now. The baby needs you to take care of yourself and you can’t do that by sitting alone in a cold dark studio.”

Elizabeth pulled her hands from his and wiped her eyes with the corner of the comforter. “You’re right. Of course you’re right. What do you want me to do?”

“For starters…I want you to…” he hesitated. He couldn’t take her back to the penthouse, that would be wrong a few different levels. Carly. He could take her there. “We’re going to go to Carly’s for the night. We can talk about everything else tomorrow.”

Carly’s House

Carly shut her bedroom door and moved towards the phone on her nightstand.

She dialed the now familiar number and waited for him to answer.

“Hello?”

“Hey, it’s me,” Carly said. “You’ll never believe what just happened to me.”

Lorenzo leaned back on his couch and smiled widely. “Hey, Carly. How’s the visit with the boys?”

“Amazing, incredible–I remember!” she declared. She sat down on the bed. “I have such a huge smile on my face, it’s just…Michael ran into my arms and I was just hit with this huge emotion. I love him so much, Lorenzo, he’s my little boy.”

While the news made her ecstatic, Lorenzo wasn’t as happy. Not that he was begrudging Carly’s boys anything. He was happy she remembered that particular emotion but it was plain to see that it was coming back to her. She’d remembered Jason’s friendship, her hatred for Robin Scorpio, her love for her boys.

All the remained essentially was her love for Sonny. He couldn’t compete against that and he knew that.

“I’m delighted, that means they’re coming home doesn’t it?” Lorenzo replied.

Carly nodded. “I was going to have them go back because of Sonny’s trial but I can’t bear to let them go. Besides, Courtney–she needs to be in Port Charles. She and Jason are going through this thing a-and I can’t ask her to keep putting her life on hold like this.”

“You need your family around you right now–with Sonny’s trial starting next week. That’s going to be a tough time for you even without those feelings.”

Carly bit her lip. “I thought…aren’t you going to be there with me?” she asked softly.

Lorenzo hesitated. “I have some business in Central America that came up. I was going to call you tomorrow to let you know that.”

“Oh. Well…that’s okay. I mean…I don’t know what I was thinking…you’ve got more important things than going with me to my estranged husband’s trial.” Feeling really stupid, she sighed. “I probably interrupted something so I’m going to just say goodbye–”

“Carly.”

“What?”

“I’m glad you called,” he told her sincerely. “I’ve even more glad that you remember your love for the boys. I care about you and them and you are important to me. Nothing short of an emergency would tear me away at a time like this,” he assured her.

Her spirits picked up considerably, she smiled. “Is Sage going with you?”

“Normally, she wouldn’t but I don’t trust her here by herself.”

“Why doesn’t she stay with me?” Carly blurted out.

Lorenzo paused and she could hear the amusement in his voice. “Are you really serious?”

“Sure. I…I like her, I do. And I think we understand each other.” Carly curled her legs underneath her. “I could use the company.”

“What about Courtney?” Lorenzo asked.

Carly sighed. “She’s upset about this thing with Jason and I think she’s going to see me as on his side so things aren’t going to be the same between us.” She laughed a little bitterly. “Not that they’re any good now.”

“Carly…I’m sorry. I know how much she means to you.”

“Well…at least one of us does,” Carly remarked a little sadly. She glanced at the clock. “I should…I should go. Morgan probably doesn’t sleep through the night yet and I’m going to need all the rest I can get this weekend.”

“If you were really serious about Sage, I’ll talk to her about it,” Lorenzo told her.

“I am,” Carly assured him. “I’ll…talk to you tomorrow.”

“Goodnight, Carly.”

“Goodnight, Lorenzo.”

This entry is part 8 of 34 in the I Shall Believe

Song: Fairy Tales and Castles (Lifehouse)

Haye’s Landing

He says he looks in the mirror
And he can’t tell anymore
Who he really is and who they believe him to be

Courtney’s hands were shaking. She crossed them tightly over her chest in an attempt to hide it.

“Did you really drive all the way here to tell me some vicious lie?” she demanded harshly.

Ric shook his head. “You believe me. You know you do. I can see it in your eyes.”

Brian stepped in between them. “Okay. I think you’d better leave.”

“I don’t remember asking your opinion,” Ric replied coolly. “This is between me and her, so back away.”

And he says he walks a thin line
Between what is and what could be

“Why would you say something so horrible?” Courtney demanded. “Because you know I’ll just pick up the phone and call your wife. Why in the world would she take you back after spreading these lies?”

“Go ahead. Call her,” Ric taunted.

Oh, God. Oh, God. Her breathing hitched but she kept the panic hidden. “You’re working some angle here. I doubt you’d come all the way here and not get something out of it.”

“Oh, I’m getting something all right.” Ric stripped off his gloves and stepped towards her. “I’m getting the pleasure of telling Jason’s wife before he can.”

He’s getting closer
To something he can’t understand

Tears stung her eyes but she resolutely kept them from falling. This was a lie. This was a lie and she knew it. She knew Jason–and Elizabeth…as much as they didn’t get along, Elizabeth wouldn’t do this to her.

“You’re a twisted psychopath,” she spat out. “What? Elizabeth finally kick you to the curb for good and now you’re trying to destroy her life?”

“Oh, if only it were that simple,” Ric sighed.

Brian could see Courtney was slowly unraveling and decide it was time this conversation ended. “Okay, I think it’s time you left.”

Cause there’s a crack in his plastic crown
And his throne of ice is melting

“No,” Ric said firmly. He jabbed a finger at Courtney. “Not until she admits it’s true. Not until I know she believes it.”

“I love Jason–he’d never betray me like that,” she retorted. But her voice was unsure and she winced.

“She’s pregnant,” Ric taunted. “With the child you could never give him. I wouldn’t be surprised if he up and left you now. I mean– what would he want with you now that he’s got my wife?” A twisted smile crossed his lips. “After all, you and I both know he was with you because he couldn’t have her.”

He climbed his ladder
There was nothing there
And now it’s a long way down

“Jason loves me,” Courtney whispered. She looked away and both men knew she believed Ric’s words. From the news of the pregnancy to the accusation Jason had wanted Elizabeth all along–she believed them.

Brian grabbed Ric’s arm and shoved him towards the door. “Get out,” he snarled. He yanked the door open and threw the well-dressed lawyer out onto the snow-covered ground. “Get out of here–if I find you in this town again, I’ll have you arrested.”

He slammed the door shut and turned to see Courtney frozen in the same spot she’d been since Ric had entered. “Courtney–”

Cause on and on and on he goes
Dancing on the grave
Of what he thought was still alive, hey

“He’s right you know,” she said softly. “Part of me always knew it but I ignored it. Jason–he loves children. He’s so good with Michael and he deserves to have children and I can’t give him–”

“Hey, hey…” Brian gripped her shoulders and forced her to sit down. “If this is true…and I’m not saying it is…you not being able to have children…that doesn’t give him the right to break his vows. This isn’t your fault.”

“It’s not true.” Courtney shook her head–her eyes glazed. “It can’t be. I mean…he could have gone back to her if he wanted to. But he proposed to me…he married me.” She licked her lips and met his eyes. “That’s what really matters right?”

“Right,” Brian agreed, even though he had his doubts. He’d seen the way the news had slammed into Courtney–had seen the doubt in her eyes. She thought it was possible. She thought it was possible that her husband had gotten his ex-girlfriend pregnant.

On and on and on he goes
Dancing in mansions made of twigs
And castles made of sand

“What if…what if it is true?” she asked softly. “What if I go home tomorrow and I ask him and he says yes. Yes, he cheated on me and he slept with Elizabeth Webber and now she’s pregnant. What…what do I do then?”

“I really don’t think I can answer that,” he told her. He kneeled in front of her. “Courtney, none of this is your fault. And no matter what you choose to do…I’ll be here for you. You know that right?”

“Okay.” She cleared her throat. “I’m just…I’m not going to think about this. Why don’t…why don’t you go get Michael and I’ll finish dinner.”

“Courtney–”

“Please…I can’t deal with this right now.” She stood up and disappeared into the kitchen. She leaned against the door and slowly slid to the ground, tears soundless slipping down her cheeks.

November 21, 2003

Cameron’s Office

He says his head is filled with
Cartoons and fairy tales

“Do you think this means I’ll get more of my emotions back? Like I did with Robin?” Carly asked.

Cameron shrugged. “Difficult to tell. You’ve told me that the more time you spend around Jason, the more affection you feel. The stronger the friendship feels.”

Carly nodded. “I’m trying to be a good friend to him. You know, he’s been so supportive of me these last few weeks and he’s…” she hesitated. “He’s in a difficult place right now and I’m so worried about him.”

And he’s trapped inside a dungeon of dolls
With smiles on their faces

“What do you mean a difficult place?” Cameron asked. He set aside his notebook. “I only ask because I feel that Jason is your strongest connection to anyone–except for Lorenzo. You talk of Jason almost as often as Lorenzo and I think his life affects yours a great deal.”

Carly nodded. “He’s married to my sister-in-law Courtney. She’s in Haye’s Landing with my boys. She’s my best friend except I don’t…I feel more loyalty to Jason and I guess that’s normal since Jason’s been the best friend I’ve ever had and I’ve only known Courtney for about a year.”

“And is there a reason you feel the need to give him your loyalty over hers?”

He’s built a pretty cage
His shows on a beautiful stage
With candy coated prison bars
And chains that look like jewelry

Carly took a deep breath. “Because Jason cheated on her with his ex-girlfriend and now Elizabeth is pregnant.”

Cameron exhaled slowly. “Well. That certainly puts you in a rough place doesn’t it?”

“Yeah.” Carly sighed. “You have no idea. She’s gonna come to me looking for sympathy and support and I don’t know if I can give it…and mean it.”

Penthouse

Cause there’s a crack in his plastic crown
And his throne of ice is melting

Jason hung up the phone and rubbed his temples. Everything was closing in around him–he could feel it. Sonny’s trial would start in a week or so. Carly was spending a lot of time with Lorenzo Alcazar and while he’d never say it to her, that bothered him.

He had to deal with the warehouse and the rest of the business. Faith was forgetting her place–making deals on their piers, trying to use their network to move drugs.

And somehow in between all of that, he had to find a way to explain to his wife that his ex-girlfriend was pregnant with his child.

He climbed his ladder
There was nothing there
And now it’s a long way down

It felt like he couldn’t win. One thing after another in his life and all he really wanted was a few moments to himself when he could just…be.

He opened his desk drawer and pulled out the pregnancy book he’d found at the store the previous day. It was the match to Elizabeth’s and he felt almost guilty for having it in the penthouse where he lived with his wife.

He’d meant what he’d said. He wanted to be a father to his child–in every way possible.

But would Courtney let him? Was he ready to sacrifice his marriage for his child?

Studio

Cause on and on and on he goes
Dancing on the grave
Of what he thought was still alive, hey

Elizabeth stood outside the heavy steel door, exhausted after an early morning shift. She stared at the notice pinned to her door and only managed a sad sigh.

An eviction notice. Her building had been condemned.

“Guess being late on that rent isn’t going to matter,” she murmured. She fished her key out of her purse and slipped it into the lock.

She just couldn’t win.

On and on and on he goes
Dancing in mansions made of twigs
And castles made of sand

She dropped her things on the work table and collapsed onto the couch, pulling a blanket over her and curling into a ball. All she wanted to was sleep.

She’d deal with this later.

Haye’s Landing

Cause he lives inside
A fairy tale sand castle now

Brian loaded the last suitcase into the back of Courtney’s car. “Are you sure you want to take it all before…before you’re sure?” he asked.

Courtney shook her head. “It’s not true. Brian…you don’t know Jason. He wouldn’t do this to me. Ric’s lying. That’s what he does. He lies to everyone.”

“Courtney…” he sighed and looked away, his hands on his hips. “I just…I’m sorry that you even have to doubt him for a second. That’s not fair to you.”

“No,” Courtney agreed. “It’s not.”

And there’s room inside
For false expectations and illusions

She took a deep breath and looked towards the front of the car where Michael and Morgan were already belted into the backseat.

“I appreciate the way you’ve been…treating me,” she told him. “You’ve been a good friend and…you’ve been good to Michael. It means a lot to me and I wanted to thank you.”

“If you need me…I’m here.” He stepped towards her and kissed her on the cheek.

“Goodbye,” she said faintly.

Carly’s House

Cause there’s a crack in his plastic crown
And his throne of ice is melting

Jason sipped his beer and watched as Carly straightened one of the pillows on the couches. “It looks fine.”

“Yeah. I’m just…I’m nervous. I so want to look at my children and feel the love I remember.” She sat down and took a deep breath. “But if it doesn’t happen, I refuse to be disappointed. Cameron thinks I’m making good progress. We talked about my visit with Sonny, about the feelings about Robin…about you.”

He climbed his ladder
There was nothing there
And now it’s a long way down

“About me?” Jason echoed. “What about me?”

“We talked about how worried I am about you. I know…I know you’re telling her tonight,” Carly told him quietly.

“I have to. Elizabeth has a doctor appointment next week and I want…I want to be there.” He stood and shoved his hands in his pockets. “When I went to talk to her about all of this, she was reading a book about pregnancy and I bought the same one.”

“Oh…Jase…” Carly sighed.

Cause on and on and on he goes
Dancing on the grave
Of what he thought was still alive, hey

“I told her that I want to be there for her–throughout the pregnancy and afterwards. I want to be in the baby’s life. She’s worried about Courtney and I can understand that. Courtney’s going to be angry and she might…she might not want me to be as involved as I want to be.”

“And if that happens?” Carly prompts.

“I just have to know how far I’m going to go in order to do that. I made a mistake, Carly. It was a mistake and we both know that. But this child should not have to pay for that.”

On and on and on he goes
Dancing in mansions made of twigs
And castles made of sand

The door burst open then and an exuberant Michael flew over the doorstep and into his mother’s arms. “Mommy, Mommy, Mommy!”

Carly squeezed him tight and closed her eyes. “Hey, baby.” Her fingers threaded through his shaggy red hair and tears sprang into her eyes.

“I missed you so much, Mommy. Are you feeling better?” Michael asked.

Carly pulled away and kissed his forehead. “So much better now that you’re here.”

Cause on and on and on he goes
Dancing on the grave
Of what he thought was still alive, hey

Jason stood as Courtney gingerly stepped over the doorstep, Morgan cradled in her arms. She managed a weak smile before handing the baby to his weeping mother.

Not even noticing Carly’s tearful reaction to her children, she stepped towards her husband. “I have to talk to you,” she said softly.

He nodded. “Yeah, I have to talk to you, too.” He pulled her into the kitchen.

On and on and on he goes
Dancing in mansions made of twigs
And castles made of sand

Carly cradled Morgan tightly, unable to stop the flow of tears streaming down her cheeks. There it was. She was so scared that it wouldn’t come back that she hadn’t really prepared herself for the possibility it would.

She loved her boys. Her sweet Michael, good-natured and well-adjusted despite his tough life. And her tiny little Morgan, with his cherubic face and tiny hands.

His hand wrapped around her pinky finger and his eyes opened–clear brown eyes so like his father’s. “Hey, it’s Mommy,” she whispered. “Mommy.”

Cause on and on and on he goes
Dancing on the grave
Of what he thought was still alive, hey

Courtney wrapped her arms around herself and stared out the back window. The drive had been long–both the boys had napped and she’d only had her thoughts to keep her company.

“Ric came to Haye’s Landing Wednesday night,” she said softly.

Jason froze–just as he was opening his mouth to tell her about Elizabeth. “What?”

On and on and on he goes
Dancing in mansions made of twigs
And castles made of sand

“I was making dinner for Michael and Brian Beck–you met him the one time you came to see us,” she continued in the same quiet tone. “Michael really likes Brian–he took him sledding and played video games with him.”

“Courtney, I–”

“Ric came to the door and I think he scared Michael a little because you know, he saw him kidnap Carly last summer. So I sent him upstairs and I told Ric he had five minutes and then he had to leave.”

Cause on and on and on he goes
Dancing on the grave
Of what he thought was still alive, hey

Courtney turned slowly. She wanted to look into his eyes when she said this. She wanted to see his immediate reaction.

She needed to know.

“And he told me that you had slept with Elizabeth and that she was pregnant.”

Oh, God. Oh, God. Her lower lip trembled and she saw the way he swallowed and looked away.

“It’s true, isn’t it?” she asked, almost inaudibly.

On and on and on he goes
Dancing in mansions made of twigs

“Yeah,” he said hoarsely. “It’s true.”

And castles made of sand